Sure Of Myself

The message she'd receive at 2am, that I couldn't do it anymore. Being tired all day long, not having a second for myself while its always because of other people problems being pushed at me. Literally forced and Im here to deal with it, playing adult for everyone while Im not even one.

Being at this point for the third time in my life and seeing that pushing it back to the small locked place in my head doesn't help. And yet Im doing the same again. Not wanting to bother people, also not to seem like a attention whore.

Trying to deal with it by myself, like the adult and good person everyone thinks I am. The one who has it easy, no problems at all.

Read the last sentence again, that doesn't exist.

It just hurts. Sometimes mental pain is worse than physical.

Bitch what?

Warning: Smut (1k+ words)

Includes: Begging, swearing, Dom/sub play, kinks

Im kneeling infront of him. Watching the beautiful mess I've just created. We're both bare infront of each other.

I wonder how I finally get him to let me bondage him on the chair. I would beg him and he wouldnt listen, not when it's about this.

About control and dominace.

He's been struggling about being cuffed and still is. I can tell that he doesn't like it. The way his body language is saying 'no'. But he still let me. Feeling for the first time what it is to be submissive.

Allowing me to have full charge. Not that he doesn't trust me. But I can tell it tugs a lot at his ego, but he would play it cool. Like he always does.

It's just that I don't want him to play anything this time. I want him struggling. Want to watch him loose control of his so well shaped body.

I wrap my hand one more time around his cock giving him some slow nice pumps. I love hearing him pull at the cuffs behind the chair. Trying desperate to make me stop from teasing.

LIMITLESS°

They are sitting peaceful there. Having the promised dinner with his family. So they can meet her. His gorgeous innocent girlfriend. If they would know...

In his mind flying all of the dirty experiences around they both just have had. She is a sign, such a beauty and so freaking hot. The way how her beautiful lips moves when she begs for him. How much he loves when she begs. His hand stroking so gently over her bare legs, trying to get her feel comfortable. Since this is the first dinner with his parents. Her little hand laying over his. His eyes attached at her beautiful soft thighs.

How much he loves touching them. How much she loves when he touches them.

But she moves his hand away. No need to be seen how he strokes her thigh seductive in the middle of the dinner. Biting down her lip she contuine to eat quietly, like everyone else who is sitting there.

Thinking about his promise a smile spread over her lips. Thinking about what he wants to do with her after the dinner. He promise her that he will do everything she wants him to do when there back home. Everything. He wants to show her how much better he can treat her. Morever she does the same last week to him - the dinner day with her parents.

So how insecure they both may look. There're not. Not nearly. Both young. Good looking. Body's so gorgeous and high experiences in the subject sex.

He looks down on his lap, seeing the little pink control peeking out of his black dress pants, making him bite his lip. Damn how much he loves this remote control. His favorite one. Laying his knife by side for a second just to pull it out under the table. Quickly setting the right settings, making sure not to break a rule. Not to fast. After all was set how he just wants It. He pushes down the little button on the control, causing her to shut close her legs.

A little shock going through her most sensitive spot. Her eyes flicker to Shawn, seeing him smirk at her. Damn how much he loves doing this. Looking down on the control he pushes the button again. Sending another slight shock through her. He knows how much she loves it - just as much as he does.

Biting down her lips she swallows another moan from the third little shock. Pressing her hand hard on her pussy. Her legs pressing tight close as if this would help her to tilt the pleasure and keep quiet.

He loves her like that. She can do nothing against it. She is his. Just his. Having her with a little plastic in his hand under control - doing whatever he wants to. Whenever he wants to. How much he loves this little toy. Since they both have this, its hard to be outside with friends or family. A little electro toy, placed on the right spot. Each remote control given to each other.

Shawn has bought it for her, but some days later she got one for him too. It wouldnt be fair if she has one and he doesn't. Being remembered on the little toy, she starts fumbling in her bag for the control - his control. A little black one.

Its not there. Her eyes and hands searching, for it, but its gone. Isn't it?

The smirk on his face widens as she spot the little black control of his connected toy in his pants pocket. He has taken it earlier. So she can't tease him back. At least he thinks so.

Now a smirk playing on her lips aswell. Shawn decides to put the little pink remote control back in his pants pocket. Where it's safe. Safe from her.

Having control, send shivers trough his whole body. How much he loves representing his dominace.

Contuine to eat he looks at her, she's doing something with her phone under the table. Since she has read the instructions she knows every little feature of the toys. She knows that they are able to connect it with the phone too. Quickly she download the app, setting the right intensity. Not too much. Since there have some rules.

Looking one more time to him, who is eating so peaceful and quiet the food. Not any longer.

As Suddenly his hips buck up, feeling the slight shock rushing through his dick. His jaw clenching hard for a second.

"Everything okay honey?" Karen asks.

He nods, slightly embarrassed. It took him by suprise. His stomach tenses as he sees her typing on her phone under the table.

Suddenly He feels his cock pulsated steady and low, because of the toy, making his head lean back in pleasure. It makes him feels soo good. All he want is to hum - groan - growl. Whatever. He just wants to make some noise of the good feeling.

Eyes watching him again. He knows that. The toy still working slowly and pleasurable, making him feel so god damn good.

"Mum" He breaths out smiling. "Honestly best meal ever" He says, groaning a little afterwards.

Making it look like it's because of the food. He just groaned once lustful and nobody noticed that. She hates him for being such a good and spontaneous lier. She stops the vibration.

He feels the blood rush through his cock and strokes slowly over the dress pants to replace the awesome feeling of the commands she just sends to the toy.

A long bulge building slowly up, making her bite her bottom lip. Her clit thropping slightly. She could get off just from watching him, stroking himself under the table.

She lifts her hand off of her lap and places it over his hand - wanting to touch him too. In response he removes his. How much he loves when she touches his cock.

Feeling how he slowly harden under her touch. She adds a little more pressure, herself getting wetter by each second.

Anway she stops some moments later. She knows that this wouldn't be right. Not at a dinner night with his parents - the first dinner night. Moreover she thinks Aaliyah has seen them doing something.

She contuine slowly eating. In the corner of her eyes She sees Shawns big hand laying over the long bulge in his pants. She shifts a little on the seat. Her panties already sticking to her.

His free hand drives up her thigh, massaging them so gently. How she loves when he does this. Shawns other hand, which rested on his step is now fumbling the pink little control out of his pocket. Sending quickly another little shock through her pussy. He knows how much she loves that present of his.

Almost moaning, she swallows once.

"I'll be right back" She says, standing slowly up. With that she walks in the bathroom.

He wants to go after her. Just to rip the clothes off her body and take her right in the bedroom. But he can't. The fabric tightens around his step. His arousal is easy to see. No need for his parents to see it too.

She stands there some moments in the bathroom, trying to realx. Suddenly it starts vibrating in her entrance. Her legs shut close tight again as she kneel down.

"Fuck Shawn" She mumbles over and over again. The heat in her body rising. The feeling so heavy, overtaking her. The pace of the vibration quickens. Soft moans leaving her lips as she stands up straight again, grabbing the sink tight.

He smirks down on the pink remote control as he fasten the pace more. All he wants is to be there. To see her losing control over her body.

"Shawn?" Karen says. He looks up, reducing the pace again.

"Yeah?" He mumbles.

Breathing heavily she loosens the grip. So close. Her own juice driving down along her thigs, turning herself on so much.

She wants it too end - The aching in her pussy. Wants to lift the dress, slid the panties down and just finish it on her own. But she can't. She's already too long in the bathroom. So she Wipes her wetness quick off her thights with some paper. Then head back in the living room.

Her body sweating. The heat is unbearable. Her breast rising and falling, turning him on so much.

As she breath more steady again, she grabs her phone. It wasnt nice to bring her that far and just stop the actions. He will get this back.

But he is way faster than her. He grabs the remote control - reapeating his actions. Firts starting with pretty low vibrations, making her loosen the grip of her phone.

Trying to breath as normal as possible she sinks more and more in the seat, pressing her legs tightly together. She's butter in his hand, turning him on so freaking much. He loves watching her while loosing control. Easily he fasten the pace a little more.

She sinks deeper in her seat. She knows if she sits up straight it would just hit the right spot and he knows that too.

"Baby. You know that's not good for your back. Sit straight" He says, placing his hand on her back. A devil smile set up on his lips - nodding she sits slowly up straight.

He paused the toy for some moment. A gasp leaving her mouth. Thankful that he stopped it.

"I will get the desert" Karen says and stands up.

"I will help you" Manuel says and walks with some empty plates behind her.

He starts typing on his phone. A message arriving hers.

*Open those pretty legs for daddy* He sends.

She blushes. Both like dirty talking. Shawn likes it even more. They do it often, but she always flush when he starts with it. Her clit throbbing so bad.

Listening to him she opens her legs. She loves to call him daddy. And He loves hearing that pretty little word roll over her lips.

Her legs open so wide under the table, felling how sticky her panties are.

She looks at him, seeing him typing again. Smirk at her he sends another message.

*Take your panties off. I'm sure they're soaked and daddy don't want his princess to sit in her wetness for so long*

A low whimper leaves her lips after reading this. God damn she loves when he is that smutty.

Moving a little closer to the table. So nobody sees what shes doing - She slide her panties slowly down, making them fall on the floor.

Her heart pumping so fast in excitement and adrenaline - even just Aaliyah sits there, watching at her phone.

Her heat meeting the cold air, making her gasp. His cock pressing so hard against the fabric, aching so bad. All he wants is to feel her around him.

"Everything okay Y/N?" Aaliyah says.

The sexual tensing between Shawn and Y/N is litterly sparkling.

"Yeah why shouldn't it be" She says.

"I don't know I just-" Aaliyah says.

"Honey? Could you help us for a second" Karen says from the kitchen.

Moments later Aaliyah is gone. Now they are both sitting there alone, making deep eye contact.

Shawn leans down, lifting quick her soaked black panties from the floor.

"Goddamn your so hot when your so wet. So soaked for me" He says huskily, moving close to her.

"Baby. Please I cant take it anymore" She says, laying her hands around his neck. On of his weakness. Her cheeks flushed in a deep red. The heat in her body so high.

"Can daddy touch you?" He asks, moving his hand up her inner thight.

"Please" She whimpers, throwing her head back and moving her hips closer to him. Herself dripping down her innerthigts. She needs him. Now. The same as he needs her now. Both so needy.

He hasn't moved his hand. So she decided to move hers, stroking over his clothed hard bulge.

"Baby please touch me" She whispers, stroking him. He groans in response.

Her self dripping so bad that her juice is now also on the chair, still realising. Her entrance swollen and so wet.

"Fuck that's so hot baby" He says as he spot the wetness covering slowly the chair, his cock pulsating in his pants.

"Baby please do something against it. Please touch me" She whispers. Damn how much he loves hearing her beg. Beg for him.

"We will go. I need to fuck you" He says. His cock aching in his pants. The blood rushing in his dick, making it even harder.

She squeezes his cock, making him groan deep. The most beautiful melody in her ears.

"Everything okay, there?" Karen asks.

"Actually no. Y/N doesnt feel right. I think we will go" Shawn says.

"Actually no. Y/N doesnt feel right. I think we will go" Shawn says. He wants to leave. So bad the desire aching in his pants.

"What? What's up" Karen says worrying, walking to them. She spots Y/N, looking even more worried. "Oh my. honey your cheeks are so hot" Karen's says and lays a hand gently on her cheek.

"Yeah. I don't feel so well" She lies, wanting to leave too.

"Mum. We will go. I think she should rest a little" Shawn says. One hand on her cheek, caressing her gently. The other covering his step as good as possible, giving himself some little strokes, to tilt the pain a little, which is the tight jeans giving him.

"You can stay. She could rest in your room. You both can sleep over. Shawn we haven't seen you for so long" Karen says, giving her best to make them stay.

And she's right. Since Shawn is super busy with his tour there's not much time for him and his family, but there's a problem, throbbing so bad in his pants. Each moment aching more and more. The pants are way to tight right now. He closes his eyes for a second, thinking about to take her here, but he exactly knows that he cant keep quiet. That's not possible. Neither she can and he loves her for that.

Im waiting for Shawn. He is still working on his third album. Since two weeks now. He comes home very late and that makes me sad and a little frustrated. Im very alone and I miss his near. I laid on the couch and played some music. To let the time go faster over. Suddenly I can hear some keys in the door. Shawn. "Hey babe" He says and walks toward me. "Hi Babe" I say. "You know what? Im finally done. My album is finished" he says and throws his self next to me on the couch. "Wow thats great. We should celebrate that" I say and stand up. I got us two glasses and a bottle of wine.

"Damn" Shawn says. "What? dont you want wine?" I ask. "Of course I want. Im just enjoying the view" He says and looks over me, making me blush. Im in my panties and got a tight shirt on with no bra under it. I got back on the couch and covered my now hard nipple with my hair. I think Shawn noticed that, because he starts smirking. We start drinking a little. After a few glasses we both got a little drunk. "Babe should we go into the bedroom?" Shawn whispers. "Lets stay here" I said. "You're sure?" He whispers and came closer to me. I couldn't say nothing. He starts kissing my neck. "Damn Shawn" I moan. His hands start to stroke my waist, causing me to moan again. I love when he is doing this, but I wont let him do it easy. He leaves me every night alone for two weeks and now he thinks he starts to kiss my neck and I would jump with him into the bed. Thats not working like that Mendes.

"Okay babe lets go into our bedroom" I say. The same moment this words left my lips Shawn carried me in our bedroom. He is so strong. Ive got my both legs around his torso. We arrived in the bedroom and he throws me on bed, again he start to attack my neck with his lips. "Damn Shawn" I moan again. He found my sweet spot and start sucking on it, causing me to scream his name. I can feel myself getting more and more wet in my panties. I want him so bad right now, but I need to stay strong. He took his shirt off. After that he start kissing me. He slides his tongue in my mouth and start playing with mine. Then He grabs the fabric of my shirt and takes it off.

"Stop" I say. I've got somethimg for you. Give me one second" I said and stood up. I grab something and got quickly in the bathroom. I changed my clothes. I wear black leader underwear. We were in the mall once and he told me that this is really hot. So I got in the mall and bought it. I put it quickly on and got back to him.

"Damn" He growls with his dark voice and stood up. He walks toward me and press his lips on mine. He grap my ass with his big hands and lead me to the bed again. I start to unbutton his pants. He took them off and we both got back on the bed. He pressed his hard length against my wet panties, causing me to moan. I got with my hands down on his body and stopped at the fabric of the boxers. Shawn starts breathing heavily. So I do. I go more down on his dick between my legs and start stroking over it trough his boxers with my hand, causing him to moan. "Baby I want to ride you" I whisper. He nods and we both turn our position. I want to tease him. I grap his wrists and placed them behind his back while kissing him. I grap the cuffs and cuff them behind his back. "Common baby please" He begs. I opened my bra and start kissing his neck. I pressed my naked boobs against his chest while sucking on his neck.

"Ohhh Y/N" He groans. "Pl- please let me touch your boobs" He whimpers. I got down with my hand on his body and stopped on his hard dick. I looked at Shawn and he closed his eyes. I got a little bit back and took his boxers off. To touch his naked dick. Shawn starts breathing heavier and heavier. I can see his stomach and chest going up and down. I throw his boxers on the floor and mine panties too. He still has his eyes closed and his mouth wide open. I start strokeing up with my hand. I start from his knee and then make my way up, between his legs. His head start moving from one side to the other, waiting for my hand to finally touch his hard length. I stopped my hand near his dick. I got with my finger up beside his vein on his dick, causing him to moan. I got to his tip and then I wrapped my hand around him. Shawn start moaning louder and lounder. I love when I have the control over him. I start moving my hand up and down on his hard dick. I got Shawn breathless. Doing this makes me more wet. I can feel my juice comming out a little on the bed. I fastened the pace of my my hand and tightened my grip around him. Shawn starts moaning louder and louder. I think he is pretty close now. I stopped my hand and pulled it away from his dick.

"I cant any longer... Babe please finish it" Shawn whimpers. "Yes baby you can.. common for me just a little bit longer" I say and stroke with my hand from his chest down to his body and stood up from his lap. He is sweating a lot I can see how much he is fighting with himself to not cum. His length is dark red and start twitching. A little bit of his juice is escaping. drop for drop. I waited a little for him that he can cool down a bit. His mouth is still wide open and his head leaning against the wall. A few moments later he cooled a little down. I can see how weak his whole body is. Shawn is still sweating. I came back to him and stroke with my hands on his neck "You are a good boy" I whispered and hovered over his lengh with my entrance. I can feel myself dropping on his dick. He moved his lips but he couldn't say anything so weak is he. I leaned with my boobs against his chest and uncuff his hands. The same moment his hands are free he graps my hips and rush me down on his dick, causing me to scream. I got up again, leaving his dick and got down but this time slowly. I start bouncing on Shawns lap, extra slow to tease him a little more, but I think I tease myself too. "Thats enough" I said, because I want it too. "Baby Im gonna make you cum" I whisper in his ear and start to bounce faster.

"Damn your so big" I whisper, causing him to moan. I feel the heat coming up in my whole body. My thrusts got more and more sloppy. Shawn Noticed that and grabbed my butt and supported my thrusts. I get a moaning mess togehter with him. I can feel my orgasm coming up. Firts in my stomach. My body start shaking. "Ahh" Shawn Moaned and I can feel his warm cum filling up I me. Seconds After him I came too. The orgasm hits my whole body. I stopped bounce and released myself on Shawns lap. I start clenching around Shawn dick, makeing him moan even more. Because I tightened my entrance.