Sweating for Success

*Losing all the fat all my body and becoming a board without a chest or butt.

*That I won't be happy with myself afterwards

*That I'll fail or give up half way thru

Day 03: A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?

Height: 5’1 and a half SW: 143 CW: 139 GW: 125

GW2: 115 UGW: 100lbs

Reward at GW: A new pair of shoes and a couple of really cute shirts I saw at forever 21.

30 DAY THINSPO CHALLENGE

Day 01: Your Stats & Goal Weights + Rewards

Day 2: How tall are you? Do you like your height?

Day 03: A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?

Day 04: Your greatest fears about weight loss.

Day 05: Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?

Day 06: Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

Day 07: Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?

Day 08: Your workout routine.

Day 09: Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Day 10: What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”

Day 11: Your favorite thinspo blog and why!

Day 12: What do you normally eat?

Day 13: Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?

Day 14: What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?

Day 15: Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?

Day 16: When did you first decide to lose weight?

Day 17: Do you have an eating disorder?

Day 18: What food is your weakness?

Day 19: When is the last time you ate fast food?

Day 20: Favorite diet?

Day 21: What are your clothing sizes?

Day 22: What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?

Day 23: Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?

Day 24: How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia?

Day 25: Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.

Day 26: What excites you most about reaching your ugw?

Day 27: How do you deal with being around food?

Day 28: Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?

Day 29: Your definition of beauty.

I LOVE THIS SONG! It's one of my favorite songs to work out to! Keeps me going! Hope you guys love it too

In an effort to keep up with my blog and to keep it current I'm going to try to post something at least once a week.

I've decided that Sundays will be my designated posting day! So look out for updates on Sunday, but if I have extra time I'll check in whenever during the week. I'll try to answer all questions throughout the week so don't be afraid to ask. No judgement and I promise to be honest and as helpful as possible.

NOTE: I will not post questions to the blog if:

1) I'm asked not to

2) The question contains personal information such as email, phone numbers, or address's.

3) I feel the message is more of a personal conversation

4) If the question is too personal or intimate.

I RESERVE THE RIGHT TO VERBALLY ASSUALT ANY NEGATIVE COMMENTS LEFT IN MY INBOX AND THEN POST THEM TO MY BLOG. IF YOU CAN DISH IT THEN YOU NEED TO LEARN HOW TO TAKE IT. MY BLOG IS A JUDGEMENT FREE AREA! IF YOU REFUSE TO BE POLITE OR SUPPORTIVE DO NOT EXPECT ME TO BE!...you have been warned ;)

Anyway, keep up the good work and I look forward to hearing from everyone!

So, to all my lovely followers I LOVE YOU! I truely do, your amazing and beautiful and everything in between. But I have some news that might be bad, or good, depending on how you look at it.

If you follow me you know I haven't posted in almost three months. For that I am deeply sorry. I've been in a state of rehabilitation and reflection.

After dropping 20 pounds through starvation I was completely amazed. But then I had to start conditioning for lacrosse and I realized I ran like a fat person. I got to the end of my road and almost collasped from exertion, my legs were shaking and I was breathing like a 400 pound women chasing the hot dog cart in down town boston. I came home and collasped and then spent the next hour and a half shivering under my blankets because my body temperature had dropped so low and I had no food in my system to help restore it. It felt like the worst case of the flu ever! I also noticed my hair was falling out, I was grumpy all the time and the time I could sleep is after I had smoked an entire joint by myself.

After that day I decided I do not want to ever have to repeat that. EVER AGAIN! it was the worst feeling in the world. the depression hit, the denial, the relaspes, the self-hatred. All of it. I was losing myself to a monster I couldnt even begin to fully understand. I finally came to terms with the stuff that I had been doing to myself and I HATED it! Every second. I told my best friend what was going on and I broke down at the look of hurt in her face. She was truely afraid for me. I don't want to do that to the people I love.

I want to be strong. Beautiful. Healthy. I want to walk down the beach mid summer and have people go "Look at that sexy bitch!" I want to be able to outrun my lacrosse coach and sprint across that field mid game without breaking a sweat. I've started working out and I love it!

Instead of going through some horrible day and then coming home and sitting on my ass doing nothing because I can't eat and I don't have the energy to exercise, I now come home, grab an energy bar and sweat my ass off. I sweat all my problems out. I love the feel of the burn, the exhaustion that comes with a good workout. That nasty arm pit stink right before an amazingly hot soothing shower. I've fallen in love. I look forward to the burn of my stomach and arms and legs the day after an incredibly intense workout.

So, to my proana and promia followers, I'm sorry ladies but I've gone fitspo and I love it. I will be keeping my blog and posting about weight loss and great workouts and you at still more than welcome to follow and steal tips and I encourage you to. And I really encourage you to follow me into a healthier alternative to weight loss; but I completely understand if you think I'm bat shit crazy. I expect to loss followers from and i'm sorry about that but not enough to stop doing it.

I hope you continue to follow me and maybe even join me. As always I'm open to answering anyone's questions about anything. I will not be taking any bashing thou, you call me a fatass expect it to be turned right back on you! Don't be hating on me because I found something that makes me happy. I'm not forcing my new-found lifestyle on you I'd appreciate it if you could keep the negative comments to yourself. I've been where you are so I wont be hating on you.

I still love you guys <3 I wish you luck and hope you find a method that works for you