#0123

Sequence - Saturated with Swelling

Little do you know

How I'm breakin' while you fall asleep

Little do you know

藍湛、お誕生日おめでとうございます❣️

A few months later (March) it all came crumbling down due to health issues and two months later I lost my job. Here I was.. feeling like I had failed again. Looking back I no longer look at it that way. I was forced on a different path and had to put in the work to get better. I now see it as something that was necessary to bring me to the point where I am today. A redirection I might say. I’ve changed so much this past year. I managed to build healthy habits and let go of unhealthy ones. This includes unhealthy relationships with family and friends, resulting in removing some of them from my life. I became both mentally and physically stronger. My self worth, self esteem and self love improved. I got somewhat calmer, especially once I surrendered to the transformation, which initially felt like a curse. Along the way I met some inspiring people. People who reminded me of parts of myself I had completely forgotten about. Someone even helped me discover a side of myself I didn’t know I had in me. I’m so thankful for these people.

This past year I also learned about trauma and its effects on our bodies. I came to realize that I still have some work to do there. And I will! I just have to find the right way for me and the money to do this. Losing my job hasn’t exactly been easy financially, but I trust that everything will work out as it should. Working out like I have been these past 10 months is a good start, I believe.

I’m getting ready to go back to work. This time I really hope and pray it’s more in alignment with the path that I’m supposed to be on. I’m now fully aware that last year when I started my new job the warning signs were there. I ignored them and then my body forced me to stop. One of the many lessons learned this past year! Lessons I clearly needed to make the necessary changes in my life.

Astrology played a huge part in this transformation, and although my knowledge in Human Design is minimal, both made me understand and trust this journey a bit better.

This is the first time I’m open about what I’ve been through this past year. Even the people close to me don’t know what it’s been like for me. It’s been quite lonely, but God never left my side. Even though I’m not practicing any religion I firmly believe He always watches over me and takes care of me.