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Spending the like third or fourth night in a row not sleeping because of intense pain and nausea I am BEYOND fed up with being chronically ill, and it's cool that each night I don't get rest it just makes the flare for the following day and night worse so it's super fun and cool and not at all defeating in a world already hard to live in!

I am genuinely so excited to kill myself fr fr

Brother has been passive aggressive with me since yesterday, yet he's hiding out in my room from the cleaner; and still has the nerve to try ignore me if I try make polite conversation literally just because my condition flared up and I'm too unwell to entertain him how he wants me to. Like dude grow the actual fuck up and if you're that annoyed stop using my personal space as your safe space

It's actually too cold to be alive rn

I don't have the funds but would it be evil for me to message a seller to ask about a laptop they are selling ( they're literally selling it for store price which is a little crazy to me tbh so I kinda wanna haggle but feel like a cunt to ask that esp when I can't actually really haggle a lot rn )

Something fundamental in me shattered into jagged edged dust particles lodged in my chest cavity the other day; I don't even know how to explain it, and with this part shattered, I honestly don't think I should. There's no point, really.

Finally getting to play silent hill f, how the holidays are meant to be spent 💚💚💚

I'm so bone tired of trying and desiring working friendship and community that I actually just don't have energy to bother maintaining them at all anymore, yknow what, fine, pick everyone else, there's something fundamentally wrong with me and always was and will be. But I'm done chasing people and forcing interactions. I won't bother anymore. The only people who interact with me is to use me. And I don't have energy for that either. So I'm done. Goodbye.

The big sad is back quick what do I do