May 24
while i 100% should have been kept in the hospital on a feeding tube bc i can only consume liquids rn and will lose more weight, at least im watching stargate and diagnosis murder in bed
#i mean im in pain and im terrified to even have a milkshake. so things are still very nad#*bad#it was worse earlier today. maybe bc of the milkshake#ive been having ensure as well but its only the 180 cal one#and i have no more boost breeze#my dad did order the boost one thats 500 or so cals so hopefully that tastes tolerable#my dietitian also recommened a breakfast powder to add to shakes for extra cals so ill try that too#i just wish i knew this was a possiblity of things that could happen from my initial weight loss#oh well guess my GI dr was more useless than i thought#but ig thats to be expected atp. if i do have to do surgery as he said im gonna have to reschedule other important appts which is also like.#putting me at risk for other shit. but idk this is just my life😀👍#anyways. i pray i make it thru the weekend without losing more than a pound or two. im gonna try so hard to keep my intake up while managing#the pain#fuck my baka life#personal
