I like getting older because there’s a certain kind of comfort having gained the wisdom that goes along with aging, plus there’s that “ I don’t give a shit” attitude. I’ve learned, for the most part, not to sweat the stuff I can’t change. I’ve learned to pick my battles. But, you know what sucks about aging is the people you grew up with start to disappear due to old age, illnesses, which is to be expected, but it does something to you. For me, it makes me afraid. Not afraid of dying but afraid I’ll be the only one left if my inner circle dies before I do. I like my single life and solitude, but I’m not alone with my inner circle.
Mom is 88 years old, diagnosed with dementia, can only get around with a walker or cane. She’s forgetful from minute to minute, but it’s forgetting the memories that’s tragic because when we get older, that’s one of the most cherished things we have - a lifetime of memories.
My sister was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. She said it’s stage 1, so they caught it early. I’m very hopeful she will be ok.
I have a lot, and I mean a lot of cousins, and I’m just referring to my mom’s side of the family. On a regular basis we’ll have cousin reunions. There’s a lot I haven’t met but the one that has been around when I was growing up was my cousin Kathie. Although we’ve never been close, she’s always been around, a constant fixture in my life. She is the oldest cousin. She and her husband were go-getters, led a life of adventure, traveling and living around the world. They finally settled here in Sacramento.
About 3 years ago, she was diagnosed with ALS. At first, I couldn’t get my head wrapped around it. It was difficult to imagine that Kathie, the adventurer of us all, had this terrible debilitating disease that would inevitably take away her motor skills and her will to live. Me and the kid were scheduled to visit her, but she died the night before. I hate that I didn’t go earlier.
I hardly see the kid because even though she moved in with me, she and Rogan spend all their time with the kid’s partner, J, who lives in a small town in the foothills. They invited me to spend Easter with them and J’s family. It was nice. For the first time since I was about 9 years old, I participated in an Easter egg hunt :D
We recently found out that Rogan has a leaky heart valve. His quality of life is still good, he’s still playful and has a good appetite. The vet said, with medication, he has a few good months to a year. Rogan is 14 years old.
I love this guy like crazy ❤️
I just finished Michelle Obama’s book Becoming. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I gave it 5 stars in Goodreads. I listened to the audio version, which I think added to her story since she is the narrator:)
Gotta run. You know, work and all.
Have a good one, everybody!
Thanks for reading :)
