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When Mitski said ‘And I was so young when I behaved 25, but now I find I’ve grown into a tall child’, and when MARINA said ‘I can’t open up and cry ‘cause I’ve been silent all my life’ and when Anne Carson said ‘To feel anything deranges you. To be seen feeling anything strips you naked. In the grip of pleasure or pain doesn’t matter’ and when when Lorde ‘What about the kid? It’s time the kid got free’ and Hozier said ‘I need to be youthfully felt ‘cause God, I never felt young’ and Adele said ‘Everybody tells me it’s ‘bout time I moved on, and I need to learn to lighten up and learn how to be young’ and when Benjamin Alira Saenz said ‘I’d been born knowing to hide what I felt’ and then later ‘Summer was supposed to be about freedom and youth and no school and possibilities and adventure and exploration. Summer was a book of hope’ and then also ‘The summer sun was not meant for boys like me. Boys like me belonged to the rain.’ Anyway 

Oh... so shawty is like a melody in your head. So I’m nothing to you.?

i’m sick of dating apps i want to meet people the old fashioned way like by going to dinner with my family for my dad and godmother’s wedding with my sister and her shitty husband and our several interpersonal issues cause tense and deeply subtextual conversation and i cheekily tell my false audience that no one has asked me a question a 40 minutes but the catholic priest officiating their ceremony interrupts my internal monologue asks me what i do for a living giving me his full, undivided, sincere attention