#15dpo

I hate that it has been 20 months since we started.

I hate that it's only been 2 months since I miscarried.

I hate that AF symptoms are the same as Pregnancy symptoms.

I hate nausea, and sore nipples, and peeing all the time, and being exhausted, and feeling bloated, and headaches, and cravings, and dizziness.

I hate that I have ALL these symptoms.

I hate CD 32.

I hate being 15dpo.

I hate that I'm 2 days late for my period.

I hate that I was almost never late before the MC.

I hate BFN tests.

I hate that I'm scared for a BFP to come and not get darker again.

I hate that I keep testing when I know I'm out this cycle.

And still no sign of AF, two days late and it's been on-the-dot the past few months.

Haven't tested since the negative test and the dud test.