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ęąá´á´á´á´ĘĘ: You've found comfort in your solitary life. No one comes to visit the humble herbalist living on the town's edge who talks to her own plants. That all changed in the early morning hours of today, when your kindness betrayed you to help a suffering man on your doorstep. You let the wrong one in.
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á´/É´: Haven't felt like dipping my toes into writing fanfics again since my Avatar era, which was TWO YEARS AGO!!! There are not enough fluffy Remmick fics, so I will be the first to change that. This is my official admittance into the mental hospital we call the Sinners fandom. White girls I promise you can still have your fun with this too, enjoy!
á´Ąá´Ęɴɪɴɢęą: SLOWburn, fluff with a side of smut, a little angst i guess, dark!remmick is on vacation, you're getting overly grateful remmick instead, excessive use of the word perfect, reader is a little special, a little domesticity never hurts, yearning, vampirism, blood, biting, begging, absolutely pathetic man overload at the start, praise kink, dirty talk, fingering, cunnilingus, offscreen parental death, detailed wound care, nursing back to health, religious undertones if you squint, general affection and eroticism, amateur knowledge of herbalism pls don't kill me, excessive divider usage, i think y'all know what to expect i'm not writing out everything
There was something about this morning.
You were an early bird. Always up at the crack of dawn, finding something to pass the time with. Today was no different.
You tended to your thriving garden, proud to see how strong they were growing. Your yarrow and coneflower were blooming, almost bending over to meet your gentle touch. You complimented their petals, and you could've sworn you saw them smile.
As if to make themselves heard, your mint let off an extra potent odor, making your nose instinctively cool. You didn't let them feel left out for long.
Brushing a caressing hand over your culinary plants as you passed, you settled in front of your aloe vera. They were new arrivals to your garden and clearly feeling the love. The leaves were plump, firm, and upright. You gave them a gentle squeeze to acknowledge them and check their texture, giggling at the pricks they teased you with.
And yet, you couldn't shake the feeling that something was... off.
The mourning doves, typically cooing as if only to you, were silent.
There were no bullfrogs curiously watching you from the swamp, engaging in a one-sided staredown.
The cicadas, too, joined the other animals in this strange hush.
You shook yourself out of your unaware daze and made your way back inside your house.
It was a humble home, really.
The kind that held heat in the winter and every memory you'd ever made in the summer. The walls, painted by hand, bore the soft fingerprints of time, smudged and faded from where you leaned, laughed, or wept.
Herbs hung from the walls and ceiling, bunches of rosemary and thyme swaying idly. The scent of lavender clung to the air like it paid rent.
Your floors creaked with purpose, every step a reminder of those who walked here before you. A wood-burning stove sat snug in the corner, its black iron belly cold for now, but always ready. Your cast-iron pots gleamed with the pride of something well-used and well-loved. The shelves were lined with mason jars. Roots, tinctures, and teas you brewed with your own hands.
A worn quilt lay draped over your rocking chair, patchwork squares made from old dresses and scraps your Mama found and stitched together. The rocking chair, too, was a product of your Daddy's handiwork, and you remember all too well how excited you were to be the first person to use it.
Your Bible, which you didn't read much these days to the would-be chagrin of your parents, sat next to a leather-bound notebook, full of hand-scrawled recipes and forgotten dreams.
And even now, with the silence pressing in from outside, your home felt like it was breathing with you. Watching. Waiting. Holding space for whatever was coming.
And that's when you heard it.
It was a relentless pounding.
Fist, no, fists on wood, over and over. Wild, desperate, like a storm had taken the shape of a man and found its way to your doorstep.
You froze where you stood, one hand hovering over your table, the other reaching for nothing. The pounding didn't stop. It grew louder, faster, until it wasn't just a knock, it was a plea.
âPlease!â the voice cracked. âPlease, somebody help me! Please!â
A man's voice. Frantic. Wrecked.
You couldn't place it. Didn't recognize the tone, the rhythm, the panic laced inside every syllable. The man's accent was different, too. Certainly southern, but there was an unfamiliar undertone that backed his voice.
Your heart skipped. Once. Twice. Your home felt smaller, as if it was slowly, agonizingly imploding.
You glanced to the small window by the door, curtain still drawn, light slanting through it as if God's eye was watching you. You didn't move. You just listened.
âI'm beggin' you, please, open up! I don't- I don't got nowhere else!â
Something in you bristled. Not fear, not yet. But something deeper. That ancient, gut-deep knowing passed down through bloodlines. Something your Mama called a warning.
The house, for the first time in years, didn't feel like it was breathing with you.
It was holding its breath.
Your eyes were locked on the door like it might open by itself and save you the trouble.
The pounding had stopped, but the voice hadn't.
It was lower now, cracked and ragged as if supported by a throat made of gravel. âIt burns, please, it burns! I c-can't- I need-â
You stepped forward, just one foot. Then another.
There wasn't fear in your body, but there was weight. Heavy weight. Like your bones knew something your mind hadn't caught up to yet.
You reached the door but didn't open it. Not yet.
Instead, you spoke, low and even. âWho are you?â
There was a pause. A very long pause.
Then... thud.
It sounded like someone had collapsed against the door.
â...Miss,â the voice came again, quieter now, hoarse like he'd been screaming for days, or just minutes in your case. âPlease... I don't got long.â
You placed your hand on the doorframe, fingers brushing the edge. You didn't open it. Not yet. Just leaned in, pressed your ear close.
â...hurts,â he breathed. âIt hurts.â
The pain in his voice was palpable, and you'd be lying if you said it didn't pull at your heartstrings. He sounded as if he was on the verge of death. And by all you knew, he was.
Your fingers twitched. Then, slowly, you undid the lock. The door creaked open. Just an inch. Then two.
And there he was.
Lord have mercy.
He was crumpled on your porch, face completely covered by his hands. His skin was blistering, no, boiling. Red, raw patches covered his arms and face, angry welts clawing across every inch of him the sun could reach. With each small movement, smoke came forth.
He wore a filthy wifebeater that clung to him in hatred. Loose pants, torn and streaked with mud. Neither fabric looked like it had known clean water in weeks. A gold chain hung from his neck, glinting in the same sun scorching him.
He didn't look at you at first. Instead, the begging continued. Relentlessly.
âPlease... let me in. Just- just let me in.â
Then his eyes met yours. Blue, sharp, ancient.
They held a kind of agony you weren't used to seeing. Not even in death. It made you instinctively crack the door further, against your better judgment.
He clawed himself forward, but stopped just short of the doorframe.
Didn't stumble inside, didn't even try.
He just knelt there. Beseeching you.
There was something else that surprised you, too.
It wasn't the bubbling skin, or the filthy clothes, or even the way he clung to your porch like a dying man gripping the edge of heaven. It wasn't how he hissed at the sunlight or how his body stayed frozen at the threshold like the house itself had drawn a line.
It was his skin.
Pale.
A white man in Mississippi. Begging you for help.
The sight alone could've gotten you dragged out of your own house and blamed for whatever mess he brought with him. White men didn't knock. They didn't ask. They didn't plead. And they certainly never begged.
Trouble always followed a white man, especially one burned in the light.
Still, he looked up at you like you were the only thing holding him to this earth. His voice cracked again, choking despite only uttering one word. âPlease...â
And despite everything, your gut, your fear, your history, you opened the door wider.
âCome in.â
The moment those two words left your lips, he collapsed forward like a string had been cut.
His body hit the floor with a sickening slap, smoke curling off his skin like meat left too long on a flame. He didn't scream this time. Just groaned, soft and guttural, as if even his pain had worn itself out.
You moved fast, the way you did when a snake bite came through your door or an infected wound that gnawed away at flesh.
âChair,â you said, pointing to the stool near the stove. âSit if you can. Don't touch nothin' yet.â
He tried. Lord, he tried. Arms trembling like saplings in the wind, he dragged himself up bit by bit. Sat slumped, head down, that glistening gold chain now dull against his blistered chest.
You were already gathering. Mortar and pestle. Clean rags. A sharp knife for cutting fresh aloe straight from the stalk. The herb practically hummed in your hand, full and green and ready.
âIt's like you're burnin' from the inside,â you muttered under your breath, though you didn't try hard to be inaudible. âNot just sun-sick.â
You sliced through a thick leaf, watching the gel ooze out like honey, thick and cool. You grabbed the peppermint oil next, then yarrow for the swelling, and comfrey for the sores. You didn't pause. Didn't ask questions.
Not yet.
âStrip that shirt off,â you said, not unkind, but firm. âLet me see what I'm workin' with.â
He didn't argue; clearly didn't have the strength. Just nodded, weakly peeling the ruined fabric from his body. Skin came with it in some places. You winced but didn't let it show.
You dipped your fingers in the aloe and started to work.
The gel clung to your skin, cool and thick. It spread easily across his shoulder, where the burns had bloomed the worst. Red turned near-black, skin puckered and peeling like old bark.
His muscles twitched under your touch, lean and long, the kind of frame that had seen many hard years but held strong through all of them. One that had moved. Run, maybe. Fought, more likely.
You didn't flinch when you reached the boils on his neck. They pulsed like tiny hearts, angry and hot, and the gold chain pressed into one of them. You worked around it with care, fingers sure and slow, your breath steady as you hummed under your breath. It was one of Mama's songs.
âEasy now,â you said, pressing a damp cloth against a split on his rib. âAloe's drawin' the fire out. You'll feel a sting.â
He nodded faintly, lips cracked and dry.
You could hear the strain in his breath. Short, sharp, like every inhale had to fight through a thousand splinters.
âI'll get you water.â
You rose and moved to the basin. Poured from the cool jug you kept shaded on the windowsill. Found a clean tin cup and filled it to the brim, watching the water catch the light as you turned.
When you pressed it into his hand, his fingers barely curled around it. Still, he drank like a man who hadn't seen a drop in weeks. The water spilled over his lips, soaked his chest, but he didn't stop until it was gone.
âMore?â
He shook his head, just once, leaning back against the wall behind the stool. You could see the tension leave his shoulders piece by piece, breath slowing, eyes half-lidded now.
You returned to his chest. Worked in a fresh layer of aloe with a touch of peppermint oil, just enough to cool the heat curled beneath the skin.
Every now and then, he made a sound. Low, not quite a word, but not quite a groan either. You didn't ask for stories. Didn't pry for the answers you desperately needed.
There'd be time for that.
For now, you just tended to what you could touch.
âThank you,â he said, voice like gravel wet from rain.
It came out quietly, but it settled in the room all the same. You were just finishing the last bit of aloe, smoothing it across his lower side where the burns were thinner, more tender. His skin jumped under your fingertips, but he didn't pull away.
âMm,â you replied, washing your hands in the basin beside you. âI don't do this for gratitude. I do it 'cause somebody needed it.â
You picked up on the way his eyes followed you. Slow, deliberate, like he was trying to memorize the way you moved. Or maybe just remind himself he was still here.
You dried your hands on the edge of your apron, glancing out the window. Morning was still hanging on, soft and gold through the cypress trees. The world hadn't turned upside down, even if it felt like it should've.
âYou eaten?â you asked, already turning toward the stove. âAin't no point in mendin' skin if your belly's hollow.â
He blinked, surprised, as if the idea of a meal hadn't crossed his mind.
âNo. I don't think so, at least,â he admitted, scratching lightly at the side of his neck where a fresh scab was forming. âThink I forgot what that feels like.â
You gave a little laugh, not mocking, just gentle.
âWell,â you opened your pantry. âI don't forget how to feed a body. Burned up or not.â
You made your way to the stove, brushing past the dried bundles of thyme and safe hanging from the walls, the scent of them catching in the air. You could feel his eyes on you, though he tried, and failed, not to make it obvious.
The pan sizzled to life as you dropped in a pat of butter. You reached for the cornmeal, then the basket of eggs youâd gathered just yesterday. Behind you, he shifted in the stool, the wood creaking beneath him, but he didnât move much more than that.
âYa always up this early?â he asked, voice a little clearer now, a languid drawl present in each word.
âAlways. Plants don't wait on nobody, and neither does the sun.â
You didn't turn when you said it, but you could feel him smiling behind you. Not wide. Just a small pull at the corners, like his face was trying to remember how to shape one.
The grits bubbled thick and soft, and you stirred them slow, adding salt, pepper, and a touch of dried rosemary.
âYou can rest here a while,â you said, finally glancing over your shoulder. âAin't nobody gonna bother you way out here.â
Again, your eyes met his.
And for a long breath, neither of you looked away.
It wasn't just the quiet of the room that wrapped around you; it was the weight of his stare. Steady and slow, like he was memorizing the shape of your face. His gaze drifted just enough to trace your cheekbones, your nose, your lips, your curls, then returned to your eyes, almost bashful in how bold he'd been.
He blinked first. Let out a low breath, maybe a sigh. Maybe something else.
âI believe you,â his voice was quieter now, but somehow firmer. â'Bout nobody botherin' me here.â
A pause.
âYa got a way about you. Like the world listens to you, not the other way 'round.â
You didnât know what to say to that, so you didnât try to say much. Just turned back to the pan and scooped the grits into a wooden bowl, set two fried eggs on top, sprinkled a little salt, a little pepper, a touch of dill.
You brought it over and set it on the small table near his stool, then filled another tin cup with water and placed it beside the bowl.
âEat,â you said, soft but sure. âStill got hours left in the morning, and youâll need strength to face âem.â
He looked at the food, then at you, then back at the food, then at you again.
And this time, when he smiled, it showed teeth.
You noticed it, not all at once, but enough to make your breath catch.
They were white, strikingly so for a man who looked half-melted an hour ago. Clean, but... off. His canines were just a touch too long, too pointed, like they'd been honed on something harder, no, more precise, than meat. Not cartoonish, not obvious, but sharp in a way your eyes couldn't unsee once they caught the right angle of them in the light.
Predator's teeth, hidden behind a beggar's smile.
But you said nothing.
Just tucked that little detail away, same as you did with the tone of a bird's call. Not fear, just curiosity. Observation.
And when he took another bite, careful not to scrape his lip, you could tell he knew you'd seen.
But he didnât flinch.
Didnât lie.
Just chewed slow, and said nothing.
He took another bite, slower this time. Chewed. Swallowed. Ran his tongue briefly over those sharp canines like he was trying to smooth them down before speaking.
Then, without looking up:
âDo you live out here all on your own?â
The question was soft, careful, but it hung heavy in the air between you. Heavier than it had any right to.
You could feel his eyes on you again before you met them, like his gaze had weight, heat, shape. When you finally did look, he wasnât just curious. He was studying you, the kind of look a man gives a locked door heâs dying to open.
You tilted your head.
âI do,â you said simply, but there was something warm curling in your belly as you said it. Not shame. Not pride. Just a quiet truth you suddenly wanted him to understand. âAinât been nothinâ wrong with my own company.â
His fingers, resting beside the bowl, twitched just slightly, like he might reach for something. Maybe the cup, maybe something less easy to explain, but thought better of it.
âThat donât surprise me,â he said, voice low now, almost reverent. âYa seem like you belong to yourself.â
That stirred something in you.
You didnât smile, not fully, but your eyes softened, and you found yourself watching the curve of his jaw, the healed patches of skin just under his collarbone, the rise and fall of his chest now that he was breathing easier.
He shifted in his seat, eyes still on you, but with a touch more caution now, like he was stepping somewhere sacred.
âHow'd you come to live on your own?â he asked. His tone was light, but the words carried something behind them. â'S not every day I meet a woman flyin' solo. Not out here, anyhow.â
He added it quickly, before you could bristle, his hand lifting, palm open, like he meant no offense.
âI mean that with respect,â he said, voice warm and sincere. âTruth be told, itâs a rare strength. I just⌠wondered what kind of road leads a woman like you to a place like this.â
You caught it. The way his eyes lingered on your hands, then your ring finger, bare as the rest. The question wasnât just about how you lived.
It was about who you lived without.
You set your elbows on the table, leaning in just a touch, chin tilted like you were deciding how much of your truth heâd earned.
âMy Mama and Daddy left me this place when they passed. Wasn't much of a question after that.â
He nodded like he understood more than youâd said. Maybe he did.
âIâm sorry to hear it.â he murmured empathetically, letting silence fall.
But the silence that followed felt different now.
Less like strangers making room for each other.
More like something in the air had shifted, tilted ever so slightly in your direction.
He looked down at his empty plate for a moment, fingers brushing crumbs that weren't really there. Then, something passed over his face. Not shame exactly, but close. Worse.
A furrow crept into his brow as he let out a low sigh, rubbed the back of his neck, and muttered, âWell, hell.â
You blinked.
He looked back up at you, face caught somewhere between apology and self-reproach, the edge of his accent rounding his words.
âHere I am, half-burned 'n beggin' on your porch like a fool, takin' your food, your kindness, 'n I never even asked your name.â
He exhaled, clearly bothered by it, his mouth pulling tight at the corners. âThat's rude. I was raised better'n that.â
You felt something stir again in your chest, something warmer this time. Like the heat off a cast iron skillet, slow and steady.
He sat a little straighter now, eyes fixed to yours, and though his voice was low, the way he said it made your heart pick up all the same:
âI'd like to know your name.â
You paused, just a beat. Long enough to make sure the moment stayed. Long enough to feel the charge in the air, as real and tangible as the sunlight still spilling across the floor.
Then you told him.
Your name slid out like honey, at least in his mind. Slow, unashamed, yours.
And the way he repeated it?
Soft. Careful. Delicate. Like he didn't want to somehow shatter it on his lips.
âI'm Remmick,â he added after a moment, hand pressing lightly to his chest. âJust Remmick.â
And though he said it casually, like it wasn't worth much, the way his eyes lingered on you afterward said otherwise.
Said everything.
You broke the gaze first, not necessarily because you wanted to, but because you had to. Something about the weight of it, the softness, the pull, it was too much to sit in for long.
You stood up, hands moving on instinct, reaching for his dish like you'd done a hundred times before. It was second nature. Quiet, practiced care. A rhythm born of solitude.
But before your fingers could wrap around the bowl, his hand found yours. Not rushed, not rough. Just a gentle, callused palm over your knuckles.
âLet me,â he said softly.
His eyes were upturned, looking at you with something that wasn't pity, wasn't duty, just earnestness. A sincere desire to give something back.
âYou've done more'n enough,â his thumb brushed faintly across your skin before pulling back, the break of contact seemingly equally hard for both of you. âI got two hands and a sink in front of me. Least I can do is clean my own mess.â
You hesitated, your hand still tingling where heâd touched it. But something about the way he stood, slow and deliberate, like he didnât want to spook the air between you, made you let him.
You stepped aside, and Remmick moved to the basin, running a hand over his bare chest as if remembering the shirt that once clung to it. His muscles flexed under pale, healing skin, burn scars catching the light like thin rivers on a map.
He handled each dish like it might break in his hands. Careful. Thoughtful. A man whoâd maybe forgotten what peace felt like, but still remembered how to honor it when it came.
And in the stillness of that little kitchen, the soft sound of water and porcelain, you watched him. This strange, scorched man with sharp teeth and gentler hands, trying to give something back.
Like he wanted to earn the space heâd been given.
Like heâd stay, if you let him.
He didn't stay.
Evening had crept in slow, lazy and golden at first, but it cooled quick once the sun dipped past the horizon. You'd made tea by then, set out an old quilt on the porch steps, and the two of you sat there in a hush, talking in spurts and falling into silence just as easily. The kind of silence that didn't press too hard. The kind that felt safe.
You'd asked if he wanted to stay the night. Not with any suggestion on your tongue, just plain hospitality. The offer of a roof. Clean linens. A second mug of tea.
âThank ya,â he'd said, eyes low. âBut I can't.â
You frowned. âYour skin's still healing, Remmick.â
âI know.â
âI could wash your clothes,â it was one of your most weakly veiled offers yet. You knew you were being too obvious, but you didn't care. âGet the sweat and scorch off'em. They'll dry by morning, fresh as can be.â
His smile was tired. Soft. âI've taken more'n enough of your kindness for one day. Besides, leaving you with the smell of me hangin' in your air all night? That'd hardly be gentlemanly.â
You stood anyway, brushing off your skirt. âI'll pack you something, then. Something for the road.â
Then, he reached out. Not to stop you exactly, just to touch your hand. Gentle again, thumb tracing the back of your fingers like a memory he wasn't ready to let go of.
âI'll be back,â he said, voice thick like molasses left too long in the jar. âI swear to ya, I'll come back. As long as you'll have me.â
You searched his face, and he let you. Even stood to give you a better look. Let you linger on the curve of his cheekbone, the hollows of his eyes with pupils that you could've sworn were glinting red, the hint of a regretful smile playing on his lips.
Then he leaned down, not to kiss your lips, but your hands. Both of them.
Held them between his own, like prayer.
And pressed his mouth, reverent and warm, to your dorsals. First the left, then the right.
It left you breathless. Still.
You didn't speak as he turned and stepped back into the deepening blue of dusk. Vanishing into the cypress and cottonseed mist like he'd never been there at all.
But the porch felt colder when he was gone.
You lingered there a while, arms folded, watching the trees sway like they were mourning something too. The screen door creaked behind you, and when you finally stepped back inside, the house met you like a hollow room. Still shaped by him, but quiet now.
You closed the door softly behind you, the latch clicking louder than it should've.
You told yourself it was fine. You were fine.
You gathered the dish towel from the counter, folded it twice, then again, smoothing out invisible creases. You adjusted the chairs at the table, even though they weren't crooked. Put the leftovers of lunch and dinner back under their cloth coverings. Remmick loved seconds and thirds. Straightened the salt jar. Wiped down the basin, though he had left it spotless.
The floorboards creaked differently now. Not heavier, just... lonelier.
You checked your herbs hanging near the stove, even though you'd checked them that morning. The mint looked limp. The rosemary had drooped a little at the ends. The lavender hung tired, like it had lost something too. Even your yarrow, usually so full of pride, drooped ever so slightly.
You ran your fingers along their leaves anyway, whispering comfort to them you weren't sure you believed.
You pressed your hand to the windowsill. Still warm from the sun, but not the same warmth. Not his.
You went to bed early, though you didnât sleep. The moonlight slipped through your curtains and painted silver lines across the floor, and your mind drifted without permission. Back to the curve of his smile, the rasp of his voice, the weight of your name when he said it like it belonged only to him.
When the rooster crowed, it startled you. Youâd only just begun to drift.
But like every morning, you rose.
The sun was shy today, peeking out slowly from behind a curtain of cloud. You wrapped your shawl tighter around your shoulders and stepped out to the garden. The dirt felt cool under your feet. None of your plants greeted you like usual. No quiet whispers of good morning to be heard.
You knelt beside the aloe, your most recent, most favored little patch, and brushed the plumpest leaf with a fingertip.
âHeâll come back,â you murmured, not quite sure if you were speaking to the plants or to yourself.
Either way, they didnât answer.
Four days.
Ninety-six hours. Five thousand, seven hundred and sixty minutes. Three hundred and forty-five thousand, six hundred seconds.
You hated that you knew the math. Hated even more that youâd counted.
It was foolish. Plain and simple. You had lived alone for years without a manâs company, without needing it, without asking for it, without even noticing the lack. The quiet had always been your comfort. Solitude your rhythm. But now... now it sounded hollow. Like a well too deep to draw from.
The nights stretched longer, like they were mocking you. You caught yourself reaching for an extra plate when setting the table, or pausing at the door before opening it, half-expecting him there with that crooked grin and boyish look about the eyes. Youâd go to cut mint and think of how heâd inhaled it like it was the first clean breath heâd had in years. You avoided the basin, too, because every time your hands touched water, you thought of his bare back arched over the sink, washing your dishes like it meant something.
It shouldnât have meant anything.
Not here. Not now. Not in a world that didnât even let you walk on the same sidewalk as a man like him without stares and suspicion and violence.
But it had.
And you hated that, too.
By the fourth night, sleep didnât come. You sat by the open window, quilt wrapped around your shoulders, watching the moonlight pool across the floorboards. The stillness wasnât peaceful anymore. It was restless, pressing, waiting.
You nearly jumped when the sound came.
Knock. Knock.
Not the desperate pounding from before. Not the sound of pain clawing for entry.
Just two clean, confident knocks.
You blinked. Sat up slow. Waited, unsure if youâd imagined it.
Then:
Knock. Knock.
You opened the door.
And there he was.
Remmick stood tall and calm in the doorway, bathed in moonlight and cleaner than you'd ever seen him. His skin had healed to a pale, healthy glow, no longer bubbling or cracked. His deep brown hair was brushed back, catching the silver glint of stars. A collared shirt clung to his frame, pressed and buttoned, sleeves rolled to the elbow. Trousers clean, belt buckled. A gold chain still hung around his neck, subtle under the open top buttons.
In his hands, held like something sacred, was a small velvet box.
âEvenin',â he said first, soft as the breeze curling around your porch. His smile was slow, a little shy, like he knew he was interrupting something sacred. Your silence, your steadiness, your hard-won peace, but he didn't know all that had gone out the window when he departed.
Then, after a beat, his sparkling, no, glowing eyes met yours and held. Beckoning you to entertain him.
âMay I come in?â he asked, voice low and steady, but you could still hear the hope tucked inside.
As if on cue, the box in his hand gleamed under the moonlight.
You stepped aside without a word, but your fingers curled tightly around the edge of the door.
He entered slow, eyes sweeping the room like it was the first time all over again, though he didnât say so. You didnât offer him a seat. Not yet.
âYouâre late,â you said, cool and plain, folding your arms so he wouldnât see how your hands trembled. You were being difficult on purpose. He never gave you a time. But you felt the need to make him suffer for it anyway.
He looked at you then, properly. The tenderness behind those eyes made your breath hitch, but you held it down, buried it deep.
âYou left me high and dry,â you went on, chin raised. âOne day of amity and then nothinâ. Not a note, not a whisper, not a soul to say you was all right.â
Remmick stepped in closer, just one careful pace, hands out like he meant to calm a storm that hadnât made up its mind yet. Maybe thatâs what you looked like to him. Thunder tucked behind your eyes, the kind of quiet that came right before something broke loose.
âI know,â he said, voice thick with regret. âAnd I'm sorry, truly. I should've sent word, should've come sooner. But I didn't want you seein' me the way I was. Still mendin'. Still not quite myself.â
You didnât answer. Didnât flinch, either.
He reached up slowly and brushed his fingers against your elbow. Just the edge. Just enough to feel the heat of his touch ghost over your skin.
âI meant to come back sooner, I swear it on every bit of gold I own,â he added with a sad sort of grin. âBut I needed to be well. Presentable. Worth standinâ in your doorway again.â
Your eyes flicked down to where his hand lingered near yours. The space between your fingers suddenly felt loud.
âYou think a fresh shirt and a fancy box makes up for worryinâ me near to death?â you asked, sharp, but your voice cracked just a hair.
He didnât shy from it. âNo, maâam. But I think itâs a start.â
He lifted the jewelry box, but didnât open it. He waited.
Then, softer: âCan I sit?â
You gave him a long, measured look. The air felt close again, like it had that first morning. Finally, you gave a small, reluctant nod.
He smiled. Barely there, like he knew better than to press his luck, and moved past you. As he did, the back of his hand brushed yours. Light as linen. Deliberate.
You didnât pull away.
The table between you wasnât much. Scuffed wood, worn edges, a single oil lamp casting gold across the grain. But the way Remmick looked at you across it, you mightâve been seated on a throne. His elbows rested lightly on the surface, one hand folded over the other, but his eyes were doing the real work.
His eyes traced the full curve of your nose, the gentle round of your cheeks, the dark velour of your skin in the lamplight. He studied the slope of your shoulders, the proud set of your jaw, the way your coils framed your face like a crown. His gaze lingered on your lips. Soft, plush, shaped by truth and silence in equal measure. Every detail of you, he took in like scripture.
You pretended not to notice. Focused on the kettle, or the way your fingers tapped along your mug. But your skin knew. It prickled under his gaze, warm and drawn tight with something you hadnât named just yet.
âI brought somethinâ,â he said at last, his voice soft as cloth but thick with meaning, and it hit you low in the belly, that sound. Like heâd been holding the words close, warming them with care, waiting for the right moment to let them go.
You glanced up, just as he set the velvet box between you. It looked wrong there somehow, too fine for your table, too soft for your life.
He opened it slowly, carefully, like it was something holy.
Inside, nestled in dark blue satin, was a necklace. Real gold. Rich, gleaming, honey-warm in the lamplight, and spaced along the chain were pearls. Soft, perfect things, like droplets of cream suspended in air. You blinked once, twice, sure you were dreaming, or mistaking it for something else.
Your breath caught.
âI know it ainât⌠customary,â Remmick said gently, watching your reaction like it mattered more than anything else in the world. âBut when I saw it, I thought of you. The gold... warm, like your voice. And the pearls⌠well. I reckon youâd make âem shine brighter.â
You didnât speak. Couldnât. Youâd never pictured yourself in a thing like that, never even dared. Maybe in a younger daydream or an impossible story passed from woman to woman. But not like this. Not real. Not placed in front of you by a man with eyes that held no expectation, only hope.
He didnât push the box closer. Just sat still, hands open on the table, waiting.
Your fingers hovered over the box like it might disappear if you touched it too quickly. You werenât used to fine things. Things so delicate, so carefully made, things that shimmered without asking for attention. You slid the box closer, slowly, hesitantly. But when you reached for the necklace itself, your hand stilled. You didnât even know where to start.
The chain gleamed in the lamplight, catching against the darkness like a promise. It looked too lovely to belong to you.
Remmick noticed. Of course he did.
He stood without saying a word, the chair creaking softly behind him as he stepped around the table. His shoes were silent against the worn floorboards, but your heart wasnât. It was loud in your ears, wild in your chest, thudding like it might beat right out of you.
He came to stand behind you, and you didnât stop him.
Didnât want to.
His fingers were gentle as they lifted the chain from the velvet. He didnât fumble or hesitate. The clasp clicked open like it knew where it belonged. He cupped the curls at your neck with his featherlight touch, slow and warm, gently tucking them aside.
And then the chain touched your skin.
You swore you could feel every link. Every pearl.
He leaned in to fasten it, breath soft against the nape of your neck, and the whisper of it made you shiver. Not from cold, but from the sudden, aching nearness of him. His chest just barely grazed your back, not quite a touch but close enough to feel the heat of him, the weight of him in the air around you.
âYa alright?â he murmured, voice barely more than a breath.
You nodded, knowing your voice had fled.
The clasp clicked shut. But he didnât move right away.
He lingered.
His hands stayed at your shoulders, not gripping, just resting there, warm and steady. You let your eyes close for a moment. Just a moment. Let the feel of it wrap around you like the chain heâd laid across your collar.
âGodâŚâ he breathed, more to himself than to you. âYouâre perfect.â
That broke something loose inside you.
You turned your head, slow, and found his eyes waiting. He was closer now, one hand rising from your shoulder to brush your jaw, soft and trembling. He looked at you like heâd been waiting years for this moment. Like he still didnât believe it was real.
He leaned in, slow enough to stop. Slow enough to be stopped.
But you didnât stop him.
And when his lips touched yours, it was like stepping into warm water after a long, cold night. Gentle, slow, full of heat that built from the center and spread until your whole body felt wrapped in it. His kiss wasnât greedy. It asked. And you answered.
His lips moved against yours, soft and coaxing at first, but growing more insistent, more hungry. His hand, which had been resting on your jaw, slid down to your neck, thumb pressing gently against your pulse point, feeling the rapid beat beneath your skin. You could feel his other hand, still on your shoulder, tightening slightly, pulling you further back against him.
His tongue traced the seam of your lips, asking for entrance, and you granted it, opening for him with a soft sigh. His tongue met yours, tentatively at first, then with more purpose, exploring your mouth with a hunger that made your knees weak. You could feel the hard planes of his body against your back, the heat of him seeping into you, making you ache with a need that was growing more urgent by the second.
His hand on your neck slid down, tracing the line of your collarbone, then lower still, over the chain he had placed there, and lower, to the swell of your breast. He cupped you gently, his thumb brushing against your nipple, making it harden beneath your clothing. You gasped into his mouth, and he swallowed the sound, his kiss deepening further, becoming almost desperate.
His other hand slid down your arm, then around your waist. You could feel his erection, hard and insistent, pressing against your back.
He broke the kiss then, only to trail his lips down your jaw, to your neck, nipping and sucking at the sensitive skin there. His hands were everywhere now, one still on your breast, the other roaming, tracing the curve of your waist, the flare of your hips, the softness of your stomach. You arched into his touch, wanting more, needing more.
His teeth grazed your earlobe as he whispered sweet nothings. His voice was hoarse, frantic, sending shivers down your spine. His hand left your breast, only to slide down your stomach, pausing at the waistband of your skirt. He looked at you, his eyes dark with desire, asking for permission.
You nodded, your breath coming in short gasps, your body aching with anticipation. His hand slid into the fabric, cupping you through your panties, his fingers pressing gently, making you moan. He smiled against your neck, a creeping, wicked smile, and began to move his hand, slow and deliberate.
His fingers pressed and rubbed, the thin fabric of your panties doing little to hide the heat and wetness building between your legs. You could feel how soaked you were, your body responding to his touch with a desperation that bordered on madness. He could feel it too, his fingers rubbing slow circles, teasing you, drawing out your pleasure.
âMmm, you're so wet for me, darlin',â he muttered, a rumble against your skin, his accent thick and sultry. âI can feel how much you want this. How much you want me. Lord knows I've been waitin' for this since I first laid eyes on ya.â His fingers pressed harder, more insistently, and you bucked against his hand, chasing the pleasure he was building within you.
He chuckled, a low, throaty sound that vibrated against your back. âThat's it, baby. Ride my hand. Take what you need.â His fingers slipped beneath the fabric, finally touching your bare skin, and you cried out at the contact, your body trembling with anticipation.
He took his time, exploring you slowly, his fingers tracing your folds, spreading your wetness, circling your clit with a teasing touch that had you squirming and begging for more. âYou're so fuckin' perfect,â he panted, voice hoarse with desire. âSo wet. So ready for me.â
His fingers dipped lower, teasing your entrance, and you pushed back against him, trying to impale yourself on his fingers. He chuckled again, a low, knowing sound. âEager, ain't we?â he hummed, his fingers finally slipping inside you, slow and deep. âFuck, you're tight.â
He began to move his fingers, pumping them in and out of you in a steady, deliberate rhythm, his palm grinding against your clit with each movement. You could feel your orgasm building, your body coiling tighter and tighter, your breath coming in short, desperate gasps.
âYa like that, darlin'?â he grunted, voice taunting. âYa like feeling me inside you, stretchin' you, fillin' you up?â His fingers curled, hitting a spot inside you that made your eyes roll back in your head, your body convulsing with pleasure.
âYou're so fuckin' beautiful when you come undone like this,â he growled into your ear. You'd never imagined a man could speak like this, let alone hear it. âSo fucking perfect. My perfect, wet, little mess.â His fingers moved faster, his palm grinding harder against your clit.
But just before you could cross that euphoric threshold.
He stopped.
Your body instantly ached, desperate for release. You whimpered, a sound of pure need and frustration. He returned the sound with a pleased, smug chuckle.
âShh, darlin',â he cooed, planting a loving kiss on your neck. âI've got ya. I'm not gonna leave you hangin', promise.â His fingers slid out of you, and you mourned the loss, your body already missing the fullness, the pressure, the pleasure.
Then his hands were on your hips, turning you around, and you found yourself face to face with him, his eyes dark with lust, his breath ragged and uneven. He pushed you gently, urging you to sit on the edge of the table, and you complied, your legs shaking with anticipation.
He knelt before you, his hands sliding up your thighs with a deliberate slowness, pushing your skirt up with them, exposing you to his hungry gaze. His touch was firm yet gentle, his calloused palms rough against your soft skin, sending shivers of anticipation coursing through your body.
âYou're a sight,â he whispered, worship on his tongue. âAll swollen 'n soaked for me.â
He began to kiss his way up your thigh, slow and deliberate, his lips soft and wet against your skin. He took his time, lingering, tasting, exploring every inch of you as if you were a delicacy he intended to savor.
When his hands reached the apex of your thighs, he paused, his thumbs brushing against the sensitive skin just below your hip bones. You shivered, your body aching with need, your breath coming in short, desperate gasps. He leaned in, his lips pressing a soft, reverent kiss to your inner thigh, just above your knee. You could feel the scratch of his stubble, the heat of his breath.
He looked up at you, his eyes dark and hungry, and then, without warning, he leaned in and bit down on your inner thigh, hard enough to draw a small amount of blood.
You cried out, a sound of surprise and pleasure and pain all rolled into one. He sucked gently at the wound, his eyes locked on yours, a slow, wicked smile spreading across his face as he watched your reaction. You could feel the blood trickling down your thigh, warm and wet, and it sent a primal shiver down your spine.
He released your thigh, his chin glistening with a mixture of your blood and his own saliva. He wasted no time licking away what remained of you on his lips.
He leaned in closer, his breath hot against your core, and you could feel the promise of what was to come. Your body ached with anticipation, your mind racing, your heart pounding in your chest like a drum, urging him on, begging for release, begging for more. And he obliged, his tongue snaking out, tasting you slowly, deliberately, from your entrance to your clit, and back again, his hands gripping your hips, holding you in place as he devoured you, as he claimed you, as he worshipped you.
He started at your entrance, his tongue pushing inside, tasting your depths, fucking you with his tongue in slow, deliberate thrusts that had your body convulsing and your hands gripping his hair, holding him to you, urging him deeper.
âYa taste like heaven,â his words came through muffled and damp, but the meaning was never lost. âSo sweet. Like honey. Like nectar.â
His lips closed around your clit, sucking gently at first, then with more insistence, his tongue flicking and circling, driving you wild, making your body shake and tremble and buck against his mouth. You could feel his stubble, rough and scratchy against your inner thighs, a contrast to the soft, wet heat of his mouth, the sharp, tantalizing sensation sending you spiraling even further.
He pulled back, his chin and lips and neck glistening with your wetness, his eyes locked on yours as he licked his lips, tasting you, savoring you, a low, appreciative growl rumbling in his chest. âI could feast on you for fuckin' hours, darlin',â it seemed like he couldn't go even a second without talking you through it. âLike a fuckin' drug.â
He dove back in, his tongue pushing inside you, fucking you with long, slow licks that had your body convulsing. He pulled back, his tongue flat against your flesh, licking you from your entrance to your clit and back again, over and over, the rhythm steady and unyielding, driving you towards the edge of sanity.
He focused on your clit again, his tongue flicking and circling, his lips sucking gently, his breath hot and ragged against your skin. He could feel your body tensing, your muscles coiling tight, your breath coming in short, desperate gasps. He redoubled his efforts, his mouth open wide, taking in as much of you as he could, his tongue and lips working in tandem.
âThat's it, darlin',â he purred, tone almost pleading, reminding you of how you first found him on your doorstep. It all felt like a distant memory now. âCome for me. Let me taste that sweet nectar. Let me drink it all up.â
With a cry that seemed to tear from your very soul, you came undone, your orgasm crashing over you in waves of pure, unadulterated pleasure. He drank you up, his tongue lapping at your folds, his lips soft and gentle against your sensitive flesh, his breath hot and ragged against your skin.
He slowed his movements, his tongue gentle and soothing, his lips pressing soft, reverent kisses against your flesh.
His chin and lips and neck were absolutely drenched, eyes locked on yours, a slow, crooked smile spreading across his face. He leaned in, his lips pressing softly against yours, and you could taste yourself on him, musky and sweet and intoxicating. He kissed you deeply, his tongue exploring your mouth, sharing your taste with you. Only you.
He pulled away unhurriedly, his lips glistening with your essence, a satisfied smirk playing on his mouth. His eyes never left yours as he stood up. You could see the rise and fall of his chest, his breath still ragged.
With a slow, deliberate movement, he reached up and wiped his face with the back of his hand, a gesture that had you following his every move. He brought his hand to his mouth, licking and sucking your taste from his skin, his eyes rolling back slightly as he savored every last drop.
âYou're somethin' else. Somethin' real special.â
He stepped closer, his strong hands gripping your hips and lifting you effortlessly off the table. You let out a soft gasp, your arms instinctively wrapping around his neck for support as your legs, weak and trembling, struggled to find their strength. He held you tightly against him, your bodies pressed together, and you could feel his heart pounding in his chest, matching the rhythm of your own.
âEasy, lass,â he soothed. âI've got you.â
He started to walk, his steps steady and sure, carrying you with an ease that belied your boneless state. You rested your head against his shoulder, your breath hot against his neck, as he navigated the room, his destination clear.
Gently, he laid you down on the bed, his body following yours, enveloping you in his warmth.
He hovered just above you, arms braced on either side, his eyes tracing every line of your face like they were reading scripture. His breath fanned across your cheek, warm and steady, and the way he looked at you, like you were something holy, made your chest ache.
One hand came up to fondle your necklace, rough knuckles grazing soft skin. âIâll take ya up on that offer this time,â he mumbled, voice husky with something between gratitude and want. âTo stay the night.â
He leaned in, kissing your forehead slowly, then your cheek, then your mouth. Each one a promise, a vow wrapped in silence.
And when he finally settled beside you, pulling you close until your bodies fit together like roots twining beneath the soil, the world quieted. The night wrapped around you both like a shroud.
For the first time in a long time, neither of you felt alone.
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ęąá´á´á´á´ĘĘ: New York, 1970. Youâve come too far from Mississippi to be told no. Your agent, Remmick, calls you his masterpiece, and heâll do anything to make the world see you the same. You donât ask what it costs him, but every time the spotlight hits your skin, his eyes shine like itâs worth it.
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á´/É´: title taken directly from this incredible song. if there's any fanfic writer reading this, mix your settings up! it's so fun to go out of your comfort zone and just go batshit crazy with your ideas and that's exactly what i did. the fact that i had to split this into two posts makes me so mad like i promise i'm not interaction farming tumblr just can't handle the heat of 20k+ words. i've done grateful remmick, pathetic remmick, and now we've got obsessive remmick. collecting his archetypes like infinity stones đ! as always, white girls i promise you can have your fun with this too. enjoy reading divas! i don't do taglists personally, so just follow me if you want to be updated when i post c:
á´Ąá´Ęɴɪɴɢęą: (including cont'd) SLOWburn, obsession, murder, vampirism, blood, bloodplay i think, praise kink, breeding kink, body worship, eye contact, biting, cunnilingus, very light dubcon, exhibitionism, p in v, monsterfucking, overstimulation, dacryphillia, cockwarming, the wildest possible time to have sex (you won't guess it), i'm sorry yall this shit is just freaky as fuck, overt affection from the start, fluff, a little domesticity never hurts, remmick being an unhinged control freak but in the least toxic way possible, reader did not prepare herself for ts, maybe a little angsty but that depends on your definition, codependency, power imbalance but it's never abused(?), religious undertones if you squint, depictions of racism, texturism, and microaggressions in the fashion industry, amateur knowledge of 1970s fashion and modeling (i was living on the devil wears prada and a prayer), excessive use of dividers, minor vampire rule changes for writing convenience
New York City, 1970.
The city shimmered in the distance like a mirage, flickering orange and gold against the horizon, then hardening into glass and steel as you drew closer. Manhattan rose from the ground like something alive, wild and bristling, all sirens and streetlamps and noise thick enough to taste. The car hummed low beneath you, headlights slicing through the last stretch of night. You leaned against the window, forehead pressed to the cool glass, watching the skyline appear piece by piece like it was being conjured just for you.
It had been a long drive. A strange one. Not quick, not smooth. Over twenty-four hours, maybe more. Time bled at the edges when you were with Remmick.
He wouldnât drive during the day. Not once. Every time the sky began to lighten, heâd pull off the road. Into a gas station, a motel lot, once even behind an abandoned diner where the air smelled like rust and pine needles, and heâd wait. In silence. Crouched low in the driverâs seat, sunglasses on even in the dark. Youâd offered to take the wheel more than once, half-joking, half-worried, but heâd only chuckled and said, "Ainât no use rushinâ. Best things bloom slow, darlinâ. Let the night do her part."
The highways felt endless. Flat fields, flickering street signs, the quiet rhythm of tires against asphalt. You dozed in and out, lulled by his steady driving and the scratch of his thumb against his lighter. He didnât play the radio. He didnât sing. Sometimes he talked to himself, voice low and rhythmic like a sermon, words you couldnât quite catch. Other times, he said your name like it was the only thing worth saying.
And then: the city.
He pulled the car to the curb, the engine softening into silence. You blinked up at the brownstone. Tall and narrow, made of worn red brick with black trim and a wrought-iron gate that looked older than both of you. The street around it was quiet, lit by just a few streetlamps buzzing with moths. It wasnât a mansion, but it was nice. Too nice, as if it'd been detailed just minutes before you arrived. Clean front stoop. Big bay window. Flower boxes under the sills.
You frowned. âThis yours?â
Remmick stepped out of the car, rounded the hood, and opened your door with a little bow. âOurs,â he said simply, like that explained everything.
You stood slowly, stretching your spine after hours curled in the seat. The New York air was colder than Mississippi. Sharper. The kind that cut clean and left you blinking. You looked up at the brownstone again. It had to be expensive. The kind of place a real agent might have. The kind of place someone powerful stayed, not someone who drifted into a backwoods general store and offered to make you a star.
But he just smiled. Like he already knew what you were thinking.
âAinât much yet,â he said, his voice low, accent thick and lazy and true. âBut itâs the start. From here on out, we climb.â
You stared at him. Your so-called agent, your midnight stranger, the man who found you counting change behind the counter of your uncleâs store in Mississippi, under flickering fluorescents and a ceiling fan that squealed with every turn.
You hadnât been looking to be found.
You hadnât even meant to speak to him.
Heâd come in just before closing, tall and tired-looking, dressed like he didnât belong. Black turtleneck, coat that didnât suit the heat, and those eyes. Blue, yes, but something off about them. Ancient. Red flashed in his pupils if the light hit just right, like a warning. You caught yourself staring too long.
Then he said it. âYou ever thought about modeling, sweetheart?â
You laughed in his face.
He didnât leave.
He came back the next night. And the one after that.
He didnât try to touch you. Didnât leer or flirt. Just leaned on the counter and looked at you like you were already on the cover of Vogue or Life. Like he was just waiting for the world to catch up.
âYouâre a fuckinâ star,â he said again and again. âYou donât see it, but I do.â
Now here you were.
He carried your suitcase without asking, easy like it weighed nothing, and led you up the narrow staircase. Inside, the apartment smelled faintly of lavender and old books. The walls were clean, freshly painted, but the baseboards and window frames still bore signs of age. The floors creaked under your feet, polished wood catching the light. The front room had a velvet couch in a deep wine color, a small but elegant fireplace, and shelves that already held a few books. Some old, some new, all carefully arranged.
There was a vase on the windowsill. Empty, waiting.
It wasnât just an apartment. It felt like someone had made space for you here.
You dropped your bag near the door and looked around slowly, jaw slack with disbelief.
âYou⌠really live like this?â
Remmick leaned against the doorframe, his shirt collar open just enough to reveal the top of his pale chest. That red glint shimmered faintly behind his tired blue eyes, not threatening, just⌠different. Other. He didnât hide it. You didnât want him to.
He grinned, showing the faint edge of his canines. Too sharp to be human, too familiar to scare you. âI told you, didnât I?â he said softly. âYouâre gonna be a fuckinâ star.â
You stepped toward him, unsure if you meant to laugh or cry. âAnd this is part of that?â
He nodded once, serious now. âYou deserve a place to start from. A place that ainât tryinâ to drag you back down. I meant it when I said Iâd take care of you.â
And in his voice, you heard it again. That vow heâd made in a gas station parking lot under moth-covered lights. That strange devotion that didnât ask for anything in return.
You looked around one last time, then back at him.
âSo what now?â
He stepped into the room, slow and certain, like heâd been waiting years for this moment.
âNow,â he said, brushing a stray curl from your face, âwe get to work.â
You very quickly learned the situation youâd gotten yourself into.
It wasnât subtle. There were no illusions of partnership or shared footing. You werenât splitting rent, trading favors, or learning the city together like other girls who moved north with dreams and no real plan. No, you were being kept. Thoroughly, obsessively, deliberately kept.
It started small. You mentioned your shoes were falling apart. The next morning, a pair of Ferragamos appeared beside the bed. You half-joked about not owning a proper winter coat, and he was gone for twenty minutes, then returned with three. Leather. Wool. Something French you couldnât pronounce, still with the tag attached.
The closet filled before you realized what was happening. It started with a rack of dresses, mostly black, some red, some blue, a few greens and golds, all tailored like they knew your body before youâd ever tried them on. Then came the heels. Then the jewelry. Not flashy, but real. Real enough to catch light. Real enough to turn heads.
You didnât ask for it. Sometimes, you werenât even sure you wanted it.
But he noticed everything.
You lingered a second too long looking at a photo in a magazine, the jacket the model wore, the earrings that matched her lipstick, and the next day, something damn near identical was folded neatly at the foot of the bed.
âRemmick, I donât need-â
âDidnât ask what you need, darlinâ,â heâd say, brushing past you with a cigarette tucked behind his ear. âI asked what you want.â
He never lit that cigarette inside. Not even once. Wouldnât so much as hold a lighter within ten feet of you. Heâd smoke out on the stoop or disappear to the far end of the street, muttering something about ânot stinkinâ up the air you breathe.â The first time you joked about wanting one yourself, just to see what the fuss was about, he looked at you like youâd cursed, warning ânot with a smile like yours, not a chance.â
It wasnât just the clothes.
You ran out of conditioner once. Just once. The bottle was still in the trash when you stepped out of the shower and found five new ones lined up on the bathroom sink. Different brands, all familiar, all from back home. Stuff you didnât even think they sold up north. Heâd stocked them like heâd raided a beauty supply store in Jackson and brought the entire aisle to you.
When you tried to thank him, he shook his head and looked at you like youâd insulted him.
âDonât need thanks,â he murmured, turning the sink knobs absently, like making sure the water still ran. âDonât want it neither. Just want you ready. Prepared. You look the part, they treat you like the part.â
That was the other thing. He never wavered.
You could be barefaced and groggy, hair wrapped, in slippers and one of his oversized shirts, and heâd still say it: âYouâre the most beautiful thing in this city.â
Always with that voice, like gravel and honey, and always with that look. Like he was memorizing you for when you werenât there.
He refused to let you carry groceries. Refused to let you pay at restaurants, even diners. The one time you tried, fumbling for your wallet while he was in the bathroom, he damn near lost it. Quietly, of course. Never loud. Never unkind. But the look on his face when he stepped out and saw you holding your purse?
He took your wrist gently and leaned in close. âYou ainât got to do that, darlinâ. You never will.â
And you believed him.
Because Remmick didnât make promises lightly.
Heâd booked your first photoshoot before your second night in the city. He knew a guy who knew a guy. Shady as hell, probably, but the studio was real, the lighting was good, and the photographer never once looked at you sideways. You didnât have a portfolio yet, didnât know how to pose, but Remmick stood just out of frame, nodding, giving you small, soft corrections. Not criticism. Just reminders.
âChin up. Eyes sharper. Thatâs it, darlinâ. Just like that.â
He was everywhere. In the corner of the room, watching. Waiting. Always watching.
You got used to it. Maybe too fast. Maybe too easy.
But something about his presence didnât unnerve you. It calmed you. Like if anything went wrong, if anyone tried anything, heâd handle it before you even knew to be afraid.
The girls you passed on the sidewalk in Harlem, downtown, SoHo, they looked at you with curiosity. Some with admiration, others with judgment. You didnât blame them. You were the new face, the quiet one with an older man who opened every door and paid every bill and looked at you like you were something exquisite and holy.
And you noticed him too.
The way he never ate. The way his canines always looked a little too sharp when he smiled too wide. The way his eyes gleamed red sometimes when the light dipped low.
You werenât stupid.
You werenât scared either.
Because when he looked at you, it wasnât hunger. It was worship.
Like heâd waited lifetimes for you. Like now that he had you, there wasnât a single thing on this earth. living or dead. he wouldnât rip apart to keep you standing.
And the strangest part?
You were starting to believe it.
You still didnât know what exactly he was. He hadnât told you, not directly. But there were nights when the city seemed to go still around him, when your reflection in the apartment window looked younger than it had the day before, when he came back from âerrandsâ with dirt on his sleeves and a strange, metallic smell clinging to his coat.
You didnât ask.
You just watched him move through your life like a secret you didnât want solved.
And when he knelt in front of your vanity, helping you fasten the strap of your heels, he looked up at you like you were the moon.
âWhatever you want, darlinâ,â he said. âAll you ever gotta do is ask.â
And you believed him. Again.
The proofs arrived in a thick envelope, crisp and neatly stacked, smelling like ink and developer fluid. Remmick slit it open with his finger, careful not to smudge the edges, then spread the photos out across the kitchen table like cards in a high-stakes hand.
You hovered nearby, still in your robe, coffee cooling untouched between your hands. Heâd barely said a word all morning, just paced between windows and rearranged the chairs until the light hit the table just right. Now he sat, back straight, fingers laced under his chin like he was studying scripture.
âAlright,â he muttered, nodding to himself. âLetâs see what weâre workinâ with.â
He picked up the first photo, held it close to his face, then glanced at you with a small, stunned kind of smile.
âGoddamn, darlinâ,â he said, shaking his head slowly. âLook at you. Look at those eyes. Like they know somethinâ nobody else does.â
Your lips twitched. âThat good or bad?â
He flicked his eyes up. âThatâs perfect.â
The next photo didnât get the same reaction. He turned it sideways, then back, then let out a thoughtful little hum before setting it aside.
âNot that one?â
âToo wide on the lens. Warps the shoulder line.â He looked up again, serious now. âAinât you. Thatâs on the camera, not the subject.â
You sat across from him, watching the small pile of rejects begin to form at his elbow. But with each one he discarded, he gave an explanation. Real, technical, thorough.
âThis oneâs too soft. Focus is just off the eye, makes you look unsure.â
âLightingâs dirty on this one. Sinks the skin tone. Not your fault, not on you.â
âAngleâs wrong here. Nose ainât shaped like that, lens just thinks it knows better.â
He never let it seem like youâd done something wrong.
Even the ones he didnât like, he lingered on first. Admired them. Complimented the tilt of your head, the curve of your mouth, the way you held your hands. He only tossed them aside if the frame failed you, if the shot wasnât worthy.
âYouâre not a problem to fix, darlinâ,â he said at one point, tapping one of the keeper shots. âYouâre a truth they gotta learn how to capture right.â
You were starting to understand how his mind worked. Not just as your agent, but as someone who genuinely couldnât stand seeing the world misunderstand you. It mattered to him, deeply. Almost violently.
He ended up with four he liked. Four out of thirty.
âThis one for the face,â he said, sliding the first forward. âNo smile, just eyes. Says take me serious.â
The second: âThis one shows the angles. That jaw? That neck? Youâll have girls tryinâ to grow bones like yours.â
The third: âLittle softness. You look like someoneâs dream here.â
And the last, his favorite, he didnât explain. Just stared at it for a long while, thumb grazing the edge, eyes unreadable.
When you reached for it, he didnât let go right away. Then he finally handed it over.
It was a shot of you mid-turn, hair caught in motion, dress pulling just slightly at the hip, your mouth parted like youâd been about to laugh.
You didnât even remember posing like that.
âI love this one,â you said quietly.
âI know,â Remmick replied, watching you with something almost reverent in his face. âThatâs why it works.â
You leaned your cheek into your hand, tracing the edge of the photo with your finger. âDonât think Iâve ever seen myself like this before.â
ââCause you havenât had someone show you right. Not till now.â
He stood, collecting the rejected prints and sliding them back into the envelope. You watched him move. Graceful in that slow, deliberate way of his, like every motion was premeditated.
At the counter, he paused to straighten the stack of fashion magazines heâd brought home the night before, flipping through one until he found a dog-eared page. A model with your same cheekbones, but none of your soul.
âSee that?â he asked, tilting it toward you. âTheyâll chase this look âtil they die tryinâ, but you-â He tapped the table beside your photo. âYou got it. Easy.â
He lingered a moment longer, then returned to the table, his thumb brushing a speck of dust from the corner of your favorite shot. You noticed his hands. Always busy, always precise. Even when they trembled a little, like they did now, like he was holding something too precious to mess up.
âGonna send these four out by noon,â he said, tapping the chosen shots. âCouple magazines, two scouts. Iâll follow up by phone tomorrow.â
Your brow lifted. âThat fast?â
He gave a small shrug, lips tugging into a lopsided grin. âYou think I came all this way just to sit on my ass?â He leaned across the table, close enough for you to see the faint red gleam flicker at the edge of his irises. Subtle, quick. âTold you Iâd make you a fuckinâ star. Didnât say when. Just said I would.â
He leaned back in the chair, exhaling slowly, then looked at you with that soft, satisfied expression he wore whenever he thought you werenât watching. âPut somethinâ nice on, sweetheart,â he said, voice low and warm. âIâm takinâ you out tonight. Gotta celebrate your first real shoot.â
The look in his eyes told you it wasnât just about the pictures. It was about you. Everything was.
He didnât call it a date. Wouldnât even come close.
When you stepped out of the bedroom in one of the dresses heâd picked out days ago, red, silky, and cut to fit like it had been stitched directly onto you, he only gave a low whistle and said, âNow thatâs how a star walks into a room.â Not you look beautiful. Not I canât stop starinâ at you. But it was there in his face, plain as anything. The way he let his eyes trace you, slow and reverent, like he was seeing something sacred.
He held the door for you like always, one hand at the small of your back, guiding you toward the black town car idling at the curb. The engine was quiet, the driver already waiting. No one had told you where you were going, and Remmick didnât say. He just tucked you into the backseat like you were made of porcelain and leaned close with a grin, his fingers grazing your bare shoulder.
âBig night,â he murmured, low and warm. âYou should eat like it.â
You didnât expect what came next. The restaurant didnât have a name on the front. Just a narrow archway tucked between a boutique hotel and a shuttered tailor shop, with a single golden plaque bolted to the brick. You wouldnât have noticed it at all if he hadnât guided you up the steps like he belonged there.
The maĂŽtre dâ recognized him instantly. âRight this way, sir,â he said without even asking for a name, and suddenly you were being led into the kind of place people waited months to get into. The dining room was dim and hushed, wrapped in warm light and the clink of expensive silverware. Velvet chairs, fresh flowers at every table, real wax candles instead of electric flickers. The sort of atmosphere where everyone whispered even when they didnât have to, because they could.
You were seated in the center of it all, surrounded by couples in tailored suits and silk shawls, sparkling jewelry and moneyed quiet. The moment you sat down, you felt them. Eyes, subtle and sideways, glancing over menus and martinis to look at you. You were the only Black woman in the room. Probably the only one whoâd been here in a while, if ever. Their stares werenât loud, but they were there. Lingering. Curious. Unwelcome.
Remmick didnât miss it.
His hand was already on the table, fingers brushing yours. âHey,â he said, soft enough only you could hear. âThey look âcause they donât get it. âCause youâre sittinâ there lookinâ like a fuckinâ dream, and theyâre not used to seeinâ somethinâ that real.â
You looked up at him, and he was already watching you, something dangerous and steady behind the softness in his voice. âLet âem stare. You belong right here, sweetheart. You belong everywhere.â
That was all he had to say. The weight of the room shifted. Not for them, for you. Like suddenly you were immune. Like the whispering walls of that restaurant had never held a woman like you before, but they were damn lucky to now.
He ordered for both of you, waving off the menu like he already knew what was good. âSheâll have the oysters and the saffron risotto,â he said with a smile that was somehow both charming and firm. âBring us the champagne. The good kind.â
You laughed and asked how he even got a reservation. He just shrugged. âTold âem I had someone I needed to impress. They didnât ask moreân that.â
The food came in careful courses, small and perfect, each bite richer than anything youâd ever tasted. He didnât eat much, just pushed things around on his plate while watching you. Every time you made a face or hummed in surprise at the flavor, he looked like he was cataloging it, like heâd remember what you liked forever.
âTell me which dish you want me to learn to cook,â he said at one point. âIâll have the whole damn kitchen figured out by next week if you ask.â
You told him that wasnât necessary, and he smiled. âThat ainât the point.â
Between courses, he kept the compliments coming. Not like a man trying to win favor, more like someone stunned into reverence. He said it like a fact, like gravity: you were stunning, and you should already be on magazine covers. âThe cameras donât even get it yet,â he said. âThey ainât caught what I see.â
Still, he never called it a date.
Even when his gaze lingered on your mouth for too long. Even when he wiped a smear of sauce from the corner of your lip with his thumb and let it stay there for a beat too long. Even when his voice went low again and he said, âWeâll remember this night. First of many, I promise you that.â
You smiled down at your plate, cheeks warm, heart louder than it had been all day. He watched you like you were the only one left in the world. Like he could feel the pull of it just as much as you could, but wouldnât name it. Not yet.
Dessert was something ridiculous with gold leaf and dark chocolate, something you didnât ask for but he somehow knew youâd love. When you took the first bite, he grinned wide and leaned back in his chair.
âA star and her agent,â he said. âThatâs all this is.â
But his voice was thick, and his eyes didnât leave yours, and when he reached out to adjust the strap of your dress where it slipped on your shoulder, his hand lingered, slow and possessive.
âAnd stars oughta be spoiled, donât you think?â
You nodded, quiet, caught between the warmth of the food and the fizz of champagne and the impossible softness in his voice. He said nothing more, just sat there across from you like heâd already decided you were the best thing heâd ever done.
And maybe he had.
Watching Remmick work was your favorite pastime.
You curled your legs up beneath you on the couch, still wearing the oversized tee heâd laid out for you. Not one of yours, of course. Something soft and perfectly worn, smelling faintly of cedar and whatever cologne he only ever seemed to wear around the apartment. The plate on your lap was empty now, just crumbs and the last smear of blackberry preserves from the toast heâd made fresh that morning. No burnt edges. No crusts. The way you liked it.
Heâd sat with you through the whole thing, elbows on the table, watching every bite like it fed him instead. When you asked if he was gonna eat too, he only smiled.
âIâll grab somethinâ later. You go on.â
He never ate around you, not really. Said mornings werenât his time. Said he didnât like the taste of breakfast. Said heâd already had his coffee. A lie, probably, because you never once saw him make a cup. But heâd sat there all the same, chin in his hand, smiling at you like you were the sunrise itself.
Now he stood across the apartment, back to you, the long cord of the house phone stretched taut from the wall to where he leaned against the kitchen counter. His voice was calm but firm, syrupy in a way that meant he was negotiating. You could only hear his side, but it was enough to understand.
â...I know what Iâm askinâ, but you ainât looked at her yet, Mary. Once you see her in front of you, youâll understand-â
A long pause. The hand not gripping the phone gestured in frustration, but his voice didnât budge.
âYeah. I get that. But what Iâm sayinâ is, she ainât just a checkmark on a theme issue, alright? Sheâs talent. Sheâs the face. Whether that issueâs in January or June or never, she deserves ink. You know it.â
Your stomach tightened a little. He hadnât said what magazine it was, not directly, but youâd caught the hint yesterday when he started listing off dream shots. Glamour, heâd said. Cosmopolitan. Vogue, if they bite, but Glamourâs got that open slot sooner. At the time, youâd thought he was dreaming big. Shooting for the stars to see what stuck.
Now, listening to him wrangle a gatekeeper with the kind of slick charm only he could wield, you realized he hadnât just dreamed. Heâd promised.
And he was fighting tooth and nail to deliver.
âMmhm. Yeah. Yeah, Iâm sure. I read it.â His voice thinned slightly, though he still sounded smooth. âSaw the whole spread. Good issue.â
A beat. You caught the flicker of his jaw tightening.
âNah, Iâm not sayinâ you shouldnât have done it. Just sayinâ maybe you oughta take another look at your timing. Feels a little... seasonal. Like maybe you think color only matters once a year.â
Your eyebrows rose.
There was a longer pause now. You heard a faint tinny buzz from the other end of the line, though the words were too muffled to catch. Remmick didnât speak. He just waited, staring out the tiny kitchen window at nothing. His fingers tapped the countertop, slow and even. You could feel it. The moment. That low boil of something restrained. Whatever sheâd said next, it had hit a nerve.
Then finally, he spoke again.
âListen, Mary. Iâm not askinâ you to do her a favor. Iâm offerinâ you a face your readers are gonna be grateful for. Sheâs got the look and the movement. Sheâs camera-trained and runway-ready, and she just got off a shoot with a photographer I know youâve pulled from before. You want numbers? Youâll get numbers. All I need is fifteen minutes in front of your casting director.â
Another pause.
His eyes flicked to you.
You offered the smallest smile, and he smiled back. Just slightly, just enough to soften the line of his mouth. Then turned back to the phone.
âPerfect. Yeah. Tuesdayâs good. Tell âem sheâll be there.â
He hung up with the kind of gentleness that didnât match the fight youâd just heard in his voice. As if slamming the phone down wouldâve undone the win. He stayed there a second longer, hand resting on the receiver, then turned toward you and ran a hand through his hair.
âWell,â he said, voice back to its usual slow drawl. âHope you didnât make other plans for Tuesday.â
He'd already made sure you didn't.
You blinked, throwing the first name that came to your mind out. âThat was Glamour?â
He gave a short nod and crossed the room in two strides, crouching down in front of the couch. âThat was me doinâ what I said I would. Youâre in, sweetheart. Casting preview, ten a.m. Iâll walk you in myself.â
Your heart was thudding, too fast to hide. âRemmick... they said no at first, didnât they?â
He didnât lie. Didnât pretend. Just shrugged. âDidnât matter what they said at first. You got me. I make sure first ainât never final.â
You looked at him, really looked. The way his blue eyes caught the light and shimmered red in the middle, something not quite right about them, something old and endless that had never scared you. Something that felt like fire behind glass. Youâd never asked what he was, not out loud. But you knew.
And you knew whatever he was, it loved you. Or worshipped you. Or both.
âRemmick,â you said, quieter now. âWhat if it doesnât go well?â
He reached up, thumb brushing just beneath your cheek. âThen I raise hell.â
You laughed, half from nerves and half from wonder. Youâd come to this city with nothing but a suitcase, a dream, and a man whoâd found you behind a dusty counter and said star like he already believed it. And now here you were. Toast crumbs on your lap, your agent on fire, and Tuesday morning shining in the near distance like something impossible.
You werenât sure if you were ready.
But with Remmick at your side, it almost didn't matter.
Tuesday morning came earlier than you'd hoped, though you werenât the one who set the alarm. Remmick had been up before the sun, half-dressed and humming under his breath in the next room while laying your outfit out across the back of the couch.
Heâd picked it the night before, but apparently that hadnât stopped him from fussing over it again in the morning. You heard the crisp flick of a lint roller, the brush of fingers smoothing seams, the rustle of tissue paper as he checked the shoes a third time.
When you finally dragged yourself out of bed, you found the kettle already whistling and the lights dimmed low, the way you liked them. Remmick was standing by the window, fingers pressed lightly to the frame, eyes flicking up toward the gray, dim sky like he expected it to turn on him.
You watched him for a moment, leaning against the doorframe in your feather-trimmed robe, half-curious, half-sleepy.
âYou waitinâ on somethinâ?â you asked.
He turned slightly, not startled, just aware. That quiet, humming attention he always gave you.
âMm? No,â he said, too quickly. âJust checkinâ the weather. They were callinâ for sun earlier. Thought maybe itâd clear.â
You blinked. âAnd thatâs bad?â
He smiled, but it didnât quite reach his eyes. âOnly if you donât want your hair frizzinâ before the cameras roll.â
You didnât buy that, not fully, but you didnât press. Especially not when you caught the way his shoulders dropped just a little with relief as he turned back toward the window and muttered, âOvercastâs good. Real good.â
Then, as if a switch had been flipped, all his focus was back on you.
âWent with the green. Itâll set off your skin like itâs already been retouched,â he said, running a hand over the fabric. âOpen collar, mid-thigh hem. Youâre showinâ just enough to make âem lean forward, not enough to make âem blink wrong. Youâll kill in it.â
Heâd chosen your heels too. Pearlescent and soft. He bent to help buckle them before you could even sit down fully, kneeling in front of you like it was the most natural thing in the world. He looked up after the second one clicked into place.
He pulled you in front of the small mirror in the hallway, fingers brushing through your curls. Careful but firm, like he was memorizing every strand, every coil.
âYou look damn beautiful like this,â he said quietly, his voice low enough that it felt like a secret meant only for you. âThis hair? Itâs got fire. Itâs you. Ainât no straightening iron gonna fix whatâs already perfect.â
You watched his face, how his lips twitched into a rare smile, how his sharp canines flashed for a moment when he spoke. It was like he was showing you a piece of a world you hadnât dared to claim yet.
âIf they try to tell you to change it, you tell âem exactly what Iâm tellinâ you.â He leaned in, voice dropping lower, the kind of serious that makes you hold your breath. âIf they donât like this, they can choke on it.â
You couldn't help but laugh.
The walk to the Glamour offices wasnât long, but he stretched it out like a runway. Kept looking you up and down with a quiet smile that made your stomach dip.
âYou remember what to say if they ask about work history?â
âFreelance,â you said. âNew Orleans, mostly. Catalogue stuff. A few showroom calls.â
âGood girl.â His hand found the small of your back. âAnd if they ask whoâs representinâ you?â
âYou.â
âDamn right.â
Every few steps, heâd stop to adjust your sleeve, or reposition your collar just slightly, or brush a speck of lint off your back like it was a threat. All the while, compliments rolled off him like breath.
âWalkinâ like you got six hundred cameras on you already.â
âNo one else out here looks like you. Thatâs why theyâre gonna remember.â
âGod, darlinâ, if they donât pick you up after this, Iâll make a whole new magazine just to show âem what they missed.â
He meant it too. That was the thing.
When you reached the building, the receptionist barely had time to look up before Remmick had already introduced you both. âTen oâclock, casting preview for senior editorial. Weâre expected.â
He kept his hand low at your back as you were ushered toward the elevators, nodding politely but not waiting to be led. He knew the layout better than he should have. Knew exactly which floor. Which door. Which office.
You didnât ask how.
Just like you didnât ask how he managed the reservation for that dinner, or the money for the apartment, or the pull it mustâve taken to get a Tuesday meeting with Glamour on less than a weekâs notice.
He stood with you right up to the waiting room. Talked you through every possible scenario. Repeated it all again. Not like he didnât think you remembered, but like he needed to be sure. His hand curled around yours for a moment, thumb brushing your knuckles.
âYouâre gonna go in there, and youâre gonna own it,â he said low. âChin up. Shoulders back. They ainât doinâ you a favor, darlinâ. Youâre the one bringinâ value.â
You smiled, even if your heart was loud in your ears. âYouâre staying, right?â
âAs long as they let me.â
The door cracked open then. A woman in a gray blazer stepped out and gave you a polite, clipped smile. âTheyâre ready for you.â
Remmick looked at her, then back at you.
âYou got this,â he whispered, eyes catching the light like glass. âGo turn âem to mush.â
You stepped through the door with a deep breath, feeling him at your back even after it shut behind you.
The room wasnât anything like youâd imagined. No flashbulbs. No velvet couches. Just white walls, a long table, and a row of people behind it. Only three today, though it felt like more.
The man in the middle leaned forward, adjusting his glasses as he looked you over. His suit was tan. His tie was brown. He looked like he belonged on the cover of a retirement brochure.
He didnât smile.
His eyes landed on your hair, soft and natural, shaped carefully the way you and Remmick had discussed, and he frowned.
âYou didnât straighten your hair?â
The air thinned.
He said it casually. Like it was a reasonable question. Like you were the one whoâd missed a memo. There was no malice in his voice. No edge. Just that neutral, evaluative tone. The kind that made your skin prickle.
You opened your mouth, unsure whether to answer. Whether to defend. But you didnât get the chance.
Remmickâs words came back to you.
If they donât like it, they can choke on it.
You straightened your spine. Lifted your chin.
âNo,â you said, clearly. âI didnât.â
His brow lifted, but he didnât comment further. Just made a note on the paper in front of him and gestured toward the far end of the room. âWeâll have you stand there, please.â
You moved without trembling. Stood where he told you. But just as he looked up again, his tone shifted. Cool, clinical, condescending, like he was correcting a child.
âNext time, Iâd encourage you to tame it a little,â he said, making a vague swirling motion near his own head. âIt tends to interfere with the shape of the editorial spread. Distracts from the clothes.â
You held your breath for a second.
Then exhaled, choosing to respond with your silence.
You couldnât see Remmick from here, but you knew, if he could, heâd be watching through the walls. Jaw set. Eyes sharp. Fingers curled around the armrest of some uncomfortable waiting room chair, burning with the need to intervene but holding back for your sake. Because he trusted you. Because heâd prepared you for this.
They smiled at you.
All three of them. The old white man in the center, still reeking of cedar cologne and importance. The younger one on his left with the narrow glasses and tight mouth. And the woman, quiet, polished, seated from the start, offered the warmest smile of all, like it might soften what was coming.
âYouâve got something,â the man in the center said, folding his hands like he was giving you the world instead of brushing you off. âUndeniably. And that face? It tells a story.â
You waited. Chin high. Shoulders set. The reader in you knew a setup when you heard one.
âBut,â he continued, âwe just couldnât find the right fit for you on the cover. The conceptâs already tight, and weâre working with established talent.â
The woman nodded sympathetically. âWeâll absolutely include you in the spread, though. Thereâs a great piece near the back. Beauty-focused, intimate lighting. Youâll photograph beautifully there.â
âSomewhere in the centerfold,â the younger man added. âWhere youâll pop.â
Pop.
You kept smiling. Even thanked them. Told them it was an honor.
The hallway outside felt colder than it had earlier. Like whatever heat had filled the building this morning had been drained just for you. You glanced around, expecting to see Remmick waiting in that same corner you assumed he'd been pacing in for the last hour, but he wasnât there.
âYour agent?â the receptionist offered, catching your look. âHe was asked to wait in the lobby. Waiting roomâs only for models.â
You nodded, once. Of course it was.
You stepped into the elevator, then down through the marble lobby, each heel-click a reminder. Not of rejection exactly, because they hadnât said no. But of all the ways a person can still be told not quite.
Remmick was already rising from the bench opposite of the window when you turned the corner. The second he saw you, he stood fast. Palms brushing down the front of his shirt, like his whole body was waiting for your cue. For your expression to tell him what to feel.
His mouth opened, but you beat him to it.
âThey said Iâll be in the magazine,â you said.
His face didnât move. Not right away.
Then slowly, his brow lifted.
âAnd?â
âNot on the cover.â
You watched it hit him. Watched how his expression stayed still for half a second too long. Just long enough for it to twist into something else. Something dangerous.
His jaw set hard. A muscle ticked. The color beneath his skin seemed to shift, just faintly, as if whatever fire lived inside him didnât know where to go yet.
You almost thought heâd go back upstairs. March into that office and ask those men if they had any idea who theyâd just handed a consolation prize to. If they knew how much talent theyâd looked straight in the eye and passed over like it was nothing. He looked like he wanted blood.
But instead, he turned back to you.
His voice was quiet when it came. Measured.
âWell,â he said, lips tight around the word, âitâs a start.â
You gave a small nod. You didnât trust your voice yet.
âAnd every star,â he added, smoothing his thumb along the back of your hand, âhas to get her start somewhere.â
You looked down.
There was something about the way he said it. Not forced, not fake. But like he was trying to convince himself as much as you. Like he was clinging to the shape of the words because they were the only thing keeping him from sinking into whatever fury had been building behind his eyes.
âI wore what you told me,â you murmured. âSaid what you told me to say. Stood still, smiled, kept my tone light. Did everything right.â
âYou did more than right,â he said quickly. âYou were brilliant.â
You looked back up.
âThen why wasnât it enough?â
His face twisted. Something old passed over it. A flicker of pain he couldnât hide fast enough.
âIt was enough,â he said, voice low. âYou are enough. Youâre more than theyâve ever had walk through those doors, and they know it. Thatâs why they smiled so damn hard, âcause they were too scared to admit they didnât have the guts to hand you what you earned.â
You blinked.
He softened immediately.
âDarlinâ,â he said gently, and that was the first time heâd called you that in a place like this. Not in the safety of your brownstone, not in the hush of his voice during quiet mornings or late nights. Here. Now. On a marble floor that didnât want to carry your name.
He pulled you close, just enough to press his hand to the small of your back, shielding you from the glances nearby. âThis is the last time someone underestimates you and walks away proud of it. I swear on my fuckinâ life.â
You exhaled, shaky. His hand rubbed small circles into your back, smoothing over the ache like he could press all the disappointment down until it flattened into something manageable.
âYou said it yourself. You'll be in the magazine,â he went on. âA spread still gets eyes. Still gets press. Theyâll see your face, your name, and the next time we walk into a building like this-â his voice dropped, almost growled, â-theyâll beg to put you on the front.â
You knew it wasnât just a promise. It was a threat. A vow.
Remmick didnât get loud. He didnât need to. But the intensity in his voice had a gravity all its own, like if the world didnât bend for you, heâd find a way to crack it open with his bare hands.
âIâll make sure of it,â he said, softer now. âNo matter what it takes.â
You leaned into him. Just slightly. Enough for him to steady you.
The world had felt heavier in the elevator. More than disappointment. It was like it had reinforced something youâd been trying to unlearn: that the door would still close, even when you did everything right.
But here, in the curve of his palm and the grit of his words, it felt manageable. Not fixed. But seen.
You didnât say anything else as you both walked toward the exit, his hand never once leaving your back. His touch didn't say Keep moving. It said Iâve got you, and for now, that was enough.
He didnât take you out that night.
You thought maybe he would. Half-expected it, honestly, with the way heâd looked at you in the car. Like you were glass and flame all at once, and he couldnât decide which part to reach for first. His hand had stayed on your knee the whole ride, but not in that idle, drifting way men sometimes did when they got comfortable. No, his touch had been still. Focused. His thumb pressing slow, precise circles into the fabric, as if committing the shape of you to memory.
But when you stepped into the brownstone, he didnât say a word about dinner, or drinks, or anything at all that required going back out into the city.
The door clicked softly shut behind you.
He locked it. Then checked it again, like he always did. Not once. Twice. Fingers lingering on the bolt like the world couldnât be trusted not to knock again.
Then he turned, caught your eye in the dim hallway light, and you caught the redshift in his.
âLet me keep you in tonight,â he said.
Not a plea. Not a command. Just a fact.
You nodded before you even realized it.
It wasnât long before the apartment was quiet again, save for the distant hum of traffic and the rustle of Remmick moving through the kitchen. You stood in the living room, still in your casting outfit, watching him open the fridge with that same thoughtful care he brought to everything. Like every bottle or jar might be hiding something important.
You didnât expect him to cook. Youâd never seen him eat. But the man knew his way around a pan, that much was clear.
He tied your apron around his waist without asking, rolling the sleeves of his shirt up to his elbows as he set to work with the kind of slow, methodical focus that made the whole kitchen seem quieter.
Olive oil warmed in the pan. Garlic hit it next, the sizzle sharp and sudden before mellowing into something rich and familiar.
You leaned against the doorway, arms folded. Watching.
He didnât look up, but you saw his shoulders shift like he could feel your eyes.
âI had somethinâ else in mind for tonight,â he said. âSomethinâ with music. White tablecloths. Wine list thick enough to kill a man. But figured you might need a minute to breathe.â
âIâm fine.â
âI know,â he said softly. âStill.â
You didnât say anything to that. Just watched him toss fresh herbs into the pan. Basil, thyme, a pinch of something red from a spice jar heâd labeled in your handwriting. You didn't allow yourself to consider how he even learned to write like you.
âWhatâre you making?â
âPasta,â he said, glancing over his shoulder. âThe real kind. Not that boxed stuff.â
You raised a brow. âYou knead dough too, Remmick? That part of the agency job description?â
His mouth twitched, knowingly so. âNever hurts to be versatile.â
You smirked, but didnât push it.
The radio played something low and old from the corner of the room, letting its dusty melody thread through the space like smoke. You sank into the armchair by the window, curling one leg beneath you as you listened to the rhythmic scrape of Remmickâs knife against the cutting board.
It was peaceful. Domestic in a way that felt almost unreal.
He plated your food with a flourish and brought it over without a word, setting it gently in front of you like heâd done it a thousand times before.
âDonât wait,â he said, already moving to clear space on the coffee table.
You didnât.
The pasta was perfectly done. Homemade sauce, deep and savory. You chewed slowly, trying to hide your surprise.
âYou sure you didnât work in a kitchen before this?â
âNo maâam,â he said, stretching out on the floor in front of you, back against the couch. âJust picked things up.â
He didnât have a plate. Youâd stopped asking about that after the third time it happened. He always said heâd eat later, that heâd already eaten, or that he wasnât hungry. But the look in his eyes as he watched you always told a different story.
âThank you,â you murmured, after a few more bites.
He looked up at you then. Eyes soft.
âYou donât gotta thank me.â
âI want to.â
Something shifted in his face. A flicker of something he didnât say. He looked back down at the rug.
âI know today didnât go like we wanted,â he said, voice quieter now. âBut itâs a start. Ainât no stars born in full blaze. Youâll get there.â
You hummed, letting the praise settle somewhere deep inside. The pasta disappeared slower after that. You were full before you finished, but you kept taking little bites just to keep him sitting there. Just to keep this moment still.
He cleared the plate when you finally set it down. Washed it, dried it, and returned like it was nothing. Like you hadnât watched his shoulders flex through the thin linen of his shirt or followed the curve of his jaw as he leaned over the sink.
When he returned, he didnât sit on the floor this time.
He eased onto the couch instead, the cushions dipping under his weight, the worn linen wrinkling beneath him. His body moved with the kind of slow care that wasnât laziness, but calculation. Like he was measuring how much space he ought to take up, how much distance there was between your bodies.
Then he held out his hand.
Open. Bare. Still.
No words. Just that quiet, steady offering. Not an ask. Not a demand. An invitation.
You didnât speak either. Just looked at him, looked at that hand, then back up into his face.
He wasnât smiling. Not exactly. But there was a kind of soft hope carved into the lines of his mouth, a flicker in his eyes that said he needed the touch more than he wanted to admit.
So you reached for him.
Your fingers slid into his, warm and steady, and let him draw you forward. Not pulled. Not dragged or directed or coaxed, but simply⌠guided. Like gravity worked differently where he was.
You let yourself settle beside him.
His arm curled naturally along the back of the couch, but didnât touch you. Not at first. He sat still as you tucked your legs beneath you, shifting until your shoulder just brushed his chest.
The lamp nearby cast long, slow shadows against the brick wall behind you. The whole apartment felt hushed, wrapped in soft amber and low sounds from the street that barely reached the window.
You tilted your head slightly, letting the silence stretch.
He looked at you then.
Really looked.
And not with that mask he wore around others, the one he used when smoothing the way for phone calls and photoshoots, all cleverness and quiet, careful charm.
This was different.
His hand slid from the cushion behind you, moved down and found yours again. He cradled it between both of his like it was delicate. Breakable. A thing too precious to be touched without veneration.
He traced the shape of your palm with the tip of one finger. Slow. Careful.
And said nothing.
You let him do it. Let him take your hand in his and explore it like it might disappear, like every line and fold and soft edge meant something more than flesh and skin.
You looked at him for a long moment, studying the lines around his eyes, the way his hair was still mussed from running his fingers through it. His jaw was tense, but not with anger. Something quieter. Something more internal.
âYou okay?â you asked.
He smiled faintly. âTired.â
âYou sleep last night?â
He gave a soft snort. âDonât need much.â
You let that go.
The apartment was quiet again. The kind of hush that felt deliberate. Sacred. The low hum of the refrigerator was the only thing keeping time now.
And then he spoke again.
âI ever tell you how much I hate beinâ helpless?â he said quietly. âHate sittinâ in a hall waitinâ to hear how they gonna minimize you. Like Iâm just supposed to swallow it.â
You didnât answer. Just turned, leaning slightly into the curve of his arm where it hovered behind you.
âHey,â you said after a pause. âYou didnât fail me.â
He didnât speak.
âYou hear me?â you pressed, voice firmer now. âYou didnât.â
He looked at you again then. That same old look. Like you were something just out of reach, Something he didnât think he deserved but couldnât stop staring at.
And then, like a dam breaking, he shifted.
His hand slid from yours, only to return a second later, cupping the back of your fingers, cradling them between both of his. He brought them close to his mouth, not quite kissing them, but holding them there like they warmed him.
âI just wanted it to be perfect,â he frowned.
You tilted your head.
âIt is,â you said. âNot the job. Not them. But this? Us?â
He blinked.
âItâs getting there.â
That earned a small laugh. Quiet. Real.
You smiled.
âThank you for dinner,â you said again, softer now.
His eyes lingered on your lips a moment too long.
âAnytime.â
And he meant it.
Anytime. Anything. Always.
Every inch of him said so.
You didnât sleep much the night before.
Too much weight in your chest. Too many thoughts, all rustling like paper just out of reach. Every time your eyes drifted closed, they fluttered open again. The room was too quiet, the air too still. It felt like something was waiting. Or maybe you were.
But even if you had managed to drift off, you wouldâve woken anyway. You always did, somehow, whenever he came close.
It was subtle at first. The soft creak of a floorboard just beyond the hallway. A change in pressure. Barely there, but enough to make your skin prickle. Like the atmosphere shifted slightly to accommodate him. The air grew heavier, like it recognized him before your eyes did.
You didnât move. Kept your breath even. Let your lashes stay low, even though your eyes were cracked open just enough to see the shape in the corner.
Remmick.
Standing there. Still as a portrait, as if one stray blink might smear him from view. Bare-chested, in nothing but a pair of dark briefs that hung low on his hips, his skin pale and sharp against the dark. The moonlight didnât dare touch him directly. It hovered in the corners instead, gathering where his shoulder met his throat, pooling in the shallow dip of his chest. His body looked almost carved. Lean, wiry muscle wrapped tight in skin that barely looked like it belonged to someone living.
But it was his eyes that held you in place.
They didnât catch the light.
They made their own.
Twin glints of red shimmered low beneath his brow, steady and unblinking. Not the flash of a reflection. Not the glimmer of light hitting moisture. No. These burned from within, low and quiet, like embers buried deep beneath ash. They didnât flicker. They didnât pulse.
They glowed.
And in that glow was something else. Something wordless. Something ancient.
He didnât say a word.
Didnât make a sound.
Just stood there at the foot of your bed, breathing like he didnât trust himself to get any closer. Like heâd been walking through a dream all night and didnât want to wake you for fear of it ending.
It wasnât hunger in his face. Not lust, either. It was⌠awe. Disbelief, maybe. As if he wasnât entirely convinced you were still real.
And as you watched him, quiet, breath steady, you couldnât help but wonder:
How long had he been doing this?
How many nights had he stood in that exact spot?
How many times had you not woken up? Had you not noticed?
The thought didnât scare you. If anything, it stirred something softer. Stranger. Like the ghost of a heartbeat rising from the floorboards beneath you.
You didnât speak.
Didnât move.
And neither did he.
By the time the alarm sounded, the sun wasnât up yet, but he was already in the kitchen.
You heard the clink of porcelain, the soft scrape of a drawer sliding open, the rhythmic hush of his bare feet moving across the floor. The smell of something warm and faintly herbal drifted through the air. Something like honey and mint, but darker underneath. Earthier.
You sat up slowly, still heavy with the weight of half-slept dreams, and blinked against the dim light spilling in from the hallway.
Your clothes were already laid out again. Pressed and folded across the back of the couch. The same place as last time.
A blouse in cream and cinnamon tones. High-waisted slacks. The matching heels you'd only worn once, but that heâd polished clean anyway. Everything laid out with such care it made your chest ache. He didnât miss a detail. He never did.
Even your hair products, combs, oils, moisturizers, pins, were already set neatly beside a warm towel on the kitchen counter. Like heâd anticipated the exact order youâd reach for them, the sequence of your morning carved into his mind.
You stepped in, still rubbing the sleep from your eyes, and found him whistling. Low and unhurried, some old tune you couldnât place. He stood at the stove, stirring something in a small pan, shirt sleeves rolled to the elbow. There was a quiet light to him this morning.
His hair was combed back, not slicked, but neat. The buttons on his shirt done all the way up, save for the top two, leaving his throat bare. His slacks were creased to perfection, and the leather belt cinched around his waist gleamed like heâd buffed it just for the occasion.
He looked over his shoulder at you, and his face lit up like it always did. Like you were the very thing heâd been hoping would walk through that doorway.
Because you were.
âEvenin',â he said with a smile, voice rough but still sweet.
You raised a brow. âItâs morning.â
His smile widened, almost sheepish. âDonât feel like it.â
You moved closer, the floor cool beneath your bare feet, and leaned your hip against the counter beside him.
âYou been up long?â you asked.
He shrugged, eyes flicking back to the pan. âLong enough. Wanted to make sure everything was just right.â
He handed you a steaming mug of tea without being asked. Your favorite, of course. Just the right amount of honey, just the way you liked it.
âYou nervous?â he asked softly, not looking at you.
You didnât answer right away.
Instead, you watched him. The set of his jaw. The way his fingers flexed slightly on the wooden spoon. His body was still, but the tension was there. It always was. Like the storm never fully left his bones.
âNot really,â you said. âNot yet.â
He nodded. Then turned toward you fully, wiping his hands on a towel tucked into the waistband of his slacks. He studied you, head tilted slightly, eyes trailing over your face with that same intent scrutiny you were starting to get used to.
You didnât flinch from it anymore.
âCâmere,â he said gently, holding out a hand.
You hesitated. Only for a second.
Then reached forward.
His fingers wrapped around yours, warm and careful, and he tugged you closer. Slow, but certain.
âI had a dream about you,â he said softly.
âYou were wearinâ that same look. All bright-eyed and sharpened up. Like youâd walked straight out of some storybook meant to ruin someone,â
He laughed, soft and half-embarrassed, but didnât look away.
âYou make it hard for a man to think straight, yâknow that?â
You didnât respond right away. You just let the words settle, warm and slow in the hollow of your throat. Something in the way he said those words made your stomach twist. Made your breath stick somewhere deep in your ribs. It didnât feel like the usual flattery. Not cheap. Not performative. Not the kind of thing youâd heard a dozen times back home or whispered at castings with a sleazy grin.
This was different. Lower. Honest. Like it surprised even him.
And maybe it did.
Because as soon as he said it, he seemed to catch himself. Barely. His throat moved with the effort of swallowing it down. His eyes dropped, and he took a small step back, as if distance might fix whatever heâd let slip between you.
âGo wash up,â he said, voice quieter now. âIâll get breakfast finished.â
You didnât argue. Just nodded once and moved toward the bathroom, heartbeat louder than your footsteps.
By the time you stepped out again, hair wrapped in a towel and skin still warm from the steam, the apartment smelled faintly of sage and something sweet. Peaches, maybe. Or brown sugar. You couldnât tell. Just that it was soft. Comforting.
The living room had a golden hue now, touched by early light filtered through overcast skies. Everything looked gentler, as if the whole city had been wrapped in gauze.
Remmick wasnât at the stove anymore. The burner was off, the kettle still hot beside it.
He stood at the window instead, one hand resting on the sill, the other pulling the curtain back just a fraction. Not enough to see out fully. Just enough to check.
When he turned back around and saw you, whatever heâd been worrying about fell clean out of his face.
His eyes widened slightly. Jaw slackened. His whole posture shifted, like the breath had been pulled straight out of him.
âGod damn,â he whispered, nearly under his breath. âLook at you.â
You didnât need a mirror to know what he was seeing. The high-waisted pants heâd picked out the night before, fitted just right to your waist. The blouse with its delicate neckline and little pearl buttons, catching faint light. Your curls still damp but styled soft and neat. Face clean. Mostly bare, but radiant.
You let yourself smile. Just a little. âYou picked the outfit.â
He didnât deny it.
Didnât nod, either.
Just walked toward you, slow and careful, like approaching something sacred. His boots barely made a sound on the old wood floor.
âStill,â he purred, reaching out to brush something, nothing, really, from your sleeve. His fingers lingered a little longer than needed. âYou wear it better than I dreamed.â
He fussed over you the entire time. Fixing buttons. Adjusting seams. His fingers lingered where they shouldnât have. On your hip, on your collarbone, but always under the guise of perfection.
âYouâre gonna hate the cabs in this city,â he chuckled, smoothing a wrinkle from your skirt. âGood thing weâre not takinâ one.â
You raised a brow, though you weren't at all surprised. âWeâre not?â
He looked up, pleased with himself in that quiet way. âGot a car waitinâ. Somethinâ a little easier on the nerves. And the shoes.â
You laughed. âYou got us another driver?â
âI got you a driver,â he corrected gently, brushing something invisible from your sleeve. âI just happen to be tagginâ along.â
His words tried to sound offhand, but his hands kept pausing. Kept hovering like they couldnât quite bring themselves to let go.
The last touch lingered too long on your lower back.
âIf it comes down to it,â he added lowly, âIâll carry you myself.â
You smiled at the joke, but when you met his eyes, it wasnât a joke at all.
He meant it.
And for a second, the air in the room felt heavier. Pressed in close. Charged.
You cleared your throat. âWe better go.â
He nodded once, like it snapped him out of whatever spell heâd drifted into.
But just before you reached the door, he caught your hand. Gently. Held it between both of his, the edges of his fingers slightly trembling.
âToday ainât just a shoot,â he said, voice steady, low. âItâs your beginninâ. Your real one. So when they look at you, donât flinch. Donât fold. Let âem see what I see.â
âAnd whatâs that?â you asked softly.
He didnât smile.
âPerfection.â
The car rolled to a stop outside a tall brick building tucked deep into SoHo, the kind with no sign on the front and a buzzer system you had to know how to work to get inside. From the curb, it didnât look like much. A delivery van was parked at the corner. Two men with light meters and cases of film were hunched over a dolly at the service entrance. But inside was something different.
The photographerâs studio took up the entire top floor. High ceilings, polished concrete floors, wall-to-wall windows dressed in gauzy white fabric that filtered in the pale morning light like milk through cheesecloth. You stepped in and immediately noticed the quiet chill in the air, too sterile to feel artistic. Not cold exactly. Just... clinical.
The space had clearly been prepared. No one had cut corners. A fresh bouquet of lilies and peonies sat in a vase by the makeup station. Garment racks overflowed with gowns in every imaginable shade, some still tagged, some borrowed from designers who only lent to the best. Studio assistants buzzed around with clipboards and cups of coffee, walking fast but talking softly. Respectfully. Not to you, but to him.
Remmick.
He stood just behind your shoulder, as he always did, not saying much but radiating authority in a way that made people clear a path. There was no need for volume, no need for presence to be announced. His silence had weight. The kind that made a room shift without realizing it.
You saw it in the way spines straightened when he stepped close, the way assistants lowered their voices mid-sentence, as if whatever they were discussing might offend him by accident. He didnât bark orders. He didnât need to. His gaze alone, steady, unreadable, somehow both patient and predatory, did most of the work.
Every time someone turned, they looked at him first. Their questions never quite made it to your lips. The makeup artist. The stylist. Even the photographer, who was trying too hard to act like he didnât notice. His eyes flicked to Remmickâs figure once, twice, like he was trying to place him. Like he didnât understand why he felt nervous.
Youâd started noticing it more often. How his presence rearranged a room. How the tone changed, the pace shifted. Like the energy bent around him before anyone knew it was happening.
The photographer, a trim white man in his late thirties with thin lips and thick-framed glasses, finally stepped forward. His pants were pressed too stiff. His cologne smelled sharp and expensive, but didn't mask the sweat already building beneath his collar. He gave you a quick glance. Nothing warm. Nothing memorable. Just a skim of the eyes like you were a fabric sample. He didnât offer a name.
Instead, he turned his head, nose wrinkling ever so slightly, and addressed the stylist behind him.
âSheâs darker than I expected,â he said, not bothering to lower his voice. Not even a whisper of shame. âWeâll need to be careful with lighting. That undertone catches weird on film.â
You felt Remmick stiffen behind you. So subtly you mightâve missed it if you hadnât been so attuned to the way he breathed.
There was a silence, sudden and sharp, like someone had shut a drawer too hard.
But he didnât speak.
Not yet.
You didnât need to turn to know his hands were probably flexing at his sides, slow and deliberate. His restraint wasnât the brittle kind. It was the kind that bided time. Waited for the perfect opening.
You kept your face smooth. Not blank, not soft, just controlled. Every inch of you brimming with dignity he clearly hadnât expected. You caught one of the assistants glancing up from her clipboard, eyes wide and flicking from the photographer to you with something like alarm. Her jaw tensed, but she said nothing.
No one corrected him.
No one said a word.
But you simply walked past anyway, toward the makeup chair, head held high.
The chair sat beneath a ring of lights, too white and too bright. You sank into it with practiced grace, smoothing your robe over your thighs as a stylist bustled over, her nervous smile stretched too wide.
âHey, sweetie,â she chirped. âLetâs get you glammed up, yeah?â
Her hands were quick, efficient. She swatched shades across your jawline with a speed that spoke more to panic than precision. None of them matched. Too yellow. Too gray. Too red. You didnât say anything. Just watched as she fumbled, her fingers trembling slightly as she reached for another palette.
âYour undertoneâs so unique,â she muttered. âReally gotta find that balance... canât let the camera flatten it...â
You knew what she meant.
And what she didnât say.
Remmick hadnât moved from the edge of the room. He leaned against a column, arms crossed, eyes locked on the back of your head through the mirror. Not breathing heavy. Not shifting. Just watching.
Guarding.
The stylist was careful with your hair, at least. Didn't try to fight it. Just lifted and pinned and fluffed with dutiful fingers, whispering tiny praises under her breath like she was scared of doing too much. She was trying, you gave her that. Whether it was guilt or fear or something closer to decency, you didnât care. So long as she kept her hands gentle and her thoughts to herself.
âCamera loves your cheekbones,â she said, and that part sounded honest.
When you were done, you stood slowly, caught your own reflection in the mirror.
You looked like yourself.
Yourself, but sharpened. Framed in gold and plum. Lips glossed, lashes full, jaw set just right.
Behind you, Remmick shifted. You saw him in the glass, his eyes not on the outfit, not on the hair.
On you.
Always on you.
You didnât smile. Not yet. But something eased in your chest.
The first few rounds of photos went smoothly enough. You moved between backdrops in different gowns. Deep purples, yellows, something champagne-colored with a sheer overlay that caught the light like water. The fabric floated when you walked, whispering against your legs, pooling at your ankles in gentle, liquid waves.
You didnât pose so much as exist the way Remmick had taught you: shoulders open, chin tilted with certainty, mouth soft but deliberate. Posture like armor. Expression like invitation. You didnât chase the camera. You let it come to you. Let it find the angles it wanted, as if it had no choice but to follow the pull of your gravity.
The flashbulbs burst in rhythmic intervals, bright and brief, filling the space with the scent of heat and ozone. Stylists moved around you in a silent, efficient orbit. Patting down your skirt hem, adjusting the hang of your sleeve, brushing an invisible strand of hair from your brow. But it was the photographer who kept lagging behind. You could feel it in the pauses. In the hesitations. In the way he kept glancing toward Remmick like a man who had questions he didnât know how to ask.
He didnât know how to handle it.
âGive me something more demure,â he called at one point, standing behind the camera with a squint and a frown. âLess... confrontational. Softer eyes.â
Your brows lifted. Not high. Just enough. And just for a moment, you let your tongue slip.
âIâm looking into a lens.â
âWell, yes,â he said, chuckling like he thought thatâd smooth things over. âBut itâs just... try to be less direct. Youâre a feature, not the focus.â
You didn't say anything back.
Your mouth didn't even twitch.
But Remmick did.
âSheâs exactly the focus,â he said, stepping forward from the edge of the lights, voice low and firm and without a speck of humor. âThatâs what centerfold means.â
The room went still again.
Even the stylistâs hands froze mid-pin near your waist. The assistant by the reflector stiffened, eyes darting between the two men.
The photographer adjusted a light. His fingers werenât as steady as before.
âI meant it compositionally,â he said, clearing his throat, not quite meeting Remmickâs eye.
âNo, you didnât.â
Remmick said it without blinking.
His tone hadnât changed. Calm. Crisp. But the weight behind it was enough to press the silence flat between every heartbeat in the room.
And for a moment, the only thing that moved was the slow flicker of the overhead bulb as it warmed.
The photographer looked down, fiddled with his light meter, and muttered something about âanother angle.â
Eventually, the shoot resumed.
You didnât flinch. You didnât fold.
But you caught the way Remmick stayed closer now. Just outside the frame. Arms still crossed. Watching the photographer like a man making mental measurements. Every time the camera clicked, his eyes werenât on the flash, but on the hands that adjusted it. On the words that came next. On every breath, every shift in tone, like he was deciding whether or not to let this man finish his job.
As the final shots were taken, dramatic lighting, a sheer backdrop, your hair full and proud against the white, he moved beside the stylist and spoke low, voice barely above a hum.
âSheâs done after this one,â he said. âIâll be handling approvals.â
The stylist didnât argue. Just nodded, lips pressed together, hands folding neatly at her waist.
You were back in your clothes ten minutes later, the silk blouse clinging a little from the heat still radiating off your skin. The dressing room felt more cramped than it did before, the air heavy with setting spray and leftover perfume. Your throat was dry. One of the assistants handed you a paper cup with a straw, and you accepted it without a word, sipping slow, letting the cool water settle the heat in your chest.
Someone knelt beside you, working at the straps of the heels. Your feet ached, throbbing faintly from hours of posing. Never quite standing, never quite walking, just holding beauty in place.
Remmick was waiting by the door.
He hadnât moved the entire time. Coat over his arm, one hand resting lightly against the wall as if to anchor himself. His body didnât sway. Didnât fidget. But his jaw ticked every few seconds, like he was grinding something silent between his teeth.
When you joined him, blouse tucked, shoulders square, he didnât say anything right away. He just looked at you.
Looked long.
âYou were perfect,â he hummed, voice barely above a hush.
âBut?â
âBut nothing,â he said, tone rough at the edges. âYou were perfect.â
He opened the door with his free hand, held it until you passed through, his touch naturally settling the small of your back.
He didnât comment on the photographer again.
He didnât have to.
You saw it in the way he walked beside you. Shoulders set too tight, gait too rigid for someone supposedly at ease. His jaw was still clenched, the muscle there twitching with the rhythm of his steps. His fingers flexed every now and then, as if rehearsing something theyâd wanted to do but hadnât been given permission to.
And when you stepped into the elevator, he stood still. Hands folded in front of him. The red shimmer pulsed once, subtle and slow. You reached out, gently brushing the tips of your fingers against his wrist.
He didnât speak.
Didnât flinch.
Just looked at you, like you were the only thing keeping him tethered to the floor.
You werenât sure what he wouldâve done if you hadnât been there to stop him.
But you were.
And he let you lead this time.
Just this once.
It had been a week since the shoot. Seven full days since your skin was powdered and styled, since camera bulbs flashed like lightning, and since Remmickâs hand hovered behind your back like a second spine. Steadier than any wall, quieter than any breath, always there.
And now, a week later, the magazines were out.
The sun hadnât even gone down when you heard the lock click. You were barefoot in the living room, tea cooling untouched on the windowsill, your thumb slowly dragging across the same corner of the same page in a book you hadnât really touched since morning. You werenât reading. Just looking. Letting the quiet stretch long around you.
The soft hum of traffic rose from below, dulled behind brick and double glass. Somewhere across the alley, a radio crackled faintly from an open window. But inside, the air was hushed and warm, filled with the scent of sweet almond and black vanilla. Something Remmick had lit before he left, soft and curling in the corners of the apartment like memory. A clean smell. Luxurious in its calm.
You turned your head at the sound of the door creaking open.
Remmick stepped in, arms full. No coat, he hadnât worn one in days now, but his favorite fitted blazer was slung on his shoulders. Brown and a little rumpled like heâd worn it too long. His sleeves were pushed to the elbows, forearms exposed, the collar open at his throat. His skin looked flushed, not from heat, but from effort. From thrill.
And in his hands?
Magazines.
Stacks and stacks of them.
Glamour. Thick, glossy. Dozens, no, maybe hundreds of copies, some with their spines still crisp, others already peeled open, like he couldnât resist peeking before bringing them home. He kicked the door shut behind him with the heel of his shoe and dropped the load on the coffee table in a huff of breath and triumph.
You blinked at the pile.
Then looked up at him.
Then back down.
ââŚRemmick.â
He beamed at you.
Actually beamed.
And for just a second, just long enough to make your stomach flip, you saw them.
Fangs.
Not teeth. Not canines. Fangs.
They hadnât fully retracted. The points glinted faintly behind his bottom lip, his mouth too wide with joy to contain them, like heâd forgotten what he was supposed to hide.
He didnât notice. Not yet. Just stood there, catching his breath, eyes glowing faint and sweet in the lamplight like he'd returned from battle with spoils no one could take from him.
And you, watching from the couch, werenât sure what took your breath first. His smile, or the fact that it wasnât quite human.
âEvery shop had a limit,â he said breathlessly, already tugging the first magazine open. âThree per customer, some of âem said. Five, if I smiled real nice.â
You raised a brow.
He licked his thumb, flipped a page. âSo I went to every damn shop in Manhattan.â
And he meant it. His shirt was damp at the collar, sleeves wrinkled at the elbows. A thin line of sweat traced his temple like heâd run half the way home. You could practically see the city on him. Subway grit on his cuffs, the faint scent of cold air and ink clinging to the folds of his blazer. He looked like a man whoâd carried your name through the streets like it was gospel.
Then he found the spread.
Your spread.
Dead center in the glossy pages, your face filled the left half. Your body, the way theyâd posed you, half reclined, your mouth parted like youâd just finished saying something worth listening to, took up the right. Above it, the title gleamed in embossed gold:
A Southern Star on the Rise
He whistled low. âWould you look at that.â
He turned the magazine toward you like you hadnât already lived it. Like you hadnât memorized every contour, every careful arch of your brows, every piece of your expression caught in that still moment of light.
But he held it like it was sacred. Like scripture. Like he was revealing something you hadnât quite grasped yet.
âDamn,â he muttered, opening another copy. âPrint didnât dull you a bit. Thought maybe it would. Thought maybe itâd catch you wrong. But no. You shine right through.â
He pulled open another magazine. Then another.
In seconds, your entire coffee table disappeared under layers of your own image. Identical pages laid side by side, all turned to the centerfold. There you were, over and over again. Still. Composed. Glowing.
Like a constellation laid across the living room. Like stars, just rearranged.
Remmick crouched beside the table, smoothing one copy flat with the care of someone laying down silk. He didnât blink, just studied the page like it was breathing, alive. Like he was waiting for it to reach back.
Then he rose to full height, tucked a copy under his arm, and walked over to you. Still barefoot. Still silent.
Still watching.
And you, frozen on the couch, felt your throat tighten with something you hadnât named yet.
âYou seen yourself in these?â he asked, voice quiet and smooth. Like the question itself was fragile.
You nodded once.
He grinned and leaned in to kiss your cheek. Just a brush of lips. But slow. Like it meant something. Like it had waited all day to land there, and now that it had, the world could keep spinning again.
Then he reached for your chin. Callused fingers gentle as they tipped your face up, thumb brushing just beneath your jaw.
âI want you to say it,â he demanded, though so gently you could've mistaken it for a polite question.
You blinked. âSay what?â
He didnât answer. Just looked at you. Really looked. His pupils were blown wide, red bleeding through the blue, burning steady in the low light of your living room.
Not glowing out of hunger.
Not now.
Out of pride. Out of something heavier. Older.
He waited.
So you said it.
Soft at first. A breath, barely formed.
âIâm a fuckinâ star.â
His smile widened. Slow, hungry, like itâd been waiting just beneath the surface.
So you said it again.
Louder this time.
âIâm a fuckinâ star!â
And this time, he didnât stop at your cheek.
He kissed the corner of your mouth. Gentle. Noncommittal. A press of gratitude, of awe. Like youâd just named something holy.
Then he straightened, tapped your shoulder once with two fingers like sealing a blessing, and turned back toward the coffee table. Toward the sea of open pages like he couldnât stand to look at just one.
He crouched again. Fingers drifting over the print, barely touching the paper. Just enough to feel the ink. Just enough to make sure it was real.
Behind him, you stared down at your own face. Again, and again, and again, until the whole room felt covered in you. Until your name echoed back at you from every glossy surface.
It was too much.
It wasnât enough.
You reached for one of the magazines and ran your hand over the fold. The version of yourself staring back was powerful. Beautiful. Alive. You looked like a woman who knew exactly who she was.
The only thing stronger than the pride warming your chest was the look in his eyes every time he flipped a page.
He thumbed through another copy, quieter now. As if just the sound of turning paper was too loud. Then, almost absentmindedly, like the thought had just resurfaced between page turns, he said it:
âOh, Vogue called.â
Your head snapped up.
He didnât look at you right away. Just kept flipping, smoothing down a crease on one of the centerfolds.
âSaid they had an opening next month. I booked it. Thursday, ten.â
You blinked.
âVogue.â
âYeah.â His voice was soft, distracted. Eyes still on the magazine in front of him. âFigured it was a good fit. Didnât wanna wait.â
âYou... booked a Vogue shoot?â
He finally looked up then, eyes wide and sincere, brows pinched like he was only just realizing something might be unusual.
âI mean⌠yeah. I told you, didnât I?â
You stared at him.
He stared at your photo.
And then you laughed. Soft, incredulous, stunned.
Because of course he had.
Of course Vogue had called Remmick.
Of course they had seen the piece and knew exactly what they were looking at.
He hadnât had to knock on their door, hadnât begged or bargained. They came to him.
Because when they saw you, they didnât see a gamble. They didnât see a request.
They saw inevitability.
And Remmick?
He treated it like the most obvious thing in the world.
âYou,â you said, smiling now, âare insane.â
He blinked once. Then gave a faint shrug, turning back to the magazine.
âMaybe,â he murmured. âBut Iâm not wrong.â
And when he looked at you again, spread out across a dozen pages, glowing under lamplight, you could see the truth settle in his expression.
He wasnât just proud.
He was certain.
You were everything he said you were.
And now, the world was catching up.
You woke to the scent of freshly peeled citrus and the low sound of Remmick humming. The windows were still closed, the curtains drawn against a morning sky that hadnât quite made up its mind. The apartment smelled sharper than usual. Grapefruit, maybe. Lemongrass. Something he knew cleared your head. You were still blinking the sleep from your eyes when his silhouette appeared in the doorway.
âUp,â he said gently. âGot somethinâ to tell you.â
You sat up slowly. âWhat time is it?â
âLittle after six. But donât panic,â he added, smile curling at the corners. âYouâve got hours.â
You raised a brow. âRemmick... what?â
He walked in, holding your outfit already pressed and draped across one arm. Light blue silk. Crisp ivory slacks. A bold, gold-buttoned jacket you didnât recognize.
He held them out. âWeâre goinâ to Vogue.â
You blinked. âI know. You said the shoot was today.â
He hesitated. Then, sheepishly, almost boyish, he added, âRight. But, uh⌠I didnât tell you everything.â
You stared at him.
He cleared his throat. âItâs the cover. They want you on the cover.â
Your mouth went dry.
He took a step back. Just one. Holding the clothes like a peace offering. âFigured if I told you earlier, youâd start worryinâ. Fret about posture. Or pores. Or your walk. Or-â
âRemmick.â
He looked at you then. Earnest. Glowing.
You pressed your palm against your chest, trying to slow the way your heart was kicking against your ribs.
âThe cover?â you whispered.
âFront page. Full feature.â
It shouldâve floored you. Maybe it still would. But right now, all you could do was nod and let him help you out of bed.
He guided you through the morning like a man whoâd rehearsed it a hundred times. Hands careful, patient. Shirt laid out before you needed it. Jewelry untangled before you even glanced at the box. He pressed a warm cloth to your face, careful not to disturb the curl of your hair, freshly done the night before.
âYouâre gonna knock âem dead,â he said, and you knew he believed every single word.
And then, quieter, almost to himself: âAnd Iâll be right there to see it.â
The car was waiting downstairs. Sleek and black and already running, the driver greeting Remmick with a nod and holding the door open for you like heâd been coached. Your nerves didnât settle, not even on the drive. But Remmickâs hand rested gently against your knee the entire way. Grounding. Warm.
The studio was quiet when you arrived. Museum quiet, gallery quiet. The kind of stillness that felt curated, intentional, like someone had taken great care to make the space feel more like a cathedral than a workplace. The polished concrete floors were cool under your heels, spotless and reflecting faint outlines of the high arched windows that lined the walls. Exposed brick, original to the building, gave the room a sense of old, lived-in charm, and soft white curtains billowed ever so slightly from vents high above. The air was heavy with the scent of lavender, linen, and something powdery-sweet.
You moved through the entrance with Remmick just behind you, his hand barely grazing the small of your back. Never guiding, just anchoring. He didnât speak, didnât announce himself. He didnât need to. His presence always did the talking.
The photographer met you before youâd taken more than three steps inside. âĂtienne,â he said, with a faint bow of the head. His accent was French, thick and rounded at the edges, the syllables slipping from his mouth like warm sugar. His hair was silver at the temples, his blazer draped and elegant, and his handshake was firm but not aggressive. Warm, like heâd waited a long time to meet you.
âIt is my absolute pleasure, mademoiselle,â he said. âIâve admired your spread in Glamour. You moved with the camera. Not many know how to do that.â
He didnât say your skin glowed.
Didnât ask about your hair.
Didnât say anything about being âsurprisedâ by your presence.
He just met your eyes, quiet and open. Like you were someone worth listening to.
âToday,â he said, âyou belong to the camera. Letâs make her fall in love.â
You let yourself breathe, just a little.
The rest of the team introduced themselves in a calm rhythm, one by one. No rushed hands. No clipped instructions. A stylist with a soft Brooklyn accent asked gently before adjusting your collarbone. A makeup artist barely older than you murmured a few compliments while swatching shades along your jaw. Matched your undertones on the first go. No hesitation. No apologies.
Your hair wasnât âa challenge.â It wasnât âbig.â It was just yours. One woman, sharp-eyed and efficient, studied the fullness of your curls for a beat, then nodded once and said, âLetâs let it speak today.â No flattening. No translation.
You didnât feel tolerated.
You felt expected.
Appreciated.
The way the room moved around you was not with caution, but with respect. Like your place had already been made, and they were just moving to match it.
And Remmick, he didnât hover today.
He didnât pace. Didnât step in or offer unnecessary notes. He took a chair near the edge of the set, legs crossed, hands loosely clasped over one knee. His coat lay neatly across the back of the chair, and he looked like he was simply waiting for a performance heâd already seen, waiting to watch it unfold in the flesh.
He watched you the way a man watched a storm rolling in. Calm. Certain. Unwavering.
His eyes tracked your every step.
And when the camera clicked, when Ătienne raised the lens and tilted his head just so, it began.
Soft commands, never harsh.
âLift your chin just a touch, oui. Thatâs perfect.â
âLet the shoulder dip, like youâre sighing.â
âNot a smile. Just the idea of one.â
And you you didnât pose. You existed. You did what Remmick had drilled into you for weeks: you let the room adjust to you. Shoulders drawn back, chin at just the right angle, spine fluid. You didnât chase the lens. You let it orbit you.
Each frame caught something new: your strength, your softness, your refusal to shrink.
Backdrops shifted behind you. One faded into the next. Cool eggshell white to a moody, smoky grey. Then to a blush-rose curtain lit from behind to mimic early sunrise, and finally to a gold-toned gradient that bathed your skin in warmth, turning every line of your body into a celebration. Your hands, your mouth, the arch of your back. You werenât just in the photo.
You were the photo.
At one point, as you adjusted in the sheer champagne gown, the stylist stepped close to smooth a wrinkle on your shoulder. She paused, tilted her head, then muttered under her breath, âI swear, you donât have a bad angle.â
Remmick smiled at that.
Didnât say anything.
But you saw his fingers twitch against his knee.
And when Ătienne pulled the camera down after the final shot, when the room held its breath and the lights warmed one final time, he exhaled slow, his voice dropping.
âMon dieu,â he said. âYou are going to be the beginning of a new era.â
There werenât cheers. No grand applause. Just a quiet stillness that settled over the room like snowfall.
The stylists nodded. One of the assistants wiped her eyes.
Your name passed around the room in whispers.
Back in your own clothes again, the familiar weight of your own scent folded into the fabric, you stood in front of the mirror, unsure what exactly had changed.
Something had.
You could still feel the echo of the lights on your skin, the soft heat of the set, the way Ătienne had whispered magnifique under his breath more than once without knowing you heard him. The clothes theyâd dressed you in had been draped and pinned and sculpted to fit your body like a second skin, but now that they were gone, what lingered wasnât fabric.
It was power.
You werenât wearing a magazine dress anymore.
But you still felt like a cover.
You gathered your things slowly. Slipped on your shoes one at a time. Tucked the lipstick you'd needlessly brought. Gave the studio one last glance over your shoulder, just to make sure it had all been real. That the lights werenât a trick, that the hush in the room wasnât some illusion of grandeur.
And then you saw him.
Remmick.
Standing at the edge of the studio floor, right where the light faded into shadow. His coat was folded neatly over one arm, the other hanging at his side, still and sure. He didnât lean against the wall. Didnât shift his weight. He just stood there like heâd been waiting for this exact moment, this exact you, to turn and meet his eyes.
And when you did?
He didnât speak.
Didnât grin. Didnât offer some teasing remark or coy turn of phrase.
He just looked at you.
Like he couldnât believe it.
Or maybe he could.
Like heâd known it all along but still wasnât prepared for the truth of it staring back at him now, standing in her own skin, quiet and luminous and ready.
He extended his hand.
Not rushed. Not hesitant.
Like a gentleman.
Like a vow.
You stepped forward, each footfall soft against the studio floor, and reached out to take it.
His palm was warm. Slightly callused, as always. Big enough to hold you steady.
And when he leaned in close, closer than necessary, just so his breath could touch your ear, his voice dropped so low it barely cleared the air.
âTheyâre never gonna forget this.â
A beat passed. Two.
Neither did you.
Not the way the stylist said your name like it mattered. Not the way Ătienne had bowed when the shoot wrapped, saying Merci, ĂŠtoile. Not the way your hands hadnât shaken once. Not the way Remmickâs thumb had grazed your knuckles on the way out, subtle and steady.
The door clicked shut behind you.
And the city welcomed its newest star.
You shouldâve known not to get your hopes up.
Remmick had warned you once before. To not believe in the win until the ink dries and the check clears. And still, the moment the phone rang, you felt the breath catch in your chest like something was finally about to settle right.
It was early, too early, and the tea in your hand hadnât even cooled yet. Steam curled in the morning light, soft and golden through the windows.
You heard him answer it in the kitchen. Not loud, not sharp. Just steady.
âRemmick.â
His voice, smooth. Polished. Still cold from sleep, but clipped with that quick professionalism he always wore when someone else was listening.
There was a pause. Long enough to tighten something at the base of your neck.
ââŚCome again?â
That was the first red flag.
You stood. Not rushed, not loud. Just enough to hear better. Half-expecting him to wave you off with a flick of his fingers, that little sideways smile he gave when things were under control.
But he didnât.
He turned his back instead. Shoulders hunched slightly. Quiet. Like he didnât want you to hear what was coming next.
He rubbed the back of his neck once, then pressed his thumb into the edge of the counter like he needed the grounding. His knuckles whitened around the phone cord, twisting it once, twice, tighter.
âYes,â he said carefully, âIâm familiar with your lead editor.â
Another pause.
Then something darker entered his tone.
âYes. The one with the impeccable eye for trend pieces.â
Your stomach dropped.
There was silence on his end. Long. Tense.
And then:
âThey what?â
His voice didnât rise. Not yet.
But it changed. Dropped lower. Flat and cold like steel before itâs drawn.
You stepped closer, quiet as breath, barefoot against the hardwood. Leaned just enough to see the side of his face. The angle of his jaw, sharp and flexed. The twitch at the corner of his mouth.
âTheyâve already had their one for the year?â he repeated.
Low. Disbelieving. Dangerous.
His free hand came up, rubbing slow at his temple like he needed to press the words back out of his skull.
âWhoâs they?â he asked, quieter now, but you felt the weight of it in your chest. âGo on. Say it clear.â
There was no response.
Just static. A voice on the other end fumbling for footing.
Remmickâs brows drew together.
âNo, Iâm not upset with you,â he said, voice thinning again into something cool and even. âI understand youâre just passing the message along.â
He closed his eyes a moment. You could see him working to keep it in. Like something old and sharp was waking in his blood, trying to claw its way out of his chest.
âIâd like to speak with the editor directly,â he said, softer now. âYes. Iâll hold.â
And then his hand dropped to the counter. Fingers drumming.
Waiting. Ready.
The line clicked.
Then his jaw twitched.
âGood morning,â he said. Different now. Calmer, colder. Stripped of the courtesy he kept like a glove around secret hands. âDidnât expect to catch you so early.â
You still couldnât hear the voice on the other end. Not a single word. But you didnât have to.
You could see everything you needed in him.
The stillness of his posture, the death grip he had on the base of the phone, the fine tremble running through the muscle of his forearm beneath that rolled-up cotton sleeve. It wasnât the kind of rage that burst outward. It was the kind that boiled, thick and patient, one degree at a time.
âYes,â he said, so polite it sounded rehearsed. âI was just speaking with your assistant.â
He closed his eyes a moment. Not a blink, but something longer. As if he needed to press the lids down tight to keep from rolling them.
âShe told me they, meaning you, have reconsidered the cover.â
The pause that followed was electric. Tense.
Then, low and even:
âRight. Of course. Marketable. Thatâs the word youâre going with?â
He said it like the word itself offended him. Like it was dirty in his mouth. Too small for what he knew you were worth.
You moved forward without thinking. Just enough to lean your shoulder against the hallway wall. Careful. Watchful. Your arms folded tightly across your chest, heart beating fast and slow at once. He hadnât seen you yet.
And you werenât sure he was aware of anything anymore beyond that call.
âI see,â he said softly.
That was the shift.
The sound of something sliding into place. Like a bolt locking. A fuse catching.
âSo let me get this straight,â he continued. Slow. Measured. Precise in a way that made your skin prickle.
âYour board approved the shoot. Your casting team signed off. Your editor watched the proofs. Sat on them. And now, after all that, you want to scale her back to a feature because you already had your cover for the year.â
The quiet that followed wasnât empty.
It was dense.
He didnât yell.
He didnât curse.
He didnât raise his voice by an inch.
But every word landed like a coin dropped on concrete. Heavy. Sharp. Deliberate.
âYou think this cityâs gonna run out of covers?â he asked, the ghost of a laugh in his voice, but it wasnât amusement. It was disbelief, slicked with venom. âOr is it just that you think sheâs the kind of beauty you ration out, so you donât have to explain yourselves twice?â
His free hand braced against the counter now, steadying himself.
âWas she too sharp? Too soft? Too dark?â he asked, the last word clipped so hard it cracked in the air.
You watched him as he stood there, completely still except for the way his shoulders were rising. Measured. Controlled.
But underneath that, underneath every inch of him, he was seething.
He wasnât shouting.
But something inside him was.
And you knew it. Could feel it.
Remmick was holding onto composure with a thread, not because he didnât want to break, but because he knew what would happen if he did. Because if he said what he really meant, what lived behind that voice, that mouth, those glowing eyes, he might set the whole building on fire.
And you hadnât even heard the worst of it yet.
His voice didnât rise at first.
It stayed low, clipped, deliberate. But the sharpness in it grew. Line by line. Word by word. Like something uncoiling inside him, slick with heat and venom.
âYou listen to me,â he said, voice climbing with a force that prickled the air, âand listen real good, if you think for one goddamn second that this is a numbers game, a market play, a token, youâve already lost the future.â
You flinched. Not because he was yelling at you. He wasnât.
He was yelling for you.
âYou want safe? Go print another profile on Gunilla Lindblad. You want forgettable? Put some washed-out French girl on the cover in a turtleneck. But if you want history, if you want impact, you donât remove the only name worth remembering.â
He turned then. Saw you.
And his eyes didnât soften. Not even a little.
âSheâs the only thing your readers are gonna remember come fall,â he snapped, jaw set, nostrils flaring. âNot the blonde. Not the brunette. Not whatever recycled face youâre tryinâ to float next. Her.â
There was a sputter of protest from the line. You couldnât hear what was said. Didnât need to. You were watching Remmickâs knuckles flare white around the phone.
âNo, I donât care what the board says. I donât care what the sponsor says. And I sure as hell donât care what you thinkâll sell. I know what sells. Youâre lookinâ at the future and treating it like itâs a fuckinâ one-shot.â
His voice cracked with how tightly it hit the consonants. Near shouting now, not just raised. Commanding.
âYou owe her the same shot youâd give any other girl in her place. And if the only reason youâre pulling her is because you already had your one,â he hissed the word like it was venom, âthen you better grow a spine before I walk you into a lawsuit so loud it echoes into next yearâs masthead.â
Silence on the other end.
Remmick didnât wait.
âI want you at the brownstone tomorrow night. Seven oâclock. Alone.â
His next words were a knife dragged slow.
âWeâll talk in person.â
And then he hung up.
Didnât slam the receiver. Just lowered it with a kind of deliberate grace, a calm that only made the burn beneath more terrifying. He stared at the cradle for a moment like he could crush it just by looking hard enough.
Then sat, slowly, at the dining table. Exhaled through his nose.
He didnât look up at you right away.
Just stared at the wood grain beneath his fingers, the set of his jaw making it clear he was holding something in.
Then his hand rose.
Palm up.
You crossed the room without a word and slid your fingers into his.
He pulled you down gently, like you were breakable, into his lap. One arm curled low across your waist, the other resting across your thighs. His hands were steady, even though you could still feel the tension in the muscles of his forearms, coiled and waiting, like it hadnât quite drained from him yet.
His cheek pressed to your shoulder, his breath warm against the side of your neck.
âYouâre goinâ on that cover,â he said, low and final.
There was no fire behind it. No venom.
Just certainty.
Like he was telling you the weather. Like it was already written in the next dayâs paper.
You turned slightly in his arms. His hands tightened to keep you balanced, to keep you close. âRemmickâŚâ
âNo,â he cut in, soft. âNo more backpedalinâ. No more maybe next times. We play their game, we lose. You hear me?â
You nodded. You didnât trust your voice not to shake.
He looked up then. Met your gaze dead on. The light in the kitchen caught in his irises, a faint, simmering red just beneath the blue. Not bright. Not threatening. Just there. Alive.
âWhich means,â he continued, more gently now, âyouâre not gonna be here tomorrow night.â
That made you blink. âWhat?â
âI want you out the house. Just for a few hours. Somewhere comfortable. Iâll make sure your rideâs arranged. I donât care if itâs the theatre or a restaurant. Hell, spend it with friends if you want.â
You didnât have any of those yet.
He knew that.
Still, his tone didnât waver.
âI just need the place. Need it quiet. I donât want you hearinâ what might be said.â
His fingers grazed your wrist, his thumb brushing along your pulse. You leaned back, just slightly, the movement slow. Measured. Testing.
âWhat are you gonna say?â
His expression didnât change. Not even a flicker. âEnough.â
That was all he gave you.
And somehow, it was enough.
He kissed your temple then. Just once.
The kiss wasnât sweet.
It was solemn.
Like a promise.
Like a man setting something in motion.
And you, sitting in his lap with your arms around his shoulders and your pulse kicking hard against your ribs, believed him. Felt something shifting under your skin.
A current.
A warning.
Youâd seen Remmick angry before. Seen the quiet tension in his jaw when someone spoke over you. The cold way he looked at men who looked too long. The clipped tone when a stylist suggested straightening your hair or brightening your skin.
But not like this.
Not cold. Not still.
This wasnât bluster.
It was a verdict.
You pressed your forehead to his, and he closed his eyes like the touch settled something in him. His fingers slid slowly along the small of your back. He didnât squeeze. Didnât grip.
He just held.
Quiet and firm.
And somewhere, under all your nerves, you felt that same fire rise too.
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ęąá´á´á´á´ĘĘ: The bell over your bookshop door rings at midnight, and a stranger steps through. Tired eyes, old voice, and a hunger he tries to hide. He says little, but lingers like he's waiting for permission to need you. You should send him away, but something in you wants to see what he'll do if you don't.
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á´/á´: firstly, thank you so much to everyone who enjoyed and interacted with let the wrong one in! i am so proud and so disappointed to be posting this because it's so shameless. if the fbi showed up to my door i'd let them take me to whatever white padded room they had waiting. i was up past midnight multiple times writing this out and it shows. just a completely unhinged self-indulgent mess. do not read without a rose toy (/j). as always, white girls i promise you can have your fun with this too! i don't do taglists personally, so just follow me if you want to be updated when i post c:
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fanart!
You were one of the lucky ones.
Thatâs what folks said when they stepped through the little wood-framed door, brushing snow from their shoulders or sweat from their brows, depending on the season. They always paused in the entryway. Like the air was thicker inside. Warmer, gentler, laced with something that asked them to hush their voices and unshoulder their weariness. Most folks did. Theyâd glance around slow, wide-eyed and awestruck, like theyâd just wandered into a place stitched together by warmth and paper. Because they had.
Your daddy built it like that.
He opened the shop before you were tall enough to reach the counter, when your shoes still lit up when you walked and your teeth were missing in the front. A modest space, more narrow than wide, with walls that sometimes whispered when the wind pressed in. It was tucked between a shoe repair, where the scent of leather and oil clung to the brick, and a bakery that changed hands too often to name. But the bookstore never changed. It stayed.
He fought for it with every drop of charm he had and a stubborn streak the size of a mule. The bank didnât make it easy. Nor the city. Nor the neighbors. But he didnât flinch. Just smiled, signed the lease, and started sanding old shelves he bought for cheap from a shut-down place across town.
It wasnât grand, but it had room to breathe.
The shelves didnât match. The floors creaked. The ceiling had water stains shaped like cloud spirits. But the space had rhythm. Light pooled in through the front windows in the early afternoon, catching the golden flecks in the pine wood counter he carved by hand. You watched him do it over the course of a summer. His shirt clinging to his back with sweat, sawdust settling in his hair like snow. That counter had curves in it, places smoothed by a thousand passing fingers, elbows leaned, coins slid, mugs thunked down in thought. It remembered everyone who ever stood there.
The aisles were just wide enough for two people to pass without brushing shoulders, if one of them turned slightly. In winter, the windows fogged from the warmth of breath and the hiss of the radiator under the front table. In summer, he cracked the front door and the back one just right so the breeze cut clean through, carrying with it the scent of magnolia and newsprint. When the light hit right, the dust in the air sparkled, like it was carrying secrets you could almost read if you squinted hard enough.
He dreamed of it since he was a boy, back when books came secondhand and beat-up, passed along like contraband. Borrowed if you were lucky. Bought if you were white. His eyes always got faraway when he talked about those days, like he was watching some other version of himself hiding from the world with a paperback gripped tight like a life vest.
âThereâs magic,â he always said, tapping your chest lightly with one thick finger, âin knowinâ a story nobody else does.â
So he painted the sign himself and hung it crooked on purpose, because he said perfection made folks nervous. He sold trinkets and newspapers and penny candy at first, just to keep the lights on. He let local kids read in the back for hours so long as they didnât dog-ear the pages. And when folks started to drift in off the street, curious, then charmed, he opened the door wider.
People noticed.
Not all approved.
But he smiled at the right times, kept his voice low when he had to, and stayed on his side of town like they told him to.
But inside those walls?
He was king.
You took it over after he passed.
Not because you wanted to. You hadnât planned for that. You thought youâd leave, travel, study something big with a title hard to pronounce. But when he died, sudden, quiet, the way only the kindest men seem to go, it was like the shop exhaled. And no one was there to breathe it back in.
So you stayed.
Not because you had his gift for conversation. You didnât. Your voice didnât carry like his. You didnât know how to make strangers feel like theyâd known you all their lives. But you had his steadiness. His eyes. His love of ink.
And the shop had raised you.
Youâd spent your childhood curled between the shelves with your knees pulled tight to your chest, the pages of books flaring open like wings in your lap. You used to fall asleep in the window nook under stacks of fairy tales, the glow of the streetlamp outside pooling on your shoulders. You learned to read by tracing the letters with your fingertip, mouthing the words like spells.
You grew up there. Quiet, clever, a little too serious for your age, and always full of questions. The kind of questions books were made for. You learned the world in chapters, one page at a time, growing taller alongside the stacks.
Even now, the shop holds you like a memory refusing to fade.
The floorboards creak the same way when you step heavy by the register. The bell above the door still dings off-key. Thereâs a worn spot in the paint where the heels of his boots used to rest, and you never painted over it. The walls know your heartbeat. The ceiling hums with it.
The place smells of paper, cedar, and something floral you still canât place. Not perfume. Not fresh. More like dried petals tucked in a forgotten book. There are candles flickering low behind the counter, their flames soft and steady, casting halos of gold on the spines of the hardbacks lining the shelves.
Outside, the windows are tinted now. Reflective. You can see yourself in the glass, wrapped in lamplight like a ghost caught in the pane.
Itâs not strange for you to be up this late.
You have a habit of rereading old favorites until the pages feel like skin. You like the quiet. The familiar shuffle of turning pages. The low creak of the chair under your legs. The steady tick of the clock in the corner, marking time nobodyâs watching.
The radio went quiet an hour ago, the static fading to silence when the last gospel track drifted away. Now thereâs only the sound of night outside. The rustle of trees, the distant hum of a train slicing through the dark, far beyond the city line.
But tonight, something feels off.
You donât know why. Not yet.
But your candleâs flame flutters suddenly, like itâs caught a breath. Not a wind. A breath.
You look toward the door.
Thereâs no bell. No sound.
But the air feels... thick. Like itâs waiting.
You donât move right away. You sit there with your thumb hovering over the page, caught between the lines of a sentence and the prickle on the back of your neck.
You donât want to turn it.
Not yet.
Then the door creaked.
A sound so small it barely pulled your eyes from the page. Your heart didnât jump. Not right away. It didnât need to.
The bell rang just after. Clear, bright, and true. Same one you fixed the summer it snapped off in a storm so thick the trees bowed like they were praying.
So that bell was yours. It knew what time it was. It didnât ring wrong.
Thatâs what made the sound feel off now. Just a shade too sharp, too clean, like a voice cutting into a dream you didnât know you were having.
The sign still said âCome In.â Your fault. Youâd meant to flip it hours ago but got lost in the pages, lulled by the rhythm of ink and stillness. Still, no one ever actually came this late. Not really. Not unless they were meant to be here.
You closed the book. Not slammed. Just firm. A quiet full stop.
And there he stood.
Tall. Pale.
A white man.
Out of place in every way that mattered.
He filled the doorway like he didnât know whether he wanted to be let in or turned away. Light from the streetlamps slanted behind him, casting his face in half-shadow, like the world couldnât decide how much of him to reveal.
You didnât move.
Your fingers curled around the spine of the book, thumb against the front cover, the weight of it grounding. The silence stretched between you.
He just stood there, breathing slow like he didnât want to startle anything. His eyes swept the room, not lazily, but searching. Hungry. And when they landed on you, they stayed.
His voice came quiet. Almost careful. âEveninâ.â
You stared.
âWeâre closed.â
Your tone was even. Flat. Not rude. Not kind, either.
Still, he didnât leave.
Didnât blink.
Didnât move at all, not really. Just shifted the weight of his stare, like he was trying to remember a script. Like heâd played this scene in his head a dozen ways and still didnât know which one this was. His smile was a flicker. Half-done. It twitched and died on his lips before it could mean anything. But under it, something desperate. Thin and frayed, like he was holding on to a thread he couldnât name.
âApologies,â he said with a shaky drawl, dipping his head toward the window, where the sign still swung faintly in the breeze. The porchlight caught the paint in the glass. âSaw the sign.â
You didnât believe that for a second.
Nobody came here by accident. Not after midnight. Not across town lines like these. Everyone knew where they were supposed to be. Supposed to go.
He was tall, yes, but not in a way that meant anything. His frame was lean, his movements all hesitation and nerves. His coat didnât fit right, like it had belonged to someone stronger once, someone he was still pretending to be.
You stood slowly.
The book stayed on the chair. Your skirt brushed the floor as you crossed barefoot to the counter, each step deliberate. No rush. No fear. Just weight.
You werenât afraid of the man. You were afraid of what kind of story this was turning into.
He watched the whole way, his eyes flicking between your face and your hands, trying to read the space between your breaths. Like he expected you to call for someone. To yell. To throw something. To raise your voice.
You didnât.
You let the silence answer.
âWhat can I do for you.â
No question mark. A line drawn in the sand.
He flinched, barely, but you saw it. Like a thread pulled too tight.
âI wasnât tryinâ to cause any trouble,â he said, voice thinning out at the edges. âJust⌠seemed like a place a man might find a bit of quiet.â
You raised a brow, not moved.
âYou always find quiet in closed shops?â
He scratched the back of his neck. A nervous tic, maybe. Or maybe it was just something to do with his hands, which kept twitching like they missed holding something heavier than a coat hem.
âOnly the ones still lit up inside.â
He tried for a smile again. It trembled. Didnât hold.
âThen Iâd suggest you pass through quick,â you said. âI need to lock up.â
âRight,â he said, nodding too fast. âOf course. Sorry. I just-â
But he didnât leave.
He stepped forward, just an inch, like something was pulling him. Then stopped himself and stalled in place, weight shifting foot to foot like the floor might open up if he stood still too long.
âI⌠donât suppose youâve got anything by Hughes?â he asked suddenly. Then, without pause, âOr Hurston?â His voice cracked a little on Hurston, like the name had caught on something inside his throat.
You blinked.
That was new.
You didnât say anything right away. Just studied him.
A white man. Midnight. The wrong side of town. Asking for Langston Hughes and Zora Neale Hurston.
It didnât make sense.
It didnât fit.
Men like him didnât read voices like theirs. Not unless they had something to prove. Or something to steal.
He met your stare but his hands betrayed him, fidgeting at his sides again, tugging at the seams of his coat like he could pull himself together if he just gripped hard enough.
âYou from around here?â
He laughed. Short, sharp, like he didnât mean it. âNot anymore.â
Then quieter, âAinât got much left to be from.â
That silence stretched again. Wider this time. You didnât try to fill it. You let it grow heavy.
He looked down at the floor like it might offer him a script.
You shouldâve told him again to leave. Shouldâve flicked the light off and locked the door and gone back to your chair and the soft, safe pages waiting there.
But you didnât.
You said, âHughes is second shelf, left of the register. Zoraâs in the back, top shelfâ
You paused. Watched him.
âAnd they ainât alphabetical. Youâll have to look.â
He blinked.
Lit up like youâd handed him something holy.
âRight. Thank you. I- thank you.â
He stepped into the shop like the floor might vanish beneath him. Light. Careful. Fingertips trailing along the spines of the books nearest him, like the wood might spark or whisper if he touched it wrong.
And you watched him the whole way.
You didnât trust him. Not even a little.
But something about the way he stood there, asking for voices not his, trying not to tremble. Something about his need made you pause.
It intrigued you.
You tried not to listen.
Tried to stay still behind the counter, eyes fixed on the book youâd set aside, though your finger hadnât moved past the corner of the page. You heard the soft drag of his coat brushing the shelves, the sound of someone trying to move quietly without knowing how. The occasional squeak of a shoe sole. The low shuffle of indecision.
Then his voice floated back.
âSorry to bother, miss. You said left of the register?â
You closed your eyes.
Heâd been in the aisle all of sixty seconds.
âSecond shelf,â you called, sharper than you meant it. âYouâll know it when you see it.â
A pause.
âItâs just, uh⌠the labels are all faded.â
You exhaled through your nose. Not quite a sigh. Not quite not one.
You pushed off the counter and stepped out from behind it, your skirt catching the air as you moved. He was standing a little too close to the shelf, squinting at the bindings like the titles might blink first. His coat hung open now, revealing a loose button-down tucked half-heartedly into worn slacks, belt twisted like heâd dressed in a hurry. His hair was still damp at the edges from the relentless humidity outside. It made you wonder why he was wearing something so warm in the first place.
He looked up when he heard you.
Not just looked. Jumped.
Shoulders startled up an inch, like youâd crept up behind him with a switchblade instead of bare feet and a mild expression. His eyes flicked to your hands again. You noticed that. Clocked it.
âAin't mean to pull ya from your reading,â he said quickly. âJust didnât wanna grab the wrong thing.â
You said nothing.
You crouched low instead, running your fingers along the lower shelf until they stopped on the slim spine of The Weary Blues. You tugged it free, checked the inside cover, and stood.
Then you crossed past him, just enough to brush by the nervous way he lingered too close to the wood. At the back shelf, your hand found the worn copy of Their Eyes Were Watching God with the creased corners and sun-faded cover. You held both out to him.
He hesitated.
Not out of disrespect. Out of something else. Like touching them would make it real.
When his hand reached for them, it touched yours first.
Only for a second. Less than. But it landed like heat.
You watched his fingers twitch at the contact. Watched him pull back slightly, then steady himself like a man whoâd stepped into unexpected water. His skin was cold, lonely. Like someone who hadnât had cause to brush against kindness in a while.
You gave him the books anyway.
He took them with both hands, careful not to touch you again. His eyes met yours briefly. Then dropped.
That shouldâve been it.
But something in the way he flinched, not in fear, but in startled awareness, left a strange twist in your stomach. Not danger. Not quite.
You narrowed your eyes at him. Watched how he shifted. How he clutched the books like they were lifelines. How still he got under your gaze.
And maybe you shouldâve gone back to the counter. Maybe you shouldâve left it there.
But you didnât.
You leaned just slightly closer, voice low. Baiting.
âYou always get jumpy when someone tries to help you?â
He looked up again, tongue wetting his bottom lip like he was about to speak, then thought better of it. Instead, he nodded, too fast, like agreeing might save him from saying the wrong thing.
And that, that, made you want to keep going.
Just to see what else heâd do.
You led him back to the front in silence.
He didnât try to fill it this time. Just followed, books clutched against his chest like they might steady his breath. You could feel his gaze brush the curve of your shoulder, your hands, the soft glow of the lamps pooling on the floorboards.
You stepped behind the counter, but didn't fill the space.
You stayed close. Leaning forward in a way that was probably too obvious.
The register clicked open with a metallic sigh. Your fingers moved slow over the worn buttons, each press deliberate. He laid the books down gently, almost mechanically, their spines aligning like he'd meant to do it. Like heâd practiced.
The light caught his face now, full on.
He looked younger in the shadows. But here, beneath the gold of your lamp, he was something else entirely.
His face was long and wide, covered in stubble that somehow looked neat and unkempt at the same time. Hollowed cheeks. A narrow nose that sloped like it had been broken once and never quite healed right. His mouth was set in a line that kept trying not to tremble. But his eyes...
They were wrong.
Not in a way you could name, not in any way youâd heard told, but wrong just the same. Too dark, too deep. And old. Old. You didnât know how you knew it, but it pulled at the back of your neck. Some instinct deeper than language whispering that those werenât eyes meant for a man that looked barely thirty.
Then there were his teeth.
You saw them when he smiled, faint and soft, like he didnât mean for it to happen. A little too sharp. Animalistic, almost. Pointed just enough to make you question how close you wanted to stand.
And still, you didnât move away.
âThatâll be four even,â you said, and held out your hand.
He blinked. Fumbled in his pockets. Fingers pulling out a crumpled bill like he hadnât checked how much he had. When he offered it, your hand met his again, and this time you didnât let go too quick.
Your touch lingered.
Not an accident.
Your fingers brushed his palm, smooth and dry and colder than before. You watched his throat shift like heâd swallowed something wrong. The money crinkled between you, forgotten.
You dropped it in the drawer without looking down.
Counted back the change slow. One coin at a time. Let your fingertips ghost over his as you pressed each one into his hand, watched how he tried not to flinch, not to twitch, not to breathe too fast.
There was something in his mouth now. A hitch. A tension.
You tilted your head.
His accent. It hadnât struck you before. Too quiet. But now, with him this close, you could hear the undercurrents. Southern, yes. That lazy hush to his vowels, that slant that curled around the ends of his words like smoke. But buried beneath it was something else.
Not from here.
A roll that didnât come from any county near yours. A roundness to the vowels that didnât quite match the cadence of Mississippi. It had weight to it. History. Like old hills and cold winters. European, maybe. English, Scottish, Irish? Or something older still.
But the twang was real, too. Earnest. Like heâd worn it long enough to convince even himself.
You watched him shift under your gaze, trying to shrink inside that too-big coat.
âWhatâs your name?â you asked.
Simple.
But your voice dropped half a note, low and steady like it was loaded.
His eyes flicked up again. Held yours.
âRemmick, miss.â
Just that. No last name. With an unusual politeness in tow.
You didnât smile. Nor did you give your name. You wanted him to work for that.
âRight,â you said. âRemmick.â
He shifted the books under one arm, his free hand ghosting over the edge of the counter like he wanted to say more, ask more, be more, but didnât dare.
âWell⌠good evenin' to ya,â he said softly. The words caught at the edges, like they didnât quite belong in his mouth.
You didnât answer at first. Just watched him take a step back, then another, boots creaking against the old wood floor.
Then, finally, you raised your hand.
Not a wave, exactly. Just a slow lift of your fingers in something halfway between farewell and warning.
He seemed to understand.
The bell over the door chimed once as he slipped through, swallowed by the dark.
You didnât move.
Not until the sound of his footsteps vanished completely.
The next night came heavy with quiet. Midnight again. And you were sitting in the same chair, same blanket folded over your knees, same book splayed in your lap. Different pages, but you hadnât turned one in ten minutes.
The lamp cast its familiar pool of amber over the counter, the window, the shelves. Everything was still. Too still.
You hadnât flipped the sign.
You told yourself it didnât matter. That it was habit, that your mind had simply been elsewhere. The story had you hooked, maybe. Maybe you were chasing some lost line between chapters, maybe thatâs why you kept glancing at the door without realizing it.
The âCome Inâ flickered faintly in the glass, reversed in the dark like a whisper only the street could read.
You licked your thumb, turned the page. Tried to focus on the words. You didnât remember them, even though you read them yesterday. Or maybe it was last week. Or maybe it didnât matter at all.
It wasnât like you were waiting.
You just hadnât gone to bed yet.
You shifted. Crossed your legs under the blanket. Then uncrossed them. Stared at the âCome Inâ again. Just a sign. Just a little slanted piece of painted wood that always tilted left because the hinge was loose and you never bothered to fix it.
The wind slipped through a crack in the front window. Barely there, just enough to nudge the edge of the lace curtain and carry in a scent from the dark. Not smoke, not rain, something earthbound. Loamy. Cold.
You turned another page. Didnât read a word.
Your candleâs flame danced sharp again, almost gleeful. You rubbed your thumb over your palm without thinking, the way you did when something was close. Some old habit from childhood, back when your parents told you to trust your instincts, even when they made no sense.
The bell rang.
Not loud. Not rushed. Just a single chime, clear as a knock to the chest.
He stepped through like heâd been summoned.
No coat this time. His shirt was pressed, collar sharp. Sleeves rolled just past the wrists in that careful way that said heâd redone them three, maybe four times. His hair was a little less wild, tamed with pomade and willpower. His boots were clean. Like heâd stood outside brushing dust from them just to make a better second impression.
And yet, nothing about him looked natural. Not the tidiness. Not the polish. He wore it like a child wore Sunday shoes. Tight across the toes, heavy on the ankles, stiff enough to slow him down.
His eyes, still dark, still glinting, scanned the room like he already knew youâd be there. They landed on you. Lingered. Not just in greeting, not just in recognition, but in reverence. Like he was taking inventory of you. The slope of your nose, the fullness of your lips, the tight, coiled crown of your hair haloed in the light. Like he was memorizing every feature he'd never had the right to admire this openly before.
And when they did, he smiled. A small, practiced thing. One that almost reached his eyes.
Like he was proud of himself for coming back.
And like some shameful, stubborn part of you was glad he had.
âEveninâ.â
Same greeting, but not quite the same voice. Still quiet, still that drawl sugar-coated in something older, something foreign, but this time with the faintest edge of self-assurance. Like heâd practiced it on the way over. Maybe even out loud. Like he hoped itâd sound natural if he said it just right.
You didnât answer.
Not with words.
You rose instead, slow and smooth, letting the silence stretch as you crossed the shop in bare feet. Your skirt brushed the floor again, soft as a whisper, trailing you like smoke.
He stood straighter when you neared. Or tried to. You watched the twitch in his shoulder when your fingers reached toward him, the way his breath caught behind his ribs. The little gold chain around his neck winked against his shirtfront, barely there, nearly hidden beneath the buttons.
You reached for it without asking.
âItâs crooked,â you murmured.
It wasnât.
Your thumb grazed the thin line of metal, adjusting it ever so slightly, letting your knuckles drift down the hollow of his chest. Just enough to feel the warmth beneath the cloth. Just enough to make sure he noticed.
He noticed.
Froze like someone struck dumb. Not like he didnât want the touch. No, not that. Definitely not that. But like he didnât know what to do with it. His lips parted on a soundless breath, his eyes locked somewhere over your shoulder like he was staring down a spectre only he could see.
The pulse under your fingers thudded once. Hard. Then again, faster.
You watched it.
You leaned in, just slightly, letting your hand linger longer than it needed to. He didnât flinch. Didnât pull away. But you could feel the tension ripple through him. Tight. Brittle. Wired.
When you finally let go, he exhaled like heâd been holding air since last night.
âThere,â you said softly. âBetter.â
He didnât answer right away. His throat moved as he swallowed, mouth opening like he might say something, then closing again when nothing came. His eyes met yours, flicked down to your mouth, then jerked back up with a flicker of something like guilt.
It was a touch.
Thatâs all it was.
But the way he looked at you now...
It had unmade him.
You let the silence sit for a beat longer, watching how he stood there like he didnât dare take a full breath without permission. Then you spoke, softly, like an idea you hadnât quite finished shaping.
âIâve got a thought,â you said, turning back toward the shelves. âWait here.â
But you didnât mean that.
Because you paused, half-turned, eyes sliding back to him, that little hook in your voice coiled just so, and added, âActually⌠no. Come with me.â
He obeyed without hesitation.
No question, no protest. Just a nod, and then his steps fell in behind yours like they were always meant to. You didnât look back to see if he was following. You already knew he was.
You smirked before you even realized you were doing it.
Heâs learning.
The rows of shelves narrowed the deeper you went, books stacked tall and mismatched. Some still had penciled notes in the margins. Others bore names and stamps from a dozen different hands. You moved with practiced ease, fingers gliding along the spines, then stopped sharp in front of a little patch of well-loved paperbacks with sun-faded covers and creased corners.
You didnât say a word. Just stepped aside and gestured.
His brow knit faintly. Then he reached out, tentative at first, letting his fingertips hover above the titles before settling on one with a cracked pink spine and a watercolor couple leaning too close beneath an umbrella.
You raised your brows but didnât speak.
Interesting.
He held it up like he was asking permission.
You nodded. âGood. Take that. Go sit by the window.â
Again, no hesitation.
He moved, soft steps, book clutched in his hand like it might disappear if he wasnât careful. He didnât glance back once as he settled into the reading nook. A curved wooden bench carved into the front windowâs alcove, piled with cushions in muted tones, threadbare but clean.
The light from the lamp behind the counter cast the glass in warm gold, bouncing off his hair and skin in a way that made him look more real than he had last night. Less ghost. More man.
You watched him a moment longer, then followed.
Your feet made no sound on the floorboards. You crossed the space and sank onto the bench beside him. Not too close, but not far. Not far at all. The cushions dipped with your weight, the fabric between you folding with tension that hadnât been there seconds ago.
He sat stiffly, book unopened in his lap, hands folded atop it. Like he didnât quite know what to do now that he was here. Like he was waiting for something. Or someone.
You.
Your gaze lingered on the side of his face.
The light revealed the fine things. His lashes, full and surprisingly long. The faint lines around his mouth that didnât come from smiling, but from pressing his lips together too tight for too many years. His skin was fair in a way that didnât come from the sun but from time, the kind of pallor that hinted at long shadows and colder places. Places you couldnât name.
His hair had been combed, too. Not just finger-swept like last time, but deliberately styled, though it curled stubborn at the ends like it wanted to fight back. That little gold chain still gleamed at his throat, straighter this time. Not crooked, like you convinced yourself it was.
Still, he hadnât changed enough to fool you.
Not with those eyes.
Ancient, heavy, and out of place in a face that didnât look old enough to carry them. They flicked toward you briefly, then darted back to the book in his lap, as if afraid to hold your gaze too long.
âYou gonna read it?â you asked, tone soft but edged with amusement.
He blinked like heâd forgotten that was the point.
âRight,â he said quickly. âYes ma'am.â
You watched him flip it open with care, thumbs brushing the pages like they might bruise. The moment hung quiet, thick with unsaid things and the scent of paper and dusk. His breath was steady but shallow, as if he were still adjusting to the shape of this closeness.
You didnât move.
You didnât speak.
You just leaned back into the cushions, eyes on him, letting him pretend he was focused on the words.
When both of you knew damn well he wasnât.
It was the way he held the book that told you first. Not the usual adulation you got from the diehards who lived and breathed these novels. No, this was different. His hands didnât cradle it like treasure. They held it like a bomb. Like one wrong shift in pressure might set the whole thing off and scatter the pieces between you.
His thumbs rested too gently on the pages, barely pressing enough to keep them open. Like he was worried his fingerprints might offend the paper. As if the book itself might recognize him as an intruder. He wasnât turning pages so much as he was coaxing them along, seemingly afraid theyâd snap if he asked too much.
He read strangely.
Slow.
Stilted.
Each word passed through his lips like it needed permission. Like it carried weight. His lips parted with the occasional word, mouthed in silence, and then closed again just as quickly, like he hadnât meant to let them slip. There was something priestly about it. Ritualistic. A prayer offered in secret.
His eyes, those impossibly ancient eyes, scanned line after line not with hunger but with hesitation. A wary sort of awe. Like he hadnât held a romance novel in centuries. As if the softness written into the pages was a dialect heâd nearly forgotten how to understand.
And every time you moved, even just a flicker of a shift, a breath caught a second longer than usual, he looked up.
Not startled. Not afraid.
Attentive.
You scratched your cheek, his head lifted.
You smoothed your skirt, his eyes snapped upward.
You uncrossed your legs, then crossed them again, he swallowed, too loudly.
At first, you thought he was just skittish. Just someone not used to sitting this close. But then the rhythm set in.
He matched you.
Without realizing it.
Without even trying.
You leaned back in your seat, slowly. Felt the cushion press against your spine.
A second later, he leaned back. One beat behind you, stiff at first, then settling.
You tilted your head, absently, the way you always did when thinking.
He mirrored it. Not perfectly, but close enough to notice.
You shifted your breathing, let it slow. Long inhale through your nose. Shorter exhale.
So did he.
So precisely that it didnât feel like coincidence.
It felt like mimicry.
Like you were the song, and he was trying to follow along without missing a note.
You frowned slightly, gaze narrowing. Maybe you were imagining it. Maybe you were reading too much into the silence, into the soft rhythm shared between bodies in the same room.
So you changed it.
Inhaled twice quick, then held the third.
Exhaled through pursed lips like you were cooling tea.
He matched it. Exactly. No hesitation. No thought.
Your pulse gave a slow thump. Not fear. Not quite delight.
You did it again, even stranger this time. Shallow breaths, uneven tempo, a stutter at the end.
He copied it like heâd been waiting for instruction.
Not a second too soon, not a second too late.
Not even pretending he wasnât. As if he couldn't fake it if he tried.
It was eerie.
Unnerving.
Youâd had admirers before. Youâd had men try to get close. Men with charm and swagger, who leaned too close too fast, who spoke in low voices like they were offering you a secret. Men who wanted something.
But Remmick didnât want.
He ached.
He ached to stay.
To keep.
To not mess it up.
It wasnât that he feared you.
It was that he feared what being with you might require of him.
He feared being found unworthy.
And something in you, something cold and clever and mean, maybe, was curious enough to let it keep going.
You watched his knuckles flex where they held the spine. Watched his breath stutter when you shifted forward ever so slightly. Watched his gaze flick to your lips before darting away, embarrassed.
There was devotion in the way he sat.
There was hunger too, yes, but buried under layers of control so tight they might as well have been prison bars.
He wasnât scared of you.
He was scared of doing anything that might make you not want him here anymore.
He was scared of disappointing you. Of offending you. Of being sent away.
Like heâd never had the chance to be with a woman like this. Not just someone beautiful, Not just someone sharp, but someone who saw him and hadnât yet told him to go.
Someone who let him sit.
Let him read.
Let him exist.
You leaned back, let your fingers curl loosely around the edges of the cushions. Not looking at him this time. Just listening.
His breathing matched yours again.
You heard it.
Felt it.
Let it echo in your ribcage like a second heartbeat.
He hadnât read more than five pages. Probably hadnât retained a single one. But he was trying. Oh, he was trying.
Trying not to ruin the moment.
Trying not to ruin you.
Trying not to ruin himself.
And you watched it all. Watched him struggle to be small, to be quiet, to be acceptable, and something in your chest twisted. Not out of pity. Not even out of care.
Just fascination.
You wanted to see how far this would go.
How far heâd go.
And more than anything, you wanted to see if he could keep it up.
He hadnât turned a page in three minutes.
You timed it without meaning to. Just sat there, letting your own gaze blur against the shape of his fingers still resting on the edge of the paper, and noted how still theyâd gone. How he stared not at the next sentence, but straight through it. Breathing shallow. Body gone tense in the shoulders, like he was bracing.
Then he blinked. Once. Twice.
âYa always light the window candles,â he said softly, not looking up.
The words were nothing at first. Just air. Noise.
But your stomach still curled.
You didnât respond right away. Didnât move. Just let the silence soak it in.
âEvery night,â he added, quieter now. âRight âround eleven. Even if ya ainât got customers.â
Still, you said nothing.
He turned another page, finally, but you watched his eyes. They didnât scan. They didnât read.
âYou notice that just now?â you asked calmly.
He hesitated.
You leaned forward, hands steepled under your chin. âOrâve you been noticinâ for a while?â
His lips parted. Closed. He looked over at you now. The air between you suddenly sharper.
âI-â he started, then tried to smile. âItâs just⌠somethinâ I seen. Thatâs all.â
You cocked your head. âFrom where?â
He faltered.
âThat little inn down the road donât got a view of this side.â
He tried to laugh, but it came out cracked. âI walk at night. Helps me think.â
âDoes it?â
He nodded too fast. âY-yeah. Sometimes I pass by. Thatâs all.â
You didnât blink. Didnât smile.
âFunny. You said yesterday you just stumbled in here.â
His jaw twitched.
A beat passed. You let it stretch like taffy, long and slow, until it thinned to almost nothing.
âI... did,â he said eventually, voice paper-thin. âDidnât plan to come in that night. But I-I'd seen the place before. So I guess it felt familiar.â
âFamiliar.â
âMhm.â
âYou been watchinâ me?â
His whole frame stiffened. A flicker of shame, or panic, or both, ghosted across his face. But it wasnât the embarrassment of being caught in a lie. It was older than that. Worn. Like being cornered in a truth he thought he could keep buried.
His mouth opened, but no words came out.
You shifted in your seat, leaned in just slightly.
He didnât move away.
âYou been starinâ at my windows from across the street, Remmick?â you asked softly. âThat it?â
He flinched. Not from your tone, which stayed silky smooth, but from the shape of your words. The accuracy of them.
âI ainât mean no harm,â he whispered. âIt werenât⌠like that.â
You gave him a long, thoughtful look. âThen tell me how it was.â
His eyes dropped to his hands. You could see the effort it took not to wring them.
âI just⌠I saw ya. Few nights in a row. Sometimes through the window, sometimes outside closinâ up. Youâd have your book in one hand, your keys in the other. Didnât even know your name. Just-â
His throat moved as he swallowed.
âYa looked steady,â he said. âA place that donât change. Like youâd always be here if I needed to come back.â
That shouldâve sounded sweet.
But it didnât.
It sounded like a confession. A possession waiting to take root.
And for reasons you werenât yet ready to name, you didnât shut it down.
Didnât throw him out.
Didnât call it wrong.
Instead, you asked, poised and deliberate...
âHow long you been watchinâ, Remmick?â
He looked like youâd just asked him to open his ribs and let you see inside.
But you didnât repeat the question.
You didnât need to.
The pause spoke louder than anything he couldâve said.
Then, finally, his lips parted. âFew months.â
Your brow twitched, just slightly. Enough for him to see it.
âI-I ain't mean to,â he said quickly, eyes wide, hands lifted like he was surrendering. âI just- I saw you one night and then⌠it was easy to keep passinâ by.â
You leaned back slow, fingers dragging along the wood between you.
âYou been lurkinâ outside my shop for months?â
His face crumpled like the word hurt. Lurkinâ.
âI wasnât-â He stopped. Started again. âI wasnât tryna frighten you. Werenât like that. I ain't know how to come in. Ain't think I should. Thought maybe if I stayed far enough back, you wouldnât see me.â
âI didnât.â
He winced.
You couldâve pushed. Couldâve watched him stammer his way deeper into the hole heâd already dug with his own too-honest mouth.
But you didnât. Not yet.
You tilted your head, voice softer now. âSo why now?â
His mouth opened. No sound came. Then...
âI got tired of beinâ scared.â
You stilled.
He didnât look up. Just stared at the woodgrain of the table, like it might open up and swallow him if he wished hard enough.
âI been scared so long, I donât know how not to be. But I kept watchinâ, and you kept beinâ here. Kept leavinâ that light on. And I thought⌠maybe that meant somethinâ.â
He finally looked at you.
And the way he looked at you, like you were the last fire in a dead city, made your breath catch.
He wasnât lying.
And that was the strangest part.
You were used to men who talked. Who wrapped their hunger in charm, or cleverness, or teeth. But Remmick⌠he was bare. He didnât even try to be anything else.
âYou think I leave that light on for you?â
âNo.â He shook his head, fast. âI- no. I ain't mean that. Just that⌠I hoped it meant I was allowed to come in.â
That did something to your chest you didnât expect.
And suddenly, you didnât want him to look at the table.
You wanted him to keep looking at you.
Only at you.
You leaned forward again, chin resting in your palm. âWell. Youâre in now.â
He blinked. Almost like he didnât believe it.
âDonât mess it up,â you added, slow and sweet.
And Lord help you, he nodded like it was a commandment.
You watched his eyes. Watched how they clung to you like a lifeline, like the mere sight of your face was the only thing anchoring him to the moment. You could see it, plain as anything. The panic winding tighter beneath his skin, the quiet horror that heâd said too much. And maybe he had. Maybe he hadnât said enough.
And then you smiled.
Not warm. Not cruel. Just knowing.
âWell,â you said, slow as molasses, âthat still makes you a liar, donât it?â
His shoulders tensed.
âI ainât-â
You raised a hand.
He stopped.
âWatchinâ me for months and pretendin' you just stumbled in? Thatâs dishonesty, Remmick.â
His mouth opened again, then shut.
He looked like he wanted to explain. Wanted to pour out the right words, dig his way out of the pit heâd slipped into. But the silence between you left no room for excuses. And you didnât fill it for him. You just stood, smooth and sure, brushing imaginary dust from your skirt like you were done with the whole performance.
The way his breath hitchedâŚ
You almost felt bad.
Almost.
His voice cracked, desperate before he could tuck it down. âI ain't mean no harm. I swear it.â
You walked to the door.
Unlatched it.
The bell above gave a soft jingle as you pushed it wide, letting the warm night air curl inside like smoke. The light spilled out into the dark, carving a golden archway he didnât dare cross.
âYou can go now.â
He flinched like youâd slapped him.
âI- what?â He stood too fast, nearly knocked himself over. âI ain't mean nothinâ bad. I just- donât send me off like that. Please.â
You turned, hand still on the doorknob, gaze calm.
His breath was coming faster now, eyes darting like he was trying to find the version of you that wouldnât be doing this. âIâll sit quiet, wonât say a word. You wonât even know Iâm here. Just donât make me go.â
He took a step forward.
You didnât move.
âPlease,â he said again, voice ragged now. âPlease donât make me leave you.â
Leave you.
Not the shop. You.
And wasnât that just the most pathetic thing youâd ever heard.
You tilted your head, quiet.
âI said you could go,â you repeated, soft this time.
That made him stumble.
But not back.
Forward.
Toward you.
But not close enough to touch.
Just close enough to be seen.
And you let him sit in it. That want. That begging.
The humiliation of it.
You could see how tightly his hands were balled at his sides. How his throat bobbed with every failed swallow. How badly he wanted to collapse to his knees and sob at your feet.
âYou can come back tomorrow,â you said lightly. âIf you behave.â
He swallowed so hard you heard it. Loud in the hush of the room.
Then he nodded.
Not like a man, but like a child handed a punishment he knew he deserved.
He didnât say anything at first.
Didnât move.
You gave him time.
Let him make the choice.
And when he did, it was with slow, aching reluctance. Every step backward like a string snapping off of him one by one.
âEveninâ, Remmick,â you said, voice sugar-sweet now, hand still resting on the open door.
He stood there a moment longer. Still. Wrung out.
Then, quietly: âGânight, maâam.â
You didnât answer.
You just watched him go.
Watched the dark swallow him.
And made no move to close the door until long after his shadow disappeared.
You knew heâd come back.
There was no need to check the sign. No reason to glance toward the door, or listen for the bell. You didnât need to do anything at all. The air had already shifted, thickened with the weight of what was inevitable.
You were curled into your chair like youâd been there all night, though you hadnât been able to concentrate for more than five minutes at a time. You told yourself it was the book. It was always the book. But your eyes traced the same paragraph for the third time, and your fingers tightened just slightly at the edges of the page.
Still, you didnât look up.
You wouldnât.
The clock ticked. Somewhere, a train whistled. The candlelight wavered once, then stilled.
And then you heard it.
The bell.
Soft. Perfect. Like a cue whispered by the world itself. The clock chimed midnight.
You didnât lift your gaze, but you heard him. Felt him. The uneven shuffle of his steps. The small hitch in his breath.
He was back.
You turned the page.
The scent hit you first. Not bad. Just weary. Tired. Like sleep had refused him all night, and heâd wandered instead. Rain-damp clothes. Paper. Something earthy, mineral-like, maybe even metallic. Like he hadnât meant to be anywhere but had found himself out in the wild with only his thoughts for warmth.
He didnât speak at first. Didnât dare.
The sound of the door shut behind him.
âI been good,â he blurted out.
Your lips twitched before you could stop them.
Still, your eyes didnât leave the book.
âReal good,â he continued, voice cracking slightly with the rush of words. âAinât even come near the shop. Walked past it, but that donât count. Thatâs just the sidewalk, right? Just pavement. I didnât linger. Ainât even look in the window. Well, I peeked, but only âcause I missed the smell of it. Missed you.â
That earned a slow blink from you.
He stepped further inside. His boots dragged slightly on the floor like they were too heavy to lift. Like his shame lived in his heels.
âI sat still all morning,â he said. âDidnât wander, didnât do nothinâ. I thought âbout what you said. Over and over. Thought about why it was wrong. What I did. Even wrote it out. I did. Wrote it out.â
You closed the book softly.
Still, you didnât rise.
Remmick stood in front of you now.
And good Lord, he looked a mess.
His shirt was wrinkled at the collar, sleeves rolled and uneven. His hair had a wild, raked-through look like heâd been dragging his fingers through it for hours. The shadow beneath his eyes was sharp, and the line of his jaw was clenched in barely-held desperation. Not even his chain looked presentable. He didnât smell unclean, but there was a wildness to him now. Like if you stood too close, youâd hear the hum of his blood vibrating beneath his skin, frantic and restless.
âI didnât lie, not really,â he said. âJust⌠held it. In. âCause I didnât wanna scare you off. Ainât had someone like you before. Not in a long time. Maybe not ever.â
His accent pulled at the words, thinner now, stretched tight with pleading. That strange, syrupy Southern lilt gave way to something raw beneath. Sharper, guttural, not quite human in the way it frayed at the ends. It slipped, like his mask was crumbling, revealing a voice that hadnât begged in centuries. Not just a borrowed twang anymore, but a whisper of whatever place had taught him that hunger in the first place.
You finally looked up.
He froze.
Then, slowly, like the world trembled beneath him, he knelt.
He didnât say another word. Just lowered himself to the floor like it was natural. Like the hardwood was the only place he deserved to be.
Your legs were crossed, the hem of your skirt brushing his boots. He didnât touch you, not yet. Just sat with his hands in his lap, chest rising and falling in quick, shallow breaths.
You studied him.
He tried not to move under your gaze. Failed.
You tilted your head slightly.
He flinched.
âI ainât sleep,â he admitted. âCouldnât. Just kept seeinâ your face. Thinkinâ of how soft your hands were. How still your voice is. Youâre not like other folk. You look right through me, and it-â
He broke off, jaw flexing.
âI want to do right,â he said, softer. âTell me how. Please. Iâll listen. Iâm yours.â
You leaned forward.
He didnât dare meet your eyes, not at first. Not until your fingers brushed the side of his face.
His head snapped up slightly.
You cradled his cheek in your palm, watching as he leaned into the touch. Like the heat of your skin might be the first kindness heâd felt in years.
He was trembling.
Not from fear.
From want.
His eyes closed, lashes fluttering like moth wings. You stroked your thumb along his cheekbone. Cooler than expected, but not cold. Never cold. Not with you.
His hands rose without thinking, resting on your legs. Then his shoulders followed, and soon, most of his weight was against you, folding like a supplicant at an altar.
You didnât stop him.
Didnât move.
Let him rest there.
Let him need.
Because thatâs what this was. Not desire, not lust.
Need.
He was breathing in sync with you again, like your rhythm had become his only truth.
You didnât speak.
You didnât need to.
His mouth moved against your knee.
Not in a kiss.
Not yet.
Just a whisper.
A plea.
You cupped the other side of his face, anchoring him.
He let out a sound. Quiet, fractured, grateful.
And stayed right there.
The weight of him on your legs wasnât light. But it wasnât heavy, either. It felt like gravity doing what it was always meant to. Like he had been built to collapse right here, in the hollows of your thighs, the shape of him fitted to the shape of your waiting.
You ran your thumb along the corner of his mouth, picking up a string of saliva along the way. Drool, thick and abundant. His lips parted. A breath spilled out.
He didnât dare look up.
So you said it.
âKiss me.â
Not a whisper.
Not a barked command.
It landed like a fact. Like dusk falling, like snow melting into earth. A truth that didnât ask to be believed. It just was.
He didnât move at first. Didnât blink. Didnât even breathe.
He lifted his head like a man surfacing from deep water. His eyes, those beautiful, imperiled, bloodshot eyes, searched your face for any sign that you might take it back. That it might be a test.
It wasnât.
You didnât flinch.
And that was all it took.
He surged forward, and his mouth met yours with a force that stole the breath from your lungs.
It wasnât careful. It wasnât sweet. It wasnât the kind of kiss you read about in the first chapter of a romance novel. It was the kind that belonged in the final act. The kind that felt like something was ending just as something else began.
His hands fumbled for your waist, your back, your shoulders. Any part of you he could grab to prove you were real. He held you like he was scared youâd vanish between blinks. Like you were smoke and heâd never had lungs strong enough to keep you in.
He moaned into your mouth. Low and wounded and starved. Not loud. Not filthy.
Desperate.
And grateful.
Like this was more than he thought heâd ever be allowed to have.
You clutched the fabric of his shirt, fingers curling tight in the rumpled linen, and he gasped against your lips like the pressure burned. He kissed like someone who hadnât touched another soul in a hundred years. Thousands, maybe. Not properly. Not intimately.
Like every part of this might be the last.
He pulled you closer, though there was nowhere left to pull. His teeth caught against your bottom lip, breaking skin. Not intentional. Just too much, too fast, too hungry.
He pulled back immediately, breath hitching in horror.
âIâm-â he started, but your hand curled in his collar and you kissed him again, harder this time, and it unraveled something in him so completely that he made a noise against your mouth, something guttural and ruined.
Your hand tangled in his hair.
His arms caged you in, trembling with restraint, with fervor, with some old broken thing inside him that was only now waking up.
You pulled back just enough to breathe. His mouth chased yours, like instinct, like starvation.
He was panting.
You were panting.
And his forehead dropped to yours.
âI didnât mean to-â he started again, but you shook your head. Barely a gesture.
He was still gripping your waist like the floor was about to give out.
He pressed his lips to your cheek. Then your jaw. Then your mouth again. Softer now, but still with the same unbearable urgency.
âI dreamt of this,â he whispered, voice all but crumbling. âEvery night. Since I saw ya.â
You believed him.
How could you not?
He kissed like this moment was the dream. And he was scared of waking.
His breath shuddered against your cheek as he pulled back, just enough to look at you. His eyes were wide, dark, feral. Stripped down to the fundamentals of human existence.
âPlease,â he begged. âI need to- can I-â
His hands were already moving, slow and reverent, like he was scared you'd vanish beneath his touch. They skimmed the sides of your waist, your ribs, the curve of your spine. Like he was learning you through touch alone.
He swallowed hard, throat working. âI wanna see ya. All of ya. Been dreaminâ âbout it. Wakinâ up in a sweat, reaching for something that ainât there.â
His fingers found the hem of your shirt, toying with it. Not lifting. Not yet.
âPlease,â he said again, softer. âLemme see ya. Lemme-â
He cut off with a sharp inhale, like the words hurt coming out. Like they'd been buried in some deep, untouchable place inside him.
âI won't touch,â he sounded so earnest. So wrecked. âNot âless you want me to. But I swear, if you lemme, I'll worship every inch. I'll-â
He broke off again, jaw flexing. His eyes were pleading, desperate, broken.
âI'll do anything,â he breathed. âJust... please. Lemme look at ya.â
Your heart was beating too hard, too fast. Like it was trying to reach for him through your ribs.
âYes,â you whispered. âYou can look.â
And that was all it took. The floodgates opened. He surged forward, hands suddenly urgent, suddenly everywhere. He was mapping your skin like it was the only geography he'd ever need. Like you were the only country left to explore.
He peeled off your shirt, slow and cautious, like he expected you to change your mind. Like he expected you to pull the rug from under his feet, again.
But he didn't linger. Didn't stop. Shaking but determined, tugging at fabric, pulling at buttons, dragging clothing aside until there was nothing left between his gaze and your skin.
And then he just froze. Stared. Took you in like a dying man taking his last breath.
âGod,â he whispered, voice sapped. âYou're...â
He didn't finish the thought. Couldn't. Just looked at you like you were the answer to a question he'd been asking all his life. The beginning and end of every prayer he'd ever whispered.
And you smiled, being looked at like that. Like a God. A deity that commanded his unwavering, exclusive devotion. And like any God, you demanded more.
âUndress for me,â you said softly.
It wasn't a question.
His breath shuddered out unevenly, and he nodded. Not a hesitation in sight.
He stood slowly, like his body was weighed down by the gravity of what was happening. Like he could feel the significance of this moment in every bone.
His hands went to the buttons of his shirt first, trembling just slightly. He fumbled once, twice, then let out a soft, frustrated noise and just tore the fabric open. Buttons scattered.
You didn't flinch.
He shrugged the ruined shirt off his shoulders, letting it fall to the floor. His undershirt followed, tugged over his head in one fluid motion.
And then he just stood there, chest bare, skin seeming to tighten under your gaze. Like your eyes were a physical touch.
His boots were next, kicked off with barely a thought. Then he went to his belt.
He paused for just a second, looking to you for confirmation.
You nodded.
He exhaled shakily and fumbled with the buckle. It came undone easily, the leather sliding out of the loops with a soft hiss.
He toed off his socks, then shoved his pants and underwear down in one motion, kicking them aside.
And then he was bare. Completely. Not just in body. In everything.
He stood before you, chest heaving.
His cock was hard, achingly so. Thick veins wound up the shaft, pulsing with each shudder of his heart. The head was swollen and pink. Glistening. A bead of precum pooled at the tip before spilling over, tracing a slow path down his length. He twitched, but made no move to touch himself. As if he didn't consider it a possibility until you allowed him to.
And you wouldn't. You had him exactly how you wanted him.
Slowly, he lowered himself back to his knees, hands resting lightly on your thighs, his touch gentle yet possessive. He looked up at you, his eyes laced with desire and something more profound. Veneration is the word that came to your mind.
âPlease,â he pressed, as if trying to convince himself that he deserved it more than convincing you to relent. âLemme taste ya. Just a taste. I swear I'll make it good for ya.â
His lips brushed against your thigh. A soft, tentative kiss that sent shivers down your spine. He lingered there, his breath hot against your skin. He squeezed your thighs gently, urging them to part.
You could feel his desperation, his need for your permission. He was squirming, his body aching for more, but he held back, waiting for your consent.
âPlease,â he begged again, sounding tortured. âNeed to taste ya. Need to feel ya on my tongue. Need to-â
You cut him off with a nod, a small smile playing on your lips. âYes. You can taste me.â
The words were barely out of your mouth before he was moving, hands urgent and eager as he pushed your thighs apart, his body leaning in, his mouth already seeking your core.
He started at your knees, kissing his way up your inner thighs, his lips soft but his touch urgent. He was a man possessed. Gripping your thighs. Worshipping your skin. You could feel his hunger, his need, his desperation to please you.
When he reached the apex of your thighs, he paused for a moment, his breath hot against your most intimate place. Then, with a slow, deliberate lick, he tasted you. His tongue slid through your folds, a long, slow lick that made you gasp, your back arching off the surface beneath you.
And then he dove in, his hunger relentless. His tongue explored every inch of you, hands gripping your hips, holding you in place as he feasted. He sucked and licked and nibbled, his movements desperate and urgent, like a man starved and finally given a meal.
His groans of pleasure vibrated against your sensitive flesh, sending waves of sensation through your body. You could feel his enjoyment, his pleasure in pleasing you, and it only served to heighten your own.
He looked up at you, his eyes dark and feral, mouth glistening with your wetness. âYa taste like heaven,â he growled against your skin. âEven better than my fuckin' dreams.â
And with that, he redoubled his efforts, his tongue delving deeper, his sucks more insistent, his fingers digging into your flesh, holding you to him as he devoured you.
Remmick didn't slow, didn't pause, didn't come up for air. His tongue was a relentless force, moving from your folds to your clit and back again at a breakneck pace. Each flick, each suck, each lick was a testament to his insatiable hunger for you.
You could feel the tension building in your body, a coiled spring ready to snap. Your hips bucked against his mouth, meeting his movements with your own desperate rhythm. Your hands found his hair, gripping tightly, holding him to you as if he might try to escape the torrent of pleasure he was creating.
His groans vibrated against your sensitive flesh, sending shockwaves of sensation through your body. He was as lost in this as you were, his actions fueled by a primal need to satisfy, to please, to devour.
âRemmick,â you gasped, pleading. âDon't stop. Please, don't stop.â
As if to answer, his tongue moved faster, his sucks more insistent. He pulled your hips tighter against his mouth, gripping your waist, holding you to him as he feasted.
You could feel yourself falling apart, your body tightening, your breath coming in short, sharp gasps. The world around you narrowed to the point of his tongue, the suck of his mouth, the grip of fingers
And then, with a cry that tore from your throat, you shattered. Your orgasm crashed over you, a wave of pleasure so intense it was almost painful. Your body convulsed, your hips bucking wildly against his mouth as he rode out the storm with you, his tongue never ceasing its relentless assault.
But Remmick didn't stop. Even as your body began to relax, he continued, his pace slowing but his hunger undiminished. You were overwhelmed, your nerves on fire, every touch sending jolts of pleasure coursing through your body. The sensation was almost too much to bear, your skin hypersensitive, your mind a blur of ecstasy. He looked up at you, his eyes wild, mouth soaked, a sinful smile giving you another look at his predatory canines.
âAgain,â he was near unintelligible, now. âI wanna feel ya come again.â
âNo,â you whispered, hoarse from your cries of pleasure. âRemmick, no more.â
He froze, his body tensing, his eyes widening in alarm. The fog of lust cleared from his eyes. Replaced by a look of concern and uncertainty. âDid I hurt ya? Did I do somethinâ wrong?â That tone of genuine, unabashed fear returned. As if he was standing in front of that open door again, begging you not to send him away.
You smiled gingerly, your hand still cupping his cheek. âYou were perfect, Remmick,â you assured him, gentle yet firm. âNow, I want you to move to the reading nook. I want to see you there.â
He nodded immediately, a mix of relief and eagerness in his eyes. He stood up hastily, his body still glowing with a sheen of sweat and desire. But before you could even think about moving, he was there, offering his hand to help you up. You took it, appreciating the strength and support he provided as you stood on legs that felt like liquid.
He didn't just lead you to the nook. He made sure you were steady on your feet the entire way. His arm wrapped around your waist, holding you close as he guided you to the cozy corner by the window. The nook where he read to you. Mimicked you. Begged you.
His body was still tense with anticipation, his breath slowly returning to normal. You could see the mix of emotions in his gaze. Desire, fear, hope. Something deeper, too.
âRemmick,â you said softly, your voice a soothing balm to his frayed nerves. âI'm not goin' anywhere. Not tonight.â
He let out a shaky breath, a deeply insecure smile playing on his lips. âI wanna make sure you're happy. That I'm doin' this right.â
You leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to his lips. âYou are. Now, just relax and enjoy this. Enjoy us.â
He nodded, a small, content smile playing on his lips as he leaned back, though not fully. You followed, straddling his hips as you positioned yourself above him.
âLay down,â you commanded softly, and he complied without hesitation, his body molding to the contours of the nook as he stretched out beneath you. Those prismarine eyes bore into you, filled with nothing but adoration.
You could feel the length of him, hard and ready, pressing against your entrance. You took a moment to admire the sight of him, his chest heaving with each ragged breath, his muscles taut and defined.
âHold my hips,â you instructed, and his large hands immediately gripped your waist, his fingers digging into your flesh, holding you with a possessive, desperate strength.
You began to lower yourself onto him, inch by slow, agonizing inch. You could feel every vein, every ridge, as he filled you completely. His eyes rolled back, a guttural, incoherent moan escaping his lips, a sound so primal and raw it sent shivers down your spine.
You bottomed out, your body flush against his, your breasts pressing into his chest. He let out a shaky breath, body trembling beneath you. âPlease, move, please,â he begged, hoarse with need. âI need to feel you move.â
You smiled, a slow, sensual curve of your lips, and began to ride him. You started slow, a gentle rocking of your hips, feeling him slide in and out of you, the friction building with each movement. But it wasn't enough. Not for either of you.
You picked up the pace, your hips slamming down onto his, taking him deeper, harder, faster. Each impact sent a jolt of pleasure through your body, your nerves alight with sensation. You could feel his hands on your hips, guiding you, urging you on. His fingers digging into your flesh, leaving marks that would fade but never be forgotten.
He chanted in an old language you weren't familiar with, likely the mother tongue of the faraway place you guessed he came from. His head thrashed from side to side, eyes squeezed shut,
You leaned down, your lips capturing his in a fierce, hungry kiss, your tongues dueling as your bodies moved in sync. You could taste his desperation, his need, his sheer, unadulterated ecstasy. You pulled back, looking down at him, his face a portrait of pure bliss and agony.
âOpen your mouth,â you commanded, and he complied without question, his lips parting, tongue resting heavily in his mouth. You spit, a slow, deliberate stream of saliva that dribbled down his tongue, pooling at the back of his throat. He swallowed reflexively, his Adam's apple bobbing, his eyes never leaving yours.
You could feel his body coiling tight, his muscles tensing, his breath hitching. You changed the angle, your body leaning back slightly, giving him a new depth to explore. He let out a low, guttural groan, his body quaking beneath you as he found his release, his hot seed spilling into you, filling you completely.
But you didn't stop. You kept moving, your hips slamming down onto his, riding out his orgasm, drawing it out, milking every last drop of pleasure from his body. His cries turned to whimpers, body shaking and trembling beneath you, hands gripping your hips with a desperate, almost painful strength.
And then, the tears came. Silent, shuddering sobs that wracked his body, tears streaming down his temples, disappearing into his hair. You leaned down, your lips pressing soft, gentle kisses to his cheeks, tasting the salt of his tears.
âShh, it's okay,â you cooed, almost taunting. âLet it out, baby. I've got you.â
He looked up at you, his eyes filled with unshed tears, body still shaking with sobs. âYou're so f-fuckin' beautiful,â he managed to choke out, completely spent. âSo fuckin' p-perfect. I can't⌠I can't evenâŚâ
You smiled, merely shushing his whines. You had never seen anything so beautiful, so raw, so real.
You could feel your own orgasm building, nerves on fire as your muscles instinctively clenched. You changed the pace again, your hips moving in a slow, deliberate grind, feeling every inch of him, the way he filled you, the way he completed you.
âI'm close, Remmick,â you gasped, raggedly so. A far cry from the steely demeanor you always carried.
He looked up at you, his eyes wide and intense, body still trembling with exertion. âI know, darlinâ. I-I can feel it. You're somethinâ else when you're like this,â
His hands gripped your hips tighter, his fingers digging into your flesh, holding you to him as you moved, as you chased your release. He was still hard, still pulsing inside you, but you could feel the tension, the strain, the sheer effort it was taking for him to hold on. To be there for you in this moment.
âYou're doinâ so good,â he encouraged. âJust let it go. I'm right here with you. Ain't goinâ nowhere.â
And with that, you shattered. Your orgasm crashed over you, body trembling, hips bucking, nails digging into his chest. He let out a low, guttural cry. A sound of pure, selfless pleasure. His body tensed as he rode out your orgasm with you, hips moving in sync with yours, giving you everything he had left to give.
The world outside the window was still black.
Not the kind of black that came with sleep or stillness, but that deep, oceanic kind that pressed against the glass like it might swallow the shop whole. A cold wind tapped once, then again, against the panes, but the sound was too soft to pull your focus. The only thing you could hear was Remmickâs breathing. Still ragged, still uneven, like he hadnât quite landed back in his body yet.
Your own chest was rising slower now.
The adrenaline had drained out of your limbs, leaving only warmth behind. Thick and heavy and strange. The cushions beneath you were slightly askew, the throw blanket hanging off one edge like it had tried and failed to cover something uncontainable. The air still smelled like him.
You werenât sure you could breathe without pulling him deeper into your lungs.
Your hand rested low on his abdomen, where the tremors hadnât stopped yet. He was flushed, head tilted back, mouth parted slightly as if waiting for something. Maybe breath, maybe words. The slick between you had cooled slightly in the open air, but neither of you moved.
The moment didnât ask for motion.
Outside, the wind howled once. Higher this time, almost mournful. But no lights flickered. No car passed. No one knocked.
You were still alone.
Still unseen.
Still safe.
There was a thrill in that. Not just privacy, but secrecy. The knowledge that the two of you had made something here, something raw and holy and utterly indecent in a world that would never, ever be able to comprehend it. No one would guess. No one would imagine it.
You leaned forward slowly.
His eyes fluttered open. Glazed, desperate. Still begging, but quieter now. Not for forgiveness. Just for the chance to stay.
You kissed him.
Gently, firmly, like sealing a letter before sending it somewhere far away. He melted into it. Helpless again, the way he always was with you. And you tasted the salt at the edge of his mouth, not knowing if it was his tears or your sweat, and not caring either way.
When you pulled back, he followed instinctively, chasing the kiss without knowing he was doing it.
His breath hitched.
âIâŚâ he started, but couldnât finish.
You rested your forehead against his.
He let out something between a sigh and a sob.
âI wanna be better,â he whispered.
âI know.â
âI wanna deserve this.â
âYou donât.â
He froze. Just for a moment. Then his throat worked, and his whole body shuddered.
But you werenât cruel about it.
You reached up, brushed your fingers through his hair, and let your voice drop to a hush. âYou donât need to earn me, Remmick. Thatâs not how this works.â
He blinked at you like that didnât make sense.
But he didnât argue.
Didnât say another word.
You let him stay there. Small and grateful and unraveling against you. One hand resting at your hip, the other fisted weakly in the blanket like he might drift off if he didnât anchor himself to something.
You stared past him, at the darkness beyond the window.
There was no morning yet. No birdsong. No hint of light. The world hadnât returned.
And you liked it that way.
His breathing was steadier now. Shallower. Slower.
His lips moved once, not quite forming a word. He was trying to stay awake. You could tell. Trying not to miss anything.
âHey,â you said softly, pulling his attention back.
His eyes opened again.
You traced a slow line across his jaw, following the path of stubble like it meant something. He watched you like it did.
Then, finally, you said your name.
Quiet.
Careful.
Deliberate.
Just that.
Just your name.
His eyes went wide, and then impossibly soft. His mouth parted in disbelief.
Youâd never told him before.
You werenât sure why. It had always seemed too personal, too final. Like once he had it, heâd have a piece of you no one else did. But now that youâd said it, now that it was in the air between you.
You didnât regret it.
He mouthed it back to you.
Once. Twice.
Then again, this time with sound. Reverent. Fragile. Yours.
You smiled.
Not the kind you gave to strangers or ghosts.
The real one.
And in that tiny, echoing silence, while the window fogged from the heat of your bodies, and the shadows stayed long and untouched, and the world outside forgot to turn, Remmick finally let himself exhale. Finally let himself rest.