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honestly every day i feel a little more sick inside knowing the 26th is on its way? literally 16 more days and every day the lump in my throat gets worse and i let my thoughts wander. like what if i said something that pushed him off the edge? what if i said goodnight at the wrong time? what if i didn’t talk to him enough or make enough time or him? why wasn’t i there? does he know i blame myself for him doing it or does he know im too scared to go visit him? does he know?

Date: January 26 2016 Time: 9:47pm Today is Tuesday aka the beginning of final's week! Yo... I got a good grade on my government test and I'm so proud to say that. I never had a bomb ass grade on any of my tests but that last 5 extra credit point helped me so much. Also the notebook check which I got a perfect score on 😇 Alright. After school though I finally mananged to finish 90% of my belt project. All I need to do is draw on designs and maybe add other touches. Plus my love came over and and we ate and we fucked but apparently I started bleeding out of no where and I caught it 😭 Shit... My body is so strange lol that has never happened before but I'm safe. Now I just woke up from my nap and I'm ready to study for algebra and journalism. Yo. I got this 😎