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I was somehow under the impression that house of leaves’s popularity was a tumblr-wide phenomenon but now I’m convinced this is simply a case of my online experience being exquisitely curated. there is no fucking way the greater population of the ‘piss on the poor’ website is reading and understanding this book

Actually no this gets it's own post just. The contrast between immediate post-war era Eichi and later ! Era Eichi or !! Era Eichi is just soooooo good because in Blackbird he's in this hospital room he's described as emaciated because he doesn't eat he completely shut himself off and refuses treatment because he doesn't want to live anymore and feels so guilty and horrible and then he gets this visit from Wataru and suddenly he has something to be alive for againbso his revolution doesn't go to waste and you can see that in how enthusiastic he is about rewriting that script of natsumes pipe dream together with Wataru and then somewhere along the line in ! Era during kenkafes he says that he's glad he's alive and just. In the ! Era stories in general he likes living he's still not letting himself believe people genuinely like him for who he is and he still feels horrible about the war (that doesn't change even in !! Era) but he doesn't want to die like that anymore and then in !! Era we have him and he's happy and he's still a workaholic who could take better care of himself but he has his fine now and they love him so much he's their beloved leader and they invented Eichi-days just so he would rest and he's healing and learning to accept the love and support he's recieving for what it is and. Head in hand I just love him so much guys the Character Development!!

The urge to dress masc and try to pass, vs the urge to wear a pretty top that's definitely too fem to let you pass.