I've begun the step of cutting him off my life. Finally. It's just a matter of not feeling guilty (at all) whenever I turn him down. Like last night, when he asked me to go skating at the harbourfront centre and although I wanted to, I didn't go. I went snowboarding today and didn't invite him. And I'm actually considering cancelling going snowboarding with him and his friends on Saturday had he not bought me a ticket yet. Gah. Side note: watching the Raptors game right now and I can't understand how they're losing when they were leading in the first couple of quarters. Oh boy. If you know me well enough, you'd know that I'm mostly scared of needles, playing with balls, and getting off ski lifts. I'm pretty much traumatized. I can't even remember a time when I have gotten off a lift gracefully. The funny thing is, I took a day off of work just so I could snowboard - in the hopes that I face my fear of getting off the stupid lift. I was actually telling my friend, that if I can only climb up the hill, I would, just so I could avoid it. So after building up enough confidence to ride up, I got off. And even though I fell, I didn't think it was as bad as I thought. And then I realized, that it's probably just all in my head after all. I've been obsessing about being so bad on getting off lifts that I didn't think that it could just be all in my head. And it was. I guess the same could be said with my life in general. Lately, I've been obsessing about all my goals and how I feel like I'm running out of time. I'm a pretty driven person. I've accomplished most of the things I set out for my age, but I still don't feel satisfied. My list of things to accomplish gets longer by the minute, and for someone who always has the need to be in control, it's driving me insane. Maybe I should stop obsessing and try to let loose a little. Woozah. Baby steps. So many things to do this year... - I wanna finish another marathon and beat my time last year. 42K is no joke and I got teased because of it. - In yoga, I wanna learn that flying pigeon pose. Crow is becoming easier so I guess I just need to put more time in practice. - In muay thai, I need to start sparring. My instructor said I'm close to getting into the sparring class but I missed a few months of training because of work so I'm gonna have to work harder if I want to start fighting in the summer. - In sports, I'll probably have to try harder in learning any of them. All I'm good at is playing squash. Grrrr. - Travel to Europe and a city in the States. - Get promoted. - Buy my own place. Ahhhhhh. Like I said, baby steps.