Laura, 34, bi, married to Drew, mom, research junkie, and purveyor of Destiel fic. I live in a trash can. Spoilers and NSFW happen, but are always tagged. I just blog whatever grabs my interest, and sometimes I say stuff so it's pretty random around here.
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Hey...so. I still exist. Just been having a really difficult time in my life the last few months, and haven't been able to feel social enough for networking. Or humaning much at all, tbh. But...I'm coming around. Sloooowly. Of all things, it's been a mobile game that has helped me start feeling better, but I won't bore you all with the details. Just thought I'd pop in a wave a hand, because I know that many of you have been worried about me, and i'm sorry I haven't responded to any of your messages. It's not for lack of love...I just haven't known what to say and tbh, a little overwhelmed that my absence has been something to worry about enough to even warrant messages. I'm going to start coming on here again, but I have a request: please don't ask when I'll be updating anything, bc I don't know that myself. Promise I'll let everyone know when I have some updates ready to go. But anyway, hi hello, hope you've all been doing well.
what I really love about the cockles fandom is that we love their wives and kids and we dont think theyre faking their relationship, we just know what they love them and they also love each other and thats the sweetest thing ever
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@profoundfall replied to your post “Update for my readers...”
You've got this!! You are an amazing writer and you'll get back to your old pace quicker than you think! :) Very excited to see what you have in store!
Aw, thank you so much!! God, I’m nervous. But, let no one say that I’m one to back down from a challenge once I accept it; I’d rather try and fail than sit safe and stagnant to the point that algae starts making a home with me ;) Way too aries to withstand not being proactive, when I’m capable. My fire might die down to embers sometimes, but as I’ve come to learn over time, it’s pretty damn hard to snuff me out.
Ha! Yeah, mine accepted it too, and low key ships the ships, now. After he was introduced to the concept of Space Husbands, that was it, point of no return. Bless the understanding partners 😌 🙌
For those who have read or follow my work, it’s pretty obvious that I haven’t published in eons, and I know I have multiple WIPs up right now. I haven’t given up on them or emotionally abandoned them to never being completed; it’s just been a problem of creative constipation. The words and stories are all there in my head, but the path between brain and hands seems to be getting clogged up somewhere. Which of course, has been made worse by the simple fact of knowing that I can’t get it all out. Anxiety will do that to you...perpetuate itself until it snowballs to the point that you can’t even bring yourself to attempts.
I’m really freakin’ sick of not being able to do one of the few things I love to do.
Seriously.
And since I’m harder on myself than anyone else could ever be, I’m pretty aggravated at myself for letting the anxiety stop me from doing what I want. For those who know me, it isn’t news that I am NOT good at submitting in pretty much ANY manner. So, after looking very carefully through the Writing Prompt Wednesday post on AO3 by @unforth-ninawaters, I decided that I’m going to write as short of a one shot as I can manage, for each trope. The point here, is to get my brain back in that mode, and basically jump off my car battery, using the prompts as my jumper cables. If I try to work on my current WIPs, I know that anything I put out will be clunky and out-of-pace because to be honest, I’m rusty and I know it. So here’s the warning: please bear with me as I get my groove back, dear elder readers. I know that MANY of you have been waiting for updates and maybe dying a little bit with the emotional cliffhanger in MDS, but I can’t pick my WIPs back up just yet and undermine all the work I put in, by publishing an update that’s not up to par. Sorry, but I’ve worked too damned hard and put too much into them, to treat them like that.
Once I feel like I’m back up to snuff, I’ll start updating my WIPs again, and I even have about 500k total of works that haven’t even been published at all yet, that will be popping up once I get my other shit sorted. In case you’re curious, here’s what will coming up for new works:
- Adult punk!Cas/nerd!Dean, because I just really needed some of that, plus pretend!boyfriends, bisexual erasure being addressed, Thanksgiving, Mary and Ellen being besties, and Cas being weirdly charming when he isn’t being pointedly vulgar and rude.
- A/B/O Dean Smith and endverse!Cas, featuring angst, heat sex, blanket nests, medical issues, slowish build to mating, and a chapter that’s indirectly the fault of @pecanpiedean and her thing with shotgunning ;D
- Teen hunter!Dean and preacher’s kid!runaway!Cas on an impromptu road trip, Dean coping with John’s death, Cas is from TN (I know, I know, but fuck it) and Dean has a thing for his accent, self-discovery for both boys, and Cas being an affectionate little snuggle bug.
- Dean and Cas growing up together as next door neighbors, and all the best friends to lovers fluff
- Meringue part two, and Timelord Technology part two (TT is going to be a verse, FYI)
- DeanCasJimmy featuring robbers!Jimstiel (who are kinda warped), and kidnapped!Dean
- College AU, based on a prompt I saw eons ago, to the effect of “you always poke me with a pen to wake me up when I doze off in class, but we’ve never really talked and you’re hot, and what should I do?”. Going with slightly pretentious!Cas, pansexual!Dean being awkward, and accidental voyeurism.
- Another college AU (short little thing), in which the boys meet when Dean stumbles into the dorm’s public lounge drunk off his ass and Cas is studying in the lounge, watching Dean’s losing battle with the vending machine. Friendship ensues after Cas takes pity on Dean and makes sure he gets back to his room alright.
- The boys working for an up and coming Music magazine, in totally different departments, until Cas’ job gets eliminated and he gets two choices: shadow Dean and learn a new side of music journalism, or take the layoff. Made up indie bands and music festivals, Cas is terrible at multitasking/live-tweeting, and Mildred cameo. For @xoshevanel, who prompted it :)
- And yes, I really am still working up a draft for your prompt win from ages ago, @ellygaming. Never forgot about it, and still intend to deliver because I loathe not doing what I say I will, and especially when it’s something that involves other people and not just my own to-do list.
- Unabashed fluff, in which Cas gets sucked in and becomes Hamiltrash, and for once, Dean is the one not getting the reference. Until he does. For @katienovak‘s birthday...very VERY belatedly. Sorry, sweets, but I promise it’s on the top of the list :)
Yeah...it’s rough, yall. I’m acutely aware of how much lies ahead of me with this list (plus the WIPs of course), not to mention the original work I have an outline for and first chapter draft down. Plus the five or so outlines of maybe-to-be-written stories. If anyone has magical powers to freeze time, this would be an awesome time to come to my rescue and give me time pocket to hang out in for a while ;)
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I might be reblogging other stuffs, but really I'm just sitting here feeling a little emotional at the fact that Alexander, Eliza, and Angelica are all buried near each other like wow thanks. The only thing worse would be if all the Revolution Bros™ were buried together in a mausoleum with Raise A Glass etched above the door.
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Hey, guys. Most of you know me as Pesmenos on here, or as Earthseraph on AO3, but I’d like humanize myself and tell you: Hi, I’m Syd. I’m Syd and I have PCOS.
What is PCOS, you ask? PCOS, or Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, for me is a thing that makes my hormones go out of wack, among other things. I have too much testosterone, I have an enlarged ovary, my periods are long, painful, and heavy, and I’m at risk for cysts on my ovaries. Due to this I must go to the doctor every three months to get a birth control shot that doesn’t have estrogen- because estrogen gives me migraines- so my periods don’t last for months, to prevent a cyst growing on my ovary, and to get constant blood tests. This shot, though, can deteriorate the bone in my arm if I’m not careful, and because of expensive blood tests I won’t be able to get the vitamin D or calcium tests that will let my doctors know if this is happening.
These visits aren’t cheap and my insurance only covers 20% of the cost because I haven’t met a $1,500 out-of-pocket deductible. My mother’s flippant about the situation because it’s not her insurance, my father says that the bills are from my doctor visits so they’re mine to pay, and my step dad won’t let me work so I’m unemployed. This- these commissions- are my only hope to pay these bills before I start getting refused service and every dollar helps.
Commission Info:
Here’s a link to my more descriptive commissions page
Prices are above and within the link above
AO3 Link || Writing Tag Link
How it works:
Email me about a fic commission at [email protected], there’s an email template in the commissons page link.
Full payment upfront to my paypal.
Longer fics will take me about two weeks.
Any questions can be sent to my ask box
Please reblog this post even if you can’t commission me. The more this gets spread around the higher the chance of someone commissioning me.