#-indie

I figured out I'm Indie. Anyway even if no one else believes us the F/Os believe us and that means we believe us too...

I was taught when I was young that I would only be loved painfully, that the way one gives their love to me is valued more than the way I feel upon receiving it. Within that, I was taught that isolation was a form of love, that being told someone wanted nothing to do with me meant they loved me. Now as an adult, I still struggle to accept love when it heals me, when it feels good. I feel hopeless in being able to treat someone I love right and accepting their love in return without fear that we do these nice things because we hate each other.

Why did I not bring a sketchbook im so bored right now aaaa... in other news I just learned the band I like that we always call "the gay band" for like, no reason other than vibes, does have a bisexual frontman so like, somehow, we were right.

That switch sucked so much what the fuck. Why is my brain so fucking mad at me?

Love missing my own birthday and deciding to postpone it a month because I can do whatever I want and August makes more sense anyway

Half of the songs on my playlist are songs Candle and Big Man both like a lot and music is pretty triggery for us in general so I'm like. If I skip enough songs maybe you'll go take a nap