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IT KILLS ME the little differences we see in Oliver’s behavior as he’s “reliving” his history, not just because he’s seeing people he hasn’t seen in years, but because HE IS SUCH A CHANGED PERSON NOW. It allows us to see, side by side, just how far he’s come and like. UGHHHH MY HEART. Case in point:

the way he responds to Moira when she picks him up at the hospital 😭 Instead of being all closed off, he just....smiles so big. And squeezes her so tight! And says “I missed you so much!” 😭 (Contrast that to how Moira’s reaction is almost exactly the same. It just stabs me right in the heart!)

and then obviously his shock at things being different, like he thinks he’s on familiar territory and it’s all going to be easy. It really speaks to me, because it shows how he’s come to accept his past as part of him, so that reliving it is comfortable and familiar, unlike how it was the first time around! 😩💔💗 

which only becomes clearer when we find out what happened to THEA OMG. !!!!!!!! HIS SHOCK AND SORROW AND DISBELIEF! Because (aside from how much he just loves her) protecting Thea and being a brother is such a huge part of who he is, and has shaped him into the person he has become, and just! It shakes his very foundation. I love how well they show him experiencing this, and then bring it back later on in the episode when Dig is trying to convince him that things on this earth are WORSE OFF because he wasn’t there. SO BEAUTIFUL! SO PERFECT! SO WELL DONE, WRITERS (god it’s been an age, hasn’t it? lol)

and the fact that Oliver mentions William - SO SIGNIFICANT. Because even though he’s here, back with people he loves and has lost, almost like a “second chance,” he is thinking of William - of the life he left behind, his real life. 😭😭😭 Even with all he went through, he wouldn’t change a thing, basically. 

Which is why it’s so perfect when Malcolm asks him how he managed to survive on the island all those years, and Oliver just says (with his cracking voice), “It’s a long story” I DIIIIIIIIIED. It’s his story...his whole history of how he found his people - Dig and Felicity - and grew as a person, and became a hero. It’s all there in his voice and I am dead. 😭

and can I just say that it’s just so well done: Oliver came into this thinking he had it handled, but again he ends up having to leave dinner early, again because of how things have changed “at home” - because they’re not like how he was expecting. GUH, again, it just shows how far he’s come in accepting his past as part of who he is today. 💗💗💗

OKAY so Oliver staring at the picture of HIS FAMILY 💔 and his uncertainty about whether he did the right thing in leaving Felicity and Mia and William OMGGGGGGG STAB ME IN THE HEART RIGHT NOW. 

“AND SOMEDAY, WHEN YOU HAVE CHILDREN” his face omg his face his tears and the fact he can’t even look her in the eye because it would be too revealing OH GOD MAKE IT STOP 💔😭💔😭💔😭💔 FUUUUUUCK.

AND THEN “MOM I’M SO SORRY” because this is the first time he’s looking at her complicity in the Undertaking from the perspective of a parent and like UGHHHHHHH I AM DEAD. 💔💔💔 I CANNOT EVEN 

And okay Moira saying “Close your eyes, sweetheart” CANNOT BE A COINCIDENCE. Moira’s voice saying those words RIGHT BEFORE SHE GETS STABBED BY SLADE in 2x20 is INGRAINED in my BRAIN okay. GAH THE PAIN. 😭

Oliver’s snarky bitterness toward the Monitor is 💯👌🙌 like, okay he’s committed to the mission but he’ll be damned if he’s gonna like it loool.

Now to: “the most important room on this tour” AKA WHERE IS MY WIFE 😍

(also jesus FUCK he looks so fucking good, and his outfit is very similar to 1x03 THANK YOU!! 🔥🔥🔥)

(also okay not to be a bitch but that actress looks nothing like Felicity, not even from the back?? Um even giving differences due to different earths, she wouldn’t look THAT different and Oliver would certainly not confuse her for Felicity mmkay? Also why would random lady be wearing Felicity’s 1x03 outfit and why would she be chewing on a pen? I mean, the adorable pen-chewing is kinda part of Felicity’s unique charm. BUT ANYWAY I appreciate what the writers were trying to do here so I will let it slide.)

HIS LITTLE SHY EMBARRASSED HAPPY SMILE WHEN HE THINKS IT’S HER OMG 😍😍😍

“It’s supposed to be red” OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY GAH

his obvious dismay when it’s not her looool

“Oh good for her” 💗💗💗 swooon

Oliver puttin’ to use those “My wife taught me a thing or two” skills 🙌

Tommy as the Dark Archer - YASSS and I called it! 

MAH BROTP!!!!!!!!!!

The absolute relief on Oliver’s face when something FINALLY is right on this earth - meeting Dig. GAHHHH!!!!!

meanwhile John’s face with hidden amusement should have been a dead giveaway that he is OUR Dig 😂

and Oliver’s token “wait no I don’t need a babysitter” LOL SO DELIGHTFUL

Oliver being just SO SO HAPPY that some things haven’t changed, John’s “Diggle. Dig if you want.” 😍

and then the failed car escape attempt!!!! and John’s laughter!! and Oliver’s confusion!!! AAAAAAHAHAHAAAAAAHHHH SO PERFECT! 💗

just....AFTER EVERYTHING THEY’VE BEEN THROUGH TOGETHER, and HOW FAR THEY HAVE COME, and HOW THEY’VE BECOME CLOSER THAN BROTHERS, and then for them to get to relive together this moment when they were strangers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LIVE!!!!!!! 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌

GODDAMN OLIVER LOOKS SO FUCKING HOT IN THAT SUIT 🔥

And just watching Oliver as John says “Felicity.” Ugh, my heart. How nice it must be for him to have his John here, who knows his history, who he has become, who knows all the most important people in his life. 💔  

then their conversation about being brothers, and Oliver being vulnerable about his impending death. 💔

AND THEN OLIVER ESCAPING THE PARTY AND "YOU ALWAYS FALL FOR THIS MOVE” OMGGGGGGG I DIEDDDDD 😂😂😂😂 so perfect!

“This world isn’t better. It’s much, much worse. And do you know why? Because you weren’t in it.” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

everything in this episode was leading up to this moment, and it is SO PERFECT. PERFECT for setting up the season. And PERFECT for Oliver having to confront this other version of his life. And PERFECT for him dealing with lingering insecurities and confronting his impending death. OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD. 💔😭💔😭💔😭💔😭

Okay I know there were things I skipped, not the least of which was all the Tommy and Moira feels, with Oliver’s goodbyes to them 😭 but this thing has gotten way longer than planned 😂

I was wrong to think I could have it both ways: that I could do what I do and still have a normal life. Me being happy isn’t what’s important right now. - Oliver, 1x18

The life that I’m leading for myself right now doesn’t leave much room for an actual life. And I don’t need one. - Oliver, 1x19

Maybe it is better being alone. I’m not seeing anyone currently, but if I were, I don’t know how I’d tell them about today. - Felicity, 1x19

Because of the life that I lead, I just think that it’s better to not be with someone that I could really care about. - Oliver, 2x06

Diggle, you have a life. You have a new life. It’s a life I can’t have. - Oliver, 3x01

I thought I could be me and the Arrow, but I can’t. Not now. Maybe not ever. - Oliver, 3x01

One of these days, it’s going to be me. This life that I’ve chosen, it only ends one way. - Oliver, 3x02

So that’s it? You’re just going to spend your life hiding down here in this cave, waiting to die? I’m sorry, I’m not going to wait with you, because if there’s one thing that today has taught me it is that life is precious. And I want so much more out of mine than this. - Felicity, 3x02

I know what it’s like to want someone, but not be able to be with them. How you wish things could be different, but they can’t. I can’t be with you. I can’t be with anyone. I have to be alone. - Oliver, 3x07

Guys like us don’t get the girl. - Oliver, The Flash 1x08

What I deserve is to be with someone who isn’t afraid of being happy. - Felicity, 3x17

Don’t fight to die. Fight to live. - Felicity, 3x23

Marriage is about inclusion. It’s about leaning on your partner when things get complicated. I don’t think that you know how to do that. - Felicity, 4x15

Five months ago I convinced you that we could have it all. We could come here to this job and have each other. I was wrong. - Felicity 4x16

I want you to be happy. And in the spirit of that I think that you owe it to yourself to find out if what you have with Billy is real. And I owe to myself to embrace whatever’s next for me, when I’m not.... - Oliver, 5x05

I think that with everything going on right now it’s just not the right time. - Oliver, Supergirl 3x08

I love you. I just don’t want to be married. I don’t want to be married to anyone. We have something so good. We have something so great going. Let’s not change that; let’s just stand back with the cards that we’re holding. - Felicity, 6x08

I have been the Green Arrow for six years. I didn’t plan on doing it forever. I thought that one day my mission would end and I would finally, after all this time, get a chance to actually live my life. That will never happen if I tell the whole world that I’m the Green Arrow. - Oliver, 6x21

Today it’s making me mad about all the WASTED TIME. 

Season 4: episodes 17-23...the ridiculous break-up, Felicity’s time away from the team, the distance between Oliver and Felicity. Even though there were some good moments, it was painful when it didn’t have to be.

Season 5: The fact that their dynamic in this season was so good just makes it worse. They could have been together, they should have been together...what a waste of time, forcing them to stay apart all season. (And we won’t even mention he-and-she-who-must-not-be-named.)

Season 6: The opposite of season 5, here they were “together” but their relationship didn’t get the screen time it deserved, and the out-of-character storytelling (along with weird production issues) meant the whole season felt off. We deserved much more, and much better Olicity content in a supposedly “happy” Olicity season. 

Season 7a: kind of mirrors the issues of season 5. The Olicity parallels were truly moving, but that can’t make up for the fact that they were physically apart for almost the entire time. 

Season 7b: kind of mirrors the issues of season 6.  They’re physically together again but (for whatever the reason) their scenes have been sparse and weird (with some exceptions).

Now we have 5 episodes left and that’s it. Will they be full of amazing Olicity moments like we used to have? Doubtful. And even if they are, it could never be enough to make up for all the wasted time.

Isn’t ARGUS a secret government agency that like, is off the books and no one’s supposed to know about? 

HUGE

HAS SIX (6) TIERS? as in, one for each year they’d known each other?

because I just noticed that and I feel like it warrants some attention.

(gif credit, thanks, and love to @andjustforthismoment) 

found this photo on the internet - thank you random stranger!