#-mj

my favorite color is orange. it will have you thinking i'm a fictive of matt the dirties. i'm not, exactly. i feel like I pull traits from the fictional matt's. which, isn't hard because if you're a fictive of one you will be similar to all. but i'm very much a nirvanna the band guy. except, i'm not a cartoon character i'm not a fucking idiot. to that degree.

i think i'm hosting for a bit? probably? chel's still here, it is us two really. but i'm more and more at the helm. it's nice. i can't access a lot of the trauma the body has been through. i'm pretty, chill? still affected by everyone else's anxiety and stuff. dako's especially.

Do you think we are soul mates in ever universe?

Midnight: *doesnt front for two months*

When the guy u spent years watching and connecting with everything he created and every deep thought he would share turns out to have physically and emotionally abused his ex (a woman who you have always respected and appreciated but didn't idolize as much at the time despite knowing she's a good influence) And it really causes you to think about your experiences and how you kinda used the way he made you feel as a guide for the people you would then welcome into your life. I wonder where I would be now if I didnt let the content I consumed as a shut in guide who I interacted with as a new adult.