#19.12.16

Ist schon komisch Normalerweise passiert alles Erschreckende Weit, weit weg Und plötzlich ist es hier So nah bei mir, In meiner Stadt, Nicht Istanbul, Paris, Sondern Berlin. Natürlich musste es passieren Früher oder später Aber absolut unwirklich, Wenn man plötzlich bangen muss, Ob das direkte Umfeld betroffen ist. Kann es nicht realisieren, Ist zu nah An meiner Realität Aber es kommt bei mir nicht an.

Today I am grateful for... The beautiful Christmas picture someone had drawn on the black board. Understanding the new theme. My friend having me over for lunch. The nice people I got to know in my year. The interesting new things I learned. Our botany professor, because he's just the greatest. Finding a pretty pot at the florists. The delicious cookies my mum made. That I was able to be helpful. My friends making plans with me for meeting up this week.

One week. I wish you would talk to me... Or at least give me a sign. I am afraid of the hope I still have left, you know? But I just want to see you happy. So when you read this: Please do whatever makes you happy. And when I am a source of adversity, please tell me. I would do anything for your luck, even leave you. You, the one for me.