I BELIEVE IN ANGELS ,

( BE ) — banky's never believed in god, but for the first time in his entire life, he thanks every single deity he can think of that he didn't just blow his load right there.

this was terrifying. not the, like, getting on his knees and blowing holden mcneil part of it. well, kind of that. he'd said, as he'd joked to alyssa a while back, like cnn and the weather channel. holden must've taken that to mean say whatever the fuck you want, instead of telling him how he's doing. it's the first time he's ever really choked ; (ignoring that jerk of daniel's hips the one time.) it's the first time he's ever felt the urge to try and push himself further than he should. it's fucking holden, of course banky's going to put his all into it. fuck.

but then there are fingers in banky's hair, short as it is. and he feels a writing bump, callouses from the way he'd rub at the paper. he can't stop the moan that holden coaxes out of him, embarrassing as it is, to be making these kind of noises with holden mcneil's goddamn cock in his mouth. fuck off. that seems to make holden tense up, though, and banky's not having any of that. even when he pulls off, wet and sticky and all kinds of disgusting, his hand is quick to replace his mouth, continues to move. (if you're not good at something, don't do it at all, or whatever.)

" you can't just fuckin' — you can't just drop that on me and not elaborate. " he tries to sound annoyed. angry, even, but he knows that his own strained voice has betrayed him. he sounds needy. desperate. and banky has half a mind to shove his hands down his jeans and take care of himself before holden can have the satisfaction of fucking him over himself. (or fucking him, himself. fuck why did he have to think of that again?)

isabela absolutely becomes a mother. she wants a big family. and eventually, she becomes a stay - at - home mom, and thrives in this role. loves it. loves being a mother so much.

luciana wants kids, but doesn't know if it'll happen. she's very okay if it doesn't, and she's also open to talking about fostering / adoption / etc. she also doesn't think she'd be a good parent if she had more than two kids. we'll see where that goes.

rory does not want kids. rory is actively terrified of the idea of becoming a mother. rory will not have kids, and also is not interested in being a step parent. that is their biggest deal - breaker. nope.

emma wants kids one day, but definitely not any time soon. as it stands, she's more than happy to be a babysitter / nanny / godmother / aunt. she's phenomenal with children.

hollyhock may have kids one day. she hasn't put too much thought into it. (and we haven't decided if she + rowan will have kids or not.) she's also just not really concerned about it right now. whatever happens, happens.

murderbot has miki. it doesn't want miki. it also doesn't have miki anymore. it misses miki.

amari is a very happy stepmother. they were never particularly interested in being a parent — (unless you count fur babies. they want a cat and a dog. no negotiations there.) but they really do love alyssa's daughter, even if they don't care for her father. ew.