#4gives

❝ …i used to think it didn’t matter, miju. ❞

his voice is quieter than usual, missing that familiar sharpness, and he doesn’t immediately look at you when he says it. instead, his gaze drifts somewhere past you, like he’s following a thought he’s avoided for a long time. ❝ it was easier that way, convincing myself it was just a weakness, something people cling to when they don’t have anything else left. if you see it like that, then you don’t have to deal with it, you don’t have to wonder if it would have changed anything. ❞

he exhales softly, the sound almost tired, like the answer costs more than he expected it to. ❝ i’ve seen what it does to people, the way they stay when they shouldn’t, the way they forgive things that should never be forgiven, the way they choose someone else over themselves even when it ruins them. ❞ there’s a slight tension in his expression, something that almost sounds like judgment before it fades into something less certain. ❝ i thought that meant it was pointless, that it just made people weak. ❞

this time when his eyes find them, they stay there, steadier, though not as guarded as they usually are. ❝ but it’s not that simple. people don’t hold onto something like that for no reason, not when it costs them that much. ❞ his voice lowers just slightly, softer but more honest than he usually allows himself to be. ❝ it doesn’t just ruin them. sometimes it’s the only thing that makes them stay, the only thing that makes them keep going when they should have walked away a long time ago. ❞

he pauses, just briefly, like he’s deciding whether to leave it there, but something in him pushes the thought the rest of the way out. ❝ so… what’s love got to do with it? ❞ his gaze doesn’t leave his former group-mate's, something unresolved lingering beneath it. ❝ probably more than anything else. ❞

closed starter for Iseul @4gives

Zoey had been half listening to him talk for the past minute, at least she was pretty sure it had been a minute, but her attention kept drifting back to the food in his hands instead of whatever story he was in the middle of telling. It was not even that she meant to focus on it, it just kept catching her eye every time he gestured without actually taking a bite, like he had completely forgotten he was holding it in the first place.

After a while it started to bother her more than it should have, the way small things always did when she was sitting still for too long, and before he could finish his sentence she leaned over without warning, took it straight out of his hands, and took a bite like it had belonged to her the entire time.

She chewed like nothing unusual had happened, eyes dropping for a second in thought before she finally glanced back at him, completely unbothered by whatever look he was giving her now. ❝You were not eating it,❞ she said simply, like that explained the whole situation, holding it in her hand for another second before taking one more quick bite and giving it back. ❝If you hold food that long without touching it, you cannot expect me to just sit there and ignore it. That is not realistic.❞

Zoey settled back into her seat after that, perfectly comfortable, like the conversation had never been interrupted at all, though the corner of her mouth lifted slightly when she looked at him again and added, almost as an afterthought, ❝And do not complain, because if you start complaining I am taking it again. At that point it becomes your fault, not mine.❞

phew this is going to be so insanely long 😳 okay here we go..

@4gives asked: it's completely innocent. / from noori

"Sounds   like   a   PR   answer."   But   Hwan   is   simply   jesting   at   that   point,   a   smile   upon   his   face,   amused   more   than   accusing   the   other.   All   idols   and   entertainers   at   one   point,   they   are   told   what   to   say   when   they   are   caught   doing   something,   nevermind   how   small   it   was,   as   their   fans   often   made   everything   blow   out   of   proportions.

“  Bomi  !  Get  back  here!”

𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒  𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐓𝐄  𝐁𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐃  𝐒𝐎  𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐋  were  a  common  thing  amongst  anyone  with  a  service  animal.  They  were  still  animals  —  they  still  got  pulled  away  sometimes  from  various  things  like  smells,  other  animals,  and  people.  And  while  this  didn’t  happen  very  often  when  it  came  to  Bomi  —  it  still  happened  every  once  in  a  while.

𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐍  𝐈𝐍  𝐇𝐈𝐒  𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊  𝐀𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐃  as  he  trailed  after  her,  trying  to  limit  his  speed  and  the  pressure  of  his  feet  along  the  concrete  —  ignoring  the  murmurs  of  recognition  from  passersby;  ‘  isn’t  he  that  idol  from  the  accident  last  year  ?  ‘  ‘  should  he  really  be  running  after  what  happened  …  ?  ‘  —  things  he  heard  on  the  daily  that  didn’t  necessarily  matter  in  this  current  moment.  “  Bomi  !  Heel  !  “

𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐆𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐍  𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑  𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘  𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐏𝐒,  sniffing  at  the  three  other  dogs  that  were  being  walked  by  a  stranger  —  Cheol-min  catching  his  breath  as  he  grabs  her  leash  gently,  pulling  her  away  from  the  other  dogs,  kneeling  and  grabbing  her  head,  playfully  shaking  it  around.  “  You  really  worried  me  …  ”  His  gaze  flickered  up  to  Sieun  before  he  got  back  to  his  feet.

"  Sorry  —  She  never  usually  does  this.  I  hope  she  didn't  bother  you."   

@4gives ( sieun )

' i'm trying to be calm ... ' yohan breaths. though , he admits it's hard to keep his cool , in situations out of his control. still , keeping his signature smile 'pon his lips , though with a look that could kill. ' what do you mean though , you lost it ?? i told you to hold my bag for a minute , while i went in to buy us coffee. how did you loose it so fast ?? '