Sweet Smells

Over the last several weeks, I’ve had a lot of things happen. I’ve gotten a new roommate, two new pets, and transferred jobs at work. But, things aren’t so great. I’ve been fighting off chronic depression for a while now, and it’s finally gotten the best of me. Anxiety and depression make for a nasty duo, and it took a turn for the worst a week ago. I’ve never wanted to stop existing more than I have in years, and I knew I needed to do something.

It’s been years almost, more than I can really fathom at this point. But I’m just so sad and miserable all the time. Nothing I do seems to help, even the joys I found in writing with all of you just...vanished. I can’t find these muses anywhere, and when I would try to focus my efforts, I just found myself frustrated that the words never seemed to fit right or come at all.

So I’m taking a formal break for a while, to try and find myself amidst this chaos of the home I call my own mind. I’m taking the steps to find help, and get medicated for this. When I’m finally stable again, I know I’ll be back. I don’t want to keep you all waiting on my pokey ass to finish things. But rest assured, I’ll be back. The tide will come and go, but the ocean is eternal, and will always wash it’s way back to shore.

In the meantime, I’ll be lurking on discord more likely than not, so feel free to reach me there. I love you all, and will miss you a great deal. Take care.

Much Love,

Kaoru had been casually lounging as he did after presenting Koga with the jacket. He wasn’t even expecting to get tracked down again. And at first he thought that he was going to get dragged off to do some more work, but to his surprise...it’s not one of those meetings.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

“Oooooooiii, Kaoru! Open up, dude! OOOOOOOooiiiiiiii!”

Mizumachi was still knocking on the door, calling out for his blond friend he’d met for the first time at the beach. Of course, you could bet on the fact that he most DEFINITELY was wearing the goggles on his head right now.

How else can he show that he for sure received the gift (not like Kaoru had any doubts, since he put the box down himself most likely) and that he liked it? Of course, he had to wear it to show off his appreciation for the gift!

Another way to showcase it off— was… there it is! The door was opening!

It’s time!

Strike a pose! Another one, aaaaaand another one for good measure!

Honestly, it was a wonder what went on in his head sometimes. He was a force of nature. He was just full of energy like the waves cascading against the edge of the beach, that’s for sure. It was hard for a lot of people to keep up with his energy at times.

“Look! I got the goggles you got me! They look nice, right? They fit great!” Just the widest of grins on his face right now.

Reaching into his pants pocket, he pulled something out. It looked like a small plush of some kind. A small plush of a human, from the looks of it? On it’s back was little wings.

Don’t you worry your little playboy head, all will make sense soon enough. Or not. It is Mizumachi we’re talking about.

“Here! It’s a lil dude with wings! Ya can name him whatever ya want. Do ya geddit? Geddit? Do ya?”

He’s a lil dude and he’s got wings!

Wing-man.

HE’S A WINGMAN!

“In case you don’t have anyone, this lil dude can be your wingman. I’m sure he’ll do a great job the next time you try to pick up some girls.” The biggest and cheesiest of grins was on his face right now.

You are more than free to just shut the door on him for that lame joke. 

It was a bit later in the day, but it couldn’t be helped. She wasn’t expecting a gift, and so she had to speedily try to prepare something. There was only so much that she could do on such short notice! She thought it would be cute to return the favor with something similar to the gift that she was given so that of course meant it was time to bring out the apron!

She did like to bake every now and again so that she could make good desserts for those times that she couldn’t go out herself to actually purchase sweets. She was a sweets conosuier, so she didn’t want to settle for sweets that were subpar. Her monthly binge of sweets required some good stuff! She ate ALL THE SWEETS on one day, don’t you know?

Anyways, she baked him a small strawberry shortcake (classics are great and she won’t let anyone tell her otherwise) and with colored icing, she drew a small chibi version of Kaoru riding the waves on the cake. It certainly looked odd on a shortcake, but she didn’t think that Kaoru would mind that very much. It was cute, and cuteness is JUSTICE.

Carefully, she put the cake in a box, and she added a small card on top of the box which read:

“Thank you for the thoughtful gift! Haru will be sure to eat many good sweets! To return the favor, she made you a cake!

-ps Haru doubts it, but if this was an indirect way of confessing to Haru, she politely declines.

-pss if this is just a friendly gesture, then Haru wholeheartedly accepts and appreciates the thought.

-psss You still need to work on your pick up lines. Haru really hopes you didn’t get them from popsicle sticks. They are not good mentors.

Sincerely,

Haru Miura

Setting the box with the cake down at the doorstep, she rang the doorbell and zoomed out of there. Somehow it was embarrassing to be there when he received the gift. She didn’t want to risk the first words out of his mouth being: Here to accept my feelings?

No, she wanted to avoid that. She was 90% sure that wasn’t his intention, but if it was, now he had a cake to balance out the bitter sweetness of rejection.

(starter for @caricaturcs)

Kaoru Hakaze was never one for showing up to practice on time...if at all. Of course, he was a busy man going on dates. But today was not his lucky day. After trying to avoid old man Sakuma and Otogari all afternoon, he was fairly successful...until somebody else got in his way.

☏: you need me 

Superhero:

Hey, it’s me! I really never thought you’d open this one. It’s usually the other way around, isn’t it? Maybe?! I don’t know! But I wanted to leave you some happy things in this letter because it looks like you need a pick me up!

This is probably going to sound weird, but I left you something. I...I didn’t want to just leave without leaving you anything, so I picked the only thing that was closest to me. Um...you’re going to find this letter attached to my cat plushie, Neo-chan.  He’s been with me for a really long time, but I want you to have him. You can squeeze him and cuddle him and dress him up if you want! I think he would look cool in those Rider glasses~! A little something to remember me by until I come back I guess!

The sun will always smile at you, and your voice echoes in my head as I write this. I wish I could be there to be one of your allies of justice, I mean I still am...just not there. You’re burning heart and passion reaches every person you touch, and hold onto that. It makes you who you are. I’ve really been rambling about things for too long and I don’t know if this is helping.

I keep all your phrases and words in my heart, and I hope you do the same! Remember my laughs, and my signs to you when I couldn’t even talk to you like a normal person. Remember how much fun our lunch dates were, and how many times we stalled in front of my house before we said goodbye. I’ll be running back into your arms before you know it, a Queen’s Honor.

Deepest love,

~Aika-chan <3 ~

☘: you're angry at the world

My Beloved Vampire:

I don’t know who made you angry, this angry to be mad at the world, but that might be...partially my fault. I guess she finally got her wish at separating us. I promise...I promise I’m on my way back to you. Please don’t be angry, it’s the easier thing to do...but please don’t. It’ll only hurt you more.

It’s easy to hate and to cover it up with sharp words...but I want you to try and use kindness instead. I know it’s the last thing you want, but spread happiness in my absence. Take my crown and my heart and hold it close to you, and never stop fighting.

Even when I can’t be there to hold you back from lashing out, remember the sweetest smile from me and hopefully that will ease your anger for a while. You’ll always be my King, the true King. Take care of my heart while I’m away.

Your Queen,

♡: you wonder how much i love you

To the Knight who saved the Queen,

I want you to know that I’m sorry for disappearing. I was either taken...or something else I don’t know. But if you’re reading this, I need to remind you how much I love you.

Ever since we met, I had always wondered why you would stay with someone like me. I didn’t speak, I was nothing but a statue to most. But you never left. And pretty soon...we were holding hands under the table at Tea Club and I was staying with you while you napped. I knew then...that I really did love you.

When the days were getting to be too long for me and when the torment never seemed to end, you were always there for me. You held me and kissed away my tears, and I would do the same for you without a second to lose. You’re the moon that illuminates the black sky of space on cloudy nights, still shining through the haze. I’ll always hold your words close to me, and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t miss your teasing.

You’re gentle words and reassuring hugs were everything that I needed, and I want to give you everything. You’re the only one I want to return to whenever it is I get back. I love you, Ritsu, more than anything. I love you more than the sun and the sky. Please wait for me, and keep me close to your heart.