#5.14.19

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong;

but sometimes it is letting go."

i used to hear them say my name and i believed i was more than i am.

we're alone and i ask you if you can understand the silence. i begged you would help me decode the mumbled words and phrases but you said nothing.

do you hear it too?

she's calling for me. asking me to go upstairs but i'm suddenly apprehensive.

trust.

i've fallen into a pit of hands grabbing and groping; pointing the way with bony ripped fingers.

go go go.

i walk.

go go go.

do you hear her too?

listen in closely.

static.

slurred words drip out of my barely broken lips into the wet dirt beneath my feet.

blood.

she needs me.

i want to search for you but it's become too dark to see.

mumbled screaming deafens me as i listen in.

i need this.

i need this more than i may even comprehend.

i'm alone.

come upstairs. come upstairs.

why won't you come upstairs?

i need you.

you don't hear me you dont hear me you're not LISTENING.

where am i going?

a broken elevator shaft burns a disgusting memory into my mind.

not my memory. yours. hers.

i need this. i need her.

gone.

she's gone.

you don't understand.

you don't understand the static.

do you hear the show?

she beckons my name louder and louder until i can't hear anything anymore.

listen to me.

listen to the deafening silence around us.

don't say a word.

radio static.

Eleanor Roosevelt

(5 * 1) + (4 * 1) = 9

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(5 - 1) / 4 = 1^9

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5 + 1 + √4 + 1 = 9

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