#!changsub

I found out about BTOB because I am a huge Cube fan and when I heard about their debut I was really excited for another Cube boy band. I watched their teaser video and it was pretty much downhill from there. It didn’t take me long to stan them haha.

For Changsub, it’s kind of a long explanation but I’ll tell you anyway I guess. At first I didn’t really know Changsub well and I would get him and Ilhoon confused because they had similar hairstyles at the time. However, whenever I would recognize Changsub I was always really confused about his personality. It was like, I didn’t know much about him and he didn’t really show up a lot on screen but when he did he never really revealed much about himself. As I learned later on he was shy and sensitive and it made me kind of sad knowing that part of the reason he wouldn’t want to show his face on screen was because of his insecurity about his skin. I’ve had many many many experiences with this so it kind of hurt me when I would see fans commenting, “I’m glad when Changsub holds the camera so I don’t have to see his skin!” and other hurtful things and I guess because at the time I was going through a really low self-esteem phase, I felt kind of connected to Changsub in a way. Anyway, after that he slowly became my bias and it was to the point where I would rewatch every second of every video he appeared in just to see him again. I was amazed at how, despite not being confident in his looks, when it came to something he was passionate about he would just glow. He would smile sooo much when he was singing or rapping or being just /himself/ and doing the things he loved and it was just really a huge inspiration. A lot of times, people are ashamed of the things they love or hide aspects of themselves that they think aren’t worth showing people but Changsub had no shame, save his low self esteem. So THENNnn, watching Changsub start to become more comfortable with the camera and more confident in himself and more and more talented and a better vocalist and performer and just everything was kind of what made me truly start to love him. Getting to know his personality I’ve realized that CHangsub does what he does because he truly loves it. His passion is music. When he posts videos and songs on twitter and shares the things that he loves I can’t help but feel Changsub’s love for what he does. He is inspired by so many things and he wants to share them with everyone else, with his fans, and that is what makes him so inspirational to me. At first I thought he was kind of mysterious, the way he had a tattoo that no one knew what it said and how he wore a ring around his neck that no one knew the meaning for and I find it so inspirational just knowing that those things have meaning to him and that he isn’t afraid to wear them. To be honest I don’t think Changsub changed any of his morals and ideals after becoming an idol. It’s obvious even by his most recent tattoo.

Anyway on top of that it’s really just the things everyone loves about their favorite idol I mean, I love his voice, I love the way he puts emotion into his songs, I love his laugh, the way he talks, the way his mouth moves when he speaks, his cute little face and his sweet charming eyes, the stupid way he acts, how he feels no shame being weird because that is who he is, all the little things that he does that are incredibly cute for no reason, the way he thinks he is funny when he isn’t, the things he does in the background when he doesn’t think I am watching him…………

anyway, I just kind of love everything I guess