26. aroace masculine presenting transgender person. he/him or plural they/them, please. physically disabled + audhd + dissociative. multi fandom blog that also posts a lot about ttrpgs. alterhuman / objectum / fictorose + selfshipper / age regressor ♡ F/O List ♡
💠 part time AAC user (we use AAC to accommodate parts who can't/don't speak); sometimes we type via AAC as practice so the level of grammar you see here may differ in some posts
💠 inclusive of all kinds of plurality; take syscourse and anti-endo sentiment elsewhere-- our stance is not up for debate!
💠 collective interests: ttrpgs (especially triangle agency and delta green), xcom, severance, blaseball, ace combat/project wingman, interactive fiction, writing, stuffed animals and toys, gamedev (both video and tabletop)
sci-fi divider credit: @/saradika-graphics // 'i need to create' stickman meme credit: @/vixvigil
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June 12th, 2016. 2:02 AM, Latin Night. This is when the horrific attack on Pulse Nightclub occurred.
Today, we remember the names of the 49 queer and trans people whose lives were tragically lost, along with the many more who were injured.
See the memorial
With violence against trans people rising, especially against trans women of color, our spaces must be protected! For the elders, for those living stealth, for those living out and proud, and those just taking their first steps.
[Cyber Effect] astonishing modern raden (mother of pearl inlay) by Terumasa Ikeda. A nice pun on the classic Ghost in the shell ;)
Raden is a very old decorative craft (see video below), usually used on lacquer bases with floral or traditional motifs. It’s so great to see it used this way!
Air to air combat is the easiest form of warfare to argue that both parties consent to. Dogfighting is basically kink and it should turn you on at least a little.
This honestly does it all such little justice. You need to know your opponents airframe intimately- how it handles, turns, how much it weights and how it pulls against the air. How to dance with her body elegantly, and all for just a brief moment under the sights. The strain of your body as you pull the stick, the strain of the engines as they try to give all the force you need. All for a glimpse. The blood rushing from your head as you push forward, the fight for elevation, dominance, potential energy. Position is gained slowly and lost quickly. Eagerness can find you vulnerable, under the eye of your enemy. And all they need too, just a brief glimpse. Just one moment under her sights till you’re undone, penetrated, bleeding oil and smoke and shuddering.
WWI pilot and noted freak Roald Dahl (better known for other work) doesn't write about dogfighting QUITE like this but he does affirm the general interpretation here. I'm thinking especially about one scene in the short story "Katina" where the narrator succeds in shooting down a German plane into the water after a dogfight, then hangs around to make sure the crew doesn't drown. When the German fighters keep shooting at him from the wreck of their plane, forcing him to fly off, the narration comes off as miffed and rejected. Dom drop is real and it can happen to fighter pilots.
(To avoid romanticizing an earlier era of warfare, reminder that dogfighting was not the only military tactic used in WWI. The titular Katina is a little Greek girl orphaned when the Germans bombed her village.)(The story Very Much portrays the British fighters as nobly defending the people of Greece, who are full of love and gratitude, which should probably be taken with a grain of salt lol)
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'We pay for your therapy so have to tell us what you're doing in there. You have to prove it's helping you or we won't pay for it.' I want to die. I guess it's a reasonable ask, but I hate the idea of giving them any info. I know I can lie, but I'm worried about maintaining the lie. I'm so angry. They've done this before-- threatened to stop paying for mental health services, knowing that our options of job opportunities are limited. They'll probably threaten to stop paying for our insurance, too. It's...they're worried about money, I guess, which is also reasonable but... I just feel like I'm being told I'm not worth the cost of being helped. I.. don't know if that's what's happening or not. Probably not. I'm probably being a dick.
project hail mary is a touching and poignant film that leaves you asking questions about humanity like, "wow what if all mainstream media was genuinely good" and "what if book adaptions actually gave a shit about the book in question" and "what if studios hired actors that could actually act, and then let them get a lil wacky with it"
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today is the ten year anniversary of the Pulse Nightclub shooting. a full decade ago, i lost a friend and a coworker. i was lucky. i had friends that lost several people. today, please remember and fight for all those that have died to live the live they should have been free to. i'll always remember you, Cory.
System mapping is the process of making a model of your system in some way.
Many systems make system maps. A system list is a system map in one of its simplest forms, but there are a lot of other kinds of system maps that people might make to get more information. Some system maps might show internal structure and lines of communication. Some show relationships or opinions. Some show common themes and differences between system members. Etc.
There's really no wrong way to make a map. What matters is that the map is useful to you- it should give you information that helps you work with your system better. It might give you a better understanding of why your system works the way it does, or it might tell you who might need support or who might need to work on establishing communication.
Communication
Sometimes, it can be useful to map out who in your system can talk to whom. This is a very simple kind of map to make, and it gives you useful information about your system that ranges from "huh, these two can't reach each other" to "there's a gap here- are we missing someone?"
Lay out every known system member on a piece of paper. If two people can talk to each other, draw a line between them. If the communication is one-way only, draw an arrow. If two people can't reach each other, don't connect them. If two people can reach each other indirectly but you don't know who's linking them together like that, draw a line with a gap in it.
You might also add dotted lines for weak or unreliable communication, or other kinds of lines for other special cases.
Relationship
It can be helpful to know how different system members get along (or don't). Relationships in a system can be mapped with something similar to a shipping diagram, and looking at the resulting map can make it very obvious if someone is overall liked, disliked, rejected, etc. It can also point out interesting patterns in who gets along and who doesn't.
Draw your system members arranged in a circle. Then, draw color-coded (or otherwise coded- make a key) lines between members that like each other, dislike each other, or have other important opinions about each other.
Structure
Sometimes, drawing the arrangement of your system can teach you how to work with it better.
If two people feel close to each other (e.g. they may have unusually easy communication, common interests or themes, common issues, etc.), then draw them close together. If two people feel far apart (e.g. poor communication, lots of differences and disagreements, don't really understand each other), then draw them far apart.
By the end of this, you have a map that shows you which people are clustered together and which people are disconnected, rejected, or otherwise pushed away. This can be very useful when trying to bring any cast-out people closer to the rest of your group, as it can make isolation very obvious.
You can also map other aspects of system structure. For example, you might consider mapping the relationship between the different places that people can occupy in your system (front, back, etc.):
This kind of map can be very abstract sometimes. We have a few structure maps that we've made over the years, and they probably don't make a ton of sense to people that aren't in our group, but they've helped us a lot.
You might also consider mapping associations. What colors are associated with your system members? Do they have common themes or imagery? Does everyone associated with the color green have a hard time talking to people associated with blue? Are powerful people usually associated with certain species?
Timeline
Sometimes, it can be helpful to make a timeline of important life events that happened to your group. If you have guesses about when some people showed up or changed, then putting those dates on the timeline can give you insight into what those people might be dealing with.
Content warning for trauma, suicide and egocide, and general unpleasantry if you read this one. We censored the most sensitive parts (and those we'd simply prefer to keep private), but it's still heavier than the other maps in this post.
Headspace
If your headspace is possible to map, then sometimes mapping it can teach you something about your system. It doesn't have to be very detailed to help, nor does it have to be entirely logical.
We don't have the one headspace map we've made in easy reach, unfortunately, and it's out of date. That said, conventional land mapping tricks will often work for places in headspace. Recreating headspace in a game like The Sims or Minecraft is also an option.
If multiple places overlap, then consider making a pop-up map or otherwise representing that overlap- it can be useful information. Likewise, if parts of headspace correspond to parts of your body or parts of your system, then it can be helpful to make a note about that.
Adapting for Large and Complex Systems
Larger systems may not all fit on one piece of paper. Complex systems may not fit on a 2D surface at all- there might be layers involved that need a 3D surface. System mapping still works for these cases, but you may need to approach it a little differently.
Try mapping your system's subgroups instead of individual people.
Try making multiple maps for different "regions" of the system. Consider including information on how those maps connect together.
Make good use of color coding and keys to pack more information into a smaller space.
Try mapping by using digital drawing programs and tools. A digital canvas can be much larger than a physical one.
Try mapping in 3D. Make a sculpture, stack sheets of paper, fold the paper, use the back side, draw a 3D shape, and experiment with other ways of arranging the map to better reflect your situation.
Use multiple kinds of map. Each map is likely to have part of the overall picture, and looking at them together is likely to give you useful information about how it all fits together.
Finally: system mapping is not required. It can be helpful for some systems, but it won't work for everyone, and some systems find that it harms them or makes their lives harder to live. If mapping doesn't work for you, then that's okay- there are plenty of other ways to get to know your system better. Do what works.
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Let me know in my inbox if there are any other flags you would like to see me draw :]
Edit: I’m gonna turn off my asks temporarily while I go through my requests bc if I get any more I fear I may explode 😭😭 (I’ll turn my asks back on after I finish all of them though!)
I wish they made it even marginally possible to get a job like I’m so fucking sorry I don’t have a rare but also highly demanded skillset, an agreeable disposition, and the ability to survive off of three nickels a week I’m soooo sorry
IF YOU CAN’T GET A JOB, IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT!!!!! THE SYSTEM IS DEEPLY BROKEN!!!!!!!!
The hiring process has never been great, but in the past couple of years it’s hit rock bottom. Ghost jobs probably outnumber real jobs on job sites. Recruiters and HR use AI which throws out 90% of resumes before a real human being sees them. And most companies are hellbent on holding out for a unicorn candidate- meaning someone who already knows how to do the EXACT role without any training while also accepting entry level wages- instead of investing in new people.
It’s fucking hard out there right now. You are not alone and it’s not your fault if you can’t get hired.
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