#06302015

June 30, 2015

No matter how hard I hold on.

For almost two years.

Anyways, that was a random thought when I was typing the date in the tags.

So. Today I found out I have a cavity. Booo. Have to get it filled next week. And then I went for pho lunch with the parentals and Aaron.

As soon as we sat down, my phone started ringing. It was Eric. I couldn’t help but feel all giddy. He answered the phone super excited. He thought I had today off, and we were gonna hang out. Disappointment on both ends when I said I had to work. He said I could probably come over when I was done work. I told him I’d call when I finished.

Heading into work, I packed a bag, just incase. I texted him around 10pm. No response. I got off work at 10:45pm. Called him in the stairwell, straight to voicemail. Called him again when I got outside the building. Voicemail.

His phone was off. Why was it off? What happened that his phone was off? My mind began racing. And I guess still kind of is, because I made a vlog. Yes I made a video of me speaking about Eric.

I’m disappointed I don’t get to spend tonight with him. Sad. I wanted to see him. All I want to do it be with him. We’re finally getting to a good place, I think. I’m not too sure yet, but it feels like things are going well. Blah. I wanted to be in his bed. To smell him. Hug him. Kiss him.

I just want him.