#!hh

“everything,” he says, a smile instantly gracing his face just by hearing that name alone. the thought of yeri already has him smiling from ear to ear. he loves everything about yeri, that’s the truth. “i love how confident she is, how straight forward she is, how funny she is, how bright she is, how sweet she is... the list is endless!”

it’s something that haknyeon has thought about a lot. something that he himself never quite understood. “for the longest time i... i mean,” he’s not too sure how to word himself or his thoughts. “i always liked girls. i still do! i like them,” he replies, furrowing his brows. “and then i met juyeon hyung. and i really liked him. i think i’ve always liked him, even without knowing it myself i had the hugest crush on him for the longest time. hyunjoon says i was obvious but i don’t know. i never quite understood my own feelings. it took me a while to actually accept it, you know? to understand that i liked him like that. i like boys too. i like juyeon hyung a lot. like, a lot. i’m in love with him and that’s something i know for sure,” he says. “it took me a while to understand it, but if i were to put labels on it, i’m bisexual. yeah, that’s it.” and it’s actually the first time haknyeon’s confirmed that fact –– even if only to himself. 

the fear though. it’s something he’s familiar with. he hadn’t even been able to tell daniel, one of his closest friends, about this. it’s always at the tip of his tongue but he’s so afraid of how the people around him would react. “yes,” he answers truthfully. just thinking about how he can’t bring himself to tell daniel has his stomach churning. but maybe it’s because it’s daniel, because he’s so special to haknyeon. he doesn’t know. “it took me so long to not be afraid of my own feelings. i think i’m still afraid of other people finding out.”