#5......

so uh, this is just in case I need to take some time off, I don’t know what my coping strategy is going to be.  I might be still be active, I don’t know. 

But I came home from college yesterday, and my dog was not great.  He was way too skinny, he wasn’t frisky or eating.  And that night, I was worried that he was gonna stop breathing, it was too fast and erratic.

So this morning we called the vet, got him up there, and they did an X-ray and found a pet owner’s worst nightmare: metastasized cancer in the lungs  

And then we had to put him down about an hour or two later, he was breathing real bad.  It was very peaceful for him, he had the whole family and there wasn’t any pain.    

So I’m past the unrestrained crying phase, now I’m just dealing with the awful ache.  I’m still gonna try to participate but my personality on here might be a little muted.  He was only 8 and a half, he should have lived to be 15.  

So if you’re reading this, go hug and kiss your pets for me right now (yes, even the snakes hahaha) because with cancer, sometimes you don’t know until it’s too late.  It was a complete shock for me and my family.