Sweets and Bacon

I've begun the step of cutting him off my life. Finally. It's just a matter of not feeling guilty (at all) whenever I turn him down. Like last night, when he asked me to go skating at the harbourfront centre and although I wanted to, I didn't go. I went snowboarding today and didn't invite him. And I'm actually considering cancelling going snowboarding with him and his friends on Saturday had he not bought me a ticket yet. Gah. Side note: watching the Raptors game right now and I can't understand how they're losing when they were leading in the first couple of quarters. Oh boy. If you know me well enough, you'd know that I'm mostly scared of needles, playing with balls, and getting off ski lifts. I'm pretty much traumatized. I can't even remember a time when I have gotten off a lift gracefully. The funny thing is, I took a day off of work just so I could snowboard - in the hopes that I face my fear of getting off the stupid lift. I was actually telling my friend, that if I can only climb up the hill, I would, just so I could avoid it. So after building up enough confidence to ride up, I got off. And even though I fell, I didn't think it was as bad as I thought. And then I realized, that it's probably just all in my head after all. I've been obsessing about being so bad on getting off lifts that I didn't think that it could just be all in my head. And it was. I guess the same could be said with my life in general. Lately, I've been obsessing about all my goals and how I feel like I'm running out of time. I'm a pretty driven person. I've accomplished most of the things I set out for my age, but I still don't feel satisfied. My list of things to accomplish gets longer by the minute, and for someone who always has the need to be in control, it's driving me insane. Maybe I should stop obsessing and try to let loose a little. Woozah. Baby steps. So many things to do this year... - I wanna finish another marathon and beat my time last year. 42K is no joke and I got teased because of it. - In yoga, I wanna learn that flying pigeon pose. Crow is becoming easier so I guess I just need to put more time in practice. - In muay thai, I need to start sparring. My instructor said I'm close to getting into the sparring class but I missed a few months of training because of work so I'm gonna have to work harder if I want to start fighting in the summer. - In sports, I'll probably have to try harder in learning any of them. All I'm good at is playing squash. Grrrr. - Travel to Europe and a city in the States. - Get promoted. - Buy my own place. Ahhhhhh. Like I said, baby steps.

I am PMSing like a bitch. This will probably go on for another week before Mother Nature graces me with her presence. Gahh. Today, I was craving for sweets soooo bad that I actually went to Prairie Girls to buy cupcakes...and I ate all the icing too! I usually don't do that! What have I come to?! Wahhhh #firstworldproblems Anyway, I'm just happy that my 48-hour ban of eating coloured stuff is almost over. I can finally have breakfast! I'm so excited. I can almost taste everything I could eat! I was getting tired of eating carbs to be honest. :( I am getting my tooth extracted next week. On top of that, I will be getting a bone graft on my jaw as a first step to getting tooth implant. Not a lot of people know this since I show a full set of teeth when I smile, but I have a gap on my upper molar. It actually counts as 2 teeth, probably as a result of my teeth shifting since I got my tooth pulled out when I was really young. Blame it on my poor oral hygiene. It was too late to save that tooth, but I have cared for my other teeth so much that I don't even have cavities anymore *knocksonwood* I have thought about doing this for such a long time now. But I was strapped for money. I didn't have enough savings to pay it off. But now that I have paid off my loans, I think I'll be okay. I mean, I don't have huge savings and I still want to buy my own place at the end of this year, but well, screw it. If I don't do this now, I think that this will be something that I will always look back on and think about. I can't waste any more time just thinking about things. I think it's time for me to start doing things and going for things I wanna do for myself and things I love doing. I may have scared myself off a little bit earlier while reading about bone grafting problems though. Silverlining, I won't be able to eat solids for a few weeks after the surgery. Maybe it'll force me to go back to my healthy eating streak. Well, here's hoping. :) On a lighter note, I finally finished my year end package today. That was the last package I'll be doing for that particular property. Funny how the small the world is though. The new management company that will handle that portfolio is none other than my previous company...and the new manager would be the same manager I worked with before. All I could say, in a non-sarcastic tone, is Good Luck. Hahahah.

Shopping Saturday #shopping #eatoncenter #toronto #timelapse (at Toronto Eaton Centre)