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One thing I know for sure is that john way 100 million percent bi or whatever or SOMETHING. I'm not gonna elaborate but, yeah definitely. But also let me elaborate. He was completely and utterly infatuated with Paul (I'm not saying he didn't love yoko either, and the same with Paul and Linda! I fully believe that someone can have two soulmates but what they had way more than just soulmates everyone who knew them could see). Let's also remember johns self interview (in that late 70s I think) where he said he wanted to wait until 40 to "fck a gay" ok mate. OH OH ALSO when he says he had to marry a very rich woman... Or man. AND NOT TO FORGET WJEN HE ACTUALLY TRIED TO START RUMOURS ABOUT HIMSELF BEING GAY LOL. Yet more I forgot but when john wore a badge to the recoding studio that had "sword swallower" written on it. Haha just wear a pride flag atp.

I also thought I needed to express my utter bewilderment towards John Lennon's infatuation with yesterday... "The only thing you've done was yesterday" BIYCH THAT WAS NOOOT ALLEN KLEIN TFF. I don't believe it, everyone know about how john resented(?) or maybe how jealous he was of yesterday(haha get it cause jealous guy...the song). Also when he got drunk and sang yesterday and changed the she pronouns with he... When he recorded imagine and all he could think about is if it was as good as yesterday... I know it's a bit insignificant but when Paul first performed yesterday live and john handed him the joke bouquet? He couldn't be serious about the masterpiece of a song Paul had just written without him, considering how codependent john was on their partnership not just in songwriting but also on life, shows johns way of handling serious situations and his avoidance towards conflict (also his avoidance and codependent nature can be seen in him and cyns relationship and how he treated Julian and her)

AND the songs they wrote about each other in their solo careers ooooof. How do you sleep was like not subtle at all and I'm sure that wasn't the intention. But for Paul to respond and basically say I'm in love and I forgive is just wow. He was wayyyyy to forgiving. Just like starting over is also another obvious one. just like starting over is actually might be my favourite john solo song because it just feels so buttersweet and nostalgic and I remember the Paris trip, that is literally all I can think of "why don't we take of alone take a trip around the world) PARIS!!!!! What do you do when you're 20 and inherited 100 pounds??? You take your best friend on a trip around the world but you don't even get past Paris. That's what!!

Paul's new album (which I kinda didn't like sorry!) anyway all I could really focus on was the song down south. You know what's south of Liverpool... Paris! (I KNOW it's a bit of a stretch). But they both speak/spoke so fondly about their time together in Paris and the matching haircuts and hats were the cutest things ever. #couplegoals

I think if john was alive now... I actually have no idea what their relationship would be like. They were so hard to decode even when they were young in the late 50s. And especially after the breakup. Watching this and seeing all of johns interviews talking about Paul were so amazing because he can go from criticizing him to praising him in seconds. I remember what may pang said about "john always asking what Paul was doing." And when john was in a car with someone and heard coming up playing on the radio and said it's a Paul song (fondly!!). I don't know if I believe that all my loving was played in the hospital when john was pronounced dead, Paul's voice being the last thing he heard. But if it's true then wow I mean I'm not saying his DEATH was fate but they were.

But they did "get it back together" so... yay? Stupid john why'd you ever have to move to ny.