~My Soul Writes My Poems~

Take apart these precious bones

Mend my heart, reap what you sow

Feel the burn from in this dream

We break apart, ripped from the seam

Can't describe just what I feel

Break the chains and help me heal

Celestial bodies fly overhead

With countless words I'm ripped to shreds

Searching through the universe

The skyscrapers and day lovers

Take part in what's real

You make me feel like I could

Die happy in this moment of our lives

The stars are endlessly procreating

We'll fall asleep

Still your lips, let's take it slow

Wield your hips, wont let you go

Falling miles so endlessly

You lift me up so easily

Lay your head upon my chest

For a moment, cleanse all the stress

Live the moment eternally

For the past several nights I have been dreaming of you

But in every dream

I am stressed out

You make my whole body shake

In and out of the dream state

I used to have pleasent dreams about you

Ones where we were happy and in love

Ones where we went on fun adventures

And ones where we stayed at home hanging out

Now they are nothing dreams full of worry and anxiety

My dreams of you are becoming nightmares that are all too real

Real issues occuring in this make believe scenario

It's like they are showing me the truth of what our future would have held

Nothing but disappointment and sorrow

Tonight I hope I dream about my future

A future with my best friend

A future where I am loved and accepted for who I am

You're a fucking coward

No pity for the weak

Sever the ties

You suck the life out of me

My eyes are dry tonight

When I put you in your place, it almost doesn't feel right

Then I remember all the shit that you put me through

It almost feels like a burden just to fucking know you

I can feel my body weakening beneath the weight

Because you take all I have inside and you leave me insane

I can feel the hollowing continuing inside

I'd like to tell myself that this is all a waste of time

But I know I'll learn, I'll grow

As I'm sifting through the pieces of the rubble

I have always known forgiveness

I have always had a heart

But you pushed me into dark

Now watch it all fall apart

Sometimes I feel like I can't fucking breath

You hold me down for your own bettering

I feel your fangs sinking deep

Leeching off of what I reap

Pain you cause me

Emotions they taunt me

Carving me of everything

If I was your fucking puppet

I'd choke you with the strings

How far will you bend me before I fucking break?

I'm engulfed

Engulfed by the flames

My tired eyes are weak and in pain

Resolutions follow through as your walls of hate fall on you

Crippled and writhing bathe in your shame

You live so carelessly taking no blame

The sentiments we made will fade

I won't miss the memory so just fade away

Oh, may you forget me

This never-ending cycle

A vicious spiral, eating me alive

It's all about give and take

But I have given all that I am

My head is haunting me and my heart feels like a ghost

I need to feel something, 'cause I'm still so far from home

Cross your heart and hope to die

Promise me you'll never leave my side

Show me what I can't see when the spark in your eyes is gone

You've got me on my knees I'm your one man cult

Cross my heart and hope to die

Promise you I'll never leave your side

'Cause I'm telling you you're all I need

I promise you you're all I see

'Cause I'm telling you you're all I need

I'll never leave

So you can drag me through hell

If it meant I could hold your hand

I will follow you 'cause I'm under your spell

And you can throw me to the flames

I will follow you

Come sink into me and let me breathe you in

I'll be your gravity, you be my oxygen

So dig two graves 'cause when you die

I swear I'll be leaving by your side

So you can drag me through hell

If it meant I could hold your hand

I will follow you 'cause I'm under you spell

And you can throw me to the flames

I will follow you so you can drag me through hell

If it meant I could hold your hand

I will follow you 'cause I'm under you spell

And you can throw me to the flames

I will follow you,

So you can drag me through hell

If it meant I could hold your hand

I will follow you 'cause I'm under you spell

And you can throw me to the flames

Oh god, it's u 

It's u 

If you're awake then I am too 

If you're lost then I'll find you 

If you're hurt then I'll fix you 

If you go blind I'll describe the view 

If you can't feel then I'll hold you 

"I am autonomous," You told Father

First immortal, but now fleeting

All creation reveals me about this said time, called death, cursed the reverse

All we bought was brokenness -

That shelter of illusion

You see me see You splitting myself even

There is me, forgiving nothing, manic then depressive - hopelessly sinking

Sister Moon, Brother Sun eclipsed one another, forgiving one another

Tides receding

Death ran away then life flooded in world

This I am: Imbalanced, beautifully so

Hands connected, perhaps...

Then dead reflections saw You

I did, didn't I?

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I didn't, did I?

You saw reflections dead then

Perhaps, connected hands...

So beautifully Imbalanced: Am I this world?

In flooded life then ran away Death

Receding tides

Another one forgiving, another one eclipsed, Sun Brother, Moon Sister

Sinking helplessly - depressive then manic, nothing forgiving me is there even myself, splitting? You see me see You

Illusion of shelter: That brokenness was bought, "we all reverse the cursed death called time," said this about me

Reveals creation, all - fleeting, now, but immortal. First

Runnin' away from you takes time and pain

And I don't even want to

So I'm gettin' high all week without you

Popping pills, thinking about you

Runnin' away from you takes time and pain

And I don't even want to

So I'm gettin' high all week without you

Popping pills, thinking about you.

I wish I didn't have a heart to love you

I wish I didn't play a part to break

I wish I didn't do a lot of the shit I do

And I wish you didn't too

Sometimes life gets fucked up

That's why we get fucked up

I can still feel your touch

I still do those same drugs

Sometimes life gets fucked up

That's why we get fucked up

That's what we used to do

I was used to you

"What have you been through?"

She asked me

Every fucking kind of abuse

If younlove me too

You would give me you

Lock me in your room

Don't tell me the truth

Everything you said

Stared inside my head

All the shit you said

All blood I bled

Sometimes life gets fucked up

So we live in this whole that we created with our wounded hands

And wait for someone to cure this sickness in our veins But it's all in your hand

So you just can watch time passing by while it's killing every fucking piece of me Or you just take my hand that I'm holding out to you for such a long time

We don't have to die in our own misery