#(( also this is short bc...i have...headache...etc etc

Moment: Wild life session 5

Song: Lovesick by Laufey, cover by Anica Russo

I started this animatic the day the session 5 pov’s came out. Entirely inspired by @astrowarr’s 🌟 post, which breaks down Mumbo’s death and Grians grief so beautifully, the interpretation that his despair humanizes him in the eyes of the rest of the server. One last time, he wasn’t able to save mumbo. Because, the watchers wouldn’t let him keep him.

♠️

{yapping about the process under the cut}

i doubt u saw the absolute beautiful anon i had on my account. i'll link it here so u can read it: (https://www.tumblr.com/strwbryluver/813239392887078912/i-had-such-a-good-ask-for-you-but-it-deleted-but?source=share).

but as soon as i read that ask, i immediately thought of sabrina carpenter's whole aesthetic behind short and sweet. and i wanted to write something on it but i also had NO idea what to do.

but maybe...hear me out. liam/noel with a secret popstar!gf like maybe she's in the spice girls or something like that, or even apart of blur or pulp or smth idk some britpop shit. and obviously they have to keep their relationship a secret since oasis have playfully started "beef" with girl groups bc have to play into the rock 'n roll star image they've created. maybe it could be rivalry-pilled (that one friend who likes the rivalry by highflyingcami way too much), where they engage in a "rivalry" simply to bring more attention to them through the media etc.

and when they're on tour, or whenever they go away in general, the popstar!gf reader writes secret little love letters. they start off extremely cute and wholesome, but as their media beef gets a little more intense with each diss sliding off their tongues, the letters get a little more teasing and taboo-ish. could add in a little angst that maybe those insults start to feel way to real, and the media starts to create a rift between them. but ignoring that, the harder liam/noel goes with the insults, the reader keeps writing the sluttiest love letters to them. talking about what position she wants them to put her in, and whenever she performs herself, her outfits get skimpier and more daring and revealing...maybe they start having a bit like in juno where the reader does a "sex position" during a specific segment of their performance just to make liam/noel jealous. dare i say when he gets back to his hotel that night, there's a cute little love letter sealed with your iconic red kiss mark with a series of polaroids.

you strip teasing him which ends up with you having a photo of you with your fingers in your cunt...with the letter ending with you begging for him to come over and "help you."

if we go the angsty side of things...having the other brother take photos of you forced into different positions while taking their cock. taking a selfie with the other brother's cock down your throat and another one with you blowing a kiss to the camera with cum all over your face.

idk im feel extremely creative tn and this came out of nowhere....

@strwbryluver 🍓

the cutest person u know will write something DIABOLICAL like this about fucking both gallagher brothers ……….. is this u sam? be honest…. be honest with me like sorry to put u on blast and do your face reveal but this is u right. it is.

i worship athena, aphrodite and apollon mainly btw, so anything related to Them specifically would be nice! thank you :]

Khaire, Nonny!

Here's a list I came up with because it's easier for me to keep track of:

Aphrodite: Taking showers (I use rose-scented washes), taking a self-care bath, nourishing yourself with food or water, taking time out of your day to be kind to yourself, smiling at your reflection, giving your reflection compliments, giving compliments to strangers, engaging in random acts of kindness, wearing devotional jewelry, listening to a playlist with songs that remind you of her, being kind to your body, being gentle with yourself when you're struggling, taking time to relax after a long day (even just a little bit), wearing an outfit you dedicate to her, planning your outfits ahead of time, take time to ground yourself each day (if you can), spending time with loved ones, going out with friends, talking to loved ones, relying on others for help when needed, lending your help to someone who is struggling, practice showing yourself the same kindness you share with others

Apollon: Engaging in anything related to personal hygiene, taking your medications (if you have them), using herbs to help with mild maladies (like headaches and stomach aches; using medications is also ok!), taking a daily walk/getting in some daily movement, eating s delicious meal that you made for yourself, listening to a playlist with songs that remind you of him, wearing devotional jewelry, dancing to music, singing to music, taking time to write a short poem each day, basking in the warmth of the sunlight, reading a book, going out of your way to learn more about a topic, practicing divination, creating or working on an art piece, working on having a healthier sleep schedule (going to bed at a reasonable time), doing your homework/studying, working on any form of self-improvement, getting curious about yourself and who you are in any sense (making lists about yourself, asking yourself questions, etc.), engaging with media from your childhood

Athena: Taking a daily walk/getting in some daily movement, working out (if you can; this can be in any sense), slowly embracing more nuance into your life, going out of your way to seek knowledge, give advice to a loved one, practice taking your own advice, practice listening to yourself/your gut more often, take time to reflect on your accomplishments/strengths each day, listening to a playlist with songs that remind you of her, wearing devotional jewelry, engaging in creative hobbies (especially knitting, weaving, crocheting, etc.)engaging with good world/country news, stating updated on happenings in your country/the world, practice standing up/advocating for yourself, caring for your body's physical needs (food, water, sleep, etc.), doing your homework/studying, setting firm boundaries with others/reflecting on what your boundaries are, engaging with media you love, taking set time away from screens, practice growing s thicker skin to things people say

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I have chronic migraines that are currently unmedicated.

And on days off I am just so exhausted, headaches, muscle aches, stomachaches. Sometimes I can't go to work I'm so exhausted.

When I feel this way I'm tempted to take a COVID test but it's always negative. I've been in burnout before and this feels different.

I'm just trying to figure out what this could be and if I should go to the Dr

It doesn't happen consistently, so I'm struggling with potentially going to the Dr. I mean it's hard enough to get doctors to listen, let alone with something that isn't causing issues consistently

It's possible it's a medication side effect but I've been on the med before without having this issue. I've changed when I take the med just in case.

Do you know if Long COVID has stops and starts?

well, I don't think I would call myself an expert exactly, and i can't tell you what's going on with you, but i CAN tell you some things that are possible.

firstly yes, exhaustion can definitely accompany migraine! migraine can also be comorbid with a LOT of disorders and syndromes that involve fatigue. migraines happen for a variety of reasons and along several different pathways, to the point where a lot ofigraine experts kind of treat them like different things that happen to produce the same symptoms. since you know you get migraines, talking to a neurologist about treatment options for that and seeing if any of them address your fatigue symptoms might be a helpful move. (migraines can also change and it's important to talk to a neurologist when they do -- I've gotten them since childhood but when they started presenting differently + with more frequency, that's what made my neuro order the imagining that uncovered my CSF leak.)

long COVID/any post viral illness don't necessarily have One Profile and can look an awful lot of different ways, which is really frustrating. some people may feel bad all the time. however, every chronic illness that I am aware of has periods of feeling a bit better and then flare ups of symptoms -- these often seem random bc it's really hard to figure out what triggers them sometimes (can be weather, food, stress, your body's own hormone fluctuations, some sort of mast cell reaction to any of these + more) Flares are a really classic component of chronic illness and what you're describing, with intermittent periods of symptoms, "stops and starts," could be flares.

so in short: yes, I would say that what you are describing sounds like something to talk to a doctor about. you're sadly right that trying to get people to take conditions like this seriously can be challenging, but unfortunately it's the only way to be able to access any treatment or help :( Fortunately, there is a lot more awareness about it than there was 5 or 10 years ago. I'm not sure where you live, but there are often facebook groups where people talk about healthcare professionals who were or weren't helpful with their chronic illnesses, and those can be helpful guides when looking for someone to try and make an appointment with/get a referral to/etc, in my experience.

idk if that was helpful but I hope so! good luck.

nickname(s): Pumme (P. is actually short for Pumme lol) zodiac: Aquarius last movie i saw: Tom Clancy's Jack Ryan... something with 'Ghost' in the title idk, it was fun last thing i googled: 'Hudson Williams banana photoshoot' ( :) ) favourite musician: I listen to a bunch of different artists but I was always a big Linkin Park fan, and since Ch.est.er Ben.nin.gto.ns death it took me a while but I now love them again. But as said I listen to a bunch of music and not usually bc of an artist but rather bc I like the track(s). song stuck in my head: Linkin Park - Stained & that 'Everything is romantic' that I first heard in a Youtube Short but now I vibe with both the original song and the shortened version other blogs: A MCU Moon Knight single muse (@/threegoldfish) I am currently not too active on, I am sorry my bbys I shall return soon do i get asks: Not as often... I don't have many ppl follow me here and I am pretty sure my arrangement of (odd-ish) muses is not helping either :') following: 23 (I am anxious and I also find it hard to find blogs nowadays...) amount of sleep: Normal-ish I guess tho it's not always a good kind of sleep (I tend to wake with headaches) lucky number: 5 what i’m wearing: Shorts and an old shirt bc it's fucking hot here dream job: I sometimes think about how cool it would be to become a 'Synchronsprecher' (dubber actor???) but I am old already and AI is rising and the business is hard and it costs money to get educated so... Guess I'll never end up being one, which makes me sad. I don't think I could do it well anyways bc of my mental health shit, but I wished I could dream trip: Egypt, I wanna visit the museum in Cairo so bad. But also somewhere like Norway or Sweden or Denmark... I'd also love to see Canada. I don't think any of it will ever come true tho favourite food: Sushi and Steak play any instruments: Used to play both the piano and the guitar but only for like a year and I stopped bc I couldn't for the life of me figure out the musical notes bullshit language languages: German & English favourite songs: Most favorite: Breaking the habit (Linkin Park, favorite song for forever and ever). A few more recent/mixed songs depending on mood etc: Herr Mannelig (Garmana), Arising Hero (Funker Vogt), Krigsgaldr (Heilung), My Immortal (Evanescence), You're Next (Moon Walker), Over Each Other (Linkin Park), Rot V1 (&V2) (SITD) but I listen to so many more songs (mostly older/niche) so this is just a momentary glimpse random fact: I have two cats describe yourself as aesthetic things: Rainbows sparkles explosions rain storm thunder kittens a torn garbage bag a hole in the ground spilled paint glitterbomb pink black a big fat question mark

BASICS.

name:  vanto, though i've gone through other pseuds in the past. pronouns:  he / they, no preference for one over the other. sexuality:  gay. taken  or  single:  taken!

EXPERIENCE.  HOW  LONG  (MONTHS/YEARS?)

i've been in this hellsite since 2012. i can't believe it's almost been decade and a half since i decided to take up the hobby that would get me to perfect my english and give me equal parts good experiences and headaches along the way lmao. it's been a ride and sadly at this point i'm a barnacle stuck to the underside of the rollercoaster car: only way you're getting me out of here is with clippers dude.

MUSE  PREFERENCES.

female  or  male:  i gravitate towards male muses, but i have written and still do write female muses over on my multi. after so many years i've found it's a gender thing considering my complicated relationship with my own, but it's been nice to be able to expand my horizons and pick up the type of female muse that makes me comfortable to write and explore ykwim?? it's a 80/20 male/female ratio sadly, which may not be everyone's cup of tea, but creativity and personal comfort intertwine in many ways.

fluff,  angst  or  smut:  definitely fluff and angst over smut; i love some good heartbreak as well as the happiness from writing the more lighthearted stuff. not that i can't write smut or that i'm wholly opposed to doing so, but as an ace person with bouts of sex repulsion i'm very on the fence about smut. i also have to be super comfortable with my writing partner to even consider it bc of previous bad experiences, so the most i can do at times is a meme response or something. smut threads are a big no for me :v:

plots  or  memes:  both! plotting is still my weak spot (though i'm trying to get better), but some of my best dynamics have come from a meme i've answered based off vibes only, while other times plotting hasn't worked out as well. 'tis the duality of tumblr.

long  or  short  replies:  long replies. in general i'm just a yapper, but i also have a minimum of at least 2 - 3 paragraphs in a reply. if i see that my partner writes more or less, i will match length however.

best  time  to  write: i follow my writing drive so literally any time i feel like i have words to put down. i do often write during daytime hours, however, and then surprisingly during graveyard shifts when it's quiet.

are  you  like  your  muse(s):  vann is both his own creature and an ideal version of some of my traits, so yes in part. but that's the beauty of characters isn't it; of art imitating life, characters as a vessel for exploration, etc. he's the part of me that hasn't lost his faith, he's the kind of person and friend i strive to be, and other things. idk man, as one of my many brain children into whom i've put so much time and care, there'll inevitably be some overlap.

i got possessed and wrote an essay but please enjoy... i love the idea of them ruining each other's relationships so all of these are in that realm