â´ FIFTH WHEELS â´
john logan x fem!readerâ
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¡.¡`¯´¡.off campus
summary: when you sneak off with john logan to escape from your friends, long-kept secrets and unspoken feelings come to light while comforting him after a rough day at the rink.
warnings: smut! | kissing, misunderstandings, tension, grinding, dry-humping | not proof-read...
You didnât think youâve ever felt more awkward in your life than you did in that moment, and youâve dealt with your fair share of uncomfortable situations.Â
You were in the den of the frat house, surrounded by love-crazed couples. Hannah, Garret, Allie, Dean, and you were all sat on the couch watching a movie, but it didnât seem like anyone was paying attention. You look to your right and your vision is assaulted by the sight of Deanâs tongue in Allieâs mouth. He looked like he was swallowing her. Not far from them was Garret and Hannah, doing the same.Â
Itâs not like you were a prude. Youâd had boyfriends before, but at least when I was in a relationship, I didnât make it everyone elseâs problem.Â
You notice the saltiness in your tone immediately and canât even deny your jealousy. Ok, fine. Maybe I miss having a boyfriend a little.Â
You had to admit, you were a tad frustrated. In more ways than one.
You mentally cursed Logan for ditching you for the rink and leaving you with these heathens
Youâre pulled out of your pitiful thoughts when the front door opens and a sweaty head of hair in a hockey jersey walks in.Â
You take no time in hopping out of your seat on the make-out couch and bounding over to the man, taking it as a sign you should leave the room before your friends start doing more than just kissing. They donât notice when you leave, so you donât feel bad about stepping out.
âHey, Logan!â You whisper shout to get his attention as he slips off his shoes at the door. He turns to you, but not in his usual, smiley way.
When you meet his gaze, you can immediately sense that something isnât right. You have an inkling that it has something to do with the fact that his shirt is soaked through with sweat and his skin is ice cold when your hand finds his shoulder. âWhat happened?â
Your eyes are drawn to the bags under his eyes, then the defeated look in his eyes.Â
âNothing. Iâm fine, just⌠long day,â He utters while refusing to make eye contact.
Logan had a tendency to sheild his emotions, especially from those he was close to. You knew it stemmed from his fear of being a burden on his loved ones, and it hurt you whenever he was relunctant to open up to you.Â
You decided a long time ago to not try and pressure him to talk to you, but to make sure he knew you were always there if you changed his mind. But this time, you didnât want to leave him alone.
âWell, you have great timing because I need you to rescue me from the love-fest over there,â You quip, trying to lighten the mood.
His eyes follow your gaze and immediately understands what youâre talking about. His expression mimics yours from earlier. A sort of grimace that seems to say, âget a roomâ.Â
You smile and almost laugh at his digust. Logan and you had grown accustomed to being the two single friends in the group, but the antics of the others never failed to get on your nerves from time to time.
âIgnore them, letâs get out of here,â He says as his normal, Logan-like self begins to resurface. He grabs your hand and leads you upstairs to his room.
The smell of woodsy cologne and fresh laundry invades your senses as you enter the dark room. The scent was a welcomed change from his current state.
âIâm sorry âbout the mess⌠Iâve been busy,â He mumbles out.
When you turn around and see him scratching the back of his neck and staring at the ground in his own, bashful way.Â
âYouâre fine Logan, just please, go take a shower,â You say with a smile, pushing him into the bathroom before plopping yourself on his bed.
He offers a small smile in return, but you can tell its just for show when his face droops back into his pensive, self-conscious expression.Â
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You snap out of your thoughts when you hear the bathroom door creak open and a towel-clad hockey player steps out.
You think for a second that you can feel your cheeks hit up at the sight of him, but you convince yourself its just the steam from the bathroom hitting your face.
He pauses in the doorway and looks at you before making his way to his dresser. His hair was wet and floppy, partially covering his face when he looked down. You felt like a bit of a creep for admiring his naked back, but you couldnât bring yourself to care until the back in question turned into a chest. Your eyes rake over his abs before realizing youâve been caught in the act and meeting Loganâs eyes.Â
Now youâre definitely blushing.
âOh, sorry! Iâll, uh, let you get changed,â You cover your eyes and turn around in a split second, wanting to momentarily dissapear.Â
You couldnât see, but his lips quirked up into a small smile at your actions, his cheeks turning a similar shade of pink.Â
When he finally said you could turn out, it felt like youâd been waiting ages, but it was probably only 30 seconds. The awkwardness hangs in the air, but it quickly dissapates when Logan walks over to the bed and falls over, face-first into the mattress.
You shift over onto your stomach and lay parallel to his motionless body. âDo you wanna talk about it?â
âMmm,â He hums, though you canât decipher whether that was supposed to be a yes or a no.Â
âUse your words, big boy,â you reply in a teasing tone.
He lifts his head at your words, turning toward you and quirking up an eyebrow.
You burst out in laughter, barely able to take yourself seriously. He just sits there in silence and gazes at your smiley face.
Your laughter dies down and you realize how intently heâs watching you.
âWhat?â You ask, thinking you had food in your teeth or something in your teeth.
The wind is knocked out of you as he suddenly tackles you back down onto the sheets, beginning to tickle your sides.
âJohn. Logan. Stop it right now!â You try to utter, but your words hold little authority when theyâre puncuated with breathless laughs. Your laughs tangle in the air as you try and pin the other to the bed.Â
Moments later, youâre both too tired to continue and settled for looking at the ceiling wordlessly, still breathing heavily.
The silence is interrupted when you hear the boy next to you say the first coherent sentence youâve heard from him in a while.
âDo you ever feel⌠insignificant?âÂ
You turn your head to the sound of his voice, but his eyes were still focused on the ceiling. Replying crossed your mind, but you had a feeling he had more to say, so you just turned you body to him and continued to listen.
âLike no matter what you do, itâll never really matter?â His eyebrows scrunch at his words, like heâs parsing over the thoughts for the first time. âI keep making mistakes. Itâs like I canât do the thing Iâve dedicated the past 10 years of my life to,â
Your heart clenches at the sight of him, his adams apple bobbing up and down when he attempts to swallow the lump in his throat.Â
He flinches slightly when he feels the pressure of your hand on his, resting intertwined atop his chest. Your fingers stroke his knuckles reassuringly, and he canât help but turn his head and look into your eyes.
âYouâll never be insignificant to me, Log,â His eyes search yours quickly, trying to find a hint of dishonesty in your demeanor, but he canât find any. âIt doesnât matter how many goals you make, or how many games you win. Hockey doesnât define you,âÂ
Your gaze traced the veins in his arms before returning to his face, but he was already looking at you.Â
You hoped it wasnât obvious how fast your heart was beating. Logan didnât notice, though, because his was beating just as fast.Â
His eyes flutter closed as your hand reaches his face and strokes the small stubble on his cheek. âWhenever you feel like you canât talk to anyone, just remember Iâm always here to listen.â
Youâre met with the warm hue of his brown eyes once again, a sight youâll never complain about.Â
âI donât deserve you,â He mutters under his breath, his gaze darting between your eyes, down to your lips, and back to your eyes.Â
âThatâs not trueââ You begin to refute his claim when your interrupted by the pressure of soft lips on your eyes.Â
Your heart nearly bursts in your chest when Loganâs hand snakes up your neck and holds your jaw ever-so-softly in his hands. His lips convey everything heâs wanted to say to you ever since you two met freshmen year.Â
The kiss is soft yet bruising in the best way. He pulls your body closer to him with his other arm until your chests are flush agaisnt each other. If you werenât aware of the effect you had on his body before, you were now.Â
Your hand tangles in the fabric of his t-shirt as you pull apart for the first time to catch your breath. Your mouths remain open as your breaths mingle in the small space between your bodies.Â
His nose brushes against yours as he moves to rest his forehead against yours, and for a moment you think about how this was the most intimate thing that youâve ever done, and itâs with your best friend.Â
You pull yourself away from your head full of thoughts and run your fingers down his chest, as if to make sure he was still in front of you, and, above all, to ensure that this was real.Â
He seems to return the favor by running his previously ice-cold hands, that were now burning hot, under your shirt and along the line of your waist. It takes almost no time for this to overwhelm you enough to make you connect your lips to his again.
This time with more force, you try with every ounce of your being to pull him closer to you. Your legs intertwine at the foot of the bed as your hands find every exposed bit of skin on eachother, his tongue probing deeper into your mouth in exploration.Â
Goosebumps infiltrate your skin, and you canât help it when you release a small noise escapes into his mouth. Logan doesnât seem to careâin fact, it only spurrs him on.Â
He groans lowly into your mouth and grips your waist tigher, pulling you on top of him, straddling his hips.
You gasp in response and the sudden movement reminds you of how crazy this whole situation is in the first place. Loganâs head reaches up slightly to try and reconnect your lips but you pull away for a moment.
âWhatâs wrong?â His tone is urgent and concerned, searching your eyes for something unsaid.
âWhat is this to you?â You say directly, in the most absolute tone you could muster. âI donât want this to just be a random hook up that you forget about right after,â No matter how hard you try, the sureness in your tone dissapates quickly as you shrink into yourself. He struggles to muster an answer, and instead continues to search your eyes intently.
You sit up on his lap, and Logan quickly follows suit. You take his lack of a response as a enough of an answer and begin to dismount from atop him, but before you can, his hands wrap around your hips and hold you in place.
His actions regain your attention, and you find yourselves at a stalemate once more where neither person says a word for a moment. Despite the fact that youâre literally on top of him, heâs still slightly taller than you.
âYou⌠have never been something I could ever forget,â He states, as if it were the first thing heâs ever been completely sure of. âAnd I hate myself for not telling you that every day since weâve met.â
âLoganâŚâ you say breathlessly, and for a moment you think youâve died.
The next thing you know youâre kissing his lips deeper and with more passion than ever before. His eyes widen momentarily before following your lead and turning his head to attack your mouth from a different angle.Â
Nope. Definitely not dead.
He feels your legs squeeze around his hips in an attempt to relieve some of the pressure bulding within you, and his large hands dig into the skin of your upper thighs in return.Â
âMmm, offâŚâ you mutter into his mouth while tugging on the bottom of his t-shirt. He doesnât even need to reply before ripping the fabric off in record time, his arms returning to your body immediately after. You smile into the kiss as your arms rake down his bare chest.Â
It was heavenly. He was heavenly.
Youâd seen him shirtless before, sure. But never had you felt the firmness of his abdomen or the heat emanating off of his soft skin. He tenses at the pressure at first, and you couldâve sworn you felt something harden beneath you. Your fingers trail lower and lower before resting right above the waistband of his sweatpants.Â
Your lips part to catch your breath and youâre met with the sight of Loganâs half-lidded and lustful eyes. He has no idea how nervous heâs making you right now. Or maybe he does, and he enjoys it.
Your head lowers to rest against his chest in embarassment, trying to hide the unmistakable blush on your cheeks.Â
His chests rises and falls at a rushed pace that tells you that he feels it too.
Adrenaline rushing through veins.
Desire brewing deep down.
Unspoken feelings finally manifesting.Â
You canât see his face but you can just tell that heâs smirking. That asshole. He was always able to make you flustered without even trying. You guess in this case, he was trying, but heâs still an asshole.
His arms slides up your back and runs his fingers along your spine, making you shiver. âWe can stop, if you want,âÂ
Whatever embarassment you felt before immediately vanished as he spoke. You lifted your head from its hiding place in the crook of his neck and placed your hands on either side of his head as if to prevent him from trying to leave your current position.Â
His eyes widen slightly and a slight smile remains on his lips. He waits for you to continue.
âSorryâŚâ you smile sheepishly. âI⌠I canât believe weâre doing this,â
A slightly confused expression washes over his face and you realize he requires further explanation.
âI just mean, I never thought that youâd want to be with me, like thatâŚâ
Your voice falters ever so slightly while trying to voice your feelings, but it hard when Logan keeps staring at you like that and holding you like he never wants to let go.
âIâve wanted you for months, love. I never thought youâd want to be with me.
You scoff under your breath, mentally kicking yourself for being so stupid this whole time.Â
Maybe its your increased heartrate. Or the one drink you had a few hours ago. Or maybe its the fact that Loganâs face is less than two inches away from yours.
But something about this moment made you reckless. Made your inhibitions fly out the window.
âI love you.â You let slip out, but part of you know that it wasnât an accident. Fuck it.Â
âI love you, Logan. And I think I always have.
Youâre breathless, and energized, and so in love that it takes you a second to register the seemingly blank look on his face.Â
But you run out of time to dwell on it because Logan is kissing you again.
Normally, youâd obsess over his lack of a verbal response but you hardly care because all you can focus on is his heat of his hands on your thights, his abs pressed against you, and his lips pressed against yours.
For the next few moments, the room was full of the small sighs and groans that you pulled out of each other. He nudges your mouth open further to deepen the kiss, and the sound it makes would make even your PDA-obsessed friends do a double-take.
He pulls away from your lips with a pop! and doesnât miss the pathetic sound you make at the loss of contact.
You search his eyes for a hint of dishonesty, refusing to let yourself believe it. But, there wasnât any. A wide and unapolagetic smile finds its way to your face and you bite your bottom lip to avoid it spreading too far, but it was proving to be unsuccessful.
When he kisses you next its unlike the other times, itâs slow and tender and so full of emotion that you can hardly take it.Â
Itâs for this reason that you diverge paths and make your way across his jaw and down his neck with kisses. You attempt to pepper kisses on every single square inch of exposed skin.
Logan is torn between wanting to shy away due to the ticklish sensation and leaning his head back for easier access. You absentmindedly shift in his lap to be able to reach his neck easier. You pause lightly when you feel him tense beneath you, and it immediately brings a sly smile to your lips âYou drive me crazyâŚâÂ
His words only encourage you to keep going, your hips beginning to roll slowly over his at a steady rhythm, your lips returning to his.Â
Suddenly you feel him beneath you, pressing against your center, and both of your mouths fall open in response.
The sound of labored breath fills the air, frequently interrupted by the wet sounds of lips and tongues meeting. You clench around nothing as you increase the speed of your ministrations, prompting a âFuck,â from the man beneath you.Â
His hands grip your hips with brusing force and holds you down on his lap, increasing your pleasure tenfold.
âLogan, oh my god,â You stare into each otherâs eyes, noses brushing everytime you grind against him. It takes less than 30 seconds for you to reach your peak, and its clear that heâs not far behind. âIâm closeâŚâ
âOh yeah? You gonna cum for me?â He grunts out breathlessly, your bodies moving in tandem.
You nod frantically, and when you see your desperate expression mirrored on his face, you know heâs almost there.
Your legs squeeze together as you feel the knot in your lower belly release, your moans muffled against Loganâs lips. His hips jerk up into you as he releases, his movements punctuated by low whines heâd normally be embarrased to let you hear.Â
Your bodies finally still as you come down from your mutual high, and you nearly collapse onto Loganâs chest in exhaustion.Â
You werenât sure where your relationship would go from there, but if you knew anything, it was that you needed him like the air you breathed.Â
And hey, maybe instead of being fifth wheels, the two of you would become the third couple on the frat house couch.
a/n: thanks for reading! This is my first John Logan fic, and my first time writing for Off Campus at all, but it definitely wonât be my last!
Feel free to leave any requests down below!
p.s. look out for part 2 very soon ;)