#... don't mind me

... you ever end up getting disappointed by something that you feel like you shouldn't be disappointed by and it's really petty and shit? Yet it really seems to irk and drag you down?

Specifically... about a month ago my dad and his girlfriend asked what I really would like for Christmas, wanting to make sure to get stuff we really wanted and whatnot. So I cobbled together a little email consisting to links to about six or so records that I really wanted and told them they could pick from one or two of them and I'd be cool with that. And I know they got the email, since my dad texted me saying he did. Sooo... I got a little overly excited and waited anxiously until today when I was going to meet up with his side of the family. All curious about which record they picked and ordered.

They didn't pick any of them. I got $50, a calendar, a book, and little Twilight Sparkle and Pinkie Pie toys instead.

... now... I know I probably am really stupid and sound like an asshole for this. Since hey it's Christmas and they still got me stuff and combined with all the money I got from everyone else I should have plenty to buy some records myself. And the two MLP toys were a very pleasant surprise. I liked those. Yet... I can't help but feel really disappointed. I built up so much anticipation about the mystery of what record (or maybe records) they got from the list I sent, that I just can't help but feel really bummed out that I didn't get any of them.

That's probably my fault. Getting too overly hyped up for something always seems to cause me nothing but disappointment in the end. And I guess I shouldn't be too surprised, since it's not like its the first time my dad has built up my hopes in some manner and then failed to deliver. Far from the first time. But... still...

*sighs* Don't mind me, though. I'm probably just being really petty.