#13.09

jack: you guys are my family..... ? 🥺👉👈

dean (won over by jack at the moment because he successfully bought a sliver of dean's approval by presenting him with mary): yes you are, kid. good job. metaphorical pat on the head from papa <3

1. i was wondering your opinion on dean pulling a gun on Kaia that one time? that scene makes me sooo uncomfortable & it feels out of character for dean to do that to a kid.

2. i was wondered if youve ever heard this song--i am Obsessed with it: https://youtu.be/0Tl9gSq71Dk?si=WPKkz7-_0YbjRQHB

Hello! So I remember feeling that way the first time I watched 13.09. It's been a while now since I rewatched season 13, but I do remember on future watches, that I came around to it. Unlike what I was bitching about last night, I feel that what happens with Kaia is much better motivated. While absolutely out of Dean's typical character, it is intentionally so. It's supposed to shock us as a further reflection of Dean's very bad mental state in season 13. This season opens with Dean losing Cas, Mary, and Crowley, and seriously struggling with those losses to the point of wanting to die. He literally has a suicide plan and he actually kills himself in 13.05, only to be brought back by Billie. At the same time that Dean is dealing with this crushing mental state, Sam, in his own pain, is looking for support, which he tries to get by pushing Dean to step up and help him with Jack when Dean simply isn't emotionally capable of that at the time and knows it. Sam becomes so fixated on trying to "make" Dean get better that he tries to play therapist in a way that's ultimately very invalidating and unintentionally cruel. Dean is no goodie-two-shoes either most certainly, but that's again all part of this blinking neon sign screaming, "Dean Is Not Okay" that eventually culminates with what happens with Kaia.

Up until this episode, Dean has repeatedly told himself that Mary is dead. When Jack shows him something different, we literally see Dean's eyes get distant and it's like he can barely breathe and all the noise around him falls away as Sam and Jack are talking. He is having A Moment™️.