#* my posts !

robotfucker but in a nonliteral sense. vibes only. i would engage in acts of extreme, intensely trust-based, emotional intimacy with a robot. however i would rather be killed than have sex with one. im not a coward, im just asexual and it's not my thing as a general statement. the idea makes me feel icky. if anyone or anything tries to make me have sex with it i'll just kill myself on the spot. but in spirit? based on vibes? i would be a robotfucker. does that make sense

if youre wondering why i might post ab my permaregrsssion more btw its bc im realizing the more I try to separate myself from my regression instead of just incorporating it into who I am 24/7 the more disregulated I get wnd the worse I cope with things actually so youre all stuck w this now

"i want to do this thing that sounds like a celbration to me but idk what id be celebrating..." the fact youre alive, dummy!! the fact its pride month and youre 21 when you thought youd be lucky to even get close to your 18th!! and the fact that you live with a parent thats willing to help you get on hrt! and that in a year youll be living with the boy you felt guilty for having a crush for when you were 15 and his wife loves you too and youll get to live with both of them and their cat because they WANT to move to live with YOU in YOUR HOME STATE!!! and youre working on getting a driver's liscense!!! and your headmate helped you cut your hair today and now the body feels really nice and youre happy!! and you dont clam up around intoxication anymore!!! and youre trying to plan an outfit to wear to pride next weekend!! and your friends are talking about hanging out together to make bracelets for pride and they specifically said they remember you like making bracelets when planning!!! and even though in four days itll be a trauma anniversary for one of the worst breakups of your life youre happy RIGHT NOW!! and then after THAT youre gonna get to go spend time with your polycule IN PERSON!!! all of thats worth celebrating, stupid!!! NOW GO GET HIGH AND PUT ON YOUR FANCY PERFUME AND HAVE FUN!!!!

every so often when im sad i remember that i met josh keaton in cosplay as keith kogane and he asked ME for a picture because he was so happy to see voltron cosplayers in 2024

something about spring makes everything feel so romantic. there were two people across the street on the sidewalk swordfighting with sticks. dandelions are turning my childhood home's yard into a flower field. i saw a bee flitting between clusters of freshly bloomed lilacs. the birds are singing all day long. it's warm enough to sit outside in a t-shirt and shorts. i made myself dinner and called goodbye to my dad as he went outside to go on a bike ride. i love when the world feels alive

(voice of a person holding everyone at arms length and unwilling to let them get any closer) what no yeah its totally my fault for being lonely yeah, i like. am just unlikeable i guess, or nobody wants to stay around me idk. yeah. i dont know. not their fault really im just like. bad at talking to people. its okay im fine like this yeah im sure dont even worry about it