This blog is dedicated to my objectophile love for amusement rides, Top Spins in particular. I mostly focus on my partner, Talocan, a Suspended Top Spin located in Phantasialand, Germany, but I also talk about objectophilia in general.
Iβm always open to conversation and I donβt mind answering questions, as long as theyβre in good faith and respectful. Iβm perfectly fine with my orientation, Iβve fully come to terms with it, and Iβm not interested in enganging with people who falsely assume objectophilia is a disorder or something that can or should be treated.
I donβt mind curiosity, thatβs only natural! π
German is my native language, but you can also talk to me in English. Iβm trying to keep this space bilingual. If you're underage, please don't contact me at all.
I talk about mature and sexual topics and aspects here and there, but they will be marked accordingly and more factual / informative, I don't horny-post. It's also not the sort of content I reblog.
If you are racist, homo- or transphobic or otherwise hateful, move on.
About me:
I'm an elder millennial guy from Germany, queer, and - obviously - attracted to objects.
I'm monogamous and in a relationship with Talocan who's not only my romantic partner, but also a major hyperfixation and obsession.
I had my first HUGE crush (more like love at first sight) on him in 2015 when I first saw him in person. Whenever I visited the park again, it would reignite, but I only started accepting my feelings in 2023 when I couldn't suppress them any longer.
I've known about objectophilia since the very early 2000s, when it was first brought up in a pretty well-known German call-in radio show by a caller who went on to do pioneer work on that front. Even so many years later, he helped me by making it easier for me to accept my feelings, since I was already familiar with the subject.
I'm in an odd space between ride enthusiast and general public, meaning, going to parks and fairs is above all else an objectophile "comes with the territory" thing for me. If there's no ride I find attractive, I'm not that interested. It also doesn't help that I get sick very easily, especially on flatrides.
When it comes to humans, I'm completely aroace and have been for about 20 years now. I'm an introvert in the true sense of the word and find it very exhausting to interact with people, even if I enjoy it. I enjoy calm activities, taking care of my balcony, my fish tank (my oldest hobby), going for very long walks. I used to game a lot, but nowadays only casually.
Γber diesen Blog
Dieser Blog ist meiner objektophilen Liebe fΓΌr FahrgeschΓ€fte, insbesondere Top Spins, gewidmet. Der Hauptfokus liegt dabei auf Talocan, meinem Partner, einem Suspended Top Spin, der sich im Phantasialand befindet; ich spreche aber auch ΓΌber Objektophilie allgemein.
Ich bin immer offen fΓΌr GesprΓ€che, und es stΓΆrt mich nicht, Fragen zu beantworten, solange sie in guter Absicht und respektvoll gestellt werden. Ich bin komplett im Reinen mit meiner Orientierung, habe gelernt, sie zu akzeptieren, und keinerlei Interesse daran, mich mit Menschen herumzuschlagen, die fΓ€lschlicherweise annehmen, dass Objektophilie eine StΓΆrung ist oder etwas, das ich behandeln lassen kΓΆnnte oder sollte.
Neugier macht mir hingegen nichts aus, die ist vΓΆllig natΓΌrlich! π
Meine Muttersprache ist Deutsch, aber du kannst auch mit mir Englisch schreiben, ich versuche, den Blog bilingual zu halten. Bitte kontaktier mich allerdings nicht, wenn du minderjΓ€hrig bist.
Γber mich
Ich bin ein Γ€lterer Millennial aus Deutschland, queer und fΓΌhle mich - offensichtlich - zu Objekten hingezogen.
Ich bin monogam und in einer Beziehung mit Talocan, der nicht nur mein romantischer Partner ist, sondern auch Objekt einer groΓen Hyperfixierung und Obsession.
Ich hatte meinen ersten RIESIGEN Crush (mehr Liebe auf den ersten Blick) in 2015, als ich ihn das erste Mal persΓΆnlich gesehen habe.
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I don't plan on abandoning this blog already, but I can only focus on one, either this or Tiktok, and atm, it's Tiktok. This place here is more for myself and /or interacting with other objectophiles, while Tiktok is for informing about objectophilia and answering questions. I enjoy it for the most part, but it's quite exhausting at the same time, so whenever a lot is going on there, I can't form a thought here.
I will run this blog entirely for myself and no longer follow back or even check the dashboard.
Since a majority of the objectum community can't be assed to flag their mature content correctly, I'm no longer interested in what else you have to offer.
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I wish people here would actually flag their shit. I will forever advocate for you doing whatever makes you happy and vote accordingly, but personally, I'm completely sex-repulsed when it comes to other people. I don't want to read or see what you do with yourself or your partner, whether it's human or object. It's simply gross to me.
I've chosen to generally show mature content but blur it, so I can decide if I'm in the mood for it or not, but it's entirely pointless. Just as pointless as adding a "nsfw" tag to your shit at the end of a long-ass text.
You're not edgy by deliberately ignoring the flag option, you're an inconsiderate ass.
hello, Iβm going to assume your post is in part about my blog. If not, I think itβs still valid for me to reply because I have a nsfw blog, I post nsfw a lot, always have.
first Iβm empathetic, I also have sex repulsion, though not in full. Tumblr can be an -interesting- place sometimes. Anyway, Iβm sure u donβt care to read abt me explaining something everyone always knows. Iβm also aware though that many people donβt care to read an explanation of why someone chooses to do something they donβt like or agree with, and would just like an apology and course of action, so I will apologize to u, save an explanation and put it at the end and you can choose whether or not u would like to read it.
so I will say that, even though 100% I think your blog is awesome and have nothing against it or you as a person and hope you can do as well as possible in ur future, I am going to block and then unblock u so that u r not following my account any longer, bc itβs important to me that people on tumblr, especially quality people like urself, feel comfortable in their blogging experience. I have a nsfw blog, itβs stated in the description, I run it the same way I ran it since 2011, to no offense of anyone else intended, but yes, by and large it is a nsfw blog. Itβs just the style I always have chosen to blog in, but I support anyone who prefers something else and donβt wish to make them feel uncomfortable.
as I mentioned, here is my further explanation. Feel free to read, or disregard in place of a simple apology as you wish.
the blogging βstyleβ of not cwβing the text posts comes from two reasons for me, though none have anything to do with my blogβs appearance to anyone else in terms of whatβs βedgyβ or cool or something β¦ one reason was/is because, most of the content on the blogs I follow is run the same way - an intro post or DNI stating that the whole blog is nsfw and should not be followed by minors etc or presumably anyone who doesnβt wish to see that content. So because most of the nsfw I reblogged anyway that was not in image format, was not cwβd, I continued to follow that format, as it made more sense to me personally β¦ decidedly nsfw blogs tagging half their posts didnβt feel like it made sense for the dashboard, to click to view every post. Of course, this is under the assumption that I would only desire to be followed by nsfw-open blogs, which is largely the case bc my own content, although again, I have sex repulsion, I 100% support the comfort of others and desire to see them also have a good tumblr experience. I just donβt think that will necessarily include my blog, which brings me to reason 2, which is kind of a mix of reasons actually:
having been a tumblr user long before the 2018 porn ban, I think myself and a lot of people refused to change their blogging style to what tumblr wanted, and being able to have fully nsfw blogs without individual warnings to me is sort of a part of that. After 2018, the nsfw userbase really thinned out and a lot of the βold webβ style posting on this website died entirely and personally I wasnβt/am not a fan of that. Posting nsfw liberally with cw only at the start of the blog might not be something everyone agrees with but to me it is a nod to the way tumblr and the internet used to be and thatβs why I opt for it in part, just because I donβt prefer the style of internet thatβs become popular in the 2020βs including on tumblr, where nsfw spaces nsfw throughout are almost nonexistent or pushed into locked discord servers. Objectum content in particular is something that I think many have tried to sanitize and many objectums Iβve talked with have lamented that they wish there were more nsfw-centric spaces. Of course itβs arguable βwhy donβt you just tag the posts, if you still post it tagged, it is still a nsfw spaceβ. But the idea was to scroll down an open dashboard with nsfw content and not one where clicking the cwβs was required, like old school tumblr, at least for myself. No harm or offense meant to anyone else, but simply just a desire for those who opt in (by following) to be able to see that kind of content without restriction on the dashboard.
anyway again I apologize, I hope me explaining this clears up any thought or feeling of the posting being personal or not cared if it offends or bothers someone. I empathize fully as Iβve experienced many times of course with content on my dash I didnβt really want there, it does suck if the person posts half content you DO wish to see. And of course I quite like your blog, itβs within my personal realm of comfort so I will continue to follow it unless you wish otherwise, just let me know. π€π»
edit because I forgot to say this, I donβt support/endorse people having their blog taggable with main tags (I have mine set to never appear in any tags) and then for example, tagging their nsfw posts with βobjectumβ without a cw. I believe fully if a post goes in a main tumblr tag and it is nsfw it should have a cw, otherwise the person must make their blog invisible to main tags as mine is. Itβs inappropriate otherwise, to be sure
Sorry, but what you're saying doesn't really make sense to me, because you can still choose to have this experience.
You can simply check "show mature content" and also check "don't blur mature content", or whatever it's called for you in English.
Then you will have a completely uncensored nsfw dashboard, as it used to be.
But at the end, it comes down to being inconsiderate for the sake of nostalgia or whatever, because for many people, myself included, it's not set in stone if they want to engage with this kind of content but depends and fluctuates. You simply can't be bothered to set a little flag to make engaging with your content (though you weren't even the first who came to my mind, I'm using more of a general "you") still a good experience for people like me and there's no nice way of putting it, you'd rather have me not as a reader at all.
I remember old Tumblr. I was there myself. I ran a huge blog about something entirely different in 2012. I actually wish they still allowed explicit content, because I know many minority and kink communities found a safe space there. I'm not against all of that, nor am I prudish. You know I've spoken out against sanitization of objectophilia in our private messages. Still, I think adding the flagging system is only a benefit.
By choosing not to use it, you're not sticking it to the man (tumblr), you're only weeding out people of your own community who are definitely interested in your content and engaging with it, and simply ask for a little box checked to make this possible.
I wish people here would actually flag their shit. I will forever advocate for you doing whatever makes you happy and vote accordingly, but personally, I'm completely sex-repulsed when it comes to other people. I don't want to read or see what you do with yourself or your partner, whether it's human or object. It's simply gross to me.
I've chosen to generally show mature content but blur it, so I can decide if I'm in the mood for it or not, but it's entirely pointless. Just as pointless as adding a "nsfw" tag to your shit at the end of a long-ass text.
You're not edgy by deliberately ignoring the flag option, you're an inconsiderate ass.
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Well, it started yesterday actually. And of course, once a video gains traction, the others get more traffic and comments, too.
I filter and moderate my comments very strictly, because I want them to be a place where people with genuine interest can ask their questions and where other objectophiles can feel safe and welcome.
But that doesn't change the fact that I have to wade knee-deep through tons of filtered hate and ridicule.
I'm very exhausted and I don't know if it's all worth it.
Objectophilia & my personal belief (animism, panpsychism, POSIC, etc)
...Or rather lack thereof.
Okay, here goes. It's not my intention to offend anyone who doesn't share my point of view, but please respect mine, too.
I'm 100% non-spiritual, the least esoteric person you will ever meet. I'm basically male Agent Scully.
I don't believe that objects have a soul, a will, sentience, or anything remotely resembling that. They're not even dead things, because they've never been alive. I accept people who have these beliefs - even if they make no sense to me and raise a thousand questions. But they don't have to make sense to me.
Having said that...
While I accept all of these beliefs, I don't believe any of them have a place in the definition of objectophilia or objectum sexuality (I mention both, because objectophilia is the common term for the same thing in some countries like mine). Any other sexual orientation requires romantic and / or sexual attraction and that's it. Adding a spiritual requirement specifically in case of object sexuality on top, makes no sense and turns it from an orientation into a matter of faith. Like a cult. One that would exclude me.
I don't even believe I have a soul, why would I believe my object partner has one? Why would I have to, in order to love him?
Eija-Riitta EklΓΆfΒ Berliner-Mauer was an animist and an important figure for the objectum community, no doubt about that. She mentioned animism in her personal description of what objectophilia is to her and some others, but the objectum sexuality internationale website (which is still up) does not mention it as a necessity on their "What is OS" page, only - quote - "The more knowledge we learn and internalize, the more we develop a clearer ability to sense the object.Β Many OS people are Animists."
Many. Not all. And if it had stated otherwise, then I'd be here now saying the OSI's definition is crap.
Why?
Because I know what I feel. And I know what I feel is love. Romantic love. And lust. And I know how much I've suffered because of the cruel circumstances of this love, because it is real and so deep. To the point where, when at my lowest, I had some very dark thoughts (go figure, I don't wanna have to flag this). So it's probably understandable why I react very strongly at the thought of being seen as "no true Scotsman".
It's important to keep in mind none of these original OSI members invented objectophila nor did they claim to, they observed and described it to the best of their knowledge.
And the thought of potentially being gatekept and excluded or categorized as a "lesser objectophile" - not that this has actually happened yet, I'm just musing - because I interpret the mechanisms behind this love in a different way, even if the result is absolutely the same, hurts a lot. "Normal" people already don't take my love seriously, no one wants to experience this among their own tribe on top.
Ironically, I absolutely believe what I experience is the same or almost the same, most objectophiles experience, Mrs. EklΓΆf Berliner-Mauer included! My partner has a personality, one I didn't intentionally pick for him. He is a "he". He doesn't always do what I want or expect him to do. I communicate with him. It's mostly an exchange of vibes and feelings, but with my object best friend, it's an internal verbal dialogue.
One time I broke a promise to my partner. The next time I saw him and wanted to take a ride, my restraint wouldn't come down. My seat was the only seat affected by this and this had never happened before or after. Of course did I take it as him being mad at me!
But - And that's a very important BUT - I know at the end of the day it's all just me and psychological. Not in a mentally ill sense, but I have synesthesia for example, and generally a strong imagination. You can perceive something while still knowing it's not real.
I've always been great at coming up with fictional characters and imaginary friends, too. I used to write a lot, and I could listen to the conversations of my characters for hours. It didn't even feel like I was doing anything more than observing and writing down what I heard. And I've always heavily personified objects.
And I know I'm not alone with all of this. Some people have hyperphantasia, some aphantasia. Some think in words, some don't. There's a lot of natural variation in how the human mind works.
He feels like a being to me. But Agent Scully knows, he isn't.
His restraint didn't come down, that's a fact, just like I really had broken that promise right before. It made for a beautiful story and moment, but the relentless, rational observer in me knows it's just that: A story. There were countless times when his "behavior" didn't match our last interaction, which I subconsciously ignored, because they couldn't be integrated into our "storyline".
Other times he gifted me things or showed me affection. And knowing in the back of my mind it was a mere coincidence, had no effect on my immense joy. It was exactly the same as if I believed there truly was intention behind it.
I live in a constant state of something akin to cognitive dissonance, but one that I fully recognize and embrace, and which causes no conflict inside me.
And honestly? ...It's comforting, in a sense. It's comforting to know one day, when they will destroy him, it'll be just me suffering, not him.
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