إنما أوقاتنا نسقيها بما نحب

We water our time with what we love.

i'm not headed anywhere anymore i'm realizing.

I love you best from a distance where the air is colder and where my thoughts grow unchecked

Up close and I would ruin everything I know this the same way people know the storms coming by the pressure on their bones

So I’ll stay far enough away that you never feel the shift where my desire turns heavy almost predatory You move through your days unaware of the way I orbit you a silent planet next to a dying sun

You do not hear the quiet violence of my longing the nights I carve your name into the walls of my mind or the hours I spend imagining the warmth of your pulse held in my shaking hands

Sometimes I wonder if distance is the only thing keeping you safe If my love were left unconstrained to spill into your life like something black and spreading Just a shadow that sticks to your skin and refuses to let go

Adam picking John up bridal-style at the 10th Annual Holiday Spectacular, @ Starland Ballroom in Sayreville, NJ 12/7/24 (x)

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