#2020update

Had breakfast and watched two episodes of BB22 with mom

Spent most of the afternoon going through my things and tidying up

Helped my mom make my birthday meal, burritos

Talked to my friend Bri on the phone for an hour and a half

Read In Cold Blood for 30m 56s and read 22 pages

Wrote half a page in my journal

Today was a good day. I turned 31! I always have such awful anxiety about getting older and not having accomplished as much as I wanted to or even accomplishing the things I wanted to, but I didn’t feel that way this year. I still have time anxiety but I didn’t spend my day down on myself or feel that I was getting too old to do what I wanted in life. That’s progress!! I was in a great mood when I got up and spent time with my mom watching TV and later cooking with her. When she went off to study I started working on my room. I went through the totes I have in my room and took out things I didn’t see myself needing soon and put them in a tote to go to the shed. I think if I haven’t thought of those things in a year, they should probably go. OR maybe we will have that yard sale my mom is always talking about. I got a few things put away, but the entire room is still a work in progress. My bestie called and we talked for a bit. I got in my reading for the night and now I am getting ready for bed or at least laying down to watch TV. 

I have been back, fully active on booklr for a year now. I think I picked back up on it a week before my birthday last year. I love being a part of booklr, even if I have been less socially active on the blog over the past few months. I am still working on that. 

Played Sims 4 for an hour

Re-watched an episode from S1 of Chilling Adventures of Sabrina

Went to bed around 3 AM

Got up at 9 AM

Watched the new Big Brother episode with my mom

Watched an episode from S8 of Big Brother

Cleaned out the fridge, cleaned the fridge, and reorganized it

Cleaned out and reorganized the deep freezer and fridge freezer

Ate dinner

Took a nap

Read Americanah for 38m 41s and read 44 pages

Wrote a little over half a page in my journal

Today was a great day. I guess that shows me how good it feels to get things accomplished! After we watched Big Brother we were talking about where we wanted to go for groceries. My mom suggested the Walmart in Douglas because it offered better variety than ours did, with it being a Super Walmart. I suggested Publix in Tifton because it offered all the variety with it being a full grocery store. We might also check out the Walmart Neighborhood Market, too. ANYWAY, that conversation led us to cleaning out the fridge and freezers so we could see what we did and didn’t need. It was so satisfying when it finished. We cleaned until dinnertime. I went to bed shortly after that because I felt drained. I wish I hadn’t slept as long as I did. I’ve got to work on that. I am just happy that I got up at nine this morning instead of sleeping in like I usually do. 

I will not be doing a daily breakdown for these like I usually do because that would be over 20 posts and I just don’t have the energy for it. After this post, I will get back into my routine and do these daily again. 

I will break down what basically happened during this time

The books I finished:

Between the World and Me by Ta-Nehisi Coates (finished 9.19.20) Clockwork Princess (The Infernal Devices #3) by Cassandra Clare (finished 9.25.20) This Is How You Lose the Time War by Amal El-Mohtar & Max Gladstone (finished 9.28.20) Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? by Mindy Kaling (finished 9.30.20) Carmilla by Joseph Sheridan Lefanu (finished 10.2.20) Red, White, & Royal Blue by Casey McQuiston (finished 10.5.20) The Talented Mr. Ripley by Patricia Highsmith (still reading)

The Things I Did:

I got my haircut on September 18th, after debating for months on whether I should grow it out. I gave in because the pixie growth stages are just hideous.

I have slept so much; it is not even funny. I think I am kind of in the midst of a depressive episode and I just got to find a way through it. I post on TikTok every few days and I am trying to figure out if I want to branch out to YouTube. I started TikTok because I was tired of being ashamed of how I look and decided to put myself out there. 

I am trying to figure out a weight-loss plan that I can stick to. I need to lose weight and I need to be physically fitter, even if my physical health isn’t actually that bad. 

I lost 17 lbs over this time period and then through laziness and over-eating I gained 10 lbs back. But that means I can lose it, so I just have to figure it out.

I had a sleep study on September 26th and I have sleep apnea. I don’t have a lot of money to put towards a CPAP, so I am not sure what I will do about that. I am waiting on a call from one of makers of them so I can get a quote on it. 

I started playing Among Us on and off, starting around September 27th with Booktokkers in a Discord chat. That is fun. I don’t always join them, but playing games is fun, especially since it is such a silly and weird game.

I’ve gotten about 30 books from thrift-stores over the past month. I should probably post a photo.

I am slowly, very slowly, making progress on my room. We have built three of the four bookshelves and I am getting the shelves organized. 

I’ve played Sims 4 a little over this time, too. I get bored real quick with it, so I don’t play that long when I do.

The TV I Watched:

I have spent the last half of September and all of October so far re-watching The Vampire Diaries, and I am about to start season four of the re-watch. I don’t think I will re-watch the entire series, definitely not season 8 again! I have also been watching the current season of Big Brother with my mom. I’ve watched the two new episodes of The Great British Baking Show with my mom, too. I watched two episodes of Utopia (US) yesterday after my cousin Ginger recommended it to me. 

The Folks I Talk To:

Every now and again I will join a live for a BookTokker on TikTok and chat with them and the others in the lives about books. Gotta socialize when I can.

I talk to a few people on here and Snapchat, usually about books. 

I have attended two Discord Quiz Practices with folks from my Alma Mater, and that is both educational and entertaining.

I talk to my cousin Ginger every single day on FB Video. I think we have talked every day starting on September 14th. I love talking to her and seeing her. I look forward to her calls every day. I figure at some point this might stop, but until it does, it is so much fun.

Wrap-up:

I still read for 30 minutes every single day. Honestly, during this period there were a bunch of days where I only read for 30 minutes. My reading time is slowing way down. I write in my journal every day too. I am just being lazy these days. I have to get back to my routine.

September 8th

Went to the library to renew books and pick up holds

Watched a few episodes of Big Brother 16

I did a small amount of tidying in my room

Read City of Lost Souls for 47m 10s and read 58 pages

Wrote a paragraph in my journal

Went to bed early because I felt bad

This day started off a week of me feeling awful. We went to the library at 11 AM and picked up our books off of hold and rechecked out the books I had run out of renewals on. I hate that I am getting slower with my reading right now. So many 30 minute days. I just don’t feel in the mood most of the time. We watched old episodes of Big Brother and then I went to bed around 7 PM.

September 9th

Watched Big Brother 16 with my mom for most of the day

Read City of Lost Souls for 1h 26m 34s and read 96 pages

Wrote a paragraph in my journal

Went to bed early, again

Yeah, another day of just chilling around. We watched Big Brother 16, and I got in my reading and called it quits early again because I didn’t feel good. 

September 10th

Got a few groceries in the morning

Spent most of the day in bed because I felt like garbage

Had supper

Watched the new episode of Big Brother 22 with my mom

Read City of Lost Souls for 30m and read 31 pages

Wrote a paragraph in my journal

We went to the grocery store around 10 AM and got a few groceries and something for dinner that night. I felt gross while we were out, so I went to bed and slept for most of the day. I think I have some kind of stomach virus. I got up for supper and then we watched the new BB episode and I got my reading in before going back to bed.

September 11th

Went to Wally World and got groceries

I made some cookies

Spent most of the day watching The Rookie with mom, we got way behind on season 2

Read City of Lost Souls for 1h 5m 16s and read 75 pages

Wrote a quarter of a page in my journal

We did our big grocery shopping trip and took our time getting everything. I made some cookies when I got home, and then we settled in on the couch and spent most of the afternoon and early evening watching The Rookie. 

September 12th

Got up around noon and started watching The Rookie again with my mom and spent most of the day doing that 

Read City of Lost Souls for 37m 39s and read 47 pages

Wrote a quarter of a page in my journal

Painted my nails

Just another chill day watching TV. It was fun to catch up on the show. It seriously has some super stressful moments, but it is so good. It’s also nice to take a break from watching reality tv. I got in my reading while my mom talked to my brother on the phone. After she went to bed, I got out all my nail stuff and got it set up for painting.

September 13th

Stayed up all night painting my nails while watching episodes from Lucifer S2. I kept messing up my nails and had to redo them.

Went to bed

Finished watching The Rookie S2 with my mom 

Finished watching Mrs. America with my mom

Read City of Lost Souls for 1h 41m 56s and read 123 pages, finishing the book

Wrote a quarter of a page in my journal

I had an emotional morning. I had to keep redoing my nails, and that was stressing me out, and then I got into a depression spiral and was upset for a bit, but I feel better now. I finally finished painting my nails and went to bed. We finished The Rookie and then finished Mrs. America. I got in my reading and then played on my computer for a bit.

September 14th

Watched a bunch of TikToks in the early AM

Started re-watching The Vampire Diaries

Went to bed at 4 AM

Got up at 10 AM and saw I had a message from my cousin Ginger. She wanted me to call her so we could motivate each other and clean together.

I did that, and we ended up talking via video-chat for about 5 hours

I did a load of laundry

Watched the new episode of Big Brother with my mom

Read Clockwork Princess for 1h 2m 35s and read 76 pages

Wrote half a page in my journal

I had posted some stressy and depressy feels on FB, so my cousin messaged me and said we could motivate each other. We talked for five hours throughout the day and did not get a lot done, but it was nice and I miss her so much, so I had fun. I did a load of laundry. I got in my reading in the evening before I went to bed. 

September 15th

Went out to breakfast with Mom

Went to the library to get our books from the holds list and pick up some more

Read Between the World and Me for 35m 29s and read 39 pages

Watched Big Brother 16 with my mom for a bit

Talked to Ginger on video-chat for a few hours

Wrote a quarter of a page in my journal

We went out for breakfast and then headed to the library. We went home and I talked to Ginger on video-chat off and on throughout the day for a few hours. Mom and I both had a copy of Between the World and Me, and we started it together. We both read for a little over 30 minutes and then watched TV when my Papa got home. Watched a live on TikTok for a few hours.

September 16th

Got up at 9 AM and talked to Ginger for an hour on video-chat

Went back to bed at 12 PM, got up at 4 PM and then went back to bed like 15 minutes later because I felt like crap

Got up at 7:30 PM and made supper

Talked to Ginger for two hours on video-chat

Read Between the World and Me for 30m and read 31 pages

Tidied up my desk

Wrote a quarter of a page in my journal

Watched all of Never Have I Ever on Netflix

Went to bed

Went to my sister’s house with my mom and brother and sat outside, six feet away, with a mask on, visiting with her and the fam

Watched a bunch of College Humor videos on FB

Read Americanah for 49m 19s and read 47 pages

Wrote a quarter of a page in my journal

Today was a good day. I stayed up until 5 AM watching Never Have I Ever; I loved it! I went to bed and then got up around 2 PM when I heard my brother arrive. We sat in the living room for about an hour and then went over to my sister’s house to visit. We sat in the yard with our masks on, six feet away, and visited. We got to see the new baby! She is so cute. I took some pictures. And we just hung out for two hours. It was very hot outside, and we didn’t want to cook, so we ordered pizza. I watched some videos on FB and then finally got in my reading session for the day. I also think I found a tick in my hair. It looks like the images on Google. It doesn’t look like it had started feeding, though. I don’t know if it got in my hair at my sister’s house or not. I FEEL ITCHY ALL OVER. 

Went to the grocery store

Watched two episodes from S2 of Orphan Black

Had a Collaborate meeting

Played BitLife on and off throughout the day

Talked to Bri on the phone for about an hour

Read Crown of Midnight for 1h 2m 50s and read 80 pages

Wrote a sentence in my journal

Today has felt like a very long day. It has been so hot, and I hated every minute I was outside. And it isn’t even the hottest time of the year yet. NO, that time comes in August. The hell month. After we got back from the grocery store, I spent a lot of time, wasting time. 

October 12th

Stayed up pretty late playing Sims 4

Re-watched two episodes of The L Word from S2

Went to bed at 7 AM and got up at 9 AM when Ginger called

Talked to Ginger for about an hour

The internet went out, and I went to bed for a bit

Read Macbeth for 49m 45s and read 46 pages

Wrote a quarter of a page in my journal

It was a lazy day. I couldn’t really do anything without internet because we have all streaming services and I was also tired from staying up all night, so it made sense to sleep. I got up around 10 PM to get in my reading, and then I started playing Sims 4 in offline mode.

October 13th

Stayed up til 5 AM playing Sims 4

Tried to sleep until Ginger called around 9:30 AM

Talked to Ginger for about 5 hours and watched her while she bleached her hair

I watched an episode of Big Brother with mom

I laid down around 7 PM after I dropped my mom off at the hospital (not allowed to go in with her)

I tried to sleep while I waited for her to call me and let me know to come get her; I didn’t get much sleep

Went and got my mom from the hospital around 10 PM 

Read Macbeth for 30 minutes and read 24 pages

Wrote a third of a page in my journal

Again, another lazy day. My internet didn’t come back on until noon, I used my data to FaceTime with Ginger. My mom had to go to the hospital because she has been feeling faint, dizzy, and has been having heart palpitations over the last few days. She has also been super nauseated. It turns out she was severely dehydrated, like so much they couldn’t even draw blood from her. They did a bunch of tests on her to make sure that was it and then I went and got her. She said they gave her three IV bags of fluid up there and she feels like 100%! DRINK WATER WOMAN. So, now I will have to be on her ass about drinking water. I laid down for a bit after I finished reading, but I couldn’t sleep, so I got up.