Its past midnight.. and i cant sleep at all :(
I think i wanted to continue journaling from this morning and transit over to digital journaling.. sooo. Yeah. So im up here writing instead of going to sleep; i cant sleep anyways. Actually i thought about it for some time.. i think i want a jaw surgery. Its called orthognathic surgery. I know there are huge risks involving it and yeah at first i was worried about it and i even thought that i never would consider it and wont change my mind. But.. i guess since there is 93% of success rate.. i think it wouldnt be that bad right. I think the most worrying risk is having skeletal relapse, or like the probability of resurgery. Although the second surgery is considered more minor than the main one but you know its still a surgery.
Plus i get to take time off work :D ahahahah i have a fake ass colleague that harbours bad intentions against me at work so im glad i dont have to see her if i go for surgery. Anyways dont make my mood worse by thinking about her.
I think it isnt that bad, hospitalization is just 1-2 days apparently.. i dont know the details but hopefully its like that. But i think i get an mc for a month....? Actually yeah i am not sure,
I was trying to convince my mum to let me go for surgery. I mean it is a major decision and i had to discuss it with her first of course. But im probably going to have to pay for it myself. Im paying for my braces myself currently. At least its acceptable since im paying in installments. I feel like i can breathe. And also i started spending lesser and saving up more recently for the past 2 months. (Not counting this month yet, cause i know i will spend more this month as im starting out a new hobby) I havent exceeded my budget for 2 months already so its great
I actually spent the night yesterday making a document sheet on google doc researching about the surgery. It was actually quite grounding for me, cause i not only have so much information to process of but i also understand the whole gravity of the situation better after writing it out, and summarizing everything into a single google doc was so satisfying. So i ended up sleeping late
Hmmm.. what else do i want to say.
Like ok, you know those cute cups they have at kkv, i really want them. So i was shopping at daiso just now, and i saw some cute glass cups that i want, which reminded me of the cute cups kkv has, like i want to have a xiaohongshu kind of interior design when i move out and buy my own hdb flat. Like i have plans (my mum has plans) to getting a 2-room flexi apartment and its actually quite small, but definitely bigger than my bedroom currently. Then i want to take down the wall separating the living room and the bedroom so it can look more roomy.
Then if possible i will make wax seal videos like asmr ones during midnight when there's lesser noise from the environment and also make videos about journaling, and also yeah just have fun with it.
I might also consider making handmade gretting cards to sell on carousell, i mean im good at crafts so might as well make good use of it and earn money
And also.. there's a handbag at steve maddens then im eyeing on, it looks super cute ok, but i dont have the money to get it. Maybe that shall be my goal or smth, hopefully the price goes down by some more before august season like what the salesman said, but actually.... tbh i dont care if it goes oos, im not into handbags and luxury items like that. I'd rather use that money to get stationery cause i love them so much.
Winwin leaving nct and wayv, stray kids going to enlist in military
He wont be renewing his contract, and will be leaving nct and wayv as of 9th july 2026. Actually he hasnt been active for so long in nct and wayv activities already and it's so obvious he won't be renewing his contract. But wow, this is a huge year for nctzens i wonder how people are dealing with this. Already mark lee, then ten lee, and now winwin.
And also stray kids going to enlist in the military soon, they would not be whole temporarily. Like there will be members that wont be in the songs produced cause they are serving military. And its a whole 2 years for each member plus they have to go in consecutively.. so for stays that would be like how many years of incomplete skz.
