I Rant About TADC on Here

Ragatha being from an abusive home and developing coping mechanisms that hurt her relationships and friendships more than they help. doing everything she can be to be nice and friendly and helpful and still being unwanted. being afraid to even stand up for herself because she doesn't want to be unwanted or unkind. being shunned by her friends, simply because she was "too nice"

Gangle being sexually harassed and abused by someone who said they're her friend. someone who she can never truly escape, especially when they have the key to her room. they force her to do anything because they've invaded her privacy multiple times and gathered blackmail against her. being forced to be around them for eternity and watch as her friends all forgive them but knowing that she might never

and then you watch your abuser go through what is obviously a lot of struggles too and then kill themselves and you don't know what to think. do you feel sympathy because they were a person too? or do you feel relieved because at least now you don't have to deal with their abuse? do you feel guilty because maybe you could've prevented it? and you know you can never bring these feelings up around anyone else because they don't know. they don't know what your abuser put you through. saying any of this would make you look like a horrible person because of course your abuser shouldn't have killed themselves.

and yes, this comes from my own feelings about processing my own abuse and things about my abuser. my abuser was hospitalized and almost died during my abuse and i felt nothing. in fact, i wished for him to die. i prayed. i wasn't even religious and im still not and i prayed. but i could never admit that. not to anyone. never. no one will understand.