1finedayz

I was actually in a journaling slump so yeah... i really didnt felt like journaling. So it was great to see that i had already decored a few pages in my a6 notebook, so.. i just had to write words.

Today's agenda:

Change out my piercings to a bioplast one. Cause i might have to take xrays. Hopefully these can last long :(

Lunch at Wisma Atria:

So... i went to wisma atria, had my lunch there at food republic (lv 4), which was bulogi rice set. And then went to everkind studio, and then yeah, had them change out my piercings. I think there were some miscommunication abt the appointment time but at least i got to change them out in the end hahaha.

Nicol said that there were a lot of hard crusts on the ends of the piercing studs, and also my piercing's internal healing isnt that great. Cause the crusts will keep collecting and start pressing on my piercing and then form bumps. So cleaning is important. Using the saline solution to soften the crusts. Take note. 📝

Also asked about tattoos, and she said she's not the one doing tattoos, but can send in designs on whatsapp.

Im thinking of getting a whale tattoo.... or a teddy bear tattoo... or a rabbit tattoo... my mum prefers the whale cause it looks more matured and the bear and the rabbits looked childish. But idm getting them all LOL. Lemme try and add them reference pics here :

Then i got liho's cloud mocha coffee frappe (w BSP), and it tastes amazing ok. It has cheese foam on top. I love it.

^This song was playing nearby at a phone shop, so im adding it to the post. Since i really enjoyed it. I was thinking i wld really need another karaoke session in my room later with sun yanzi's songs like what i did a few days before.

My new powerbank:

Decored my new powerbank; gotta add some pics here ofc! And also pics of my old powerbank when i used oppo. Although its white and pretty but it was pretty useless cause its charging is always slow. I was quite impressed with this new powerbank i got from a lucky draw cause i tried charging my phone just now and it was super fast charging. Its actually meant for magsafe phones like iphones, so maybe this is my sign to switch to an iphone already. Plus the N X N app that i really wanna try is only avail on ios. Sighs. Apple is so ex tho.

Continued on with journaling in my a6 book. Writing words only seems to take the burden off my shoulder since I dont have to worry about making it pretty.

3-room as dual key:

Actually like my uncle suggested this like getting a 3 room flat instead and partitioning half of it and renting it out to someone and earn a monthly income. I think my house will look damn small tho and will only like the idea if only for eg. I can get my bedroom and living room to have no walls in between. Same as for flexi. Mum said this arrangement might mean that i will have to accommodate with a smaller house as compared to getting a flexi on my own. But im thinking of earning money... cause I really need money nowadays. Even after 35yo ofc money is fucking important. Mum also said there is a lack of windows in one of the house.. and also the electricity bills how to share like that.. idk man.

I dont even mind getting a 3 room flat and then renting out a single bedroom to someone actually. Like sharing the living room and kitchen and bathroom is ok as long as the person is disciplined enough, pays on time, and dont let her friends stay over for the night and 开party you know all that shit. But on the other hand I dont think I can handle the socializing shit where I am forced to live with someone not in my family, heck, I can't even walk around my house in my own bra. And I also have to lock my room everytime I leave just in case 家贼难防 ... yeah its not a good idea. 😕

Just nice I was listening to Make a Wish by nct u this morning. And also other nct songs. And also b.a.p. songs.

손을 맞대 make a wish 🙏🏻

Havent fangirled in a while hehehe.

Anw, my work today was afternoon shift. Picked out clothes 😌 Went to work.

Dinner was hotpot at Taman Jurong Hawker Centre. Didn't take a photo. But it was nice. Although the waiting time is long as usual. Was watching the southern archives (ding yuxi! zhang xincheng!) to pass time.

Praying that my orthodontist (private) allows collab with public jaw surgery surgeon, and vice versa. Or else my braces probably has to start all over again; my hard-earned money. :'( it has to work out ok 🤞🏻

Never considered jaw surgery in the first place cause I thought a cant smile wouldn't bother me, and i thought braces can fix my bite. If someone had told me jaw surgery also may make tmj better (or worse, hopefully not in my case) I would have took the risk immediately and chosen jaw surgery :'( then i wouldn't have to waste so much money. I could have saved up to buy myself a house.

And i dont even know if they will take xray at my very next appointment or not cause I need to book another appointment with my piercer beforehand to change out my piercings to bioplast. Since I dont know how to change out my rook. Have I said this before i am not sure and I dont really care if im repeating myself too much.

Hopefully there wouldn't be side effects to my jaw surgery.. i mean its only moving my jaw a few mm right. I saw people on tiktok mentioning that they moved 18mm or something like that and then there was a skeletal relapse. Like cause muscle memory and its been so long since the jaw has been misaligned the muscle will pull the jaw back into its original position. Which is scary cause it means another second surgery....?

08:41pm//

Today was a sweltering hot day imo. Or maybe I was just very tired. But thank God I could stay indoors today. Anw, after a very ugly selfie in the morning on setlog, I decided to switch on my computer to make paper prints on canva, im going to print out some y2k elements and you know.. yeah. Btw, I found a new website seukku.cc? That gives really cute website stickers to use.. and i got some elements from it to print out.

Then I think for lunch I had a kaya waffle at west coast.

Then I went back home to prepare for a carousell buyer to come and take item.

Also then bathed and washed my hair. And taking a nap.

Dinner i shared with mum; teriyaki chicken omurice. And now im at imm.

001. Handmade greeting cards

So what's on my mind right, is that how to increase my exposure to more carousell buyers for my handmade greeting cards. Or like how to make different style of greeting cards

Im thinking like base price of $12 for the most basic kind of greeting card? Text, stickers, little doodles. Then as it gets more complicated like with handdrawn portraits, custom photos, a handmade keychain, etc. i will add more to the price depending on how complicated it is.. then yeah everything is handmade and awesome 👌🏻👏🏻 Like let me channel my thoughts to the crowd so people start ordering from me. I mean I can draw portraits (kind of) so its a good deal hopefully

(Channeling inner thoughts...)

But theres no fucking likes on my listing! Is it cause im a newbie at carousell? Or people dont need cards now that they have digital cards to send out and they are free

Hmmmm... i feel like I could add some chibi drawings of mdzs and tgcf to my listing pictures also. Im much more comfortable drawing chibis than portraits. But sometimes you know that feeling when chibi styles are so exactly the same like big head and small body its just changing outfits basically. Like all its testing me is how to draw outfits nicely then... there is no challenge. Or like there is no personalization. Im a perfectionist, and I want my customers to feel like my artwork is personalized and handmade and in that way it just makes me think like "oh hey I hate how this look so similar to what i did for someone earlier and also even earlier etc." Does it make sense? I think its a me problem and I expect too much of myself, since its not like customers meet up and compare my cards and see if its personalized. But its a huge deal for me when I keep repeating certain details, it just feels not personalized enough!

I used to get so frustrated when making explosion box gifts for customers years back. Cause I think its not personalized enough. Haiz.

002. Jaw surgery

Another thing on my mind is jaw surgery. I dont know what to expect of it. I think I might get nagged by my orthodontist for not heeding her advice on fixing it with jaw surgery and instead I came up with weird alternative ideas to fix my canted smile and misaligned lower jaw. You know like I already prepare my speech template for when I meet her next month about how to explain why im changing to surgery route midway. Just to explain to her that its not because I didnt trust her enough and yeah.

I think.. that new xrays will be taken on the same day but my mum doesnt think so, if so, then have to book another day cause I need to change out my piercings to bioplast first. I dont know how to change my rook. I havent touched it since I got it pierced. I 手痒 fiddled with my conch already. So I still have some confidence with it. It's the rook. I cant seem to twist the jewelry without using tools or smth.. which I dont have anyway.

Im betting on losing some weight while on liquid food diet during jaw surgery. I heard people on tiktok lose 10kg or something like that. It's the only way and also the only method to let my mum allow me to not eat tbh, that was how I used to lose weight in the past successfully. By not eating school food.

09:14pm //

I need to post more often on ig. Like for the handmade greeting cards. Im using softc1oud and also 1f.inedayz for my journal accounts. I was lazy and also saw someone tagging their own ig account so I use this method too. Gotta go back home and find some journal spreads to take photos of.

Actually idk how to take photos... i need help. Those famous accounts on ig has like those super pretty desk layout and all that but I have nothing. No pretty tables, no skills, no nothing. (Can't wait to get my own house in the future)

09:35pm //

I have yet to show my piercing placements so here they are! I hate and like them at the same time, actually. I like how my lobes are in Aries constellation albeit unintended and weird. Cause the piercings are too close together. But i had to get the lower one newly pierced cause my original first lobes are too high up, whenever I wear hoops they drag out my earlobes and they feel super sore...

Jaw surgery

Its past midnight.. and i cant sleep at all :(

I think i wanted to continue journaling from this morning and transit over to digital journaling.. sooo. Yeah. So im up here writing instead of going to sleep; i cant sleep anyways. Actually i thought about it for some time.. i think i want a jaw surgery. Its called orthognathic surgery. I know there are huge risks involving it and yeah at first i was worried about it and i even thought that i never would consider it and wont change my mind. But.. i guess since there is 93% of success rate.. i think it wouldnt be that bad right. I think the most worrying risk is having skeletal relapse, or like the probability of resurgery. Although the second surgery is considered more minor than the main one but you know its still a surgery.

Plus i get to take time off work :D ahahahah i have a fake ass colleague that harbours bad intentions against me at work so im glad i dont have to see her if i go for surgery. Anyways dont make my mood worse by thinking about her.

I think it isnt that bad, hospitalization is just 1-2 days apparently.. i dont know the details but hopefully its like that. But i think i get an mc for a month....? Actually yeah i am not sure,

I was trying to convince my mum to let me go for surgery. I mean it is a major decision and i had to discuss it with her first of course. But im probably going to have to pay for it myself. Im paying for my braces myself currently. At least its acceptable since im paying in installments. I feel like i can breathe. And also i started spending lesser and saving up more recently for the past 2 months. (Not counting this month yet, cause i know i will spend more this month as im starting out a new hobby) I havent exceeded my budget for 2 months already so its great

I actually spent the night yesterday making a document sheet on google doc researching about the surgery. It was actually quite grounding for me, cause i not only have so much information to process of but i also understand the whole gravity of the situation better after writing it out, and summarizing everything into a single google doc was so satisfying. So i ended up sleeping late

Hmmm.. what else do i want to say.

04:42am //

Future plans

Like ok, you know those cute cups they have at kkv, i really want them. So i was shopping at daiso just now, and i saw some cute glass cups that i want, which reminded me of the cute cups kkv has, like i want to have a xiaohongshu kind of interior design when i move out and buy my own hdb flat. Like i have plans (my mum has plans not me cause i have a useless brain lmao) to getting a 2-room flexi apartment and its actually quite small, but definitely bigger than my bedroom currently. Then i want to take down the wall separating the living room and the bedroom so it can look more roomy.

Then if possible i will make wax seal videos like asmr ones during midnight when there's lesser noise from the environment and also make videos about journaling, and also yeah just have fun with it.

I might also consider making handmade greeting cards to sell on carousell, i mean im good at crafts so might as well make good use of it and earn money

And also.. there's a handbag at steve maddens that im eyeing on, it looks super cute ok, but i dont have the money to get it. Maybe that shall be my goal or smth, hopefully the price goes down by some more before august season like what the salesman said, but actually.... tbh i dont care if it goes oos, im not into handbags and luxury items like that. I'd rather use that money to get stationery cause i love them so much.

04:55am //

Winwin leaving nct and wayv, stray kids going to enlist in military

He wont be renewing his contract, and will be leaving nct and wayv as of 9th july 2026. Actually he hasnt been active for so long in nct and wayv activities already and it's so obvious he won't be renewing his contract. But wow, this is a huge year for nctzens i wonder how people are dealing with this. Already mark lee, then ten lee, and now winwin.

8:28pm //

Hahaahahah... I am a kissme forever.

Anyways. Today was quite a day. I had noodles in the morning, went back to sleep for a while. It was actually jammed like on the road so I was worried if I would be late today.. but thankfully no I wasn't. Then I sorted documents and stuff like that. Today's snack was the butterfly pastry, and also egg tarts.

Then for dinner I had meat gyoza hahahh it was heaven except that it was really scalding hot since it's fresh out of the stove. Then as I had finish my water I got some 100plus from decathlon nearby.

And it was time to go home. It was raining.. great weather! And I'm journaling currently. I haven't touched my journals for a while already cause I was always so tired after work. So it feels good to do some crafts work today.

08:37pm //

Breathing in the fresh air from the rain is like so healing. I love it. ❤️ it's so fast btw. July is here. Soon it will be August. Then the end of 2026. Then i will be in my 30s. Actually... i can't wait to get to 35 so I can own my own house. Im sick of living in my room. I want to retire too. Funny. Hahahh. Who would be my alarm clock when I start to live alone huh? Will definitely be late for work everyday then omg. Damn sian. Wished I can start work later and end work earlier. Or I can work from home, then i can finally use my desktop for something productive. Siannnnn 😴

08:44pm //

One good thing about living alone tho is that i have freedom. And my own personal space. I think I would love the idea of reaching home to chill in my own space after work. Like that would be a fucking great idea.