Hey guys, itâs me again. I just figured Iâd post something to let yall know whatâs going on and stuff. Read more because itâs kinda sad lmao.
Over the last several weeks, Iâve had a lot of things happen. Iâve gotten a new roommate, two new pets, and transferred jobs at work. But, things arenât so great. Iâve been fighting off chronic depression for a while now, and itâs finally gotten the best of me. Anxiety and depression make for a nasty duo, and it took a turn for the worst a week ago. Iâve never wanted to stop existing more than I have in years, and I knew I needed to do something.
Itâs been years almost, more than I can really fathom at this point. But Iâm just so sad and miserable all the time. Nothing I do seems to help, even the joys I found in writing with all of you just...vanished. I canât find these muses anywhere, and when I would try to focus my efforts, I just found myself frustrated that the words never seemed to fit right or come at all.
So Iâm taking a formal break for a while, to try and find myself amidst this chaos of the home I call my own mind. Iâm taking the steps to find help, and get medicated for this. When Iâm finally stable again, I know Iâll be back. I donât want to keep you all waiting on my pokey ass to finish things. But rest assured, Iâll be back. The tide will come and go, but the ocean is eternal, and will always wash itâs way back to shore.
In the meantime, Iâll be lurking on discord more likely than not, so feel free to reach me there. I love you all, and will miss you a great deal. Take care.
Much Love,
~AJ~








