#!fluffy

BENJAMIN POINDEXTER who likes animals – as long they are five feet away from him. He’s not the kind of guy who hates dogs and cats, he just don’t really care about them. Never wanted to have a pet at home, but you? Oh, you loved pets. Specially your cat.

BENJAMIN POINDEXTER who didn’t know how to act around your cat the first time he came to your house. The kitten was circling his legs, purring as he rubbed his head on Dex’s leg. He looked at the pet, confused – you were too, since your kitten usually hated guests.

BENJAMIN POINDEXTER who googled “what do cats enjoy?” that night and in the next morning was buying every nice toy he saw, eager to give it to you. If you loved your cat – and Dex loved you – he figured out, he should also love your cat.

BENJAMIN POINDEXTER who took a thousand pictures of you and your kitten, mostly when you two sleep together and your cat insists in lay on his tummy. He thinks it’s adorable. When work is boring or he had a rough day, he just sit with a coffee and keeps scrolling trough endless photos of you two.

BENJAMIN POINDEXTER who sometimes is a bit jealous of how close you are with your cat, it’s stupid and he knows it, but he can’t help but notice how softly you look at it – with so much love, the love who was supposed to be only his.

BENJAMIN POINDEXTER who knows your cat loves him. The creature it’s not subtle at all. Always meowing to get his attention, begging to be caressed and always getting in the middle of you two. You made a rule of not being inappropriate in front of the kitten, which is painful to Dex, because your cat is always there. So, he have no choice but to lock the door of your room when you two go to bed. Not every time, of course.

BENJAMIN POINDEXTER who laughs when you say “I think it likes you more than me.” with a pout face.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who doesn’t do relationships – until you appeared. So perfectly sweet, smart, funny and real. It was impossible for him not to want you, to have you all for himself. Soon, you were all he wanted and needed, essential like the air he breaths. God, he couldn’t love anyone else after you.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who is the worst person to talk about feelings. You cannot really blame him. The house he grow up was hollow, he didn’t had anyone to teach him how to feel things right or how to express anything other than anger. He tries, so hard, for you, because he knows you deserve someone better. It’s difficult when you two fight about something, he doesn’t know how to open up and say what he’s feeling, all he does is get mad and storm away from you – never at you.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who feels guilty sometimes, for being with you. he thinks you deserve something else. He wishes he wasn’t so selfish, because then maybe he could let you go, but he can’t. You could be miles away from him and he would love you in the same way. There’s nothing or anyone out there for him besides you.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who does small things for you. He’s not the type to show love with big gestures or words. He does try his best to make sure you feel loved and appreciated by him. He notices how you usually eat and what you like to eat, what songs you like to listen in his car, what colors you like and movies make you laugh. It’s not much, but it’s enough to show how much he knows you. How much he cares about you.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who lays his head on your lap almost all the time. He is used to take care of people and he absolutely loves to take care of you, but being able to rest with you is deeper than you could ever imagine to him. Means that he is finally safe. That he doesn’t need to fight or to keep his walls up. When he’s with you, he’s safe to be himself.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who really thrives on teasing you. He checks every petname off the list. Always with a stupid grin on his face, eyes sweet from so much tenderness for you. He knows you love his accent, so he practically never stops talking. “y’know how I am, princess”. Goodbyes always accompanied by “see u soon, pretty girl.”. But when he’s feeling cheesy, you know he’s going to be all over you with forehead kisses and “you’re so pretty, babe.”

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who it is hard to deal with, he’s stubborn, closed, got some anger issues and all that. He’s not stable; your relationship is always on a fine line between wonderful and toxic. You know it, he knows it. Yet, you don’t really see yourself without him being part of your life. He is way too deep on you. Engraved on your heart and mind – maybe even in your soul.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who is yours and it’s not afraid of being rude with other girls. Being a gentleman is not one thing that he is.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who is not a sub. He isn’t exactly a dom, but you’re not going to get that boy to beg for you. Get on his knees? Sure, but only when he wants to. Lucky you, he always want to make you feel good. He had a lot of experience before, for sure, but nothing that really lasted or that was half as important as you are for him. Again, he doesn’t have eyes for anyone else. It’s you and him until he dies.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who kiss you like a starved man every. single. time. He just cant get enough of you. it’s on the edge of obsession, really.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who fights for you a sometimes. And he would do it again without blinking. You want to wear something short? Go for it, he knows how to break hands. A guy is bothering you? He’s not coming home until that guy is bleeding. Of course, now he expects you to bandage him.

NICHOLAS SLOVACEK who is totally different when he’s with you. He used to be mad, frustrated, all the time. But with you? He feels like things are finally in their places, he’s happier, he laughs more and every time he smiles, you look at him as if it’s the best thing in the world.

MATT MURDOCK who is maybe the closest thing to heaven that you are ever going to see. Who’s sweet, kind, thoughtful, soft-spoken, and probably perfect.

MATT MURDOCK who can’t stand seeing you cry or get barely sad so he watches you with precision, always making sure to get you exactly what you need, to hold you how you like it and give you space when you need it. Except, he doesn’t. He cannot. His body physically hurts with the thought of leaving you unattended. He needs to keep you close, so he can be able to hear you, he already doesn’t have how to see you so all he can count with is his hearing, and if you are too far, that also fails him.

MATT MURDOCK who thinks you are the closest to heaven that he will ever get to. That aches every night, praying that he will make it home, to you. That kiss you, as it is his last kiss every time. That sleeps hearing your heartbeat because that is the only way for him to be sure that you are real.

MATT MURDOCK who doesn’t think he deserves you. He’s not a bad man, he knows that, but how can anyone deserves you?

MATT MURDOCK who traces your skin with the tip of his fingers, memorizing every spot with adoration. Who smell your scent and feels like not being able to touch you its unbearable.

MATT MURDOCK who would get on his knees for you without blinking. Who worships you in every way he can. Who loves you with not just his heart, but body and soul. Who belongs to you, and make sure to tell you always.

MATT MURDOCK who loves hearing your laugh. He can’t help it. Always the first to suggest watching comedy movies. Always telling you stupid and silly jokes, and you, of course, laugh at them all, even the not funny ones, just because you love the soft proud smirk he gives you.

MATT MURDOCK who dreams about having a family of his own. To have a nice but no so big house and make it home for you. Who talk about having babies with you when the city is quiet and lay with you on his bed, holding you with a soft smile.

MATT MURDOCK who once said to you that he was tired. Tired of being God’s perfect soldier. Tired of seeing his city falls under corruption and scared that someday it would catch you. Tired of always leaving in the middle of the night without saying goodbye. He cried that night, the first and maybe last time you ever saw that man so vulnerable.

MATT MURDOCK who knows he can’t give up. That he can’t let the daredevil rest. Who knows that his city needs him.

Si eun was always very discreet, quiet, and seen as rude by most people, so when they found out he had a girlfriend— and that she was the complete opposite of him —it was a huge shock and the reason for a lot of speculation.

Su ho, in particular, was stunned and a bit incredulous. He could barely believe his own eyes when he met you for the first time and saw what was almost a ray of sunshine in human form. A kind girl, very polite, beautiful, and excited about the small things in everyday life.

In a way, that was exactly what attracted Si eun. He admired the way you expressed yourself so openly, felt a strange sense of comfort in your loud laughter and in the silly smiles you offered him as if they were nothing special. He also valued having an intelligent and gentle partner — those were very important qualities to him.

At the beginning, he admits it was awkward — since both of you were slightly strange around each other, the initial phase of getting to know one another was marked by long silences that you always tried to fill with silly questions.

Si eun doesn’t easily give in to his own emotions; it was a difficult process, though faster than he would have imagined. You took up space in his mind before he even noticed, and within a few months, he was paying more and more attention to every detail about you. He liked watching you interact with your friends — he found it charming how you behaved around people you trusted. He also noticed changes in your behavior as if they were a complicated equation to solve, subtly doing small things to please you or simply lift your mood.

Being very reserved, he didn’t exactly know how to approach you — I mean, he was very good at observing other people’s interactions, and in theory he was ready, but in practice? It was terrible. Sometimes he would just sit beside you, quiet, looking at the horizon and mentally preparing himself several times before asking simple questions like “How was your day?” — and you found it adorable, although you weren’t sure if he was actually interested in you.

Despite wanting to, he wasn’t the first to take any initiative. But he was sincere and decisive when accepting your invitation to go out together.

On your first date, he asked Su ho for help on how to act (and it wasn’t a good idea, because Si eun would never consider acting like Su ho, especially in such an important moment for him) and ended up telling you about it at the end of the day, as a way of showing that he was also nervous to go out with you.

He is a very attentive partner — even if he doesn’t always show it with words — he is always keeping an eye on you: whether you’re eating properly, if you’re having problems at home, if you’re too tired to go out, and especially your grades. He likes spending his time helping you study — which, at first, was a big problem for him because he realized he couldn’t focus if you were around.

He looks at you and listens intently whenever you’re rambling about one of your interests; he may seem bored to the people around you, but you know he paid attention to every word when later he mentions some fact about that interest. Si eun makes an effort to be part of your world, in his own way.

They are rare moments, and you almost never notice, but on some days, he looks at you as if you were the sun itself, illuminating him with all your greatness. He feels very grateful and lucky, and in moments like these, he can’t hold back the small smile that grows on his lips.

Declarations of love are always very reserved — Si eun doesn’t say things that aren’t absolutely true to him. It took him a long time to admit that he loved you — although you could already feel the love that emanated from him in the many moments he took care of you — but the first time he said those three words, you felt like your heart was going to explode with happiness and you almost shed a few tears.

He never said it out loud, but he recorded that day as a treasure in his own mind, and whenever he needed strength, he found it in you.

HICKS who is genuinely the funniest boyfriend on earth. It was actually how he conquered your heart – being handsome was also a bonus.

HICKS who loves everything that most people find gross or weird. He always liked spiders, snakes and small bugs. When he was a kid that was a big problem for his mom, because he was always bringing random slugs from the street. His classmates always thought he had some kind of mental disorder, so he used to be very lonely.

HICKS who is a romantic at heart. He likes to write letters for you, always praising every feature he loves about you, and he really does write well. Too descriptive, tough. He isn’t ashamed of saying exactly what he thinks at all times, even in the most intimate ones. You don’t mind although.

HICKS who is many things but never boring. Being in a relationship with him means having headaches every week, not in a bad way. He’s just full of energy, he talks a lot – sometimes about things you don’t even understand. But he likes to listen to your voice too.

HICKS who likes to lay his head on your lap and pretend he’s sleeping just so he can fell your fingers caressing his head. He is also a big fan of pda. His hands can’t stay away from you for too long. Hugs from behind when you’re at the supermarket. Walking around town holding your hand. Small kisses on your cheek when he leaves the room. Doesn’t matter if there’s people around or if just the two of you, he is going to show affection in all the appropriate ways he can.

HICKS who says nonsense every time you two are going to sleep. He can’t help it. It’s like his version of counting sheeps. He keeps babbling until his eyes get too tired to stay open.

HICKS who normally don’t take your fights seriously. Of course, he gets serious in situations like that, but one hour after that he’s already forgot what the fight was about. He doesn’t like to be mad at you and hates even more when you’re the one mad at him.

HICKS who really uses humor as a way of dealing with his problems. You don’t know why or when he started doing that, but it’s just how he is. He’s probably trying to be positive and making jokes is easy to him, he’s a natural at making people laugh.

HICKS who is always surprising you. Mostly in bed – he can be kind of a freaky sometimes. At least you don’t ever need to be scared of asking to try something new because you know he’s probably eager to try it too. He likes to make you happy.

HICKS who is the first guy your parents actually liked. He was a bit awkward in the first time he met your parents, but the second time it felt like he was already part of your family. He’s good at connecting with people when he makes an effort.

The world had turned upside down and everything you knew had become the past; however, you didn’t care much about that fact.

In a way, you had never really fit into the perfectly imperfect society that existed. You were solitary, sometimes misunderstood and mistreated. When the earth seemed to split open and allow the dead to walk among the living, you felt strong — suddenly, you were no longer the only one who had nowhere to go or didn’t know what was right or wrong anymore.

You witnessed morals being shattered and cast aside by everyone so clearly, with no more shame or guilt for all the cruel actions of humanity. Now everything was clearer.

It wasn’t that you liked it; no, no one would take pleasure in such a situation, certainly, but it was easier — you didn’t have to pretend you knew what you were supposed to do. You could simply walk along roads waiting for chance to decide your fate. And there was something so truthful about that. No social ties, work, studies, or colleagues. It was only the most basic and pure human and animal instinct fighting for the survival of every species.

It was like watching a house on fire being consumed quickly, so quickly you could barely notice the flames spreading to the neighboring houses, leaving you trapped in a circle of fire and smoke that would lead you to the same end as everyone else. It was beautiful.

But things could become complicated so easily, as in the moment you placed your faith in others, the moment your heart began to burn for someone else, when your mind grew clouded and you allowed yourself to be guided by his gentle hands. Nick; he wasn’t a special man — he was, in truth, just a boy, a guy who used to be an addict, now a guy fighting for the life of his family and yours.

It was sweet and harmless in the beginning, like any other feeling.

– What are you doing out here?

You jumped at the boy’s voice, eyes widening as you turned and saw him standing there, leaning against the doorframe of the small entrance. His hair was slightly wet, leaving a trail of water droplets on the wooden floor of the cabin.

– I prefer staying awake at night and sleeping in the morning. – you replied without thinking much, turning your focus back to the dirt road ahead of you.

You heard him hum in agreement, and soon after, his footsteps as he sat beside you on the cold steps. Nick looked at the starry sky, so dark and yet illuminated. Then he looked back at you, licked his lips softly, and said:

– You know what the best part of all this is? – he asked. You looked at him and shook your head. – There’s no more pollution. Now we have a view of the stars everywhere.

You smiled softly. You looked at the sky and saw them shining so beautifully. Free, the way everyone now was. You remembered how you almost never looked at the stars back home — you didn’t have time, or you didn’t give them importance. Now you had all the time in the world to admire all the beautiful things you had never seen before. The thought was pleasant.

– Is it strange that I don’t miss it? How everything used to be, I mean. – your tone was so soft it sounded like a secret being whispered. You watched the expression on Nick’s face.

– Is it strange that I agree? You know, it’s like… – he paused for a moment, eyes unfocused and thoughtful. Then he continued. – It's like I’ve been living this for a long time. I never knew where I was going. And now everyone’s catching up with me.

– I was going to say something similar, but now it’ll sound like I got it from you. – you laughed lightly, which made him smile.

It was easy to be in your presence, he thought; you didn’t demand much from him, or from anyone, really. You were someone easy to understand, at least to him — all you desired was loyalty and understanding. And without even knowing why, Nick felt like he needed to give you that.

Weeks and weeks would pass, and the two of you would find yourselves drawn back to each other like a magnet every time, sitting at the cabin door, feeling the cold breeze crawl along your spines, watching the brightest stars guiding the wandering dead and enjoying the silence when it's dark out. Together.