#2 loves

2 Loves – Chapter 2〚 HIM 〛

Another day without Dira. Berjalan seperti hari-hari biasanya. Aku bangun di pagi hari, bersiap ke kantor, menghabiskan waktu tanpa terasa dengan kesibukan kantor, dan pulang. Tentu saja ditambah dengan bumbu rindu. Tak ada hari yang kulewatkan tanpa berkabar dengannya. Walaupun hanya sekedar pesan “Jangan lupa makan sayang. Miss You!” Setiap malam ku usahakan menghubunginya melalui skype.…

2 Loves – Chapter 2〚 ANOTHER FAREWELL 〛

Sinar matahari menyeruak  masuk ke dalam kamarku dari sela-sela gorden. Cahayanya yang hangat menyentuh tubuhku dan membuatku terbangun. Tanpa kusadari aku tersenyum. Hari sabtu dan Dira ada di sini, di Indonesia. Sejak malam sudah kupikirkan harus kemana aku dan Dira hari ini, menghabiskan waktu berdua. Dengan perasaan semangat kulangkahkan kaki ku menuju kamar mandi, sambil sesekali…

2 Loves – Chapter 1 〚 IN LOVE 〛

Pernahkah kau merasa jatuh cinta? Cinta yang membuatmu bisa melepaskan segala milikmu hanya untuknya. Cinta yang membuatmu berharap bisa merasakan sakit dan sedih agar dia yang kau cintai tidak merasakannya? I do, well, I did. Aku mencintainya dengan sepenuh hatiku, dengan sepenuh jiwaku, dengan seluruh hari ku. Dan aku.. aku mengkhianatinya. Mengkhianatinya dengan ‘cinta’ itu sendiri. Jangan…

"If tomorrow the world ends, I want you to know that I love you." That, my friend is what everyone wants to hear tonight. But some of us won't. Like me. Over here by my lonesome self, one of my best friends is going to a concert with her boyfriend. Spending her last night in this world in a place she loves with the person she loves. What I'm not gonna bother telling her is that the girls I love don't love me back and are on the other side of the planet. Being in the Philippines on New Year's in a different time zone than the girls I love is like tearing my heart in two. I love the fireworks here, but I'd also love being with them, even if we weren't watching the fireworks.

But of course there's complications with that plan too: they hate each other.

How can two girls both want me but hate each other? Isn't that a compatibility factor? They both want to hang out with me but I can't decide which one to hag out with because they plan things at the same times. Like how am I supposed to satisfy them both?

I can't.

It took me a long time to respond to the message my friend sent me about going to that venue tonight. I just didn't know what to say without sounding all depressed. I guess I do know but that's beside the point.