I am lying still on the exam table.
The thin paper under my bare back is already damp in places from the heat of my skin. Every tiny shift makes it crackle, a soft, humiliating sound that seems far too loud in the quiet room. My legs are forced open by the cold metal stirrups. Ankles locked in place, knees bent and spread wide, the position leaves nothing private. The air-conditioning is set low on purpose; I can feel the deliberate chill sliding over the wet, parted lips of my cunt. It makes me twitch. The cool air finds every fold, every soft, swollen place that is already slick and open, and it keeps reminding me how completely on display I am.
Wires cover me like a second, clinical skin. Sticky sensor pads press against the upper curves of my breasts, the sensitive undersides, the soft skin of my chest. More of them are taped high on the insides of my thighs, right where the flesh is thinnest. Every time my heart beats, the monitor behind my head answers with a steady, impersonal beep. I can hear my own pulse being counted out loud. The sound makes my face burn. There is something deeply degrading about having my body reduced to numbers and lines on a screen while I lie here with my legs forced open and my cunt already occupied.
A slim probe is seated deep inside me. I feel the stretch of it against the soft walls of my vagina, the quiet pressure where it rests against that sensitive spot that makes my breath hitch if I clench even a little. It does not move. It simply occupies me. A constant, clinical presence that keeps me aware of how full and used I already am before the real examination has even started. A slow trickle of my own wetness slides down past the probe and onto the paper beneath me. I can feel the cool air turning that wetness colder, making the humiliation sharper.
I cannot see you. My eyes are half-closed, the drugs already softening everything into a warm, heavy fog. But I hear the snap of nitrile gloves. That clean, clinical sound. Then the soft metallic clink and shuffle of instruments being arranged on a tray. The sounds are careful. Precise. They make my stomach twist with nervous heat.
I donāt know exactly what you are going to do to me.
The nerves sit low in my belly, a warm, anxious ache that mixes with the constant, low throb of arousal. I am not scared. The drugs have taken the sharp edges off everything. My limbs feel pleasantly heavy. My thoughts drift like they are underwater. You told me I could close my eyes. That I could sleep if I wanted to. That this might take a while.
I let my eyes fall fully closed.
The world shrinks to sensation and the quiet, shameful knowledge of how I must look right now.
Cool air on wet, open flesh. The faint stickiness of the sensor pads every time my chest rises. The steady beep of my own heart telling you things I would rather keep private. The unmoving pressure of the probe deep inside me. The soft rustle of your gloves as you move closer. The smell of latex and antiseptic and something warmer underneath that is just you.
You speak softly. The words float down to me like they are coming from far away.
āShh. Close your eyesā¦ you can sleep if you want toā¦ this might take a whileā¦ I know the drugs make you drowsyā¦ itās okayā¦ā
I make a small, wordless sound. My tongue feels thick. My thoughts are slow and syrupy.
āThe sensors will tell me everything I need to knowā¦ you donāt need to think too hard, little dollā¦ā
The words settle into me like a warm weight and a quiet humiliation at the same time. I donāt need to think. I donāt need to do anything except lie here with my legs forced open, my body wired up like a piece of equipment, and my cunt already occupied by something clinical and impersonal. Everything that happens next will be measured, recorded, felt. You will know exactly how my body reacts even if I never make a sound. The thought makes my face burn hotter and, traitorously, makes me clench around the probe.
A gloved hand rests lightly on the inside of one thigh, just above the sensor pad. The latex is cool at first, then warms quickly against my skin. Your fingers stroke once, slow and thoughtful, and the simple touch makes my inner muscles flutter helplessly around the probe. The monitorās beeping changes. I hear it. You hear it. The knowledge that my bodyās betrayal is being recorded makes the humiliation bloom warm and low in my belly.
I am already so wet. I can feel it. A slow, inevitable trickle of slickness sliding down toward the paper. The cool air turns that wetness colder for a moment, and the contrast makes me shiver. The probe shifts the tiniest bit inside me from the movement, and a soft, helpless sound slips out of my throat. It sounds small and needy and completely undignified.
You hum in quiet approval.
Time becomes elastic. I feel the careful, clinical way your gloved hands move over meāchecking the placement of sensors, adjusting something on the probe, the faint tug and press as you make sure everything is seated exactly how you want it. Every small adjustment sends new ripples of sensation through me. The stretch. The fullness. The cool air on wet, exposed flesh. The warm latex of your gloves. The distant beep of my own heart telling you truths my mouth is too slow and heavy to form.
There is something deeply degrading about being treated like thisālike a body to be examined, measured, and recorded rather than a person. And yet the degradation sinks into me in the most shameful way. It makes the throb between my legs stronger. It makes me wetter. It makes me want to stay exactly like this: open, wired, occupied, drowsy, and completely on display for as long as you decide.
I am open. Wired. Occupied. Drowsy. Trusting.
And completely, helplessly yours to examine, measure, and use for as long as you need.
