#16w4d

A bit embarrassing in the end, but we may have figured out the heart palpitations.

Dehydration. 🤦🏻‍♀️

I’ve had trouble drinking enough this whole pregnancy, both because plain water has been unappealing and because I typically drink black tea in the morning but can’t drink it when hungry and I’m always hungry so it takes forever to drink.

One of the suggestions of my midwife on Tuesday was to make sure I was hydrating enough, so I started really really focusing on it yesterday...and I haven’t had any palpitations since.

Lately I’ve been feeling extra fluffy thanks to my no longer eating to lose weight and just trying to eat like a normal human (which I can assure you is still unhealthy despite my best intentions).  I’ve gained 20 pounds in the last three months since finding out I was pregnant, though I’ve been maintaining at 215 for the last two weeks which is an accomplishment I’m proud of.  

Yesterday I woke up feeling ugly and fat so I immediately tried to remedy that by doing my hair and makeup and putting on an outfit I didn’t hate (not pictured because I still didn’t feel great in it).  It’s amazing to me how much better I can feel about myself just by getting ready.  I then proceeded to re-do my makeup three times yesterday thanks to the onslaught of video meetings I was in including a happy hour I was co-hosting that STARTED at 8 p.m. my time. By the end of the day I was feeling better about myself and was even feeling myself so I took this selfie as a reminder that even though a day can start off with low confidence and self-image, it doesn’t have to stay that way.  

The new job has been great :) I’m embracing the challenge of learning the ropes in this entirely foreign industry and actually finding enjoyment in meeting new people rather than my normal MO of being anxious and terrified at the thought.  Even though I started last Monday I went through 12 hours of company onboarding this past Monday and Tuesday and during my last two hours I finally got smart and listened in on the meeting from the comfort of an easy chair.