#07.08.2025

A possible problem with work laptop, I hope my fixes have taken hold. H helped me today, called me in the morning to discuss my bad dream, dried my hair for me when I got home from work and showered, looked at my laptop for me. It's nice to be able to just sit and be helped. So weary from long travel, one more day to go then the weekend!

Water pik came through clutch again this evening helping me out. Feeling better in that regard now at least. Emotionally, things are weird. I have felt a lot of intense emotions since Saturday. I think I'm struggling with my desire to ditch people, as against 'is this reasonable should I actually try to find another social group'. Because sometimes being in a different social group is valid and needs to happen. I don't know. I have been thinking a lot about my marriage and I do honestly think that comes from a questionable source... I will resist at every turn any urges to be anything other than a reasonable, fair partner. Living with someone depends on so many things.