I often think about how BB talked about the cardboard box and how he just felt right inside. While comedic, I also think the small dark space makes him feel safe from the overstimulation of the battlefield. All the noises and bright flashes, all the dangers he has to constantly look out for. He is a snake after all, the dark makes him feel calm.
I think sometimes he has Ocelot tie him up in a sitting position and blind fold him in a quiet room so he can just sit there in silence and feel safe. Ocelot doesn't touch him or do anything to him during this time. He just sits by. John is calm knowing someone is watching him. He doesn't have to worry about getting snuck up on. John can feel Adam there. Sometimes when he’s tied up like this. He likes Adam to sit next to him so he can lean against him and feel something warm and sturdy. John hates allowing himself to show any form of soft intimacy, but he fucking needs it.
Sorry shit. Again, I love rough Dom BB, I just am finding myself super into analyzing his hidden Sub side. He's not like Kaz or Venom who want to be praised, called a Good Boy or Good Soldier, and know they played their role well. BB wants silence, safety, to not feel alone in the chaos of his mind. Who's better to deal with chaos than Ocelot?
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If you can’t tell, I really enjoy psycho analyzing BDSM roles and how I think it can help process trauma and be healing for men whose common language has always been violence. I love BDSM psychology because sometimes it can be about getting off, and other times it’s a way to be reflective and tap into something you need. Maybe after he sits and decompresses for a while, he gets a blindfolded blowjob as a reward when Ocelot decides he's done.
