#* death tw

how did i die ? elia breathes in sharply and looks the other way. she had heard about it happening, abe dying and coming back, hell, she knew the winchester brothers had died and come back several times, but seeing abe drift into death was a different matter entirely. she wasn't used to mortality, had never seen death capture the spirit of anything but an animal. when she closes her eyes she can still see the blood, still smell it too. like rust or iron. seeing the light go from his eyes...

“ sword. it wasn't pretty. ” she feels sick saying the words. she had not realized how much she cared about abe before that night, how scared she was seeing the blade sticking out of his chest, blood gushing from the wound. the worst part of all had been dean's terror, seeing the way he had hugged abraham's body close to him, afraid that this time would be the day he did not come back. sam had been just as tense next to her, his body stiff as he held her to him, his grip just a little too tight. “ is that normal ? do you not always remember... going ? ”