#4w3d

I literally could not even believe it. I don't even take pregnancy tests anymore really because I'm so sick of looking at negative tests. The only reason I tested was because I had started spotting heavily Saturday (which was 10dpo which really isn't unusual at all for me in my usual cycle), continued Sunday and into Monday, and then just - stopped. And that IS weird for me. So I took the test first thing in the morning Wednesday, and at about 2-3 minutes it looked CLEARLY negative, so I angrily tossed it. Then at 11, my dumbass decided to do a "hmmmm never hurts to double check! 🤡) dumpster dive, even though I know damn well enough to not read tests after the window. Sure enough, there were now two very pink lines. What the fuuuuuuuuuucccckkkk. In a panic, I tried to muster up some pee to take another frantic test. About 6 positive tests later, it finally sunk in. ❤️

We went over my care plan, what appts I’ll have and what to expect at each one, etc.

They put in a shit ton of lab work for me to get done (like 12 different tests), but I wasn’t able to do them today because they only process some of those tests on Mondays or Tuesdays, so I’ll go back on Tuesday for the bloodwork.

Then they scheduled me for my first prenatal appt. It’s on July 7, when I’ll be 7 weeks. They have me at 8w2d on that day, but I know when I ovulated and that’s impossible (which I told them), but they’re still having me go on that day and the ultrasound will give them a better due date.

I’m a little sad because the paperwork even said the first appt wasn’t until 10-12 weeks, but they scheduled me for “8 weeks” but since I’ll only be 7 weeks, I don’t even think I’ll get to see much on the ultrasound, or hear the heartbeat. 😞

I'm on cloud nine! Got a positive on a dollar store cheapie! I definitely and starting to feel what I assume is the beginning of symptoms. No puking or tender breasts but slight cramps and my whole body aches, including my head. I'm still working splits at the barn so I'm gonna need a doctor's note because this heat is miserable, but the horses all kept nudging me and my favorite who runs to me every morning wanted nothing to do with me today 😔.

If my counting is correct, this means I'm about 4 weeks and 3 days!!! (June 14th was the first day of my last cycle and I ovulated on day 16 if anyone wants to help out).

Mommy and daddy are so excited little dragon fly. ❣

School started yesterday and I’m already freaking out but it’ll be fine - I just have to keep reminding myself that it’ll all be fine.

No symptoms yet other than the occasional bit of nausea. It’s not severe or anything and it honestly might be because I’m just waking up so much earlier than I’m used to. 

It sounded like a good idea at the time.  Three kids, sure, that'll be fun.  Except when that little "+" sign showed up on the pregnancy test I thought, "oh boy, what did I get myself into?"  Hehe.  So sometime in February we should be welcoming a third little ankle biter to our little army of kiddos.

How did this all transpire?  Well when kid 2 came along I just kept thinking that I didn't feel like we were done yet.  So when he was 9 months old we started thinking about #3 but kiddo was doing his best job preventing that from happening by waking me up either in the middle of the night or right before I was supposed to document chart information which led to some really goofy charts that made little sense.  I know I know, TMI right?  So about the time I start thinking well maybe 2 kiddos isn't so bad I also joined a a weight loss challenge with some friends.  For the first 5 weeks I was doing really well, winning even!  I basically just cut down on the sugar and portion sizes, less pop, less donuts, less McDonald's.  Not a full on diabetic diet but low and behold, I think the low sugar did the trick.  So I'm down 11 lbs and up a baby.  But I suppose I'll be out my fee for the challenge ;)

Nothing really gave me any clue that maybe this was the week but we were heading to a wedding right about the time a new cycle should have been starting and I waited all weekend and nothing happened. I didn't test til we got home on Monday.  But just like with kid 1 I guess going to a wedding is a tradition for 4 week old fetuses.

I've already done a little research on hospitals out on the west side of Minnesota and it's looking like our best bet is Brookings. They do VBAC and a few other more "complicated" deliveries that many hospitals don't do.  They have whirlpool tubs and massages and volunteer doulas.  So barring any thing else turns out better, I'm ready to sign up!

For now we're trying to come up with ideas on how to spill the beans.  My first thought is to tell kid 1 and tell him it's a secret and see how long it takes him to explode.  Heh.  Yeah, that's cruel, but it could be funny.  The hard part will be breaking it to kid 2.  I don't think he's ready to wean any time soon and I don't imagine he's going to enjoy sharing with a new baby.