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today's goals: take adhd meds, make breakfast, journal, organize laundry, start laundry, finish laundry, plan what to cook, study german for an hour, make an advisor appointment, move my body, look into credit cards, be outside, finish looking into the local library's resources online, look into job opportunities, look into internships, read, cook, call dad in the evening, brush teeth, wash face, and plan tomorrow's day

things I have accomplished today:

made oatmeal for breakfast & right now (4:00pm) I'm drinking tea and eating sunflower kernels. afternoon, i ate some jellybeans bc i felt like i had low blood sugar. didn’t have the focus to cook or plan cooking but thankfully a friend brought us some extra food the other day so i microwaved some eggs, grits, and ate it with some of the diced cheese, fruit, and a biscuit (all brought from the friend) + blackberry jam w/tea for dinner!

called my dad in the afternoon

tried tidying up my laptop organization (gave up)

journaled for about thirty minutes about the upcoming semester, potential routines for me to start practicing, the poem I'm Tired by Langston Hughes and the reasons I love it so much, and a personal commentary on how I love accessible poetry and creating prose.

i have organized my unclean laundry into it's different categories to start with laundry (dark colored or thick material clothes, very thick material clothes, whites/creams, towels/rags, blankets, socks, idk pile, and light material/color) and began two loads ! the thick material clothes and very thick material clothes r all washed and i’m finishing the v thick material load in the dryer now. ill have to put the rest away tomorrow bc i’m too tired n sleepy

looked at stuff for my major

began drawing a red crossbill and practiced anatomy

buddy read some of Aristotle’s & Dante’s secrets to the universe one of my roommates !!! that was pleasant

brushed teeth for 45 seconds before sleep, soso proud of myself

what am i doing right now as i type this? (4:38pm) sitting outside on my townhouse porch smoking with my lovely roommate, M. It is a nice day out, the sky is blue, it's decently warm, and there's some Columbus clouds at the edges of the sky. i just saw a pretty bird, which i'm currently trying to identify. (it was a red crossbill!)/ (11:38pm) sitting upstairs on the floor in our lil living room, patiently waiting for the clothes to finish drying. i really like the sound of crickets at night. i like the warm summer. i was/am drawing, trying to practice anatomy because i rlly suck at anything other than realistic faces. the house and the townhouse neighborhood is quiet right now. everything is quiet (except for the crickets and the drying machine, i like the cricket noise, not the drying machine). i have to move everything downstairs to my roooooooom and i dread it but at least then i can change and fall asleep. i’m happy how today went / 12:22 night, i’m in sleep clothes, laundry basket downstairs, fresh teeth, sleepy, will try to close some tabs for future me, then sleep

gratitude timeee: i am SO relieved that I still have my financial support, even if it has been minimized. at least, it'll actually force me to focus to find a job that will help build my resume levels. thankful for the blue sky I saw today and the pleasant temperature, and thankful to have friends who are so kind to me. very thankful for A, the one who brought the food, because cooking can be hard for me and i struggle remembering to eat as it is!! clean clothes finally!! yayayay

photo is mine

today's goals: take adhd meds, brush teeth, wash face, eat breakfast, journal, eat lunch, wash dishes, make german vocab post, call advising after S go to work, move my body, 13-15 spanish grammar, look into credit cards, be outside, look into jobs, call the emdr place, read, draw, eat dinner, call dad, spanish listening practice, make spanish post, shower, meditate, and plan tomorrow's day

things I have accomplished so far:

took my meds, stood outside, washed my face, began journaling, and began stretching

i called the emdr places that my counselor suggested to me! there's an opening at one of them, and i started digitally signing papers to be a new client

ate lunch (gnocchi pasta my roomie made) and drank tea. journaled a lot lot more.

I accidentally fell asleep at 8pm

what am i doing right now as i type this? (12:09 pm/noon) my roommates and i are all downstairs journaling in silence. they're doing tarot and i am using a system i set up to view my habits and behaviors over time.

gratitude timeee: thankful for the opportunities available to me, thankful to write and reflect, thankful to my counselor and thankful to my friends, thankful to myself, and thankful to you reading this :)

08.08.22: i did sm!!! before going out on the road, i had my counseling appointment where i sorted out all my to-do list’s, proceeded to go pick up my medication, sell some books, go to the VA, and then post office! however i was super burnt out afterwards because the post office gave me like 35m of unexpected difficulty. so i laid down for a little bit, but in the evening i couldn’t fall asleep and ended up watching Hello, My Twenties until 5 am whoops

today's goals: wake up early 4 jay, take meds, brush teeth, wash dishes, pack bag, move R’s blue bin out room, wash face or at least spf, make eggplant and spinach HAVE TO because no good soon, get gas, move body, shower, ask m how to send interest email, call dad, clean up a little, drink more water, do The Thing (tried), review german, start driving home before 3:30, send email, dog sit, and plan tomorrows day.

if i have any extra energy: - tidy up laptop. - look into credit cards - library resources - do an hour of spanish grammar studying - make spanish &/or german post -

things I have accomplished today:

baked eggplant and cooked spinach for breakfast. starting the kettle for some chamomile tea as well. it was tasty but in the process of making it i accidentally broke the house's bottle of sesame oil, but thats okay because M helped me clean it and that was very kind. then ate a brownie! in the evening i ate some egg rolls and chips

brushed teeth, washed face, showered, texted jay about later,

i have organized and put away some of the laundry that was on my floor to it's different categories of worn only once lately, clean just forgot put away, and clothes for washing machine today. i will try and start the laundry machine soon

M helped me draft an email to a professor for my major, washed all my dishes while chatting with my friends, and now i need time to mentally rest from doing so much so back to back.

Did just that then began gathering my stuff to pack, reviewed some german, drove home, dog sat, and opened my letters

what am i doing right now as i type this? (12:07 noon) sitting inside with A (friend who's temp living with us) who just came home and M as I eat my breakfast and drink my tea. It looks really pretty outside, but it's getting too hot to enjoy outside unfortunately. Thinking about the busy day and weekend I'm about to have. I need to do many things before it turns 2pm! Good luck to me. (9:38pm) i needed all the luck. today was difficult. but i persevered!!! now i’m sitting down in my fathers house, sitting on the couch, just ate, and i’m now watching a show. ALSO LOOOOK I DID SOOO many things that were on my list today!!!!! and i actually ate breakfast at a breakfast time!!! i’m very proud of myself.

gratitude timeee: gonna return to this later, a little stressed from breaking the bottle. grateful M is so kind and helpful to me, grateful for the AC because its HAWT out, and happy to have a cup of tea in my life. thankful for digital studying tools, like duolingo really makes learning language vocab simple and enjoyable. grateful to my dad and these dogs and the green trees and the green grass. may they all stay healthy.