#31w6d

覺得天空很美🤡應該看得出來不是美麗華吧🙄原來凹累逛四小時是逛不完的，都是某人在愛迪達太久🙄🙄🙄 #sky #ferriswheel #instadaily #trip #31w6d #臨空城 （在 Rinkū Town Station）

Nah buku yang terakhir dibeli ini, bukan buku buat dibaca, tapi buku buat berkreasi. Didalemnya bisa ditempelin foto-foto usg, cerita-cerita selama kehamilan, bisa tempel hasil testpack, dll.. Pokoknya lucu deh, Hihi.. Buat emak-emak yang suka berkreasi, buku jurnal bayi ini bisa jadi pengisi waktu luang, dan bisa dijadiin 'kado’ buat si Dedek nanti kalo udah gede. Pasti dedeknya seneng banget liat-liat cerita dan foto masa kecil dia dari dalem perut sampe dia balita 😘😘 Aku kemaren beli di Ig @bukubayi, beli sepaket sama selfie card buat nanti dedek narsis foto-foto.. Hihi..

I'm so excited! That means all the major/important furniture for the nursery is taken care of😊 The changing table is still in the garage and needs paint, and my aunt who offered to buy me the dresser is buying it Friday and having it shipped to my house, im so happy😄 My step dad bought me the crib from a friend and omg its so beautiful. It's a $1000 crib 😱 but he got it for $75 and painted it for me. I'm the luckiest girl ever. He is also buying me a mattress this weekend and then I can put all the bedding on and stuff! Eeeep!! 😍

Morning walk was everything #yess #31w6d #babyboy 😀

This baby is super active! She moves around like crazy😝
But not when daddy’s there. When he’s there, she’s calm and acts like a little angel. Well, she is my little angel of course but she does it more when her dad is around. She is definitely going to be daddy’s little girl ☺️

Went in for a follow up ultrasound at valley children’s. The MA took my bp. They only did that my first ultrasound. It was high…….ultrasound went great and baby is fine but Dr told me to go to the hospital asap they want to monitor me because the bp was so high. I was happy to see my BG growing she was 3lbs 10oz I was calculating in my head how much she will grow by Feb 8th (due date). So Chris and I went home packed a bag because I was told I would probably stay overnight. We got some food then off to the hospital. Since I’ve done this twice before I had no worries. Got checked in peed in a cup and got hooked up to the bp machine so the nurses can monitor me. Some time passed and a nurse comes in to tell me I am being admitted…. Okayy this is new. I’m thinking in my head here it is I am going to have to be put on bed rest. Some more time goes by and the Dr. Comes in. He states “you’re very sick I want this baby out of you tomorrow” :dizzy feeling: I remember just looking at him smiling and nodding (the strongest I will be for a month.) I immediately begin to call everyone meanwhile the pain is coming back and bp is rising. I am put on magnesium to prevent a stroke and given 2 more rounds of steroids. While family and friends come to visit Chris and I hold it together. I remember not sleeping and praying my bp goes down. Praying my Dr decides to put me on bed rest. Pleading with god I’ll stay in the hospital for weeks just don’t let me have this baby early. I even thought of trading this early delivery for down syndrome. Morning comes my nerves finally settle and I somewhat relax…..I’m excited! I get to be a mommy today! I don’t have to wait 2months I get to hold her and smell her and be rid of this pain. I can do this I can go though labor today! And have a baby as my reward. That great fantasy gets thrown away when my Dr comes in and tells me I am too sick to deliver vaginally. She said either I could die or my baby could die. (Again with the smile and nodding) I cry. I just let it go. Thinking this is all happening for a reason I know it but goodness it hurts so bad not knowing that reason now. Kālī Sioux was born at 12:01 on 12.13.13 a Friday. She was 3lbs 10oz. I heard her cry for the first time and I cried. I remember my heart sinking out of happiness and I took a deep breath because she was here. Chris and I stayed in recovery for a while until my room was ready. I didn’t know Kālī stopped breathing and they had to intubate her to put surfactant in her lungs. I vaguely remember them telling me she is in the NICU and knowing Nicu is bad but she was born tiny of course she has to be there. THEN the Nicu Dr comes and tells us she has blood in her lungs so they want to take her to valley children's where she will be better cared for. I remember seeing this tiny being with tubes coming out of her. Everywhere. I didn't cry, I didn't have any emotions. She was mine but not really. I wouldn't be able to hold her until 5 days later when I was released from the hospital. Which then started another journey of my new life. NICU mommy life

I'm due to give birth next month. NEXT MONTH!