#11182020

All has been quiet, more or less, in my life — not too much to report, honestly, which isn’t a bad thing. It’s gotten COLD here, so it’s time to break out my favorite huge scarf. I also realized that my coats don’t zip up anymore, which will be an issue this year, so I bought a 3-in-1 thick fleece coat which can be worn as a regular non-maternity fleece, then worn with a maternity panel to make it big enough to fit over the bump, and then also has a baby insert panel so I can wear it over the baby, if the baby is in a carrier on my front, and it has a little hood for his head. Freaking adorable. Thank you, Amazon.

Lots of yummy food happening still. I’ve been juuuust teetering under the 15-lbs gained mark for this pregnancy, which I guess I feel okay about. Starting out at a higher weight, I knew I didn’t wanna gain a lot, so I suppose I’m doing alright. A lot of it is extra fluids and baby stuff. The only place I’m really changing shape is my torso, which is good. Oh! And speaking of weight gain, I am suddenly now obsessed with this chicken francaise pizza from a local spot near me. @zerocarb I don’t know if this rivals some of the amazing pizzas you post, but it’s so tasty! Rich and creamy and lemony.

One exciting milestone: I hit the 30-week mark today. Holy crap. I’m starting to think (read: worry) about labor and delivery more which I don’t love but it is what it is. It’ll be here soon. Really soon.

We made it to Wednesday. Off to eat some breakfast and fire up the work laptop. At least I’ve got this cute fluff to keep me company.

you should know, that my love extends deeper than all the seas in existence. my love is vast and wide, filled with an internal inescapable depth that can and should overwhelm all those who enter her. 

you should know, that I will only fully accept a reciprocation that equals 99% or more of what I have given. 98% and less will not be trusted, accepted or tolerated. to withstand me, to receive more of me - you will have to match me or go higher. higher is preferred. 

you should know, I have hurt, died, survived, bled, been cut deep, exiled myself, exited earth and returned many times. I am a survivor of all tolls. I am the definition of resilience. with and without grace. I have outlived all of my enemies in all instances. no bumpy road, challenge, hurdle or burden has decimated me. I have risen to all occasions. may it be slow or bruised...or burned, I have still shown up. I am a cat with 9 lives. and although I've experienced death in its purest form, I am still on my first life. baby I am invincible.